Rebirth: Bringing the System to Find a Husband

Chapter 148

Nie Shuangyan was already lying on the bed and fell asleep, but when she woke up from the dream, she felt that something was wrong with Baiyue's state, so she went downstairs in a daze. When she went downstairs, she heard a sound, which she remembered should be Baiyue's Room.

She stood at the door and listened for a while, feeling that Baiyue was not doing something shameful with a wild man.

She pushed open the door and turned on the light, wanting to see Baiyue's condition.

She quite liked Baiyue, so naturally she couldn't see what happened to Baiyue.

But Baiyue forced a voice from his throat: "Turn off the light."

"Why?" Although she asked, her hand was already on the switch and she pressed it.

Baiyue let out a breath from her chest, she knew it was Nie Shuangyan who came, but her current condition was not good at all, so bad that she didn't want to talk to anyone.

Nie Shuangyan narrowed her eyes, groping towards the bed, she touched her: "What's wrong?"

"It's okay." Baiyue didn't want to explain his situation to her. If he did, this person would probably be like everyone else—looking at himself like a monster.

She's been through it and doesn't want to go through it a second time.

She doesn't like to socialize with other people.

However, Nie Shuangyan was fine.

She likes her.

She didn't want her to see her bad side.

There is a quiet breath in the air.

Nie Shuangyan sat by the bed, she didn't ask the reason, because even if she guessed, she could guess what unpleasant things Baiyue had experienced, so she didn't want to mention it.

She just sat there.

Baiyue gradually calmed down.

After a long time, Baiyue finally spoke.

"I used to have a good friend. She liked to laugh and get angry very much. I envied her very much. Since I was a child, my feelings were all faked. If it was the real me, I would probably treat everyone the same way. A cold look."

"You are also looking cold now." Nie Shuangyan interjected.

Baiyue didn't seem to hear it, but just said what was in his heart.

She said: "I like her a lot. Like a man to a woman. Maybe not. But it's been so long ago that I can't remember what I thought at the time."

A word came to her mind and she said to herself: "Ambiguous."

"I have depression." She said here suddenly, bringing up the matter illogically, and then she added, "Severe. But it's better than others. Although I want to die from time to time, I can still be strong To be alive. It’s kind of boring sometimes.”

Nie Shuangyan listened to her quietly.

Most of the depressed patients suffer from too much pain, and their logic will be reduced-the speech is always incoherent.

It's also possible that Baiyue just wanted to find someone to talk to, so he said whatever came to his mind.

Baiyue said: "Later, we separated for a while, and I went abroad. After returning, she was very cold to me, and I talked to her, but she always ignored me. I was very sad, and I waited for her for a month , she still ignores me. When others talk to her, she will laugh and speak well, but only me, no matter what I say, she doesn't seem interested."

Bai Yue continued: "I'm indifferent to everything, but I have a bad temper. She ignored me, so I deleted all contact with her. Who doesn't have a little temper?"

"Later, I met an alumnus of that year by chance. The alumnus said that there were some people who wanted to get in touch with me and be friends with me. That girl would try her best to drive them away from me so that she would be the only one around me. Later, not Knowing why we had a falling out, that girl would talk about my black history everywhere, make things out of nothing, and turn black and white."

Nie Shuangyan frowned and said, "When did you get depression?"

Baiyue ignored her, and said to himself: "That alumnus learned from me and swore that the girl presented evidence. I asked him later, what is the evidence? That alumnus told me everything , I find it even more ridiculous. At that time, when I was young, it was just some brainless and arrogant words, but she added embellishments, cobbled together and said it to others, and smeared my reputation. Everyone thought I was not a good person. "

Nie Shuangyan said that the audience experience was extremely poor and there was no interaction at all, but she knew that Baiyue was in a lot of pain now, and she couldn't laugh with herself, and it was normal to ignore her, so she didn't care.

Bai Yue curled up on the bed, muttering to himself: "Everyone thinks I'm bad."

"They all think I'm bad."

"not good……"

Baiyue's tears fell, and slid down the bed along the corners of his eyes.

Even though she came from a very good background, she has been denied all the time.

Her father denied her because she was not a boy, and the company gave it to her. Once she married, the family company would not belong to her; her mother denied her because she resembled her father so much that it disgusted her.

From here, the fruit of depression was planted for her.

Later, when she was in school, she was alone, no one touched her, only those who touched her betrayed her and discredited her.

At that time, under the intertwined internal and external environment, she began to lose a lot of hair, sleep poorly, anxious and irritable,
When she came to her senses, she went for an examination, only to find that she had withstood depression, which was moderate.

Although she has been taking good medicine and seeing a psychiatrist every week, she still hasn't improved. On the one hand, it is related to her inheriting her father's company, and on the other hand, it is probably because she is too serious and can't see things. people.

Nie Shuangyan didn't care if she was listening or not, but he just told her a story in a calm tone: "It's okay to have a little girl born, but my mother died early, and my father is very carefree, and at the same time he is a very controlling person. People. He didn't want the little girl to be so independent like her mother that she was out of control, so he did a lot of things to the little girl, and the little girl was so smart that she learned to disguise herself as a fool. She cheated She deceived her father, herself, and many people outside. People outside think she is a fool and useless. The little girl thinks the same way. She thinks, as long as she is obedient, be a fool It's also very good, because everything has a father. She didn't realize it until one day, when this idiot died. Sometimes, it doesn't matter whether you do well or not, and what you look like in the eyes of outsiders. "

Nie Shuangyan exhaled and said as calmly as possible: "As long as you live a happy life, why should you care about what others think when you live your whole life? Wouldn't that be too tiring?"

She said: "A Yue, I have always felt that you are very strong, you are not like me, I am too casual, you have your own clear goals and know what you should do. This is very good, you follow your own goals Go on, even if you are biased along the way, it doesn't matter."

(End of this chapter)