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Chapter 120 The Pessimistic Way of Thinking
"Why do you keep asking such questions?" Zhong Wenxun shook his head helplessly, "As I said, you helped me solve my doubts, you are a very useful and powerful person, why do you always doubt Own?"

Gan Lu didn't answer him, but looked at the sky.

"Look at the flock of birds, whirring across the sky, so free."

Zhong Wenxun followed her gaze, only seeing the slightest clouds in the blue sky.

The bell rang for the end of get out of class, and the students walked out in groups. The atmosphere of laughter and joy could not infect the gloomy atmosphere here at all.

Zhong Wenxun stared at the place looking hopeless, and hurriedly took Gan Lu out of the area with tall buildings.

"Could it be that senior didn't come to Rawden City at all?"

"No, she said before she left that she went home. I know her. When she said she would go home, she was the kind of person who would really come back. Maybe she walked to the door of the house and left again."

Thinking of this, Zhong Wenxun suddenly turned around and asked Gan Lu beside him: "Xiao Lu, when you ran away from home, where was the first place you wanted to go?"

Gan Lu didn't even think about it, and answered him directly: "Go to the river and commit suicide."

"When I didn't ask."

Zhong Wenxun was making fun of himself, shut up and sat on the side of the road, looking at the endless flow of the city, he was a little confused for a while.

The two were silent for a long time, Gan Lu sat down beside him, propped her chin and asked him, "Why did you save me then?"

"It's nothing, I just think it's a pity that you are still so young."

Hearing what Zhong Wenxun said, Gan Lu smiled wryly, and said in a low voice, "What a pity? I don't think so. If you can't find your own meaning and value in life, it's actually no different from death. Maybe, now I It's just a walking corpse."

When Gan Lu said this, she was very calm, like a pool of stagnant water, without waves or ups and downs in her tone.

Zhong Wenxun turned his head to look at Gan Lu like this, and didn't know how to refute her for a while.

Gan Lu's empty eyes were like an abyss, she seemed to have shut herself in the abyss, unwilling to come out.

"Sometimes I also think that since the person who committed suicide has made this decision, it proves that she has thought through the consequences. Why do everyone have to save her one after another and make her a joke. I feel like a joke now , you can’t even choose your own life or death.”

Gan Lu's words sounded like she was complaining, but her tone was still calm, as if she was talking about something unimportant.

Zhong Wenxun didn't interrupt, and only after she had finished speaking, he opened his mouth slowly.

"Maybe it's because there are too many beautiful things in this world. Those who save people always feel that you haven't seen mountains and rivers, experienced vigorous love, and eaten delicious food. They feel that you still have big things when you are young." You have a youth and a bright future, why give up the future for some small things."

Seeing that Gan Lu didn't answer the phone again, Zhong Wenxun pretended to be casual and asked her again: "Is there really nothing in this world worthy of your nostalgia?"

"I am a person with very low material desires. Maybe I am a bit cold by nature, but if I want to live a happy life, I have to pretend to be an affectionate person. Whether it is friends or family members, it seems that I can’t let go of everything, but in reality I am willing to let go of everything. Excuse me. Things in this world are nothing more than life and death, naked people come and go naked, one person can live, and a group of people can live. This world is really boring."

It was a bit windy, Gan Lu stretched her waist, and stood up.She handed Zhong Wenxun a hand and pulled him up from the steps.

"Thank you for saving me, although I hope you don't care about me. Although senior sister is different from me, I guess maybe it is because of you that senior sister refuses to go home. Think about where you often go here. Which places are the places where the senior sister is full of memories, maybe she is there."

Zhong Wenxun put his hand on it, stood up and said, "I may guess where she is. But I hope that once you find her, you can continue the agreement with me. I will take you away, to a new place , but you also have to find what you like to do and stick to it, not suicide."

Gan Lu didn't care about spreading her hands, and agreed with Zhong Wuqi's words.

It was already dark, and stars in twos and threes dotted the night sky.There were no cherry blossoms on the Cherry Blossom Avenue in Roden City, and the lush leaves covered the sky and the sun.

Zhong Wenxun and Gan Lu walked over holding the Ye Mingzhu without saying a word.Not far away was a thin figure along the river bank, surrounded by the dim light of fireflies.

"Muya!"

When there were still tens of meters away, Zhong Wenxun couldn't help but yelled at the figure behind him.

Seeing the familiar person on the river bank turned his head and was about to run away, Zhong Wenxun spread his wings and flew over, grabbing her.

"Mu Ya, why are you running around? Do you know that I've been looking for you for a long time."

Bai Muya broke free from his grasp, avoiding his sight and whispered, "What do you want me for?"

This sounding obvious angry words made Zhong Wenxun dumbfounded for a moment, he was at a loss in embarrassment, he didn't know what to say.

"Mu Ya, I have never understood what your human feelings are like. Some time ago, Luo Luo told me a story, and I seem to have some new thoughts."

"Oh." Bai Muya didn't seem to want to talk to him, and sat down again, with her back to him.

"I have been thinking about a question, when will human beings want to see someone infinitely but don't see them. Until another person tells me that it is love."

Yingying flames surrounded them, in the dark woods.Bai Muya, who had her back to Zhong Wenxun, heard him say this, and for a moment didn't know how to face him.

Her blushing cheeks and beating heart made her so nervous that her mind went blank.She buried her head in her arms and asked softly, "So?"

"So, I want to find you and listen to you personally. I ran away for no reason that day and kept avoiding me. Is it because you like me but think I'm pretending to be lonely?"

Such a straightforward question made Bai Muya flustered for a while.She touched her hot cheek, her violent heartbeat could not calm down for a long time.

"So what do you want me to answer for you?"

Zhong Wenxun thought for a moment, but whispered: "I don't know."

He really didn't know, didn't know what was going on in his heart.His feelings for Mu Ya can't be called liking, but compared to friends, it seems to be a little bit more.

Bai Muya's heart was still beating fast, but her thoughts fell to the bottom again.

She stood up slowly, turned around and looked at the elf in front of her, feeling a little dizzy for a while.Maybe it's because of being too nervous, or maybe it's a deeper disappointment.

Her heart seemed to be about to jump out of her chest, she looked into his eyes, and said word by word: "Zhong Wenxun, how can you be so charming, I don't like you. We've been fine for a long time, in the future, don't come to me again gone."

(End of this chapter)