The Queen of Romance: A Summer of Sweet Classics

Chapter 287

In the winter before meeting Qin Lian, Su Zi was not yet married, and Su Qi's plans for the Southern Dynasty were only verbal, while I was in the fear of everyone in the imperial hospital, just like the imperial physician when I was born more than ten years ago. No more coughing as predicted.

According to the imperial doctor, I only need to take good care of myself in the next two years, and then I can live a happy and healthy life.Although everyone knows that longevity and well-being is a cliché like wishing His Royal Highness a thousand years and a thousand years, but this cliché is in my head, who has always used medicine as drinking water and is used to tossing around the hospital, but it is still 15 years old. For the first time in years.So when the highly respected Tai Hospital mentioned that Mr. Tang uttered these four words tremblingly, even Su Qi, who had always been careless, sat up a little and smiled a little.

Father is very happy, Su Qi is very happy, and I am also very happy.When I was in a good mood, I became interested in learning something that I had never studied before.For example, I started to try to grow flowers and grass in the small courtyard where I recuperated from illness in previous years.

I first ordered people to dig a pond and plant lotus flowers.Later, when Su Zi came to visit, she looked at the dogtail grass growing in the corner of the wall, pursed her lips and smiled slightly: "Why don't you plant something here too? It would be good to plant some roses."

I listened to her advice and planted roses.I called Su Qi and asked him to dig the soil, and I would sow the seeds, and then asked him to bury the soil, and then I ordered the servant to bring the bucket.

Then I asked Su Qi to water him again, this time he finally got angry.Said: "Why don't you come by yourself?"

I lightly said: "I can come too." After that, I went to get the ladle, holding my chest while taking it, making a weak appearance.

Su Qi stretched out his dirty white boots to block in front of me, and looked at me speechlessly for a long time: "... Forget it. If you really do something good or bad, I can't bear the responsibility."

When the rose sprouted its first green buds, Su Zi visited my small courtyard more and more times, and each time she was clearly dressed up carefully.However, the time to chat with me is not long every time, and I have to leave after just sitting for a while.I think it is not too close from the palace to me, and although Su Zi is as close as a sister, she has always been as lazy as me, and now she is so hardworking and stays for such a short time, even a person who is more stupid than her I feel bad for her.Later, I finally noticed some clues, looked at Ah Ji, and said with certainty: "Su Zi must have come out of the palace to meet other people in the name of seeing me."

Ah Ji nodded and said, "Then I'll go and have a look."

She came back within a cup of tea and reported: "It is true that the Eldest Princess did not go back to the palace directly, but abducted her to meet a young prince."

The water in my mouth almost leaked out: "Su Zi fell in love with a man?"

Ah Ji didn't answer, and continued: "The mansion is just one street away."

I thought about it, and got a little excited: "Then you go and find out which family it is. People here are either rich or noble, and most of them can match each other. If my sister likes it, why don't you just tell my father to propose marriage?"

Ah Ji let out a "hmm" and stopped where he was, refusing to leave.I looked at her strangely: "What's wrong?"

She said: "That young man is very good-looking."

"Isn't that a good thing?"

"The problem is," Ah Ji said slowly, "that young master is too good-looking."

I can't imagine what kind of appearance a young man who is too good-looking will have.Before that, I had been denying on the surface but reluctantly admitting in my heart that Su Qi was the only man I met who was too good-looking, not tied.Those men other than him can only be considered good-looking.However, when I asked Ah Ji whether Su Qi or that young master was prettier, she frowned and thought about it for a long time, and finally told me in embarrassment that they were both prettier.

I can't imagine what a man who is as handsome as Su Qi but looks different would look like.I scratched my head and wanted to see it with my own eyes, but the imperial physicians cautiously entrusted me not to go out.Although my small sanatorium occupies a small area, the guards are quite strict.Because I escaped too many times when I was a child, and I didn't know how to innovate, the guards already knew all the escape methods I could imagine, and then blocked them one by one. Unless I develop a new idea, no matter it is The sky and the ground are still the dog's hole at the back door, and I can't escape.

I thought about it for three days and three nights, and after I was rejected one by one by Aji, I finally came up with a new method.

I started asking my father to learn how to make human skin masks in advance.

The Su royal family has always been somewhat mysterious to the outside world.Some people say that the ancestors of the royal family once left behind an incomparably luxurious wealth, which was hidden in a corner of the mountain; It is said that the princesses of Su have the ability to bring people back to life.

I know these are not true.If you want to say that it is mysterious, you can only say that the exquisitely made human skin mask is the only special feature compared with other royal families.

Just like casting swords is divided into high-grade, medium-low, and human-skin masks are also divided into good and bad.The human skin masks made in other places in this world can indeed imitate their faces vividly, but no matter how exquisite they are, they still cannot be compared with the ones made by the royal family of Su.The masks made by the royal family are extremely similar to each other. It is really easy to fake them just from the appearance. No matter if you observe carefully or touch them with your hands, you will not notice any traces.There is a secret legend circulating in the history of the Su Kingdom. Before his death, Emperor Wanxuan was worried that the princes would kill each other for power. He once asked a trusted guard to wear a human skin mask to disguise himself until the other forces other than the internal candidate were cut off. Just announced his death.

However, this work is only available to and must be learned by the princesses of the Su emperors.According to legend, the reason for the establishment of this rule is that Emperor Wanxuan loved Mrs. Huiguo who could make human skin masks in his later years, and this skill helped him a lot before his death. From then on, the princesses of the Su Kingdom were forced and innocent into this inexplicable and irreparable situation.

I believe that Fengyu dance, together with the production of human leather masks, is the enemy that every princess of the Su royal family will gnash their teeth.These two skills take up a lot of time and effort, but they are of little use to me.The former is well-known but rare, requiring princesses to learn it before Jiji; the latter is completely secret, requiring princesses to master it after Jiji.

When I wanted to see that young gentleman who was said to be too good-looking, I was at an embarrassing age that I hadn't yet reached my age and was about to reach my age.I was so anxious that I wanted to go back to the palace and make this request to my father.However, God has never been considerate of my wishes. At that time, my father was leaving the palace to worship the ancestors, and it would take seven days to return.

The only one in the palace who can take care of things is Su Qi, who supervises the country.I hesitated for a moment, and finally asked him.

Su Qi looked at me as if he was seeing a ghost possessing his body, he held his chin and said, "Tell me a reason first."

I said: "There is no reason."

He replied unhurriedly: "Then don't ask me to approve."

I tried to trick him with the aggressive decree: "That's not it. It must be that you don't have the right and dare not approve it."

Su Qi smiled slightly, shook the folding fan "swipe", and leisurely leaned on the crown prince's seat: "Then I don't have the right, you go back and wait slowly for the emperor to come back."

I immediately stepped forward and hugged his arm: "Brother, I was wrong..."

He said "hmm": "Then give me your apology and request memorial tomorrow. If you write it sincerely, I will agree. If it is hasty..."

I said worryingly: "You know that I am not good at writing..."

He lazily said: "I just know that you are not good at writing."

"..."

However, Su Qi finally agreed to my request, without me writing a single word - I just pretended to be so angry that my cough relapsed, and invited the imperial doctor into my small courtyard like a stream of water.At that time, while I was holding my breath and pretending to be in pain, I concluded in my heart that I never thought that Su Qijian would be much easier to deal with than my father, Emperor Linzhen. he.

At the beginning of April, when the first rose flower in the corner of the wall bloomed, I studied the tricks of the mask as taught in the book, and at the same time asked Ah Ji to draw the specific appearance of the young man.However, Ah Ji's painting skills are really worse than mine. If it was the way she painted, I could find no less than a hundred of them in a radius of ten miles.

In mid-April, when the roses in the corner were in full bloom, I finally made the first human skin mask according to the description in the book.Although I am not very skilled, and the skin of the mask is a little rough, I can't really wear it out, but I am still happy that I have taken a big step closer to escaping successfully.

In mid-May, when the flowers in the corner of the wall attracted numerous bees and butterflies, I finally managed to make a human skin mask that could fish in troubled waters like a maid.

The next morning, I let Ah Ji knock the maid unconscious, and I couldn't wait to put on the mask, and A Ji led me out of the small courtyard. I had no time to pay attention to him, and went straight to the ordinary-looking building outside the street. But there are even modest houses.

The sun was lively and bright that day, and the front door of the house was neat and clean, but no one was guarding it, and even the door was open.

I stepped in recklessly, and a man not far away heard the movement, raised his head, and slowly put down the scroll.

That was the first time I saw Qin Lian.

The first time I saw him, I just felt that no amount of painters in this world could draw his three-point charm.

I can't forget what Qin Lian looked like that day.I broke into his courtyard like an uninvited guest, he got up from the reclining chair, dressed in light casual clothes, with a fish-white belt, clasped his hands in the sleeves of his large robe, and looked at me carefully.

After a while, the corners of his lips curled slightly, pointed to his neck, and said with a smile: "Little girl, who stuck your human skin mask? It's not glued here."

"..."

I was immediately embarrassed, and the blush on my face quickly rushed from my forehead to the roots of my ears under the mask.Seeing that he had no intention of avoiding suspicion at all, he could only turn around pretending to be calm, bared his teeth and pressed his neck hard, and tried to cover it with his collar.However, the clothes of Su women always have a low neckline. Even if I tried many times, I still failed in the end.In the end, he had no choice but to take out a translucent veil from his bosom, hastily covered his face, tied a knot under his thick hair, and finally turned around.

Unexpectedly, this time Qin Lian looked at me even more amusingly, and continued to expose me mercilessly: "Su country is open, and women go out like men. I don't know why girls don't want to show their true colors, but they don't know that the way they are now is worse than before. Just a little more noticeable."

I cleared my throat and said, "I'm an ugly monster. I dare not scare people."

"Oh?" He looked pretty even with raised eyebrows, and the smile on the corners of his lips was as light as clear water, but he looked very refreshing, and said, "People who say they are ugly are usually not very ugly."

I looked at him seriously: "I'm really ugly."

He still had a smile on his lips, nodded and didn't want to pursue further, just asked: "That's all right. Who are you? Why did you find this place?"

I opened my eyes and said nonsense: "I'm lost."

"Then where is your home?"

I took it for granted: "I said I got lost. Do you know that you can get lost on the way home?"

He looked at me, the corners of his mouth twitched, he was probably surprised by my shamelessness, so he had to close his eyes, and then squeezed his forehead and said: "Little girl, lying is not a good behavior."

I thought about it, and said with certainty: "I heard that you often had a very beautiful sister visit you two days ago."

He watched me carefully, and then answered me with a firm, "No."

"There must be. You're lying."

Without changing his expression, he put away the half-unfolded picture of a horse on the recliner, and said, "You lied first, we're even."

"..."

I didn't expect him to reach the same shameless level as me, and he opened his mouth and couldn't speak for a while.He glanced at me and asked again: "You didn't tell me just now, what is your name?"

I thought about it, and thought that although I liked him the first time I saw him, I also felt that I shouldn't simply tell him his real name for the first time.After meditating like this for a while, he touched the sachet of Yutuo flowers pinned to his clothes, and said casually, "Yutuo."

He raised his eyebrows again: "Yutuo?"

"Yes. Yutuo of Yutuohua."

He smiled, his eyes clearly disbelieving: "Is your surname Yu? This surname doesn't seem to be common in Su."

"It's not common and it's not uncommon." I was so thick-skinned that I was surprised, and then I continued to ask him thick-skinned, "Brother, what's your name?"

He was slightly surprised and raised his eyes: "You don't know my name?"

I said, "Why do we need to know your name?"

"You dare to barge into my house without knowing my name?" He propped his chin with one hand, and gave a half-smile, "You two are really bold."

I still didn't change my face: "Then what's your name?"

He smiled again: "You can call me Hewen."

In Su State, the He surname is even less common than the Yu surname. I glanced at him suspiciously: "Is your surname He? He Miao's He?"

He said as boldly as I did: "Yes."

"..."

Even if [-]% of it is a pseudonym, I still feel that the name He Wen is quite unsuitable for him.In my mind, a man should be like him, introverted, calm, and careless, but this name is so thin that it cannot bear such a romantic character.

My first meeting with Mr. He did not last long.Before the corner of my clothes even touched the stone bench, Ah Ji secretly urged me to go back.And I looked back at Qin Lian, he was holding the teacup loosely with his five fingers, and he was carelessly covering up a yawn.

Obviously I didn't want to stay.

At any rate, I still cared about the dignity of the princess, so I had no choice but to give up the idea of ​​continuing to rub my cheeks and go back with Ah Ji.I stopped before taking the last step, thought for a while, turned around, and asked him, "Are you home every day?"

He smiled slightly: "Not necessarily."

"What about tomorrow?"

"maybe."

"Then... are you a human or a ghost?"

He looked at me meaningfully, then at the disc-sized sun in the sky, and said slowly, "What do you think?"

I was out of my mind all the way back. In fact, I think any girl should be a little out of her mind when she sees such a man.I asked Ah Ji: "What do you think his real name should be?"

Ajimo didn't answer.

I said again: "Why didn't he tell the truth? What do you think he should have hidden secrets?"

Aji continued to remain silent.

When I was about to ask her the third question, Ah Ji suddenly stopped and said in a low voice: "Second princess, the eldest princess is here."

When I looked up, I saw Su Zi sitting in the middle of the main hall, drinking a sip of scented tea with her eyes down.

I stopped with Ah Ji, my body stiffened, unable to move.

Su Zi didn't raise her eyes, she just said flatly, "Ah Ji, go and get ten sticks of punishment. Su Xi, come to me after taking off your mask, I have something to say."

I grabbed Ah Ji by the corner of his clothes: "No punishment!"

Su Zi raised her head, her gaze sharpened sharply: "I knew that you learned this skill to run out, and you forgot what the first page of the instruction book said! This is the secret of the royal family, so let you So ostentatious! Next time I do this again, I will let them pick off their heads, believe it or not? Ah Ji, what are you still doing there, you are not going to receive the punishment!"

Ah Ji finally backed out with her head down, and I stood where I was. Su Zi came over with a silk scarf soaked in the solution, and wiped my face carefully with a cold face. Change a silk towel soaked in wine, and wipe my face again, and when it is dry, change a soft cotton cloth soaked in water, and wipe my face again.

This time, when it was dry, the mask finally lifted a corner slightly.With my eyes closed, I felt her fingers gently rubbing every place, and then slowly tore off the mask from bottom to top.

I opened my eyes, Su Zi was already sitting in the cushioned chair next to her, her face was still cold.She held the teacup in her hand again, took a sip, and asked lightly, "Where have you been?"

I didn't lie any more, and told her directly: "I went to Front Street and saw the man you've been seeing the past few days."

Su Zi's hand trembled, and the teacup almost fell out of her hand.

She frowned and looked up at me, and I also looked up at her. After a while, she said, "Su Xi, I'm not going there like you think."

"What would I want to be?"

"You just think I like him." I didn't expect Su Zi to say this without blinking her eyes, and she continued, "I do like him, but that was before."

I faintly felt something was wrong: "Why?"

She said calmly: "Because there is no future. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain."

I still have those three words: "Why?"

Su Zi cut the human skin mask into pieces bit by bit, and said slowly: "Since you have been there, you can see that he hides a lot when he speaks. Such a person claims to have no fame and money, but he can talk If he is top-notch in appearance and appearance, then he is either really rich and famous, and has no desire to earn fame and money, or because of some purpose, he hides here and actually has fame and wealth, but he is not in the same pool as us. "

"How did you know that he is not in the same pool as us?"

Su Zi smiled: "None of Su Qi and his father's cronies are like this. Besides these people, who else in this world do you think can be as good as us?"

I was about to refute that maybe he hadn't been discovered by his father, Su Qi, Su Zi said first: "In short, I won't go there again, and you can't go out again, let alone go there."

"I can't do anything..."

Su Zi looked at me carefully, and said after a while: "I also thought that I couldn't do anything, and I even swore that I would never fall in love with him."

Before Su Zi returned to the palace in the afternoon, Su Qi visited the courtyard again.When Su Zi saw Su Qi, the first thing she said was to ask him to add five more guards around the small courtyard. Before she could tell the reason, Su Qi held the ivory fan and shook it gracefully, and asked with a smile without thinking. : "Su Xi, did you run out to play? Are you still wearing that mask?"

"Obviously Su Zi is the same..." Before I could say what I found a beautiful man, Su Zi, who was holding a chess piece, suddenly coughed heavily, I opened my mouth, and had to swallow the words aggrieved go back.

Su Qi squinted at the two of us, and said, "You two have something to hide from me. Tell me and I'll listen."

Su Zi said: "Tell me about the recent grievances between Su and Nanchao first."

Su Qi just smiled casually: "There are small fights every month, so there is nothing to say. It is nothing more than the fact that the Southern Dynasty sent an envoy who was arrogant and ignorant. He spoke provocatively and did not know how to restrain himself. We detained him. The Southern Dynasty sent people to negotiate, and if we didn’t let them go, they came to rob the prison. Some of our soldiers were too skilled in martial arts, so they confiscated the knife for a while, and accidentally poked a hole in the envoy’s chest. He was seriously injured and died in the prison. Just angry."

Su Zi gathered her sleeves with her fingers, and said: "You are just one version, why do I hear another version? It is said that the Southern Dynasty did not actually rob prisons, but the people you arranged. To vent your anger in order to kill the envoy of the other party?"

Su Qi said without blinking his eyes: "How can you talk like that, am I the kind of person who kills innocent people indiscriminately? Last month Su State defeated Sheng State, and the Southern Dynasty took advantage of the fire and took away two towns. I didn't say anything , I will kill a mere envoy for a few thoughtless words? A joke."

Su Zi said: "It's enough for you to put on such a righteous expression in front of others, and stop talking about loyalty, filial piety and righteousness in front of me and Su Xi. In the end, there are only two kinds of people who have anything to do with politics, one kind of hypocrite , a kind of real villain. And you Su Qi, you are a hypocrite in front of a hypocrite, and a real villain in front of a real villain. As for why many people choose to trust you even though you are full of evil, it is just because you pretend It's better than everyone else."

Su Qi folded his folding fan and said with a smile: "You are right or wrong. How can people who have nothing to do with politics be clean? Those who are full of benevolence, justice, shame and concern for the country and the people are not two ears. A useless scholar who doesn't know what's going on outside the window and doesn't know about Chai Migui's death is a poor ghost who can't be a high-ranking official for a lifetime or will die immediately after becoming a high-ranking official. Anyone who has anything to do with power has to be a little hypocritical, and the more powerful you are, the more you have to be. Hypocrisy. And they still choose to trust me knowing that I am not omnipotent, mostly because I can admit my hypocrisy and still retain a little superficial sympathy. So I am a real villain in front of hypocrites. You are a hypocrite in front of the villain, that's what you should say."

Su Zi said: "I don't care if you are a villain or a hypocrite, just think about how the Su country would spread rumors that are not good for the country, it is a serious matter."

Su Qidao: "The Southern Dynasties sent to the capital city to have dozens if not dozens of espionage workers. It is their duty to spread a little rumor. It will be disbanded automatically after two days. It's no big deal."

"It's no big deal in your mouth."

Su Qi spread his hands, and said: "Otherwise, what else can you ask me to say? I am the prince of a country, and you still want me to destroy my prestige? This is nothing more than mosquito bites, don't you want me to make a drastic move?" cut it over?"

I have always heard these political matters with one ear and out the other, and Su Qi and Su Zi also tacitly ignored me in the relevant debates.I lay lazily on the stone table, and it suddenly occurred to me that not only did I get nothing this morning, but I had more questions in frustration.In the past, I just wanted to know what he would look like, but after I came back today, I even wanted to know clearly where he came from, where he went to his family, how many mu of land per person, and how many cows in the field.

Fortunately, this depression did not last long, and I sneaked out again on the third day.This time I changed to a more secure method. First, let the maid from before stay in the inner room pretending to be me, and let Ah Ji guard her, while I pretended to be the maid and wore a loose skirt on the jacket. After going out in the humble coarse linen clothes, he went straight to the small courtyard where the man who called himself He Wen lived.

This time, when I put my hand on the door frame of his gate, he was looking at an unknown picture; when I tiptoed over the threshold, he had already rolled up the picture and put it back in his sleeve, and his eyes fell on me, staring at it for a while, The corners of the mouth gradually curved.

He clasped his hands idlely, with a faint smile, as if there was nothing there: "Are you lost again?"

I cleared my throat, looked at the inkstone paper on the stone table, and said, "Are you drawing? What are you going to draw? Can you draw one for me?"

This time he was finally willing to ask me to sit down on the stone bench beside him, so that I could carefully trace his face with my eyes, and then I heard him say slowly: "I can draw, do you want me to draw?" what?"

I came back to my senses, pointed to myself, and said seriously: "Can you draw me?"

He paused for a moment with his fingers pinching the ear of the cup, and then said slowly: "But your face is not yours now. The one I drew is not you either."

I said confidently: "Don't people say that a good painting can capture people's inner temperament through appearance? Can't you do it?"

He actually thought about it seriously, then smiled and said: "What you said is also reasonable, then I will try my best. But I have to get paid for painting."

I lowered my head to look for the money bag, but unexpectedly he quickly threw another sentence: "Little girl, I am not short of money, so I don't accept money. I only accept other things."

Ever since I was a child, I have heard many horror stories from Su Qi that he intentionally used to scare me, either raising Gu with people, demanding his life with money, or exchanging his legs for food, and even gambling with his life, so I was immediately vigilant Looking at him anxiously: "What do you charge?"

He looked at me amusedly: "It depends on you. If you have any special skills that make me feel good, I will make this painting. If you don't, then I'm sorry." He said nothing Idlely picked up the teacup, took a sip, and added, "Although I am poor, the paintings I draw are still very valuable. So I am still at a loss, so it must be your unique skill. "

"..."

I knew that he would not be poor, poor people would not have his elegant elegance, and would not stay in the courtyard all day long without doing anything.What's more, although he is wearing ordinary clothes, he is still dressed in brocade clothes. The jade ring around his waist is delicate and warm. If I were a layman, I would naturally think it was just an ordinary piece of high-quality jade. Unfortunately, I am not a layman. It can be seen that the jade ring is worth a lot.

However, at that time, I didn't think these doubts could be called doubts. All I thought was that I liked seeing his smile very much.So even though I knew he was talking nonsense, I still thought about it carefully and carefully, and finally, I agreed to his request.

In retrospect, probably from then on, I began to sink into the quagmire.

Qin Lian is a glass of poisoned wine, colorless, odorless and light as water.It was Su Zi who retreated despite difficulties, and it was me who drank poison to quench thirst.

I danced the phoenix dance unique to the Su royal family.This dance is very privileged, only the so-called nobles can learn it, and it takes more than eight years to learn it.This dance is also very special. Few people have seen it, and even fewer people know that it is a unique dance of the Su royal family.Before that, I only skipped it once, and it was for Su Zi, who is the master, to watch.

Fengque Dance is a very difficult dance. It looks beautiful, but it is quite boring to learn.The long water sleeves are wrapped in the wind, and the fine bells are struck directly on the jade as if they are spiritual, which can make the sound of the clear spirit linger around the beam for three days; Bend, the balance of the body is like being bound on a dangerous spider thread.

When I was forced to learn it, I was reluctant in every possible way, and I just felt that I was suffering.However, when I danced to him, I felt that everything I had endured was worth it.

Towards the end, I peeked over from behind the sleeves of Fumian, and saw that his coat was uniform sky blue, embroidered with a few patterns and trimmings, the moon white was the belt, the rhinoceros jade was the ring, and his chin was half-supported, Leaning lazily on the stone table, his fingers flicked on the blade of the sword, clanking.

There are fiery red cannas in full bloom in the corner of the wall, which are delicate and proud, but the corners of his eyes are slender, the corners of his mouth are smiling, and his light fur coat is ten times more beautiful than those colors.

When I finished the song, he applauded lightly twice, nodded with a smile: "Thank you for your dance. Please come to pick up the painting after tomorrow."

I bit my lip, slowly moved to his side, sat down at a place not far from him, and said with pursed lips, "Can't you draw now?"

But he rejected me very politely: "I don't like to be watched when I paint."

"..."

In the next month or so, Su Qi and Su Zi didn't visit my small courtyard much.It is said that some troubles have occurred on the border of Su State, and there are inexplicable rumors in the capital, and there are small countries who come to marry each other, etc., so the courtiers in the court circle around the father and Su Qi every day, ordering one after another. All of Su Qi's energy was taken away, leaving him no time to go to the fan shop to look for folding fans, and he also couldn't spare an hour and a half to spend the round trip from the palace to my small courtyard.

Su Zi also became very busy.She has reached the age of marriage, and her father suddenly expressed his intention to find a husband and son-in-law for her a few days ago. The next day, noble sons from various prefectures began to hear the news, wearing all kinds of luxurious clothes, imitating Su Qi holding a Holding the folding fan, he used all kinds of excuses to invite Su Zi to go out and listen to music and appreciate fashionable songs, and the invitation almost softened Su Zi's wrist.

If the two of them don't come, I will be the only one in this small courtyard.Wearing a human skin mask, I swaggered to the gate, as long as I showed them the princess token, the guards would obediently put their swords and halberds aside and watch me leave.

But thinking about it later, the number of times I went to see Qin Lian at that time was actually not too many.Although I really want to go there once a day, Ah Ji will always stop me with a blank face. When I am really disobedient, she will blush without heartbeat and secretly add tranquilizing medicine to my breakfast, forcing me to sleep Just the whole day.

What's more, Qin Lian is often not at home.I've been there five times, and he's not there twice.For example, when I went to pick up the paintings one day later as he said, his door was always closed, and no one answered no matter how I knocked on the door.

I was unwilling to go back like this, and because I was worried about getting lost and had nowhere to go, I had to sit at his gate and wait.I held my chin to watch the ants move, and picked up small stones to surround them so that they had nowhere to go, but when I got bored of playing, I still didn't see Qin Lian coming back, and then I fell asleep on my arm.

I woke up again because I felt something touch my eye.I opened my eyes and saw that a thin light blue coat was draped over my body, and then I turned my head to see a person sitting half a foot away, throwing the pebbles that I had just piled up one foot away. to the root of the wall.

I pinched the corner of my coat, and it happened that he turned his head, looked at me, and smiled faintly: "Are you awake?"

I had an intuition that I should return the coat to him, but another intuition reminded me that I was very reluctant. After struggling for a long time, I pretended that it was still cold, so I wrapped the coat tighter and asked him: "When did you come back?" ?”

"Not very long."

"Then why don't you go in?"

He said, "If you sit and sleep in front of my house, it's hard for me to go in alone."

I stared at him until he asked me how long I had been waiting here so that I could answer, "At least an hour and a half, I've never waited that long before," and he said "I'm sorry", I can confidently ask him to give me some compensation, such as painting another painting, such as giving me a gift, and then I can come to see him with the gift in the name of returning the gift , so I have a reason to come to see him next time.I made a good plan, and the more I thought about it, the more I felt it was reasonable, so I waited for him to ask the first question. Unexpectedly, he stood up, went to the door and unlocked it, stepped in, stopped again, and looked back strangely. Look at me: "Do you like sitting there very much?"

"..."

I can only go in with him depressed.Then I saw him push open the door, and I was about to follow in, but he smiled slightly and calmly prevented me from entering: "I want to change clothes, please wait by the stone table."

I had no choice but to wait by the stone table, but luckily the waiting time was not long, and within the effort of a cup of tea, he had already changed into a very light dark green thin shirt, holding a scroll of paintings in his hand, and spread it on the stone table. Open, the above is a woman knocking on the fou with her sleeves, her posture is light, her face is covered with a gauze, her eyebrows and eyes are slightly curved, as if smiling, the tassel sachet around her waist is just the right color, and every knot is very well drawn. meticulous.

I looked at it for a long time, and then said for a long time: "This seal..."

"what happened?"

I lowered my head to look more carefully, and confirmed that the seal was indeed straight and round, which was quite strange, so I looked at him suspiciously: "You can't draw this seal, can you?"

He stood there with his hands in his sleeves, staring at me with some research, and after a while a smile appeared on the corners of his lips: "I actually let you see it."

I:"……"

Then he patiently added: "I don't have a seal to use my alias now, and I can't tell you my real name. The lack of a seal on the painting makes me lose my stability, so I have to draw one to make up for it."

I:"……"

I really wanted to ask him how he could be such a rogue with confidence, and then remembered that I was the one who broke into this place with a faceless face the day before yesterday and refused to leave. He said bluntly, "Actually, the painting is not very pretty."

Unexpectedly, he nodded and agreed with my words, and then said leisurely: "Who made your current face so mediocre, I don't want to paint without conscience."

I got angry immediately, and turned around angrily and made a gesture to leave the gate: "I'm leaving."

He folded his hands in the sleeves of his robe, looked at me funny, and didn't stop him: "It's easy to leave."

"..."

I bravely walked two steps under his gaze, stopped again, turned around, walked up to him, looked up at him, and said aggrievedly: "I have been waiting for you at the door for so long, I am already very hungry Come on, can't you invite me to dinner?"

After burning incense, I sat with him in the largest restaurant nearby and watched the waiter bring out the dishes plate by plate.He Wen claimed that he was full and just leaned against the window to drink tea carelessly.I picked up a small bowl to drink soup, and heard someone not far away talking loudly about the gossip about the royal family.

Su Guo has always spoken openly, and there are people like Su Qi who are too lazy to hide their privacy, so the place where people gather is the place for information exchange.At this time, I heard about Su Qi's affairs: "His Royal Highness has done many outrageous things and is very famous, but there was an incident two years ago that shocked the Empress Dowager and the Empress. Some of you must not know .”

Another asked, "What's the matter?"

"His Royal Highness redeemed a girl from a brothel in Huasefang more than a year ago. If it was just a redemption, it would be fine. He even brought her into the palace. If it was secretly brought into the palace, it would be fine. The woman is still in broad daylight. Let the sedan chair be carried in from the gate of the palace!"

"Then the Empress Dowager and the Holy Majesty are out of anger?"

"No, the next morning, a minister came up to impeach Su Qi, saying that Su Qi had no sense of being a prince, and the sage books he had read were probably ruined in the gentle village, and it was difficult to bear the foundation of his ancestors. If this continues, the general will No. As a result, His Highness said slowly, first, there is nothing wrong with redeeming the girls from the brothel and saving them from the fire and water; Women can enter the palace, and the brothel women who have redeemed themselves should also be able to enter the palace; third, as the parents and officials of the people, they should be kind and compassionate to these miserable women who have strayed into the world , try their best to help them, but in the end they sarcastically sneered in a contemptuous tone. They did not regard the covetousness of the Southern Dynasty as the most important thing, but instead dealt with weak women who have no power to restrain them. He should be relegated to a frontier county to serve as a county magistrate for two or three years, and he should wash his heart, liver, intestines and lungs with rough tea and light food before returning."

Another person interjected: "But this is obviously inconsistent with etiquette! A brothel woman is a brothel woman, her origin is there, and she appears in the palace. What will those boudoir ladies who come from noble families do?"

The man took a sip of tea, and after whetting everyone's appetite, he said with a smile: "Later, some ministers refuted it like this. But Su Qi said, if it is said that the women in the brothel are from a humble background, which does not match the nobility of the palace, then please think about it." Emperor Gao, the great ancestor of my dynasty, was originally just a servant who lived in the fields. Fortunately, with the help of a nobleman, he was able to use all the armor in his chest to conquer the current country and make my dynasty so prosperous. The Qing family keeps saying that they are making a fuss about their lives. Could it be that he was dissatisfied with Emperor Taizu Gao, and even more dissatisfied with his father, venting his anger with the metaphor of Spring and Autumn? As soon as he said this, the minister was shocked and angry while holding the wat board, and his body trembled After a while, he passed out on the spot."

I've also heard about this.Su Qi's actions were too unreasonable. Despite the strict blockade from top to bottom, some gossip still blew into my ears.It's just that I can't believe that Su Qi Neng is an infatuated type, and he would get her into the palace just to fall in love with a girl from a brothel. Sure enough, Su Qi came to see me that afternoon. When I asked him about the cause and effect, he admired each of them and kept them in my room. He picked up several pots of Yutuo flowers, and said casually: "That little fanhua was squeezed out by the oiran and was about to die. I thought she was pitiful, so I helped her redeem her body. Then I suddenly remembered that if I took her to the palace, Wang Zhilin Chen Bao and Chen Bao will definitely make use of the topic to impeach them, I think they have been displeased for a long time, it's good to get out as soon as possible. I will send Xiao Fanhua out of the palace as soon as the matter is over."

I asked him, "When will your motives be pure again?"

Su Qi straightened up, glanced at the fan I casually threw on the table, pointed at himself on the painting and clicked his tongue: "The painting doesn't look like me at all, when did I wear white clothes? The face painting is even worse, Xinjin No. [-] Wang Linzhi has such a small cherry mouth." Turning the other side, pointing at Qin Lian, he smiled at me, "Do you think I don't want to have simple motives? But if I don't make knives, I can only do it for fish. To be one person under ten thousand people, I have to have a scheming means and a heart that surpasses ten thousand people. You ask me when my motives can be pure. When the feudal town is demolished, the corrupt officials are gone, and this person is dead, my motives Maybe it can be simple once.”

When I finished drinking the soup, the people over there had already chatted from Su Qi to Su Zi, and said that there are two popular suitors in the recent stream, one is the son of the prime minister's family, the other is the nephew of Prince Lian of Fan Zhen, The gambling house has already started to place bets, and [-]% of the bets on these two people, so the odds of other gentry princes have increased to [-]:[-] or even [-]:[-].

I peeked at He Wen who was sitting across from me.He still maintained a calm attitude. Seeing me staring at him, his brows remained motionless, and he only asked with a smile, "Do you want to bet too?"

I shook my head and asked him boldly: "What kind of woman do you like?" Then I immediately explained, "Don't get me wrong, I just asked casually."

He paused with his fingers pinching the teacup, glanced over, and fixed on my face for a while, until my whole body was covered with hairs, then he suddenly smiled and said leisurely: "If it is someone who understands poetry and books, martial arts, Xiqin There is no one who doesn't like a lady who loves painting and knows how to love and is smart."

There is no lady in this world who is more literary than Su Zi, who understands poetry, martial arts, art of war, loves painting, loves love, and is smart. Once he said this, it confirmed my guess that he also likes Su Zi.

I was suddenly a little depressed, and I couldn't listen to the conversations of the people next to me, so I just ate the Furong Yulu Cake that was just served piece by piece.He Wen was very interested in listening, and he didn't even change his sitting position a few times, so that I could carefully observe his fingers resting on the edge of the table. They were slender and neat, and they were a pair of hands suitable for playing the piano and practicing sword.

After a while, the hands that are suitable for playing the piano and practicing sword moved slightly, and slowly went to fetch the Furong Yulu Cake, but failed to find it after touching it, He Wen finally regained his attention, and looked at the table in a blink of an eye. The plate of pastries was empty.

Then he looked up just in time to see me swallow the last bite of pastry down my throat.

He held the cup and looked at me, and said, "You..."

I was a little guilty, so I decided to act first, and raised my head and said, "I just want to eat a few pieces of pastries from you. You can't be so stingy, can you? If you still want to eat, you can order another plate."

"Oh? I'll tell you now, you stingy one," he looked at me lightly, and said lightly, "There's something at the corner of your mouth."

"..."

I've been trying to figure out what Wowen does.Although I have seen him painting several times, I can't confirm that he is a painter.It's like Su Qi can't confirm that he is a fan maker even though he often plays with folding fans.I tried to consider the possibility of various careers for him, and felt that a person like him who is frivolous, shameless and indifferent to everything is very suitable for politics.

However, when I asked him about his occupation in a roundabout way, he was overwhelmed by my questioning and told me that he was just the son of a wealthy businessman who came to the capital with others to do some business.But I still expressed doubts about his answer, and pointed out that there was nothing to sell in his home, but he smiled without answering, just picked up a piece of hibiscus jade cake and stuffed it into my mouth.

During that time, I occasionally had unrealistic fantasies, wishing that Qin Lian was just the son of a wealthy businessman, then I could be like those evil princesses written in the scriptures, using my power to beg my father to ask Su Qi to help me Take him as a son-in-law.Of course, this kind of thing is just thinking about it when one is alone.

However, he will specially prepare small snacks when I come, which makes me very happy.I regard this incident as the progress of the two of us getting along, so I don't care about what I think are small concealments from him, and I quickly let him change the topic easily.

Later, gradually, in my opinion, my relationship with Qin Lian got better.This is not only reflected in the little snacks, but also in the fact that he is willing to play two random pieces for me, and even occasionally plays with me. This kind of progress makes me more and more reluctant to leave, and half a month later, I heard the news that Su Zi's marriage was finalized in this kind of reluctance.

He is the son of the current prime minister personally selected by Su Zi. It is said that he is both civil and military, good-looking, gentle and polite, and he is a good candidate for a husband-in-law.Father Huang and Su Qi were also very satisfied with this, and the Ministry of Rites quickly fixed the date, which was in the spring of the second year.

The day after I heard the news, I slipped away to see Hewen again.I knocked on the door again to no avail, and this time I didn't want to wait any longer, and stepped on a pile of rotten tiles and bricks clinging to the corner of the wall.At that time, I was thankful that the walls built in this courtyard were too low, but I was also worried that he would attract thieves by doing so.Later, I finally climbed up to the top of the wall, but I didn't expect an arrow to roar through the air in the next second.

"Who!"

The voice was sharp and sinister, but I didn't have time to analyze it.He only cared about using a little bit of knack and embroidering his legs, as well as the flexible muscles and bones stretched out by walking hard these days, to avoid the sudden arrow.I tried my best, but in the end I could barely dodge it. The arrow sliced ​​off two of my hairs, and whizzed past my ears.

I was shocked and looked into the courtyard with wide-eyed eyes, only to see He Wen standing in the middle of the courtyard, holding a jade fan in his hand, arms folded, looking at me with a smile.She was dressed in a moon-white robe, slender and tall, and the fiery red roses beside her were in full bloom.

I looked at him and he looked at me, and then he spoke first: "Does this count as a branch of red apricot coming out of the wall?"

I looked at the ground, then at him, with a sad face, and said: "I can't get down."

"..."

In the end, he said "Excuse me" gently, and grabbed my waist and picked my red apricot off the wall.

When my feet touched the ground, I suddenly remembered that "Who" just now had a thick voice and a ruthless tone, no matter in any respect, it was not like the person in front of me when he was talking to me.Then he raised his head and asked, "Did I disturb you? Was there someone else here just now?"

He smiled slightly and said, "No."

Thinking about it, I was really too young at that time, and I thought it was what he said.When he said no, I thought it was true, and even gave the black shadow an excuse for the tree shadow to dance around.And He Wen hugged me off the wall, which means that the relationship between me and him has finally entered a new stage.Before that, I couldn't even touch the hem of his clothes, but this time I finally reached his sleeves, and I refused to let go no matter what.After he took a few steps forward, he stopped, looked down at his clothes, and then looked up at me. I clenched my clothes tighter, looked at him sincerely, and said, "I'm scared, I won't pull Your legs will be weak, and once your legs are weak, you will not be able to walk.”

He smiled, and suddenly took out a chicken blood stone from his bosom. It was bright in color, cute in shape, and densely tasseled.

He deliberately dangled the stone back and forth, looked at me with dangling eyes, and finally said with a smile: "If you can take it away from me, it will belong to you."

The next moment I stretched out my hands to grab it, but he dodged lightly, still smiling: "Hey, aren't your legs weak?"

I:"……"

I spent the next half day spinning around that bloodstone.He Wen's martial arts are too good, and his brain is too clever, which caused me to fail no matter whether I attacked by force or outwitted him.I tried all the methods I could think of, but I couldn't snatch it from He Wen's hand. Finally, looking at his still relaxed appearance, I simply sniffled and lay down on the stone table and cried loudly.

I tried my best to make the crying loud, and my shoulders were still shrugging, wondering whether he would be tricked in my heart.Since Su Qi disdains this trick very much, I thought to myself that if He Wen still doesn't give in within the time of a cup of tea, then I have to change another way.But I didn't expect that his and Su Qi's ways were completely different. I only pretended to cry five times, and saw the hem of clothes appearing at my feet from the circled arms.

I raised my face, and he tapped my forehead lightly with the folding fan, spreading his palm, with a helpless expression on his face: "It's yours now."

I quickly snatched the stone over, looked up at him secretly from bottom to top, and saw that his face had changed into a mocking "I knew you were pretending to cry", thought for a while, and said, "I'll take it!" Can I exchange things with you?"

He looked at me from top to bottom, propped his chin with one hand and muttered, "It's better not to use it. To be honest, there doesn't seem to be anything on your body worth the price of that stone..."

"..."

I know I already like Hewen very much.However, every time I come back from Hewen and try to find out some clues that Hewen also likes me through my memory, I can only be disappointed every time I think about the thing that I racked my brains at his place to hold on, and think about it. But he has a little bit of expression that he wants to see my example.

When the lotus was in full bloom, I went to see Hewen again.This time he was making tea and drinking alone under the willow tree.He raised his head slightly, his mind was in a trance, I didn't dare to disturb him, so we sat down together in front of the small stone table silently.

He finally turned his head to look at me, with a slight smile on his lips: "Yutuo, I'm leaving here."

My hand on the edge of the table stops.He raised his head and looked at him, opened his mouth, but was dumb, not knowing what to say.

He poured a cup of tea and handed it to me.The hazel tea trembled with the trembling of my fingers, like the unsteady water of a lake before a thunderstorm.

His tone was gentle: "I don't think it's good to leave without saying goodbye, so I waited for you here for two days."

I said hoarsely, "When are you leaving?"

He said, "Right away."

"Why are you leaving?"

"My work is done, it's time to go back."

I said, "Can you not go?"

He said, "No."

"Then will you come back?"

He paused and said, "I don't know."

My tears almost rolled down, I quickly turned my head and covered it with my sleeves.His pleasant voice rang out again: "Yutuo, after drinking this cup of tea, let me exercise my rights."

I wiped the corners of my eyes, sobbing a little: "Don't drink."

He said: "This tea has the effect of prolonging life, clearing heart and calming the mind, and it has a sweet taste, which is very rare. Don't you want to try it?"

I was still angry: "Don't drink."

He thought for a while and said, "It has a sweet taste that you like."

"Don't drink."

"You really don't want to drink?"

I said firmly: "Really don't drink."

"That's good." He looked at me with complicated eyes for a while, sighed slightly, stood up, and said softly, "Little girl, we will meet later."

I walked back in a daze, without a drop of water for dinner, but suddenly coughed continuously before going to bed.I coughed so badly that my back arched, my voice became louder and I was out of breath, and then suddenly my chest stagnated and I vomited out a mouthful of blood.

Ah Ji was shocked, and the imperial doctor came from the palace to diagnose the pulse.Doctor Tang was carried out naked from under the quilt, and when he came to me, he didn't even fasten his belt around his waist.After cutting my right hand, he felt the pulse of my left hand. Finally, his expression suddenly changed. He got up from the stool and knelt down.

He tremblingly said: "Princess...Princess seems to have been poisoned by chronic poison."

My small courtyard was very lively that night.First, other imperial physicians filed in, then Su Qi and Su Zi were driven by Tong Chuan, and then the father, queen and queen arrived.

I was coughing so badly that I was about to pass out.Several imperial physicians took turns to check the pulse while wiping their sweat, and discussed the plan together, finally, under the urging of Su Qi and Su Zi no less than ten times with a cup of tea, they finally knelt down in unison.Put your hands on the ground, and lower your head deeply.

Before they could speak, Su Qi's face darkened.

In fact, they do not need to speak, actions are the best testimony.According to my experience from childhood to adulthood, when the imperial physicians bowed and stood up to speak, it usually meant that my illness would be healed soon, and it was nothing important; but if they knelt down, with their hands hanging by their sides, their backs tilted up like toads Bends usually mean that my illness will take time, but they can still be cured; and if they are kneeling, with their hands on the ground and their heads lowered, it means that my illness is a bit serious and I need a month or even a winter of rest.

However, this is the first time I have seen them lower their foreheads to such an extent that they are almost pressed against the back of their hands.

"I don't know how the princess got the chronic poison, but the poison is strong, but it can still be cured. However, the medicine brought back the princess's cough, and the princess's righteousness is weak, I'm afraid..."

Su Qi said coldly: "Go on."

"I'm afraid that in the future winter, it will be easier to get the evil of wind and cold, and the evil will accumulate in the lungs, blocking the lung qi, and the qi will not circulate..."

Su Qi threw out a teacup: "Get to the point!"

The imperial physician trembled like a sieve, and tremblingly uttered the last sentence almost incoherently: "Princess, the princess may not live past 20 years..."

Although I have been ill all my life, it never really occurred to me that I would die at the age of 20.

I thought my death was still far away.I have often thought that one cannot always be bad luck.Some people are sweet first and then bitter, and some are bitter first and then sweet. Destiny should be like a shoulder pole. Even if there are bumps in the middle, there will be a day when the good and the bad will offset.

I endured bowls of decoctions, acupuncture one by one, and painful winters year after year, not for the answer that the imperial physician said.

In other people's lives, 20 years old should be the age to reach the first apex of life.When the father was 20 years old, he imprisoned his own elder brother and took over the seal of the country of Su, which symbolizes the imperial power; when Su Qi was 20 years old, he led the army out of the fortress, and was wise and sharp in the court. He could point out a trick while talking and laughing. Tips.

Although I am not a man, I am at least a real princess.Although I don't expect to be famous all over the world at the age of 20, I also hope to at least have a place for myself.

However, looking back on the past ten years of my life, it seems that there is nothing worth showing off.The books I have read, the piano I have learned, and the sword skills I have practiced have not had time to show off to others, and I am about to leave my relatives and this world.

Being forced to count down the days of my life, I am really not reconciled.

I'm not reconciled, and neither is Su Qi.He used harsh means to seal the mouths of all the maids and servants who knew the inside story. While inviting famous doctors from the people, he declared to the public that I was poisoned and needed recuperation, and ordered a thorough investigation into the poisoning incident.

After this incident, I got to know another side of Su Qi by the way.Dare to feel that the methods he taught me like telling me stories before are not methods, they can only be regarded as tricks; but what he is doing now can be regarded as methods, and the closing of the folding fan is a real thunderbolt.

The people, animals, birds, and even flowers and plants around me were checked one by one.I lay on the bed and sniffed the lingering scent of medicine in the bedroom. To Su Qi's question, I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep without saying a word.

In fact, it's not impossible to guess that the tea that He Wen wanted to drink for me when he left was probably the antidote.

It's just that he still can't figure out why he poisoned him and how he poisoned him.And since he poisoned me, why did he let me drink that cup of tea in the end.

I couldn't figure it out, so I didn't bother to think about it anymore.Anyway, the back and forth are just my own guesses. Since I can't find the person to verify the answer, all the guesses can only add trouble to myself.

I also stopped asking about progress.If it's good news, I'm afraid everyone is scrambling to ask for credit and reward, so why is it like this.

Later, in my dormitory, the so-called famous doctors came one after another, and left one after another. Father's face became darker day by day, and Su Qi's temper became worse day by day. The oriole bird that had been cheerful all the time shrank its neck and dared not sing again.

After another month, my poisoning symptoms finally gradually improved, and my cough gradually decreased.According to the imperial doctor, although the ending at the age of 20 is unavoidable, if suppressed with medicine stones and acupuncture, at least it can ensure that I can live a little more comfortably in the next few years.

So for the next six months, I spent the so-called suppression of medicine stones and acupuncture.By the end of the year, everything related to Su Zi's wedding had been properly prepared, and my condition gradually improved. According to the doctor Tang, my condition has basically stabilized, and the medicine, stones and acupuncture can be cancelled. Just use Yutuo flower.

In the past six months, I was not allowed to walk around at will, and I was so bored that I could only read books and play the piano in the house.I spent three months practicing Guqin, which I was afraid to avoid before, and read several military books, even "Book of Changes" and "Book of Changes" in the following time.Although the latter two books of divination were obscure and difficult to understand, the principle of letting nature take its course repeatedly revealed in it made me gradually accept my fate.And later on Su Qi also comforted me, saying that a person is mortal, or it is heavier than Mount Tai, or lighter than a feather.And I must be someone who is heavier than Mount Tai.I feel ashamed when I say this, but fortunately you can say it without blushing.He put down the teacup, with a solemn face, looked at me with rare affection, and told me that I was more important than Mount Tai in his heart.

I was very moved when I heard it, so I thought that in this world, there are long-lived ways of living, and short-lived ways of living.If you look at the length of my life, then my life is undoubtedly miserable; but if you look at the breadth of my life, maybe I can still use these three years to do something for Su.

At that time, the small country next to Su State relied on the support of the Southern Dynasty, changed its original obedient attitude, and began to resist like a hard bone.The troops invested by the State of Su were like a quagmire, and the result of the confrontation at the border was that the money in the treasury decreased as quickly as the flow of food and grass.Father and Su Qi are in a state of desperation, and I can feel the tense and anxious atmosphere in the palace just by staying on the bed.

Before that, I didn't understand why Su Qi and Qin Lian kept fighting for land.Although Su Qi told me more than once, Su and Nanchao are like two wolves, and other countries are like meat on a plate. If a wolf wants to survive, it must keep peeling and eating meat; Light, when there is no other food, the wolf other than you becomes the target you have to eliminate.This is the so-called law of the jungle, you die and we die.However, I often argued with him, saying why wolves must eat meat instead of vegetarians, and then Su Qi often looked very angry and said, "Do you know what meaning is? I don't fight or fight, and I live a long life." I'm no different from a groom, so what's the use of me being the prince?"

In the past, when I was lazy from dawn to dusk, I couldn't understand the so-called meaning Su Qi said, but when I was living with my fingers, I suddenly felt blessed in my heart. The thing my father and Su Qi care about the most in this world It is this country, these two people are willing to work hard for the sake of Su Guoqian, and it has become the meaning of this life without knowing it.

As for me, I used to put aside my princess figure to curry favor with a man whose real name I didn’t even know. I subconsciously thought that was what I cared about the most and the meaning of this life, but in the end it was because he was about to lose his life. Re-drinking the decoction for several days, from this point of view, my meaning is really meaningless, this life is really meaningless and boring.

A few days later, Su Qi suddenly came to me with a small portrait, and when all the maids were sent away, he spread that portrait on the table and said four words to me.

"This person is Qin Lian, the crown prince of the Southern Dynasty, who came to the capital of Su State half a year ago."

"Su Xi, have you seen him?"

"You were poisoned by him?"

"You like him?"

I was already blank because of his first sentence, and I didn't hear any of the following words.Su Qi stared at me for a long while and couldn't speak. He never beat or scolded me since he was a child, and he only hurt me on things I never cared about. Now no matter how angry he is, he can only vent his anger on The folding fan in his hand crushed the excellent white jade fan bones into several pieces.

That crisp sound finally brought me back to my senses, and I asked Su Qi with blank eyes that could irritate people, "Is he Qin Lian? Why does he look different from the painting fan?"

After speaking, I want to despise myself.It's the same as the three become tigers, not to mention that the painter who painted the painting probably never saw the prince of the Southern Dynasty. Even if he did, a portrait was painted countless times and passed on to Su State, not asking for a good-looking appearance. It is enough to have your own five-point verve.

Su Qi and I stared at each other, he threw the broken folding fan on the table, sat down and pursed his lips, then pursed his lips again, and finally heaved a long sigh: "Su Xi, let me tell you what's good about you Woolen cloth?"

A few days later, the former court minister Yun Yu suddenly visited my palace.My impression of this person is only a loyal courtier that his father arranged for Su Qi to consolidate Su Qi's imperial power after a hundred years. They are like raccoons of the same feather, working in collusion.

This person's ability to come to me is probably inseparable from the embarrassing incident that I was dug out a few days ago.The princess of Su fell in love with the prince of the Southern Dynasty who was visiting privately in Weifu, and she was deeply impressed by his appearance and bearing. Even after swallowing the poison and dying soon, she still has no regrets and her mouth is tight. If I can swallow this kind of royal scandal, I know I am afraid that the senior officials and ministers who have inside information will also be unwilling to replace me.

Sure enough, Yun Yu saluted, and the beginning of the chapter was to quote the scriptures, from the testable originator of the demon girl in troubled times, Daji, to Li Yuanyuan in the fictional tale of a concubine in troubled countries. Kong Kong asked him politely: "Master Yun, what do you want me to do? Marriage or beauty trick?"

Yun Yu choked on the tea, and said: "Princess is the number one beauty in our country, and the prince of the Southern Dynasty has accomplished both literary and martial arts. If the two can tie the knot, it must be a great story."

I said, "So you want me to marry you?"

Yun Yu said again: "The southeast border of our country is not peaceful so far. The monarch of the Lu clan is arrogant and rude because of the support of the Southern Dynasty. Last year, on His Majesty's birthday, not only did he not offer tribute, but he sent envoys to provoke..."

I was really impatient with his pretentious tone, so I interrupted: "So you're trying to trick me?"

Yun Yu looked at me, pondered for a moment, and said, "It should be in the name of a marriage, and it's a trick of beauty."

"..."

After some nagging, Yun Yu's intention for coming was finally clear.He talked eloquently, and did not shy away from his intention to use me to the end in front of me: "As we all know, our country has never really had good relations with the Southern Dynasty. Both Your Majesty and the Crown Prince hope that we can take advantage of the diplomatic relationship with the Southern Dynasty." Take the initiative. Now that the monarchs of the Southern Dynasties are declining in health, the day of their great success may not be long. Since the princess has a lot of connections with Qin Lian, if she can marry Qin Lian, there will be three advantages."

"Firstly, if Qin Lian is photographed by the princess's appearance, if time passes, the princess will continue to love her, and she will gradually have the ability to restrain Qin Lian, making Qin Lian obsessed with beauty, gradually abolishing the government, causing uprisings to occur, and the people living in dire straits, then this will be the disaster of the Southern Dynasty. Fortunately."

"Secondly, if Qin Lian has a firm mind and is not confused, but the princess secretly uses the eldest prince Qin Xu as a troublemaker, and then steals the secrets of the Southern Dynasty, and finally kills Qin Lian, helps Qin Xu, and divides the inner court, causing chaos to arise. Having no time to covet other small countries is also a disaster for the Southern Dynasty and a blessing for our country."

"Thirdly, if all the princesses and above are defeated, Qin Lian will kill the princess to calm the hearts of the people. This is the next policy, but there is also a solution. His Royal Highness will definitely send an envoy to the Southern Dynasty before the incident happens, and must force the Southern Dynasty to settle down. Make an appointment with a gentleman." Yun Yu paused at this point, then continued after observing my words and expressions, "In case something happens to Dong Chuang, please take all the blame on yourself, and feel sorry for Qin Lian's opponent in Su State today. The despicable things you have done, when the time comes, my country of Su will send troops to the south to seek justice for you, the princess who died for the country."

I was silent for a while after listening, and said: "I don't understand the third one."

Yun Yu leaned down and made a deep salute: "The princess is smart and smart, she is proficient in all kinds of piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and she is beautiful and beautiful. She is known as the most beautiful woman in Su, so the situation will definitely not worsen to the third level." .”

I said, "You mean, if I get to the third point, I just need to do what you say, and I don't need to know about other things? Are you planning to make me die without knowing why?"

Yun Yu's words did not match the preface and the afterword: "I heard that when the princess was born, the sky was full of sunshine, and the destiny master calculated for the princess..."

I waved my hand: "Don't say that I am a lucky man with a natural appearance. Let me ask you, you come to tell me these head-losing things, does the emperor know?"

Yun Yu bent down deeply and said, "Your Majesty doesn't know yet."

"Really?"

"Yes."

I looked at him with my chin propped up, as if I saw my father behind him.The weak crown came to the throne, with unique and far-reaching vision, and decisive and fierce methods. He has been in power for more than [-] years. He has produced many capable officials and clear officials. People say that he is a good emperor.

This time the silence was extraordinarily long, until the cold sweat oozing from Yunyu's back had already stained his outer shirt, I sat up straight, and said slowly: "I'll go find my father."

Yun Yu dared to say these things to me, but he dared not speak to the king of a country in Su.What he meant, in simple words, is just one sentence, people are inherently mortal, since my early death is an early death, and my late death is also an early death, it is better to die with more value.However, this sentence is really hard to say. He came to me, just wanting me to voluntarily put my neck into the condom.If he directly reported to his father that he had calculated his idea on a dying princess, even if it was for the so-called Jiangshan Sheji, his father would have to let him go in vertically and come out horizontally.

The orthodox Yun family only had this one son, and Yun Yu hadn't gotten married yet, and the Yun family's incense hadn't continued, so he couldn't die yet.

In fact, there is nothing to say to the father.I just recounted what Yun Yu said to me. I knelt on the cold bluestone bricks, and my father kept silent for a long time, until I couldn't help but move my numb knees slightly, and he slowly Ask me: "Whose idea is this?"

I didn't answer, so he asked again: "Yun Yu?"

My donkey's lips were wrong with my horse's mouth: "Being born as a princess of the Su Kingdom, it is the daughter's responsibility to do her part for the Su Kingdom."

He laughed and asked me again: "Su Xi, tell me honestly, is the reason why you went to the Southern Dynasty because of Yun Yu's lies, or did you want to go?"

I rested my forehead on the back of my hand and said loudly, "I beg my father to help me."

Father said lightly: "I can't make it happen, you and Qin Lian have no possibility at all."

I raised my head and said, "My daughter never thought about having a chance with Qin Lian, but I just wanted to ask him a question."

Father didn't ask me what the question was, but just said: "Yun Yu asked you to play a trick of discord, but I think you just want to go there and get married."

I said: "My daughter swears by her ancestors that she will not disgrace her mission when she goes to the Southern Dynasty. If she violates it, she will fall into the eighteen hells and will never be reborn."

The royal father was silent for a long time, but finally agreed.After Su Qi found out, the young master lost all demeanor, scolded me, and then pointed at me and said, "It's a man's business to lead troops to fight, why are you going to the Southern Dynasty? Why doesn't that bastard Yun Yu let his sister go to marry him?"

But if he scolds again, this strategy has been finalized, and I still followed my father to the Southern Dynasty.And the day before arriving in the capital, I still hadn't found a cure to delay my life.

The days after marrying Qin Lian are actually much better than I imagined.I always wanted to ask Qin Lian if he knew that I was the girl who danced the phoenix dance for him in the courtyard of Su country, but I gave up after thinking about it, because whether the answer is yes or no, it will lead to me. A bleak ending.

After coming to the Southern Dynasties, Ah Ji once told me that there is Su State on one side and Qin Lian on the other.

I said, on the first day I got married, Qin Lian arranged for people to guard against me quietly.How long do you think we can fool ourselves?

Ah Ji said that Qin Lian was unjust, and Yun Yu was also unkind.The princess always thought of being worthy of Su Guo, His Majesty, and Qin Lian, so why didn't she think about how to be worthy of herself?
I froze for a moment, and then said, I'm about to die, it doesn't matter if I feel sorry for myself.

For a dying person, everything he sees will gradually become extremely pale.The obsession with Qin Lian and the heavy burden of Princess Su are just one word of death, and all these pains can disappear in smoke.

In the past, although I didn't say it, I was terrified of this word.I am unwilling to be reconciled to such a mishap befalling me, unwilling to accept my fate like this, unwilling to pass away in a few hundred days, but after being locked up by Qin Lian in Roufu Palace for more than ten days, I gradually figured it out, and Inner peace.

The word death seemed to turn into temptation in the blink of an eye.Su Qi and Qin Lian's tit-for-tat confrontation, Su Guo and the Southern Dynasty's hand-to-hand combat, whether dead or injured, alive or dead, I will never see it.

I looked up and looked at the laurel trees outside the palace. They were all covered with high-quality red silk. Looking down, I could only see the high palace wall of Roufu Hall, but I could still imagine it. Now, what a lively scene it will be outside.

The day after tomorrow, Qin Lian will marry Zhao Youyi.Although she is not a concubine, she was handpicked by the former emperor and a lady of a famous family. When I die, it is very likely that I will be replaced by the Queen's seat. For such a person to marry into the palace, there must be enough pomp and circumstance.

I touched the temple hairpin on my head, there was a pinch of poison hidden in it, called Soul Drunk, it was colorless and tasteless when mixed with water, after taking it, the death was peaceful, like a deep sleep.

I brought it from the State of Su, and my father personally handed it over to me, planning to have Qin Lian subdue it.

But he didn't make a move.

After all, I am still soft-hearted, passive and stupid, and offended a woman's benevolence.After hesitating for so long, I still can't make up my mind. Qin Lian has already personally admitted that he wants to kill me. He has even put me under house arrest, and even wants to marry Zhao Youyi. I still can't do it.

I opened the palace door, and immediately a court lady bowed and asked me what I wanted to do, I tried to keep my tone as calm as possible: "I want to see Qin Lian."

She replied bluntly: "Your Majesty has orders, he will not see you."

I have heard her words repeatedly a dozen times a day. This time I looked at her, and instead of going back into the room, I took out a sharp hairpin from my arms and pressed it directly against my neck. .

She stretched out her hand to snatch it away, but I leaned back, and the hairpin had already penetrated into the flesh.

I could feel the blood sliding down my neck, and the unlucky maid on duty opened her eyes wide. I held onto the door and window, and said coldly, "Go and ask Qin Lian to come over."

She bit her lip and looked at me for a long time, then turned and left in a hurry.

From a certain point of view, as a spy of the Soviet Union, I have been treated fairly well.So far, they have only been grounded, and they have no worries about food and clothing, and there are many people who are always there to serve them, which is much better than originally expected.

The Roufu Palace has been silent for more than ten days, except for the occasional meowing of the white kitten, even the sound of leaves falling can be heard here on weekdays.

It's too quiet here, but outside of this palace, the entire capital of the Southern Dynasties should be eerie.Back then, Qin Lian was able to sneak into the capital of the Su Kingdom for a few months, but now Su Qi is able to torment the capital of the Southern Dynasty like a cat like a tiger.From a five-year-old beggar to a cold-faced and ruthless assassin, Su Qi's arrangements must be in full swing. Even if Qin Xu loses, it will still keep Qin Lian busy.

I looked up at the gray and lifeless sky, and I could almost imagine what the future would look like.

I waited for an hour, but the maid still didn't come back.The palace people here are all sensitive, and they followed closely after piercing their own necks, not missing an inch.I have no appetite, haven't eaten dinner, just half-lying on the beauty's couch, half-sleeping and half-sleeping, I heard the rustling sound of clothes rubbing in the dimness, and soon a hand fell on my forehead, sliding warmly slowly Step by step, slowly trace the tip of my nose, lips, cheeks, pinnae, and finally my neck inch by inch.

I gradually became sober, but I didn't have the courage to open my eyes.

Suddenly he remembered that at the beginning of the wedding, when Qin Lian was His Highness instead of His Majesty, he was often like this now.Whenever he is busy with work and I can't bear to go to bed first, when he comes back, he always touches me from hair to neck with his fingers first, and then embraces me very gently, waiting for me to open my eyes unbearably, You can see his faint smile, watching him leaning down, some tricky entanglement of lips and teeth, and the inevitable mid-night hibiscus warming.

But today I waited for a long time, almost being coaxed to fall asleep again by his fingers, but I couldn't wait for his embrace.

I had no choice but to slowly and reluctantly open my eyes, and shouted: "Qin Lian."

Qin Lian's movements stopped when my voice sounded. I watched him retract his hand and stand up from the collapsed edge. I, do not say a word.

After a while, the crackling of the lanterns broke the dead silence, and he finally said slowly, "What can you do with me?"

I said, "Are you going to marry Zhao Youyi?"

He said, "Yes."

I said, "The day after tomorrow?"

He said, "The day after tomorrow."

I said, "When are you going to kill me?"

He slightly turned his eyes away and didn't speak.

I asked again: "Is the Yong'an Hall finished?"

"Fixed," he said.

I said, "Are you going to let Zhao Youyi live in?"

He said, "No. That palace is yours alone."

When he said this, his tone was as gentle and calm as ever, and his eyes were as black as ink when he looked at me.I looked at him, and my heart suddenly thumped violently like a silk string. When I opened my mouth, my voice was uncontrollably choked: "Qin Lian, I don't want you to marry Zhao Youyi."

As twilight approached, the room was filled with twilight.There is a cold wind howling outside the window, and the room with a strong fire seems to be suddenly cold.

I looked up at the carved beams and painted buildings on the roof, and asked again in a shy voice: "How can you not marry Zhao Youyi?"

Qin Lian was silent for a while, then suddenly said softly, "Yutuo, did you hate me when I was in Su?"

It is not so easy to engrave the word hate in my heart with just a few strokes.

I think that I am really worthless except for my appearance. Even if I knew that there were only three years left in the country of Su, I only blamed fate and God's will, but I never thought that Qin Lian was the instigator.

I'm soft-hearted, cowardly, and I can't even condense my hatred.Such a Su princess is really useless.

I said, "What about you, you gave me poison back then, did you regret it?"

He looked at me and said softly, "I regret it."

I closed my eyes slightly and didn't speak.

Ever since I met Qin Lian, I have prayed to God for many things.When Qin Lian left the capital city of Su, I hoped to see him again. Later, Yun Yu really gave me this opportunity, and I hoped to marry him as soon as possible. Later, when I came to the Southern Dynasty, I met Qin Lian again at the state banquet, and hoped We can live together for a long time, a hundred years together.

Asking for too much, becoming more and more ethereal and unrealistic.Perhaps God was impatient after all, so he withdrew all wishes.

Now that the national border is persecuted, Qin Lian and I are really strangers, I dare not ask for too much, I just pray that he can keep a little bit of truth and conscience for me tonight, although tomorrow's misfortune is uncertain, tonight he said that he regretted the beginning , then I will not regret my next decision.

I lowered my head and said in a low voice: "You haven't come just now, I was thinking, not counting the time in Su, I have only been with you for seven months in total. In the middle, you lead the army and meet with the ministers to make corrections." The time of the memorial and so on, if the time when I was ignorant and ignorant after I fell asleep is not counted, and the days of the Cold War are not counted, then I am really with you, it is only a few days."

The way I look at him now must be very greedy, and I almost want to keep every minute of him in my heart: "I regret it, why did we have a cold war in those days? I knew there would be today, but at that time there was still Take your time and go to the Cold War."

I think now, I should have followed Qin Lian every step of the way like Xiaobai at my feet. I fell asleep when he fell asleep, I woke up when he woke up, I ground ink when he wrote, and he ate. When I was young, I scooped soup, no matter how annoyingly sticky it was, it was better than having only a handful of memories and being skinny.

With the candlelight behind his eyes, his eyes were still indescribably deep and dull black.Qin Lian moved his lips slightly, and suddenly reached out to wrap his arms around me.

I was hugged tightly in his arms, and I heard the two words he spoke with great difficulty: "Yutuo."

My eyes were already blurred by tears, and my lips trembled so that I couldn't speak. After a long while, I spoke intermittently: "You are the monarch of the Southern Dynasty, and I am the princess of the Su Kingdom. But I have never done anything to offend you. "

He said, "I know."

I said, "I have always wanted to kill you, but I have been unable to do so."

He said, "I know."

I was hugged by him so tightly that there was no gap, I leaned on his shoulder and looked out the window, hardly wanting to move.After the thousands of miles of sunlight faded away, and the flickering candlelight gradually appeared in the room, I gently pushed him away and said, "Qin Lian, may I pour you a cup of tea?"

His back shuddered suddenly, and the eyes that looked at me became darker.After a long while, he waited until a candle in the room was extinguished with a "snap" before he opened his mouth with one word: "Okay."

I quickly brought two cups of tea, covered them with cup lids, and placed them flat on the small table on the couch.

I didn't look at him, turned my eyes away, and said softly: "These two cups of tea, one contains Biluochun, and the other contains soul drunk. Soul drunk is the first of all poisons in the court, and there is no solution in the world. I believe your majesty has already heard about it. I want your majesty Choose one cup first, and the rest will be mine. If you and I drink together, [-]% of your majesty will survive, and [-]% of your life will die. Of course, your majesty may not choose, and I will drink both cups myself. After today, the world There is no more Su Xi, and the chaos in the southern dynasty of Su country has nothing to do with Su Xi anymore."

The candlelight was dim, reflecting the shadows of people in the room.I didn't look at the teacup, but only at Qin Lian.I watched him glance at the teacup, paused for a while, then raised his head again, looking at me with extraordinary eyes.

I've never really known him, but at this moment I'm sure I know what he's thinking.

He must be thinking, I was really careless, the teacup to the right, there is still a little trace of the white powder of soul drunk on the rim of the cup.

I, too, acted as if I had been genuinely careless.

It just becomes unfair to choose in this way.For me, however, this is the real reality.

I never expected Qin Lian to choose a cup of poisoned tea and actually drink it.

Su Zi once said that marrying the king of a country is the saddest thing.If you marry a Hunjun, you will be pointed at the spine and scolded, and you will be said to be the reincarnation of Daji, a beauty that will bring disaster to the country and the people; if you marry a Mingjun, even if you are the only favorite in the middle palace, you still have to wait for him to revise the memorial and summon the officials. Heavy, irreplaceable, let alone a woman.To marry the king of a country, no matter the queen or concubine, one must minimize the demands on the husband in order to survive.

Now, Qin Lian is really hesitant about the two options I proposed, which has met my expectations.

Time seemed to have passed only for a moment, and it seemed to have passed for a long time.The tea turned from hot to warm to cold, and I finally waited until Qin Lian reached for the teacup.

He went for the one in his left hand.

I held on to the edge of the table and followed to get the remaining one.

He put the teacup to his mouth and didn't drink for a while.

I drank it down.

The room was utterly lonely, only the sound of beating in the distance could be heard.

The next moment, the teacup in Qin Lian's hand fell and shattered against the foot of the table.But he seemed to have no time to pay attention to it, he just hugged me hastily.

Soul intoxication occurs, and the time is neither short nor long, just enough to burn a stick of incense.During the period, there was no suffering and no pain, but the drunken redness gradually appeared on the face, and when the faint redness spread to the ears and neck, the person would die suddenly.

I still have a stick of incense time.Too short and hardly know what to do with it.

His face felt like it was on fire, probably because the poisonous tea had begun to take effect.I thought for a while, struggled to break free, and took out a piece of embroidery cloth from my arms. The white base cloth was the size of a pillow leather. The mandarin ducks on it had been embroidered, the lotus was only the outline, and the silk thread of the yellow stamen had not been patched.

I handed it to his hand and said: "I heard that according to the customs of the Southern Dynasties, when Zhao Youyi married into the palace, I would give embroidery as a gift. Although my technique is clumsy and it is difficult to be elegant, the gift always has to be presented." Yes. It's a pity that the time is too short, and I was slow to do it, and I only had time to embroider a pillow cover, but I still hope you can accept it."

As soon as I finished speaking, I suddenly felt heat behind my ears, followed by dampness.

I paused, and tentatively opened my mouth in disbelief: "Are you crying?"

I wanted to turn my head to look, but he hugged me tighter and held my head down so that I couldn't even turn my head.I was so hugged that it was difficult to breathe, and Qin Lian's voice suddenly sounded in my ears, deeper than usual, as if trying to suppress my crying: "Su Xi, Su Xi."

He spoke hurriedly, and faster and faster: "Don't do this. I won't kill you, and I won't marry Zhao Youyi, I don't care about anything, you come back."

He said it in my ear over and over again, over and over again.

I've never seen Qin Lian look so flustered.Even if I was poisoned by him in Su country last time, he was calm.He is always calm and indifferent, rich and handsome, he never makes mistakes when he cares about pennies, and he has no mistakes in Gujing. It can be called a son", but now his arm holding me is trembling, and his fingers touched the back of my neck, I just feel as cold as snowflakes.

I suddenly felt the sourness in my heart expand like a firework exploded, displacing all internal organs, turning the inside upside down, causing continuous pain.

Could it be that the imperial doctor lied to me that the effect of soul intoxication is not only on the face, but also that it will make people feel unbearable pain when dying like crane crest red?
My cheeks are getting hotter and hotter, and the heat has spread from the size of my nails to the size of my palm.

There is still half of the time left for a stick of incense.

I thought for a moment, then slowly said: "You say this now, but if I really didn't die and you really did this, you will definitely regret it and hate me."

He whispered: "I won't."

I felt my limbs start to become sore and limp, and my eyes turned black, and the heat had already spread to my ears, so I managed to speak out: "It's a pity that there is no other way. From now on, you have to forget about me."

His face was still as pretty as before, but there was a deep pain in it.He embraced me and asked in a low voice: "I can't forget it, what should I do? Su Xi, do you want me to go down to accompany you? I'm sorry for you, don't you hate me? Don't you want me to do something to repay you?" ?”

My breathing became short of breath, and my words became incoherent intermittently: "There is nothing I can do if I can't forget it. I was afraid that you would forget me early, so I wanted to make you a pillow. I want you to sleep on it every day. I am busy with state affairs during the day and don’t have time to think about me. I always remember me when I see the pillow before falling asleep at night. I thought, I dare not expect you to remember me for the rest of your life. When the silk embroidery on the pillow is broken, you will also remember me. You can forget me."

I wasn't telling the truth, in fact, I expected Qin Lian to do a lot.I hope that he will be the only one in my life, and I also hope that Su and Nanchao can live in peace for a hundred years. I even really hope that he can come down to accompany me now, but I know that none of these can be realized.

All I can really hope for is that he won't forget me so quickly.

I know that starting tomorrow, the two countries will be truly turned upside down.The war that has been brewing for a long time is everywhere, Su Qi will use me as an excuse to attack the south, and Qin Lian will return to his calm appearance when he comes to court tomorrow, calmly responding to Su's provocation.

His memory of me is probably only this short night.

I was a little disappointed, but soon relieved.

For a dying person, no matter how hard he tries to think about the affairs behind him, he is no different from meddling in his own business.

A big tear fell on my face, and soon a second, and a third.

My eyes were blurred, and I wanted to comfort him, but found that I couldn't speak.And soon I didn't even have a strong sense of touch, and I couldn't feel the burning on my face.

There is not much time left for a stick of incense.

Qin Lian's voice became lower and lower, farther and farther away, until he couldn't hear it at all.

I was extremely sleepy, obeying the intoxication of my soul, and gradually closed my eyes.

At the last moment, it was as if I had seen the summer in Su, and I still didn’t feel any heaviness. Every day passed like the lively sun in the sky, waiting, visiting, laughing, continuing to wait, and so on.

I have been with Qin Lian for two months, but it seems that we only stayed for two days.

And looking back on my previous 15 years, I can't pick out one year that left a deeper impression on me than the year I met Qin Lian.

The most helpless thing for a person is to watch oneself fall soberly, and then walk towards death step by step.

Su Zi once said that if you don’t want to feel sad for a person, you can either forget it or die before him.

I can't forget that when I have to choose, I can only choose the latter.

From now on it has nothing to do with me.

Cowardly, but also a relief.

(End of this chapter)