The Queen of Romance: A Summer of Sweet Classics

Chapter 291 20 Years, 12 Years Old

Basically, in the minds of people in the Southern Dynasties, the name Su Xi is equivalent to the existence of four other words: foxy and charming.If you change four more words, it will be: Disaster for the country and the people.In other words, no matter how wise and powerful Qin Lian was in the hearts of the people of the Southern Dynasty, Su Xi would be hated deeply in the hearts of the people of the Southern Dynasty.

This is understandable.When a promising monarch is entangled by a dissident woman from another country, and loses political affairs, the city, and even the whole country for this woman, people often don't pursue the monarch's mistakes too much, but put all their fingers on it. Poke to this woman's spine.

There are many such women in history, which proves that this is a universal law.Therefore, it is not surprising that the Southern Dynasty also thought so.

And another universal law is that most of such women in history have no good end, or were poisoned to death, burned to death, or hanged to death, etc. In short, none of them can die of old age or even illness naturally.

If it is inferred from this, then my previous fate can be regarded as good.The sky probably felt that such a good fate should not be deserved by me as a disaster, so before I arrived at Zanglang, before I was tortured to death by illness, he sent a Southern Dynasty Zuoxiang to appear in front of me in time.

If you just think about it this way, there will be nothing left of the few hopes of survival.

I calmed down, tried to drive out these bad thoughts, and asked him calmly, "Where are you taking me?"

Shang Yan's voice was colder than before: "Find a suitable place to kill you."

When he said that, I was actually a little scared.It's just that when I was afraid, I miraculously became calmer, and my mind quickly thought about the few negotiation methods that I had learned before, and asked him: "Why do you want to do this?"

"What a ridiculous question to ask." Shang Yan snorted coldly, "It's fine if you died before, but you still want to come back to life. Now everyone in the Southern Dynasty wants to kill you and hurry up."

I paused, and then asked him: "Your left-hand minister seems to have decided not to, right?"

He is not stupid, thinking about it, he can sit in the position of the left prime minister of the Southern Dynasty. If his personality is not so satisfactory, it means that there are other things that are better than others.I heard him sneer, and asked me back: "Want to be like your brother Su Qi, does the bright tongue make me change my mind? Don't dream. Since I made up my mind to kill you, I don't want to go back alive." After a while, he warned me again, "Don't try to play tricks, it's useless to delay the time, the path I'm taking is very strange, don't expect His Majesty to find you before you die."

"Qin Lian has already signed a literary agreement with my brother. If I die now, he will go down to accompany me." I looked for the direction of his words, turned my eyes away, tried to calm down, and said calmly, "Your hard work It's useless, have you ever thought about it?"

However, I still miscalculated, and Shang Yan's tone was more indifferent than mine: "You don't need to worry about this. Otherwise, why do you think I didn't kill you right away? This is the reason I want to take you away."

My heart beat faster and faster, and the feeling of fear overflowed uncontrollably, although the tone was still strangely calm: "Where are you taking me?"

"This is a mountainous area, and if you go deeper, you will find a place where wolves often come and go." Shang Yan's voice was so cold that he could ooze blood, "I hope the wolves can eat you up before dawn." , not even a bone scum is left. As the saying goes, if you want to see people, if you want to see dead bodies, your majesty is obsessed now. If you can't find you, you will naturally keep looking. When it is over. At that time, my heart for you will gradually fade away, and those tattered treaties signed with you shameless Su Chao will naturally be invalidated. He will still be the calm and self-retaining king before."

His tone was unmoved and determined, and I was silent for a while before regaining the strength to speak: "What if Qin Lian is still unwilling to give up?"

Shang Yan said: "You have to give it a try. With your current state, it is impossible to make it to Zanglang Kingdom alive. Instead of watching His Majesty accompany you to die, it is better to give it a try. Maybe there is still hope. Woolen cloth."

"Then have you ever thought that last time I committed suicide, it caused a war between the two countries. Now that I am killed by you, Su will not let it go easily."

My words probably touched Shang Yan's back, his teeth were grinding and he wanted to swallow me alive: "If it wasn't for Su Qi's shameless tricks last time, how could Nan Dynasty lose? You Would you mind talking about this?"

I have nothing to say.

After a while, the running of the carriage slowed down, and I vaguely heard the howling of wolves.

I was dragged out of the car by Shang Yan.Unable to walk, he soon had to fall to the ground.Since both legs can't walk, they don't feel much pain, but the finger that was cut just now accidentally touched the cold and sharp stone, and immediately felt a piercing pain.

I was short of breath, and heard the sound of Shang Yan stepping on the stone getting farther and farther away, and quickly got into the car, but did not leave immediately, as if looking at me, sighed for a long time, and said to me: "Princess Xi, you do not blame me."

His carriage finally went away, and there was silence around here, only my panting could be heard for a while.

After a while, after the sound of leaves being rustled by the wind, I heard the howling of wolves in the distance.

I couldn't see anything, I just felt scared.

I squeezed the jade pendant on my neck, hoping that Qin Lian could appear in front of me at this moment, but at the same time, I knew that it was impossible.

And I don't have any defensive weapons at hand, and I can't even move my eyes and body. After thinking about it, I can only wait for death.

Suddenly remembered that Su Qi had said before that wolves don't eat dead things, and when the wolves couldn't escape, they might as well pretend to be dead and take a look.But then he thought that his finger was bleeding just now, and wondered if such a small amount of blood would attract the wolves faster.

I buried my head on the ground and heard the sound of howling wolves getting closer. I was trembling with panic all over the sky.In a trance, I remembered that Qin Lian was still rubbing the top of my hair just before I fell asleep. His voice was low and gentle, and he talked about the difficulties he encountered before to lull me to sleep. , lost his way in the valley again, waited for three days without help, the weather was long and gloomy, and there was no moon at night, he could not distinguish the direction, was already very hungry, facing unknown wild fruits, in the process of picking or not picking. After hesitating for a while, he encountered a pack of wolves who were as hungry as him.

At that time, I listened with great interest, but I couldn't stop the drive of sleepiness.Hearing him talk up to this point, although I really want to listen, but after thinking about it, since he is lying here hugging me now, it means that he must be safe and sound at that time.Thinking of this, his mind immediately relaxed, and soon fell into a deep sleep.

Now I regret not listening.Now I can't think of any good strategy to deal with the wolves. I don't know if playing dead also means waiting to die.I was really scared, but my eyes were inexplicably dry, and I couldn't cry, so I couldn't help but murmured in a low voice: "Qin Lian, Qin Lian."

Just now when Qin Lian was changing my clothes, she told me that I was wearing lavender today.And now I am lying on the ground, thinking that there is no lavender on the ground anyway, I don't know if the eyes of the wolves will be the same as people's, if so, the color of the eyes will be discovered at the first time.

I can't think of words that can motivate me to live now.I just felt scared indescribably, and said Qin Lian's name over and over again, many times, and heard the sound of wolves running, getting closer, as if with the excitement of finding prey.I gradually gave up. If I didn’t want to give up, I could only give up. I simply made up my mind. If I must die, at least I must kill myself before my throat is bitten off by the wolves.

It's just that even suicide has become a problem.I don't have anything, the only thing I have that can kill me is even this pack of wolves.Had to give up.

I heard the howling of wolves close to my ears, continuous and intimidating.You can even feel the presence of wild animals sniffing at the bloody fingertips.Close your eyes tightly, sinking into despair.

However, after waiting for a while, there was no expected bite on the throat.I regained my senses in a trance, and then remembered that I seemed to have heard an arrow whizzing through the gust of wind, brushed my hair, and then the dull but crisp sound of entering the wolf's body.

I could feel the dead body of a wolf pressing on my side, but it didn't move, I couldn't move.

I knew it was Qin Lian.I lost all my strength in an instant, and felt a peace of mind I had never had before.

Arrows pierced through from a hundred paces away, without any gaps, and each shot never failed. I could hear the sound of wolves falling one by one, and I could hear the anxiety and panic gradually emerging from the wolves, as well as He could hear the determination and calmness of the arrow entering the wolf's body.

When there was only the rustling of autumn leaves being blown by the wind, I heard the sound of horseshoes, galloping towards me from afar.

I struggled to stand up, but before I spread my arms, I heard the neighing of a horse close at hand, and then the wolf's body was removed, and I was pulled into a person's arms, tightly Hug tightly.

I am already very familiar with this person's embrace. Recently, I was in this person's embrace before I fell asleep, and I was also in this person's embrace after waking up, but this time it was not as gentle as before. I was pressed in Qin Lian's embrace , from the top of the hair down, there is no slightest gap.I was in some pain from being hugged, but I didn't speak. I only heard his shortness of breath silently, which seemed to be icy cold. It took a while before I slowly calmed down.

After a long time, he said softly, "Scared you, right? We'll go back right away."

I let out a "huh", feeling that he picked me up horizontally and picked me up on the horse.I leaned back against his shoulder and whispered, "Qin Lian, I'm a little sleepy."

His arms tightened, stopped around my hand holding the rein, picked me up and turned me over to face him, pulled my two arms around his waist, and gently pressed my head on On his neck, he kissed me lightly on the corner of my forehead, and whispered back to me: "Sleep."

After a long, long sleep, I finally woke up.

After waking up, Ah Ji told me that I had slept for ten days.When she said this, there was an indistinct sob in her throat, she had never cried with me before, I was a little startled, groped for her hand, and comforted her: "Finally I woke up, right? "

But Qin Chu interjected behind him: "Actually, these days you are no different from dead, your breathing is weak, your pulse is almost nonexistent, Qin Lian can't wake up no matter how much you scream, my fourth younger brother is always indifferent to emotions, but this time you are Scared to death by you."

I bit my lower lip and asked in a low voice, "Then... where is Qin Lianren?"

"Ah, talk about him," Qin Chu said calmly, "The important ministers of the Southern Dynasty have been chasing and intercepting us ever since they heard that the fourth brother had signed the funeral agreement. I caught up. Now the fourth brother is comforting the group of old immortals whose coffin lid has been half lifted in the front yard."

"..."

Qin Chu said again: "Speaking of which, that day you were surrounded by wolves, I felt terrified when I saw you from a distance, but you lay there very calmly and didn't even cry. You are really brave."

I thought it was wrong to say this, I should say that I was so scared that I didn't even bother to cry, but since Qin Chu insisted on putting the word brave on my head, I just accepted it, so I said to him with a guilty conscience. He expressed his gratitude for the compliment and silently did not refute.

Ah Ji quickly drove Qin Chu to see the soup that was brewed for me in the kitchen. She sat by my bed and told me the details and follow-up of the kidnapping incident that day.

To put it simply, Shang Yan's plan was detailed. First, he asked his subordinates to hold Qin Lian back, and then stunned the hidden guard who was in charge of guarding him.Ah Ji was spared because he went to decoct the medicine, but when he returned, he found something was wrong, so he hurried to find Qin Lian.The place where Shangyan took me that day was a cliff. When Qin Lian found me, the surrounding rocks were smooth, and I was only one zhang away from the cliff.When the dark guard found Shang Yan, his body was already cold, leaving only a suicide note pinned to his lapel.Qin Lian didn't read this suicide note until he went to see the officials of the Southern Dynasty just now, and threw it into the fire after reading it for a while.

In fact, if you think about it for a while, you can guess what such an upright and loyal minister is going to say. It is nothing more than blood and tears. Maybe it is really a blood book. It is sincere and sincere. Although it is close to death, it still begs Qin Lian to give up. I, go back to the Southern Dynasty as soon as possible.

Looking at it objectively, there is really nothing wrong with Shang Yan.If I were in Shang Yan's position, watching the once calm and wise king suddenly abandon all state affairs and willingly die for a foreign woman, no matter what the reason is, I would also think that this woman is a disaster. Difficult to accept.

However, just as Su Qi once defended himself, human beings have some selfish motives.If the person involved is replaced by myself, after repeated consideration in my heart, I still very much hope that Qin Lian can always be with me.

This kind of companionship is really selfish to a certain extent.But I can't resist its temptation.

Qin Lian came back when I finished the last sip of the decoction, with the chill of autumn.Ah Ji withdrew, Qin Lian lay down beside me, held me in his arms, pinched the tip of my nose, and asked me with a slight smile: "After sleeping for so long, I didn't see me when I woke up. Do you miss me a little?"

I grabbed his skirt and answered him solemnly: "I miss you very much."

He seemed to be taken aback for a moment, and soon his smile became clearer, and he just rubbed my arms that were a little sore from sleeping for a long time, with a little joke: "I remember that in the Southern Dynasty, you liked to kiss secretly. Me. Now that I have become more courageous, I can already confess like this."

If I can see him at this moment, I must give him a vicious look at this moment, thinking that only in this way can it appear that I don't like him that much.But the fact is that it is not possible, so I can only correct him in a vicious tone: "I didn't like it very much! Only once!"

Qin Lian said "Oh" without sincerity, and said leisurely: "But I remember that there were people who once climbed the wall of my house in order to see me, and when I saw it, it seemed like a branch of red apricot had entered the wall. "

I became a little annoyed, and pretended to retort lightly: "What's the matter, it seems that someone has cried for me."

"..."

These words were so lethal that all Qin Lian's words stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say a word for a while.He didn't speak for a long time, and I always suspected that he was grinding his teeth at the moment, and I was very worried that he would find some unexpected way to turn a corner to retaliate, so I calmly became vigilant, and urged him in a low voice: "Why don't you speak?"

After a long time, he let out a long breath and choked out a sentence: "Yes, I cried, so what?"

"..."

This time it was my turn to be speechless.I opened my mouth, opened my mouth again, and there was only one thought in my mind, that is, Qin Lian would also have a day when I said that I would be so ashamed that I would turn into a strong man, I was really too successful, I had a great sense of accomplishment, and I had no regrets in this life.

Seeing that I was silent, Qin Lian's tone changed into a very gentle one: "Okay, let's discuss..."

I stopped him, and suddenly I was so blessed that I asked him: "Are you blushing?"

He choked again, and immediately said, "I didn't."

"I don't believe it." It's a pity that I can't see him with my own eyes at this moment, so I can only stretch out my hand and run up his sleeve, "I have to touch your face to be sure."

"..."

That night, Qin Lian and I did not discuss the final agreement he reached with the officials of the Southern Dynasty.I only know that these ministers left the foot of the snow mountain the next day and returned to the Southern Dynasty.Qin Lian didn't even bother to see them off at once—my condition improved a little, and the whole group set off immediately, heading to Zanglang day and night.

Until Qin Chu sent Ah Ji and Qin Lian to come to me alone, and asked me a few questions: "Su Xi, if you can really survive, what should you do?"

His tone is solemn, no longer teasing in the past, which made me a little uncomfortable: "What do you want to say?"

Qin Chu said: "Let's talk about some practical issues. Don't blame me for being too straightforward. If you really die, then what happens to the Southern Dynasty will naturally have nothing to do with you. Qin Lian wants to go down to accompany you. This is his choice. We I can't accuse you of anything based on this. However, if you are lucky enough to survive, what will you do? Go back to the Southern Dynasty, or stay in the State of Su? If you stay in the State of Su, then the affairs of the Southern Dynasty will naturally have nothing to do with you. You don’t need to ask any more questions; but I think you probably want to go back to the Southern Dynasty with Qin Lian. Have you ever thought about what situation you will face next, how you will face the entire Southern Dynasty people, and what do you want Qin Lian to do? Do?"

I finally understood the intention of his conversation this time, and also understood why he dismissed Ah Ji: "Qin Chu, are you acting as a lobbyist for the courtiers of the Southern Dynasty?"

"That's right, I'm indeed a lobbyist. Although I don't like to interfere in political affairs, that's on the premise that it doesn't matter if the Southern Dynasty has me or not. But if the Southern Dynasty wants to disrupt, I will still remember my royal status " Qin Chu's tone was calm, and he said lightly, "I know that you are very affectionate with Qin Lian now, and I am really envious of your affection, but to put it in a very ugly word, everyone wants to hurry up when a person is about to die. Time loves each other. But if you really recover from illness, someone has to start some words. Qin Lian will naturally not say these things to you, and he treasures you and prevents you from contacting those old courtiers outside. Then it will only be my turn today. Sit here."

I collected myself and said, "Please tell me."

"I don't like to talk about scenes, so I just say it straight. Su Xi, I know that you are a good girl, kind-hearted, and know how to consider others. However, among the people of the Southern Dynasty, no more than two palms can have this impression of you. Of course, you cannot be blamed for this situation. This is the result of Qin Lian's acquiescing to Zhao Youchen's actions at the time. And he has already tasted the bitter fruit brewed by his behavior. But no matter what, Qin Lian's behavior is now recognized by people in the Southern Dynasty. In their eyes, it is no different from a faint king. And in their hearts, this situation is all because of the so-called seductive you."

"If you want to continue to support each other with Qin Lian, you have to improve this quickly. Otherwise, it will still be like the previous Southern Jiangsu War. The two countries will fight to the death. In the end, either you die again, or Qin Lian ended up miserable. Qin Lian is a monarch. Although he has more than enough ability to do anything, according to his personality, he doesn’t like to do anything other than being a monarch. Of course, if you want him to abdicate to accompany you wandering Tianya, he probably will agree to it in the end, but he definitely doesn't want to."

"Therefore, if you want to resolve the conflict, in addition to letting him back down and do your best, you and Su Qi also have to compromise a bit. At least you have to do something to let the people of the Southern Dynasty see the sincerity represented by you and the country of Su behind you .Your brother Su Qi really makes people look uncomfortable. He does things too freely and has no rules. But from the past, as long as you and Su Zi ask for it, he will agree to it no matter what. So if you need to compromise, you need What to do, I believe you, I know what to do. When I say this, you may feel that you are being used a little bit, but you might as well look at it from another angle, as the old saying goes, each step back, the sea and the sky are brighter. Su Qi put his point Once the wolfish ambitions are subdued, Qin Lian will naturally not take the initiative to provoke Su Guo."

I stayed for a while, then slowly asked: "What about after I die?"

Qin Chu let out a "Huh" indifferently: "I haven't thought about this." He quickly added, "But there's no need to think about it. It's not something you and I should worry about, at least not now. Now my The task is only to use you to achieve a friendly and harmonious diplomatic relationship between the two countries. Those old men didn’t give me any rewards, and I can convince you to agree to those things just now. It’s enough for them. Let’s talk about the rest later.”

I was speechless, and heard Qin Chu say again: "So you agree?"

I pondered for a moment and said, "I'll give it a try."

Qin Chu touched the two jade rings in his hand crisply, and reassured him, "I'm more than half relieved when you say that. I knew Su Xi that you would be reasonable. No wonder you can teach a girl as delicate and clear as Ah Ji."

"..."

Hearing him comment on Ah Ji like this, I simply don't know what to say.Thinking about how Qin Chu was a flirtatious prince before, but now he has turned into the kind of infatuated kind that Ah Ji kicked his left foot and he was willing to stretch out his right foot for her to kick him again.

Unexpectedly, he could guess my thoughts, and said seriously: "Don't look at me with this expression, as if I'm some kind of monster. Didn't Qin Lian tell you that, more than 100 years ago, we in the Southern Dynasty still had a From this point, we can find out the history of favored concubines cuckolding the emperor. The royal family of the Southern Dynasties has always been a loyal, handsome, gentle and considerate man. If you don’t believe me, you can verify it.”

My mouth slowly opened, and after a while it slowly closed again: "Is there such a thing?"

Qin Chudao: "The son of that favorite concubine married the daughter of a minister, but after several years of marriage, he was still so flirtatious that he even hooked up with the minister's new concubine, and put the green hat on the minister's head with his own hands. The minister was furious and vowed to take down the prince, but he didn't expect to follow the vines to find out the old things, and found that the prince was not the biological son of the former emperor... I won't say more about it later, this matter is too ugly, it is suppressed It took a long time to calm down. All in all, this fully shows that the excellent tradition of our southern royal family's infatuation has a long history and is deeply rooted. So, don't doubt the extent of Qin Lian's infatuation for you in the future."

"..."

After talking for so long, Qin Chu reckoned that it was almost time for Ah Ji to return, so he got up and said goodbye.He pushed open the door and closed it again. I had already seen him go out, but I didn't expect him to stay in the room. He said to me: "There is one last sentence, I don't know if I should say it or not."

"..." I said sincerely, "This kind of thing is generally not appropriate to say, so you should not say it."

"No, I still have to talk." Qin Chu directly ignored my statement, walked around the room several times, and only stopped when I was about to fall asleep, with a hesitant and serious tone, "Although my younger brother We have not been close since we were young, but when I think of Qin Lian's death, I still feel a little sad. Su Xi, you really don't want to see him live in this world, but accompany you to Hades?"

Before, I never thought that one day Qin Chu's eloquence would be so good. After talking for a long time, he suddenly hit the nail on the head on the most important point. This is even more refreshing than Su Qi's aggressiveness.

In fact, as long as I am not drowsy recently, I have been secretly struggling with this problem, and I am getting more and more worried.A few days ago, I tried to bring up this topic and persuaded Qin Lian to think about it again. As a result, he just woke up at that time, and when he was dizzy, he easily transferred the topic to the world. After going to sleep and waking up and then going to sleep and waking up again.

Although when I think about it again, I feel discouraged by Qin Lian's behavior, but on the other hand, I have reconfirmed that Qin Lian really likes me, to the point where I like me, thinking about it like this will make my heart overflow more and more Opening up, the previous grievances gradually became negligible.

And after ignoring it, I feel more and more that even if Qin Lian is willing, I shouldn't let him do it.I have always wanted to be a princess who makes others look more satisfied, at least to be magnanimous and kind, tolerant and forgiving. In short, since I can't be as wise as Su Qi and Su Zi, at least let Su Qi have everything in her character Messy flaws can't appear on me.

In addition, before I married to the Southern Dynasty, the aunt who taught me how to get along with husband and wife also told me that in the royal family, happiness is more important than emotion, reason is more important than happiness, and responsibility is more important than reason.Although I didn't understand it very well at the time, and I couldn't strictly follow this admonition later, I always felt that this sentence was really correct.

Thinking about it this way, I feel that the slight selfishness in my heart must be ignored at this time.Although I am timid, I am not particularly timid. Death is just a blink of an eye. Although the underworld sounds a little gloomy, but since everyone can live it, then I can live it too. Qin Lian is not necessary accompany.If I really miss him, I can still wait for him on the bridge of Naihe in the underworld.After telling himself this way, Qin Lian felt that it was best for Qin Lian to continue living in this world.

I made up my mind, and immediately discussed with Qin Lian.This time I was resolute and clear-headed. When Qin Lian changed the subject, I stopped him in time, hugged his waist, buried him in his wide sleeves, and whispered that I had been thinking all afternoon. A very mysterious and philosophical sentence: "If you really like me, you can continue to live in this world. Burn a stick of incense every year on the anniversary of my death, just talk to me."

Qin Lian gently stroked my hair one by one, and was speechless for a while.

I hug him tightly, the tip of my nose is his faint fragrance of clothes, which seems to be absent, it smells good.At this moment, I am very fortunate that my five sense organs are not completely exhausted, and I can still hear his voice, smell his fragrance, talk to him, and feel the warmth of his palm.I miss all of this.

After a long time, he opened his mouth in a low voice, with a gentle voice, as if with Mei Xiang: "Just tell me, will you be happy if I go down to accompany you?"

I was frustrated with the difficulty of the question he asked.I know that if I say yes, then all the words I just persuaded him will be useless; but if I say no, it will go against my heart.I really can't lie, and Qin Lian is so smart, just a little bit of trace will be seen through by him at a glance.

I considered my words and tried to avoid answering him directly: "The key is to choose the lesser of two evils. It doesn't matter what I think, as long as you are still alive..."

He cut me off: "What you think matters."

I opened my mouth, really wanting to know what he looks like now.Hugged him even tighter, and whispered: "It's good that you can think like this. I recently thought that maybe God is fair and can grant everyone a wish in this life, so my wish in this life is to marry you , I have achieved it, so I can’t ask for more. If I ask too much in this life, I may not live too well in the next life.”

I was touched lightly on the forehead, and he turned low and back when he spoke, which made me want to indulge: "But what do you want me to do alive? Su Xi, I don't want to watch you leave me again , I won't be able to bear it."

My eye sockets started to get wet, and I really couldn't hear such love words.Before I told him these words today, I mustered up my courage, thinking that since I have already faced vicious wolves, I can laugh at the consequences no matter what, but now he just said a few words , Let my self-confidence completely crumble.

I choked up and said, "But..."

He interrupted me softly: "If we switch and I die first, will you miss me? Will you be very sad?"

My tears were wiped away by him with his fingers, and I whispered: "But, after I die, you may be sad, and you may still miss me, but the sadness will eventually heal one day, and the miss will become weaker and weaker. At that time, you will remember that there are many other things to do. Living, there will be many benefits. The future is unexpected, and I can’t live, so you can’t easily give up on yourself.”

He said: "If one day I really forget about you and fall in love with other women, Xi'er, will you be sad?"

He would really embarrass me and ask me to answer such questions.When I thought of that possible scene, I felt aggrieved, tears welled up in my eyes, and I was speechless for a while.

He hugged me and shook me lightly, his lips touched lightly, and his voice was softer than a kiss: "It will be very sad, right? Even if I really don't like other people, you will worry about it, right? So why lie, others It doesn't matter what people think. You just need to remember that in my heart, you are the most important."

Although the imperial doctor has always emphasized that I should be calm, so that it is possible to delay my life until the day I arrive at Zanglang.However, there are so many things to worry about before passing away. Every time I wake up from a long sleep, even if I am very tired and painful, I will always think about this and that involuntarily until I fall asleep again. difficulty.

Everyone gradually became silent. Even if I couldn't see it, I could feel that they were trying to make me happy with forced smiles.I myself can clearly feel that life is slipping away, like a cloth bag full of sand but with a small leak at the bottom, every minute and every second is an irresistible loss, until now there is very little left.According to what Qin Chu accidentally said, it means that every day of my life is an extra gift from heaven.

I fell into a complete coma the day before I arrived in the desert.Before falling into a coma, he had a discussion with Ah Ji.

I told her about my predicament, and hoped to find a way to make Qin Lian change his mind and still live after my death.Ah Ji was silent for a while, then asked me: "Princess really thinks so?"

I simply replied to her with one word: "Yes."

"What is the princess going to do?"

"I can't think of a good way, and I only came up with one idea after going over and over again..." I said, "I want to find a woman to live on my behalf."

Ah Ji is very smart, and quickly asked me: "The princess hopes to imitate Your Majesty and make a human skin mask of the princess herself, so that Qin Lian thinks the princess is still alive?"

I said, "You know everything about me, so if you'll help tell that girl something about me, she'll probably be able to get away with it in the first few days. Then think about it, and say that I've got something wrong with me." If you want to go back to the country of Su, Qin Lian will not see anyone for a few years, and gradually his longing and sadness will fade..." After a pause, he continued, "Even if he finds out that I am a fake, at least he I can understand my painstaking efforts in wanting him to live, if he is willing to respect the dead, he will continue to live."

Ah Ji was silent again, and asked me for a while: "Who does the princess want to pretend to be?"

"Actually," I was a little embarrassed, "Actually... I think you are very suitable. It just depends on whether you are willing or not."

"What the princess says, I will naturally do it. But," Ah Ji's cold voice remained the same as before, without any ups and downs, "I feel inexplicably sad when the princess does this."

I didn't explain anything, it wasn't that I didn't want to, but that I couldn't. I found that I didn't have much strength left.

I knew that my situation was already quite bad. When I woke up this time, I heard the imperial doctor talking to Qin Lian in a low voice, saying that I might not survive for three days, and hesitantly asked him if he wanted to prepare for the funeral.Although I couldn't see Qin Lian's expression after hearing this, I always felt that I could feel his sadness.Then I heard his voice, which was unbearably calm: "Get ready."

I know he must not be so calm in his heart.A few days ago, I also woke up from a drowsiness. Before I opened my eyelids, I found that he was holding my hand, with his fingers intertwined. He was probably sitting on the edge of the bed, and whispered to me who thought he was still asleep. wearing something.At first my consciousness was chaotic, and I didn't hear it very clearly. After waking up, I slowly recalled it, and then I remembered that what he said at that time was so fragile: "Su Xi, wake up quickly. Talk to me. You have been sleeping like this Now, I'm a little scared."

At that moment, I just felt sour in my nose that was indescribable.

But at the same time, he said that, and I wanted him to live even more.

After I finished speaking with Ah Ji, it occurred to me that I could try another method.People say that the dead are respected. According to this concept, if I leave a last word before I die, as long as Qin Lian can do it, no matter whether he is willing or not, he will probably agree to hinder me.And since my current situation has been judged by the imperial physician to be able to prepare for the funeral, it means that what I say now is no different from my last words.

However, the theory is perfect, but the implementation is a bit difficult.I really wanted to speak out the changed mind in my heart and force him to agree, but found that I didn't even have the strength to speak.The tears flowed easily, and the moment he opened his mouth, he had already fallen down.But I didn't want to leave him with the last impression of crying, so I became more and more eager to take back the tears and change them into a smile, but instead became more anxious and confused, and I couldn't laugh out.

This appearance must be ugly, I thought desperately in my heart, and felt Qin Lian's fingers slowly move up, his hands were very warm, and when he held my face gently and meticulously, my tears burst out more and more violently.

At that moment, I suddenly thought that since I was sensible, I actually seldom cry.And since I saw him for the first time at the age of 16, every time I shed a tear, true or false, it was because of this person in front of me.

I really miss him.

He softened his voice: "Don't be afraid. We are going to Zanglang soon. It will be fine."

This is obviously trying to trick me.I know that although we have reached the edge of the desert, we are still many days away from Zanglang.I was eager to speak out what was in my heart, but was disappointed to find that I still didn't have the strength to speak.

Qin Lian said softly, "What's the matter? Are you reluctant to part with me?"

Tears welled up in my eyes, and I blinked with all my might, hoping he would understand.

And he obviously understood, smiled, held my hand tightly, and said to me: "Don't worry, no matter where you are, I will always be with you."

I really want to answer him, I really miss him, but I no longer want him to stay with me after I die.Reluctantly, there was no sound coming out of his throat, so he had to use his mouth to tell him. After talking for a long time, the accumulated strength was exhausted bit by bit, but he still didn't reply, as if he didn't understand.

I was really anxious to hear him finally speak, but it was not what I wanted to hear: "After all, I have done something, even if you think it is understandable, I can't comfort myself with the same reason. Although you have not complained at all , but I know that you have suffered a lot of grievances. Besides being with you, I can’t think of any other way to heal your grievances. And if you leave me, you will probably feel lonely. I will go down to accompany you, don’t you I will feel scared, and I am willing to, isn't that good?"

I was stunned, tears fell like rain suddenly, and wept silently.

When I woke up again, my first reaction was that I had already arrived in the underworld.Because after I opened my eyes, I found that I could vaguely see those strange and hideous carved beams and paintings on the tent above the bed when I was lying down.Thinking that my eyesight has been restored, I am even more sure that I have arrived in the underworld.And when I turned my head and found that my hands and feet were all feeling and didn't feel as heavy as before, I became more and more sure that my yang life was over and my yin life had officially begun.

I sat up, turned my head, and heard someone talking through the door.Focusing her eyes slightly, there was a dim light in the room, reflecting two shadowy figures outside the door and window, and one of them was opening and closing his mouth, and his speech was not fluent: "She will wake up soon, but her body will only recover temporarily. Some places need to think about it again, and I will talk to you about how to cure it in a few days."

After saying this, I heard a "squeak" from the door panel, I looked up in response, and saw Qin Lian's familiar and good-looking face at a glance.

I froze for a moment, subconsciously said: "Are you dead too?"

Although the room was too dark to see clearly, I always suspected that I saw Qin Lian's forehead twitch twice, and then he smiled and answered me calmly: "No. This is Yangjian, Zanglang Kingdom."

I'm very lucky.On the second day after the coma, when he was out of breath but his body was still cool, he was rescued by Danwu who walked out of the desert for the first time.

It’s just that if you want to delve deeper into the reason why Danwu walked out of the desert, you will find that I am so lucky that it is speechless.I found out that the phrase "What is good at the top must be the same as the bottom" is really not used anywhere. Su Qi's hidden guard miraculously inherited his peculiar and untestable brain thinking. After receiving it, I might not be able to hide After hearing the news of Lang Guo, he began to stalk Danwu, using various reasons to invite him out of the desert, and quickly found Danwu's hobby of beauties, and quickly used it.

They first swore to Dan Wu that the patient who needed treatment this time, Su Xi, the second princess of the Su Kingdom, was a stunning beauty. The beauty was in danger now, and her life was in his hands. With sweet words, he proudly lifted Danwu up to the sky, but after finding out that he was still a little hesitant, he asked one of the best painters, the dark guard, to do his best to draw a pair of extremely beautiful eyes for Danwu to see, saying that this is Su Xi eyes, a beauty with such eyes would definitely not be an ugly person; after discovering that Dan Wu was still a little hesitant after saying these words, he encouraged him to say that although Su Xi was already married, the person he married The monarch of the Southern Dynasty is really a jerk. If Danwu likes it, he might as well discuss it with Qin Lian and snatch the beautiful and wronged second princess over.

Upon hearing this, Dan Wu finally agreed to leave.

I was drinking tea when I heard Qin Chu tell these inside stories, and I was so ashamed at the end that I choked all the tea out of my mouth.I looked up at Qin Lian who was patting me on the back. I didn't expect him to be smiling, but the corners of his mouth were raised, but his eyes were shining coldly. He said lightly, "Let's try it."

Qin Chu was forced by his eyes to have nowhere to hide. He coughed and turned his eyes away. He waved his fan and said, "The weather in this damn place is really bad. It's so hot. Ah Ji, let's go out to get some air together?"

Ah Ji didn't lift his head: "No."

"Then I won't go either." Qin Chu walked to the door, opened the door and saw the bright sun outside, paused in his footsteps, then came back awkwardly, and changed the subject under the half-smiling eyes of everyone, "They all talk about Zanglang Kingdom Sovereign Witch Gu, I chatted with Dan Wu yesterday, he said that if he puts a lovesickness Gu on a person, that person will fall in love with him immediately. Qin Lian, Dan Wu has been in front of Su Xi's bed for the past two days Wander around, pay attention these two days."

Qin Lian didn't seem to care much, but he still smiled out of the principle of respecting his elder brother: "Don't bother third brother."

According to the law of Huaben, if a person is seriously ill and travels thousands of miles to seek medical treatment, he will definitely encounter difficulties and dangers.And among all the difficulties and dangers, the twists and turns on the road are just a small aspect. The real suffering begins when you meet the so-called genius doctor. This patient must pay some price. If you are asked for money, it is actually the easiest to deal with , but generally speaking, genius doctors definitely don't want gold and silver, which means giving up other things, and it is often what patients are most reluctant to give, and if they are given, they will definitely be heartbroken for life.This is actually very understandable. It takes a lot of brains to snatch a purse from another person, let alone a person's life.If everyone can easily come back to life when they are about to die, then there is no need to open the Hades Mansion.

With this in mind, I asked Qin Lian a question that night.His answer was that Dan Wu was obsessed with the art of witchcraft, except for the most basic cost, so far he has not asked for any additional price.I asked him what the most basic cost meant, but he said without raising his head that it was the basic cost of medical treatment.

After I stayed for a while, I felt very angry. If he had fooled me like this when I first married into the Southern Dynasty and pretended to be stupid, even if I really wanted to bite off a piece of him, I would not say anything on the surface, but Now it is obvious that Qin Lian and I have no more issues that need to be resolved. In addition, I am still a patient, and patients always have a bit of privilege, and I realized this privilege in time last night, so I glared at him fiercely and said, "I think we need to sleep in separate beds tonight."

After hearing this, Qin Lian put down the scroll, and looked at me with his forehead propped up with great interest: "Why?"

I lowered my head and pretended to wipe my tears: "You have disrespected me so much, why should I take advantage of you?"

He looked down at my hand on the skirt of his shirt, and squinted at me: "Who is taking advantage of whom?"

"..."

I took my hand back calmly, turned my eyes away and wanted to get out of bed: "I suddenly feel a little thirsty and need to drink some water..."

In the end, he snatched it back and pressed him on the bed, and then I watched as the corners of his eyes slightly bent, and his raised lips fell down and landed on my lips, followed by a gentle and domineering crush.

I couldn't get the answer from Qin Lian's mouth before I went to bed, but I was so sleepy because of him.On the morning of the third day, I saw Danwu.The night before yesterday I kept asking what Danwu looked like. Qin Lian told me that Danwu was very old, his skin was as black as coke, and his appearance was average. There were all kinds of messy colors on his face. The recovery of my body is not good, which is why he, as a doctor, felt ashamed and didn't come to see me immediately after I woke up, and suggested that I should see him less.

When he said this at the time, his expression was serious and his tone was serious. Although he was a little skeptical, he still really thought that was the case.It wasn't until seeing a real person that Danwu and Qin Lian were about the same age, with not that dark skin, and a very handsome appearance, only after a little green was painted on the forehead, did he suddenly realize that Qin Lian was actually jealous that night.

I turned back to look at Qin Lian, and found that he was reading the scroll as if fascinated, without looking up.I had no choice but to turn around again, Dan Wu smiled at me, and said to me in a non-fluent manner: "Just now someone came to report that you were awake, so I came to see you."

Dan Wu squeezed out a white Gu from the clay pot, slipped it in from the tip of my index finger, and came out after a while, the Gu had turned black.He looked at it, frowned, put the Gu worm back into the pot, thought for a while, and asked me: "I heard that your brother gave you ten years of life."

I nodded in agreement, and he asked again: "Do you know how the ten years of life are given?"

I opened my eyes slightly, and listened to him continue: "Since this secret technique was passed down from Zang Lang, it is inseparable from the Gu worm. First, the Gu worm must be raised in the body of the donator for ten days." , one day is one year, and then the human Gu is separated, and the Gu worm is stuffed into the body of the gifted person, and raised for another ten days, the lifespan of this person will be extended. However, this secret technique is extremely harmful to people. What people lose is not just a simple ten-year lifespan, but also only between people who are related by blood, so not many people are willing to use this secret technique. Your brother must love you very much."

My heart was shocked, and I wanted to connect with Su Qi's indifferent face, but I couldn't.Before he had finished digesting this long paragraph, he heard him say again: "It looks like you don't know the price your brother paid, do you want to cry? But now is not the time for you to feel guilty for him. You are now in your body There is also a Gu worm, which allows you to see things and run and jump now, but this Gu worm can only last for another five days. After five days, it will die. If you don’t have my treatment, you will still die .”

"I'll treat you. The method is not much different from your brother's method of renewing your life. Your situation is a bit special, the poison is deep into the bone marrow, and you can't pull it out. You can only completely eliminate it and make a new one. You have to replace it like your internal organs. Yes. This is the most troublesome part. I have been thinking about it for the past few days, and there are only two ways, you two choose one, and tell me the result after you decide."

After he finished speaking, he put the small clay pot in the palm of his hand and slowly rubbed it, his eyes suddenly changed into a half-smile, with a look of optimism. This appearance made my heart skip a beat. The intuition popped up again, and I just felt that the next words would not make people too happy.

Dan Wu spoke very slowly, as if he wanted me to digest every single word: "I can make two kinds of Gu worms, one is milder, and the ability to remove it is not very good, but it won't damage what you shouldn't. Somewhere, this kind of Gu worm enters your body, it can make you live for another ten years, after ten years, even I can’t save you alive; It will not only clean up the toxicity that should be cleaned up in your body, but also cause damage to other parts of you. If this Gu worm enters your body, there will be two consequences, one is that you will be killed on the spot, and the other is that you will be able to live like this from now on. A normal person is sick, old, and dead, but the premise is that you will lose a large part of your memory due to the attack of Gu worms, and you may even return to the mind of a child of a few years old, and you have to be taught everything again. Avoid. These two methods, I have made it clear, and I will give you three days to choose."

When his voice fell, no one answered for a while.It took me a while to turn my stiff neck, and I saw Qin Chu staring at him with wide eyes, Ah Ji still had a cold expression, Qin Lian looked calm, but let go of the hand holding the scroll.

After a while, Qin Lian took the lead to break the silence: "It is said that the secret technique of the Canglang Kingdom can also predict the future. Since you are the number one mystic in the Canglang Kingdom, you should be able to see Su Xi's future and know if she has the possibility Live for more than ten years."

"The premise of inferring the future is that she has never been against the sky before. She originally only had a lifespan of 20 years, but her brother forcibly extended her life to live until now. If I infer the future, I will not be able to infer her."

Qin Lian asked him again: "The second method, how sure are you that you can keep Su Xi alive?"

Dan Wu thought for a while: "More than half."

"How much more?"

Dan Wu smiled: "Although the Gu worms are controlled by me, they are still living things. If they are living things, there are uncertainties. I can't give you a very specific number, but I can only say more than half and less than [-]%. "

Qin Chu interjected: "The people of Zanglang state said that the patients you took over had never died. How did it become like this now?"

"I have two rules for treating patients. The first is that no one can watch, and the second is that all patients can only take over once. Usually when there are two options, I will only tell them the first one, so that they will not You will question me like you, but you will be grateful to me." Dan Wu took out a black pill from his arms, broke it into pieces and threw it into the clay pot, and said lazily, "Now I will tell you two frankly, even I didn't even care that if you choose the second one and die on the spot, it will have a bad impact on my reputation, and you should be grateful to me."

Such a thing, I can't make a choice right away.Subconsciously looking at Qin Lian, he frowned, obviously he was a little hesitant.

It seems that the law I thought of before is still of great reference value.If a person has stepped half of his foot on the palace of the king of hell, then no matter how he saves it, he will lose something.And I have walked on the path of the underworld twice, so this time I have to pay a price, which is understandable when I think about it.

That night, I suddenly dreamed about something from my childhood.That was when I was four years old, Su Qi took me to play in the Royal Garden, and I ran into Su Guo's Destiny Master by chance, he looked at us, and gave Su Qi a tea in his hand, Su Qi looked at me He was eager to give it to me, but was stopped by the Destiny Master. I immediately flattened my mouth and started to cry. As a result, he knelt down and looked at me thoughtfully for a long time. At that time, I only felt that his eyes were as black as black jade. When I was a little dizzy after watching for a long time, I suddenly heard him ask me: "Princess Xi, if one day you had to choose between losing your life, paralyzing your legs, losing your memory, or going blind, which one would you choose?"

At that time, I said without any hesitation: "Of course I lost my memory." After finishing speaking, I ignored him and continued to stare at the tea in Su Qi's hand.

After that, it was a little unclear, as if he just smiled and left, and he didn't remember whether Su Qi gave me the tea.I was in a dream, but I clearly knew that this was not a dream, but something that really happened when I was four years old.Previously, I always felt that Su’s Masters and Apprentices had a false reputation, and I rarely saw them prophesying about the future. Now when I thought about it in my dream, I woke up suddenly, breaking out in a cold sweat.

It's just that although I told me in advance, it was of no use.The Destiny Master didn't tell me what to choose at that time. Before the result came, I still didn't know whether my current choice was right or not.

Thinking about it this way made me even more depressed unconsciously.

The next day, a letter from Su Qi was handed to me by the dark guard.He probably wrote this letter just after he learned about Shang Yan, so most of the short notes were used to greet Qin Lian. From questioning character to ability to the entire Southern Dynasty, he scolded him bloody The head, the brevity of his words, the rich imagination, and the abundance of emotion opened my eyes.Only the last sentence is for me, that is, let me live well and do my best.

When he said that, I became more and more at a loss.I was very annoyed that Danwu gave a choice, and it was difficult to sleep all night.And Qin Lian probably felt the same way. After I rolled over again in the night, he hugged me from behind, sniffing in his ear, and asked me softly, "Can't sleep? I don't know what to do?"

I nodded silently: "Have you chosen a more satisfactory method?"

"What if you are elected?"

I grabbed his sleeve and looked at him sincerely in the dark: "I will listen to you."

He paused, smiled, leaned over and kissed my forehead, and then slowly said: "If I have to choose, I will choose the second one."

Qin Lian said that the choices people face can be roughly summed up in two ways, one is conservative and the other is aggressive.Of course, if you have a conservative choice as a retreat when you are advancing aggressively, it would be great.Unfortunately, we often can only choose one of the two, which is the most painful.According to Qin Lian's intentions, he would often choose to be aggressive.Because if people hesitate between these two choices, it must be because conservative means that the present is safe and the future will definitely not be safe, and radical means that the future may be safe but the present is not safe. Although some people say that radicalism is more risky than conservative, that is just Judging from the current situation, if we take a long-term view, conservatism is like an overturned nest, and there will be no eggs. Although aggressiveness will die, it will also live.This is like political reform. Although conservative and peaceful can survive, since someone proposes reform, it means that it is necessary to reform.Since there is, we must do it. If we don’t do it now, we will do it in the future.If you don't do it later, you will regret it.If the future fails by choosing to be conservative, it is its own fault.If you fail now because you chose to advance aggressively, it is fate. Although it is a pity, you will not regret it.

It is rare for him to explain so patiently. I thought for a while and said silently: "Father once said that you are a person who is naturally suitable for playing politics. It is true. Every example has something to do with political reform."

"..." The corners of Qin Lian's mouth twitched halfway, and he said flatly, "I'm sorry, I've accepted it."

"But……"

"But?"

"However, even if I live, I will lose my previous memories." I whispered, "Dan Wu also said, maybe I will become a fool who knows nothing, then, in that case, you still don't know. Will you like me? Will you like someone else?"

Qin Lian let out a "huh", pondered for a moment, and said seriously, "Well, I can't tell."

I immediately became angry and fierce: "You can't like others! You can only like me!"

His tone sounded very disapproving: "But what if you really can't fall in love with others?"

"..." I was a little embarrassed for a while, and there was a hint of crying in my voice, "How could you be like this..."

My crying became louder and sadder. At first, Qin Lian watched with great interest, but then realized something was wrong, and immediately hugged me in his arms, stroked my hair over and over again, and said A bunch of love words that I have never heard before, I was still crying, finally Qin Lian finally had no choice but to say: "I'm just joking, why can't you hear it?"

I cried even louder: "You still accuse me..."

Qin Lian completely surrendered, picked me up, pushed me on the pillow, grabbed my hands and kissed them carefully.Before I fell into unconsciousness, I pushed him away and covered my mouth, but was quickly pulled down by him. He was on top of me, looking at me with a smile: "What are you doing, even a kiss?"

With tears in my eyes, I asked in a low voice, "Aren't you really going to like someone else?"

He sighed, looked at me seriously, and said, "Really."

I looked into his eyes, thought for a moment, and felt that his words were quite believable, so I said generously, "Then, I'll give you a kiss."

"..."

Qin Lian told me that since I have nothing to do, I might as well write some of the memories I want to keep, so that when I really lose my memory, I will always feel reliable when I look at my previous handwriting.But I wanted to write too much, so much that I thought it would be okay to make up a secret history of the second princess of Su and pass it on to the world. Confused, he discussed with Qin Lian: "There is only half a day left, but I think I need at least half a year."

Qin Lian had an attitude of being completely godly, picked me up, carried me to the desk, and said with a smile: "Actually, I think you can just write three sentences."

"what?"

He pressed his forehead against mine, and said softly, "The first sentence is 'I am Su Xi', the second sentence is 'Qin Lian is my husband', and the third sentence..."

"What is it?"

"The third sentence is 'Ask Qin Lian for everything', that's enough."

"..."

I can see that Qin Lian has been trying to make me happy these days, but I'm still a little scared.From time to time, I still worried about the [-]% possibility of being killed on the spot, and also worried about what would happen after I came back to life but lost my memory. However, these worries gradually disappeared when I saw the calm and calm attitude on Qin Lian's face that seemed unshakable.I don't know if Qin Lian has the same hidden worries as me, but he never said it out, never showed the slightest bit of panic, and every time I hesitated to speak but stopped brazenly rubbing into his arms, he would always hug me gently I, coaxing me softly, acted resolutely and wisely, as if I had returned to the very good-looking and even better look when I first met him.

With him like this, I feel a lot more at ease.I tried to comfort myself in my heart over and over again. Although I had a bad life, but I was able to survive until now, which means that I have always been lucky.Now that he has been lucky so many times without any danger, he can probably continue to be lucky again.

Danwu arrived three days later, still holding a pottery pot containing Gu worms in his hand as a symbol, and also carrying a wooden basket on his back.When I saw him, I started to get nervous involuntarily, clutching Qin Lian's sleeve tightly and unwilling to let go.

Dan Wu smiled: "I can give you a little time to say goodbye."

In fact, there is nothing to say.I said my last words long before I arrived in Zanglang Kingdom, but I just thought that after we separated like this, it would be a blank for me after waking up, and I couldn't get rid of that feeling of tension.Dan Wu waited patiently for me with his arms crossed, while Qin Chu couldn't bear to see it, and said, "If you stretch out your head and retract your head, it's also a knife. Su Xi, be brave."

I said weakly: "I can't be brave..."

Qin Lian smiled, with a trace of clear water on the corner of his lips, and whispered in my ear: "When you wake up, I'll tell you what you want to hear the most, okay?"

"Really?" Immediately realizing that something was wrong, he accused him angrily, "At that time, [-]% of me would not remember what you said now, what if you go back on your word?"

After the words fell, Qin Chu raised his forehead and said, "When did you become so smart..."

In the end, I failed to get the so-called words I most wanted to hear from Qin Lian in advance. When watching them go out, Qin Lian stopped, turned his head and asked Dan Wu: "How long will it take?"

"You'd better pray for as long as possible." Danwu took out all kinds of strange things from the wooden basket without raising his head, and said, "If I have opened the door in less than two hours, it means that she It's dead. If I haven't opened the door for more than three hours, you might as well go to the kitchen to cook some porridge and prepare it for her when she wakes up."

I was still nervous, Dan Wu gestured with a needle on my finger, stopped for a while, raised his head and said to me: "After this needle, you will fall asleep, and you may never wake up. "

I nodded, and he said again: "I'll give you one last chance, do you want to consider switching to another kind of Gu?"

I shook my head, but Dan Wu also shook his head: "I really don't understand you. Ten years is not too short, and you will still keep your memories. Isn't it good to get along like this? What's more, your physical condition is really not good. Well, even if you really wake up, in my opinion, you won’t be able to live another 20 years, and you’ll lose all the things you remember before, so you’re not worth the loss.”

I asked him, "Did you tell Qin Lian that I won't live for 20 years?"

"He came to ask me that day, and I told him."

"Since he knows that I won't live for 20 years and still chooses the second one, it means that he has carefully considered it." I thought about it, and said what I hadn't said before, "What's more, you also said that choosing the first I can only live another ten years. From now on, I will wake up every morning and think that I will not live for ten years. I know that I am powerless in the countdown of my life. I don’t want to experience it again. It’s better to choose the second one.”

Dan Wu looked at me for a while, and didn't ask any more questions. He just said, "After my needle goes down, you can't regret it anymore. You have to think about it."

I nodded, and felt a pain in my fingertips the next moment.

His eyes gradually blurred until he couldn't help but feel sleepy and closed his eyes.

At the moment when I closed my eyes, I was still a little reluctant, and the fear of death surged up, even if I fell into a dream, it seemed to follow me like a shadow.

I don't want to die like this.

That day in Su Country, Su Zi drank tea and I drank medicine. Facing the black decoction that had been in existence for more than ten years, she wanted to pour it into the flower pot.Sadly, I think that such a day is really sad, and such a life is really meaningless.

Thinking this way, she said it like this. Su Zi didn't refute me, but just smiled: "You are only 12 years old, and you still don't understand anything. After you have experienced a lot in the future, you will naturally understand."

Now I finally understand that the reason why people don't want to die is the meaning of my life.

My dream didn't end for a long time, but more and more people appeared instead.A Ji, Su Qi, Su Zi, Qin Lian, and even the dead Zhao Youyi appeared as if they were flying around, and the most numerous of them were Qin Lian.

Qin Lian's face appeared in the dream again and again, but still felt that it was not enough. I wanted to see his smile again, the way he pursed his lips, his demeanor and demeanor, and the gentle expression that emerged when he was with me.

I would love to wake up soon and see it for myself again.Very anxious, but there is no way.

This dream seemed to last for a very long time, and at the end of the day, all the figures gradually disappeared, and I was left standing there alone, surrounded by an empty, far-reaching, desolate and lonely place.

After standing for a long time, I gradually felt very tired, and at the same time slowly began to hurt, as if every inch of bone was being nailed into the pain, and I couldn't avoid it, and there was nowhere to escape.It wasn't until it was unbearable that the sharp pain suddenly evacuated.But still floating in the dream, everywhere is blank, and I have nowhere to go.

I don't know how long it took, but I finally woke up gradually from the dream.He vaguely felt a person sitting beside the bed, slowly opened his eyes, and the outline of that person gradually became clear.A silhouette is already picturesque.

He was holding a bowl of soup, his brows and eyes were calm, and his expression was calm.Seeing me looking at him, the corners of my lips pursed slightly, forming a rather nice arc.

His fingers stroked my temples lightly, and said softly: "Xi'er."

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