Quick time travel guide to capture male gods

Chapter 852 The Imperial Concubine is Planning to Remarry (59)

There is another kind of pain in this world, that life is worse than death.

Of course Xiao Qingze knew this. For more than ten years, before he met Xu Mengyao, wasn't he like this?

It looks chic, but in fact he has never been really chic in his heart.

It seems that he doesn't care about anything, but who knows what he really cares about?
Indeed, in this world, he didn't want to care about anything except Xu Mengyao, and he really didn't care about anything in the world before he met her.

This anything does not include those dark beginnings in his heart, those unbreakable memories, and the smiles and betrayals that always appear in his dreams.

Be it Zhu Chenguo, that person, or the later Princess Xiangxiang, they have nothing to do with him.

Since you can't kill them, forget them completely.

Xiao Qingze had always thought this way, but he couldn't control things like dreams.

Perhaps ever since he saw his father thrust the sword into his mother's heart, the hatred in his heart had never stopped. He said it was no longer relevant, but deep down in his heart, he had never really let go.

Although in the past few days after meeting Xu Mengyao, he never dreamed of what happened back then, nor did he dream of his mother appearing on purpose to say anything to him.

He also has dreams these few days, but the dreams are all related to Xu Mengyao, as if they were memories of their relationship in the previous life, and it seems to be earlier than the previous life, earlier than the previous life, as if 1 years ago, Can only look at her but can not approach the past.

Other than that, I can't think of anything else.

Xiao Qingze looked at the king coldly, his pained look really made him irritable.

What right does he have to suffer?It was obvious that all the pain was caused by him alone.

"Xu Mengyao, come with me." Xiao Qingze said to Xu Mengyao.

Xu Mengyao pulled out her hand forcefully, took a small step and walked in front of Xiao Qingze, staring up at his eyes.

"Where are you going? As I said, as long as I'm with you, no matter where the world is, I will be very happy, but I don't want you to leave with me with hatred, Qingze, even if it's for me, I beg you, don't be blind Is it okay to hate His Majesty the King?"

Xiao Qingze didn't speak immediately, but looked up at the king coldly.

What did he do?
Why?
Why did my mother choose this hypocritical man 20 years ago, and why would Xu Mengyao still stand by him 20 years later?
He was just a man who knew some sweet words, but his words and deeds were all lies. How on earth did he make them risk their lives for her?
"I really regret not killing you back then!" Xiao Qingze said to the king.

Having said that, there was not only hatred in his tone, he was also struggling.

Not just because the king is his biological father, but because memory cannot deceive himself.

Xiao Qingze has been using his mother's ghost as an excuse, and has been emphasizing in his heart that he was unable to kill the king because of his mother's constant instructions. But in fact, without those mothers' voices, he would not have actually killed him. king.

Because of those happy memories of childhood, he always thinks of them.

Even though the pain doubles every time I think about it, I just can't pretend it didn't happen.

He always said that the king was hypocritical and a man who told lies.

But during those few years, my mother's smile was definitely not fake. At that time, they were in the palace, but they lived a happy life like ordinary people. That man never brought home government affairs, and he always tried his best to handle them well. Only for the mother and him to see the father side.

(End of this chapter)