Two-dimensional star system

Chapter 6 [Chapter 005] The king was born and I was not born

If you don't like this chapter, please skip it.However, I still advise you to read this article. After all, it was an article that became popular on the Internet in a certain year.

This chapter can also be regarded as the original text of "The King was born and I was not born".

I am an orphan, maybe it is the result of patriarchy, maybe it is the product of the love between men and women who cannot be responsible.

It was Zheye who picked me home.

That year, he returned to the city from the countryside to implement the policy, and saw me by the garbage dump at the station, a beautiful, quiet little baby girl, surrounded by many people, he stepped forward, and the baby girl smiled at him.

He gave me a home and a beautiful name, Tao Yao.Later he said, that smile of mine back then was worthy of the name of Tao Zhiyaoyao, shining brightly.

Zheye's life was extremely sad. His parents were scholars who returned to China, but they did not escape the cultural catastrophe. Both of them died in resentment.From then on, he was alone until he picked me up when he returned to the city at the age of 35.

I call Zheye Uncle.

Childhood is not too unpleasant in my memory.Just get rid of one thing.

When I was in school, some naughty male classmates called me a "bastard". I went home crying and told Zheye.The next day Zheye specially picked me up from school and asked the boys: Who said she was a bastard?When the little boy saw the tall and burly Zheye, he didn't dare to say anything. Zheye sneered: If anyone says that again next time, if I hear it, I'll beat him up!Some people muttered that she was either your child or a bastard.Zheye held my hand and turned around and smiled: But I treasure her more than my biological daughter.If you don’t believe me, who can stand up and show me whose clothes are as beautiful as hers?Whose shoes and school bag are better than hers?She drinks milk and bread every morning. What do you eat?The children were immediately discouraged.

Since then, no one has ever called me a bastard.When I grow up, I always laugh when I think of this.

My life is much luckier than that of ordinary orphans.

My favorite place is the study.The room is full of books, and Zheye's desk is under the big bright window. When the sun is shining, his majestic silhouette concentrating on his work is like a painting against the light.I always look for books to read by myself, and when I find them, I lie on the sofa.After a while, Zheye would look back at me, his smile was warmer than the sunshine outside the window in winter.Tired of reading, I just lay on his shoulder and quietly watched him draw pictures and write articles.

He laughed: Do you want to do my job when you grow up?
I curled my lips: I don't want it, it's so tanned, it's dirty to death.

Ah, I forgot to say, Zheye is a construction engineer.But the wind and the sun did not detract from his appearance at all.He is always gentle, clean and personable.

On and off, not without women wanting to get into Zheye's life.

When I was eight years old, once, Zheye almost wanted to talk about marriage with a woman.The woman is a teacher, shrewd and beautiful.I don't know why I don't like her, but I always feel that the smile on her face is pasted on. When Zheye is there, she smiles at me sweetly and gently. When she is not there, the smile disappears like a magic trick.I'm afraid of her.One day when I was reading a picture book on the balcony, she asked me: Where are your real parents?Never visited you once?I stayed and looked at her not knowing what to say.She clicked her tongue twice, and said, this kid, silly, no wonder they don't want you.I was stunned, and suddenly Zheye came over with a livid face, took my hand and went back to the room without saying anything.

I cried alone in the quilt at night.Zheye came in, hugged me and said, don't be afraid, Yaoyao won't cry.

Afterwards, we no longer saw that woman come to our house.

Later, I heard Zheye's good friend Qiu Fei ask him, why did they break up again?Zheye said, this woman has a bad heart, if she marries her, Yaoyao will not have a good life in the future.Qiu Fei said, you still can't forget Ye Lan.Eight-year-old me firmly remembered the name.When I grew up, I knew that Ye Lan was Zheye's girlfriend back then.

We have always had each other.Zheye handled everything well, including allowing me to go through adolescence smoothly and healthily.

After I was admitted to university, because the school was far away from home, I lived on campus and only went home on weekends.

Zheye sometimes asks me: Do you have a boyfriend?I always smile and keep silent.There are a few good boys in school who always like to hang around me, but I don’t like any of them: A is tall and handsome, but his grades are third-rate; The homework looks good, but the temperament is like a reckless man...

I rarely talk to male classmates.In my eyes, they are all naive and superficial, and they don't have time to show their best side in front of people, they are too immature and lose their stability.

On my 20th birthday, Zheye gave me a ruby ​​ring as a gift.Zheye started to buy this kind of sporadic jewelry for me a long time ago. He said: when a girl grows up, she needs a few decent things to decorate.After dinner, he accompanied me to the shopping mall, and bought whatever I liked immediately.

After returning to school, I was sensitive and found that my classmates liked to talk about me behind my back.I don't mind either.Because of my background, I am used to being discussed by others.Until one day a good female classmate grabbed me privately: They said you have a boyfriend who is much older than you?I am baffled: who said that?She said: It is said that several people saw it, you went shopping with him, you are very affectionate!Said it's no wonder you look down on these poor boys, so it turns out that you have been sidelined by Brother Kong Fang!I thought for a while, my face slowly turned red, and after a while I smiled and said: They misunderstood.

I didn't explain.Sitting quietly reading a book, the heat on his face did not fade for a long time.

Go home on weekends and clean up as usual.Zheye's room is very clean, a sweater he often wears is put on the edge of the bed.It was a beige-colored one with a bottle neckline. When I bought it, I was looking at a gray sweetheart neckline. I chose this one.At that time Zheye smiled and said, well, it's up to you, it seems that Xiao Yaoyao thinks I'm old and wants me to dress up younger.

I slowly folded the dress, smiling and thinking about some trivial things.

Over the next period of time, I found that Zheye was in very good spirits. He walked briskly and briskly, and occasionally I heard him humming some songs. It was a bit like the way I was when I was admitted to college.I wonder.

On Friday, I received a call from Zheye, asking me to go home early and go out to have dinner with him.

He shaved and changed his clothes.I was suspicious: Someone introduced you to a girlfriend?Zheye smiled: I am an old man, what kind of girlfriend are you talking about? It is your Uncle Qiu, and there is another old friend who has been with me for many years. You can call her Auntie Ye later.

I knew it must be Ye Lan.

Zheye told me on the road that he got in touch with Ye Lan through Qiu Fei some time ago. Her husband passed away a few years ago. It feels good to see her again this time. If there is no accident, they are going to get married.

I responded casually, and gradually felt that my feet became cold and slowly spread upwards.

When I arrived at the restaurant, I looked at Ye Lan objectively: slightly fat, but not bloated, and there was still a bit of youthful charm between her brows. Compared with women of the same age, she undoubtedly still has an advantage.But standing with the handsome Zheye, she looks much older.

She treated me very well and kindly, as if she loved my house and loved her.

When I got home, Zheye asked me: What do you think of Aunt Ye?I said: You all plan to get married, of course I agreed.

I opened my eyes until the early hours of the morning before falling asleep.

I was sick when I got back to school.He had a fever and refused to hold the class. He felt top-heavy and finally fell down in the classroom.

When I woke up, I was lying in the hospital, hanging the bottle, and Zheye was sitting beside me reading a book.

I smiled tiredly: where am I?Zheye came to touch my head nervously: I finally woke up, the viral cold turned into pneumonia, you child, you are always careless.I laughed: If you want to get sick, what can you do?
In addition to going to work, Zheye is in the hospital.Whenever he wakes up from a slumber, he immediately searches for his person. He must see him immediately to feel at ease.I heard him talking to Ye Lan on the phone: Yaoyao is sick and I won't be free these days. I'll contact you when she gets better.I smiled sadly, if I was sick and could let him guard me every day, then I might as well not be sick for a long time.

I stayed in the hospital for a week before going home.Zheye set up a sofa at the door of my room, and he lay on it at night, and when I moved slightly, he got up to visit.

I remembered that when I was younger, my crib was placed in Zheye’s room. I had to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, so I fumbled for it by myself, but Zheye always heard it quickly, and turned on the light for me, saying : Yaoyao be careful.I didn't sleep by myself until I was in elementary school.

Ye Lan bought a large bouquet of flowers and fruits to visit me.I thank her politely.The dishes she cooks are delicious, but I can't eat them.I went back to my room early and lay down.

I dream.I dreamed that Zheye and Ye Lan were finally married, they were both young, Ye Lan looked very beautiful in white gauze, and I was so big to play the role of flower girl.Zheye smiled happily, but he just didn't look back at me. I clearly smelled the fragrance of lilies from the bride's bouquet... I sat up abruptly and woke up.After a while, he lay back down again and closed his eyes in despair.

In the dark, I heard Zheye come in, and then the small light by the bed was turned on.He sighed: what dream?Cried so hard.I pretended to be asleep, but tears dripped from the corners of my eyes to my ears like a leaky faucet.Zheye's warm fingers wiped those tears again and again, but he couldn't stop.

This disease lasted for more than ten days.After recovering, Zheye and I both lost a lot of weight.He said, "It's better to go home and live there. There are so many people in the school and the dormitory is bad.

He picks me up on a motorcycle every day.

With her face pressed against his back, her heart was always filled with joy and sadness.

Ye Lan never came to our house again.It took a long, long time before I was convinced that Ye Lan, like that female teacher, was in the past tense.

I successfully graduated and got a job.

I live happily and peacefully, with no distractions, only me and Zheye.Since I can't say anything, it's fine to maintain the status quo.

But God refused to give me such long-term happiness.

Zheye fainted on the construction site.The doctor's diagnosis was advanced liver cancer.I was heartbroken, but I still knew how to calmly ask the doctor: How many days are left?The doctor said: One year, maybe a little longer.

I took Zheye home.He is not bedridden. I go to work during the day and ask for an hourly nurse. At noon and night, I take care of him by myself.

Zheye smiled and said, "Look, I've been dragged down. I was supposed to go out on a date with my boyfriend."

I also laughed: Boyfriend?That's not just waiting for thousands of rivers and mountains.

After dinner every day, Zheye and I went out for a walk.I take his arm.In addition to being thinner than before, he is still tall and handsome. In the eyes of outsiders, this is not a picture of a family relationship. Only I can see the cruel reality under the beautiful appearance.I am sober and sad, and I can clearly see that the last days of Zheye and I are disappearing rapidly day by day.

Zheye is very calm as usual.Read books, design drawings.The hourly worker said that he spends most of his time in the study every day.

I like the study room more and more.After dinner, they always make a cup of tea, sit opposite Zheye, play a game of chess and poker.Then help Zheye sort out his information.He stipulated that there was a stack of things that I was not allowed to move.I'm curious.Finally, one day, he took a peek while he was away.

It was several thick diaries.

"Yaoyao has grown two front teeth. When I went to pick her up after get off work, she wobbled and rushed forward to be hugged by me."

"Yaoyao's tenth birthday, I made a wish that Uncle Zheye would be young forever. I am happy, Xiaoyaoyao, she is really a flower that explains my lonely life."

"I sent Yaoyao to report to the university today. She took the lead in everything, and I realized that she has grown into a beautiful girl, and I am getting old. I hope her life will not be as lonely as mine."

"Qiu Fei told me about Ye Lan's recent situation, but meeting her was not as yearning as I had imagined. She has aged a lot, although the elegance of her youth has not changed. She has not concealed that she still has a good impression of me."

"Yaoyao pneumonia. She kept calling my name in a coma, but only shed tears when she woke up. I was shocked. I didn't expect that marrying Ye Lan would have such a big impact on her."

"After sending Yaoyao off to school, she felt cold on her back. She took off her clothes and checked, only to find that it was wet in a large area. Alas, this child."

"The doctor announced that I have one year left to live. I am not afraid, but Yaoyao is a big deal to me. After I die, how to let her live a healthy and happy life is my first consideration."

……

I held the diary in my hand, and tears fell down.So he knew, so he knew.

In a few days, the stack of notebooks will be gone.I know Zheye has dealt with it.He doesn't want me to know that he knows what's on my mind, but he doesn't know that I already know.

Zheye left in the spring of the second year.When he was dying, he held my hand and said: I wanted to hand you over to a good boy, but I watched him put on the ring for you before leaving. It was too late.

I smile.He forgot, my ring, he bought it for me when I was 20 years old.

There is a letter from him in the desk drawer, with a few short sentences: Yaoyao, I’m gone, you can miss me, but don’t think about me all the time, you can live a peaceful and peaceful life, which is the greatest comfort to me.uncle.

I didn't cry so hard.

When I woke up in the middle of the night, I could still hear him say: Yaoyao, be careful.

When I was sorting out the sundries in the study, I found a dusty clay pot in the corner of the cabinet. It was very simple and interesting. I took it out, washed it, and stayed there. There was no decoration on it, only four sentences: Jun I was born before I was born, and I was old when I was born.Hate not to be born at the same time, and be good to you every day.

Only then did my tears flow unscrupulously.

(End of this chapter)