Journey to another world in the subway

Chapter 132 Responsible
Su Mengfan regrets that Ullman, who can dispel his doubts with mocking comments, is not around now.

The difference between them is that the journey through the subway forced Su Mengfan to see the world through a multi-dimensional prism, while Ullman's austere life taught him to see things simply:
Just look at things with the eyes of a sniper's gun.

He didn't know which of the two was right, but Su Mengfan no longer believed that there was only one correct answer to every question.

Usually in life, especially in the subway, everything is unclear and change is relative.

Khan had initially explained it to him using the platform clock as an example.

If the basis of perception of the world is that we become far-fetched and relative over time, what is there to say about the other problems of life?

It's all coming from those weird, murderous noises coming out of those pipes in the tunnel!

There are several explanations for the eternal secret of the light of the Kremlin stars in people's souls, and there are many answers to this question.

"why?"

The people Su Mengfan met in Victory Park were the people from the cannibals and the fighters at the station.

Guevara's Brigade has its own answer, as in sectarian demons, the Fourth Reich, and orators with machine guns, like the Khan, etc., they all have their answers.

It is for this reason that it is difficult for Su Mengfan to choose and accept one of them.

Su Mengfan will get a new answer every day, so he can't convince himself which one is true, because in a new day, an accurate and complete answer may appear again.

Who should he trust?
What do you believe?
Believe in the big worm, the man-eating god, whose body is like an electric train, filling the barren and scorched land with all living beings;
Believe in the raging and envious Xibo, in his vanity and reflection--the devil;
Believe in the triumph of other groups throughout the subway, in the supremacy of the birth of a curly-haired man with a head of blond hair and an upturned nose.

Su Mengfan felt that there was no difference between the dark races.

Any faith merely serves as a crutch to support him.

When Su Mengfan first came here, the commander's story about how a monkey picked up a cane and became a human made him laugh out loud.

After that, the smartest monkey never left the stick, because he couldn't stand up straight.

He understands why people need this kind of support.

Life without it would be blank, like an abandoned tunnel.

From Victory Park came the desperate cry of the savages.

When he realized that the big worm was just the priest's invention still ringing in Su Mengfan's ears, Su Mengfan sensed something similar and found that the invisible observer did not exist.

The evasive observer, the snake and other subway gods make our lives easier.

Does that mean he is better than others?
Su Mengfan knew that was not the case.

The crutch was in his hand, and he should be brave enough to admit it.

He realized that he was on a difficult and important mission, that the life and death of the whole subway was in his hands, a mission that had not yet been entrusted to him by accident and had not yet become his support.

Su Mengfan is always consciously or unconsciously looking for evidence in everything he has chosen to accomplish his mission, not Hunter, but greater people and great things.

What happened to Su Mengfan during his journey just proves one thing, he is different from everyone else.

He is different.

He should smash and exterminate the vermin that would wipe out the survivors of humanity.

As he walks the path, faithfully interpreting the logos in his own way, his sense of success transcends reality, playing with statistical probability, deflecting bullets, blinding monsters and enemies, and forcing allies into the right place and the right place. time.

How did he understand why Thatch wanted to give him the map of the D-6 base that had been hidden for several years?
This force was miraculously not destroyed 20 years ago?
How was it unnatural to explain that he had seen one of them?
Perhaps, the only living missile operator in the entire subway?

Providence has personally put a powerful weapon into Su Mengfan's hands, and sent someone to assist him, so as to deal a fatal blow to the inexplicable and ruthless forces and crush him in one fell swoop?

How else to explain all of Su Mengfan's miraculous deliverances in the most desperate of situations?
He believed in his destiny and that he was invulnerable, even as his companions died one after another.

Su Mengfan's thoughts returned to what Sergey Andrey said about fate in Polyanka.

Those words then pushed him forward.

Like a new spring on an old rusty wind-up toy.

At the same time, it made him very uncomfortable, perhaps because this theory deprived Su Mengfan of his own free will and forced him to follow the line of his own destiny.

On the other hand, when everything has already happened, how can he refute the existence of this line of thought?
He no longer believed that his whole life was just a continuation of random events.

Too much has happened to leave this trajectory like that impossible.

If he has come this far, he must go further—this is the inevitable logic of choosing this path.

It is too late to have any doubts.

He must move forward, even if it means taking responsibility for his own life, but also for the lives of others.

But all the sacrifices were not in vain.

He has to accept this, he has a responsibility to go to the end.

This is his fate.

Did he make it clear?

He doubted his choice, distracted for so long by ignorance and hesitation, but the answer was always right.

Ullman is right, there is no need to complicate life.

Su Mengfan walked briskly.

He hasn't heard any noise coming from the pipes.

No danger was encountered on the way to the VDNKh station.

But Su Mengfan had contacted people who wanted to go to the Heping Avenue Station, and he ran counter to these unfortunate, exhausted people who got rid of everything and escaped danger.

They regarded him as a madman, who walked alone to the lair of horrors, while others tried to leave that accursed place.

What others regard as a magic cave is a pilgrimage for Su Mengfan.

There are no patrols on Metro Line 6.

Su Mengfan was so absorbed in his own thoughts that he didn't notice that he was approaching the All-Russian Exhibition Hall station, although it had been an hour and a half.

He climbed to the station, looked around, and shivered involuntarily, which reminded him of the VDNKh station that had appeared in his nightmare.

The lighting was half broken, and the air was filled with the smell of burning gunpowder. From somewhere not far away, the moans of women and the painful cries of soldiers could be heard.

(End of this chapter)