Cruel President's Sweetheart

Memory is optional, you can choose sad memory or happy memory, the most important thing is that you feel happy!
Suddenly, I feel that my world has changed into chaos. I don’t know what to do next, whether I can really be like usual, in everyone’s eyes, oh, I am happy, but who understands my happiness and happiness? Sad!Why is my memory just the opposite of others', remembering those sad hard memories, not those happy memories!I shook helplessly, yes!Life is like that. I thought of my biological mother, a traditional Chinese woman. She is the only husband and child in the world, but does my husband have her in his heart?It's not like he was promiscuous outside, and finally he ended up in a miserable end.

In the afternoon sky, the wind blew away the dark clouds, and a blue sky began to appear. I was like a person in a cover, when I wrapped myself tightly, I lay on the bed, in a daze, thinking about my own thoughts, Thoughts are a little wandering.

At this time, I need to meditate quietly by myself. There are too many past events in my heart that I can’t let go of.Although Lin Jie is dead, my hatred for him has not disappeared. There is no room for a little sand in my mind. What I hate the most is abandonment and disgust.

When I think of my biological mother, I feel like a thorn in my heart, the pain is unbearable!I will never forget that winter, there was heavy snow like goose feathers in the sky!
I clearly remember the winter in City A that year. The snow was extremely heavy. For southerners, it was indeed a rare snow scene. The snow lasted for more than ten days. The town where I lived was very remote and the terrain was relatively high. , the snow on the ground is about ten centimeters thick. I remember that there is an open space of [-] square meters in front of my house. The friends in the yard like to play on it. At that time, I was only a four-year-old child, and I was very special. Love to play. In winter, for a rural child, snow is undoubtedly the best toy. The mountain village in the distance is covered with new clothes. In the silvery white snow, a group of children are chasing and laughing at each other. Cheerful children's voices,,,,,,

Come and chase me, the man in the yard smiled and picked up a handful of snow, and slammed it hard at me. The snow slid down from my neck, icy, and I couldn't help but hesitate, how could I win when I was four years old? Xiaoling who is almost ten years old,

I started to cry and shout, "Mom, Xiaoling is bullying Ruoruo, mom", I cried like tears, and I didn't see anyone answering me. When I came out, at this moment, I saw Li Xiaopang and the others walking towards me in the distance, and they were sure to surround me. They laughed at me, "Lin Ruo, even if you shout out loud, your mother won't come out, you're about to become An unwanted child, Li Xiaopang from Aunt Li’s house next door put his hands on his waist and said to me in a very airy manner: Speaking of Li Xiaopang, in fact he has a nice name, Li Haoran, because he looks fatter , the friends in the courtyard gave him a nickname, called Li Xiaopang, and it became a habit when there were too many people shouting. , I take
Crying and retorting: "Mom loves Ruoruo the most, and Dad loves Ruoruo too. You are the child that no one wants." Dad loves you, but I heard from my mother that your father doesn’t want your mother and daughter anymore, your dad has already gotten along with your third aunt, and he went to love your third aunt’s children, haha, big idiot Lin Ruo.” The big idiot Lin Ruo, the big idiot Lin Ruo, and the friends around me were booing and throwing snowballs at me. At this time, I was completely overwhelmed. There was an inexplicable panic in my heart. The snow on the ground threw them at them angrily, completely forgetting the coldness of the snow, bump, bump, the snow hit me, the so-called outnumbered, seeing that I couldn't beat them, I had no choice but to retreat, and ran home with all my strength Shouting "Mom, mom,,,,,, they bullied Ruo Ruo, I heard the clamor behind, Lin Ruo, big idiot, don't run, the sound resounded throughout the sky, I dragged my petite body, stumbling and running When I arrived at the door, I pushed open the door panting, and shouted: "Mom,,, Mom,,,, they bullied me, it was getting dark, and they shouted for a long time, but no one answered at home, so I couldn't help but get scared. "When I stepped into the house, the lights were not turned on, it was dark, I couldn't find my mother, and my father was not at home, I didn't know where they went, I curled up behind the door and shivered in fear, usually because it was very cold, I got my shoes wet in the snow just now, more because I was afraid. After all, I was only four years old at that time, and I was just a child. Zi's ​​lips trembled slightly, and she murmured, "Dad, Mom, where have you been? Ruoruo is very scared by herself, please come back quickly, okay? In the darkness of fear, a tiredness hit me, unconsciously In the middle, I fell asleep behind the door. When I woke up, the incandescent light at home was turned on. When I was carried to the bed by my mother, I didn’t know anything. My mother sat by my bed and my father sat by the stove. On the chair next to him, with a cigarette in his mouth, he kept puffing out smoke rings. The smoke filled my nose, and my father seemed to be thinking about something, while my mother was silent. The atmosphere in the room It's depressing, it's frighteningly quiet,
My immature voice broke the silent night, "I was crying and complaining, Mom, where have you been? Ruoruo is very scared by herself." At this moment, my mother came back to her senses. Huang's complexion was sickly, and her voice was hoarse, as if she had been crying. She stretched out her callused hands, grasped them, and coaxed: "If you behave well, it's my mother's fault today, and my mother's fault in the future." I will leave you alone. She doesn’t know that she has broken her promise all her life. Leaving Ruoruo alone, Ruoruo is afraid.Ruo Ruo, go to Dad's place, stay closer to the stove, it's warmer, and Mom will cook for Ruo Ruo, okay?I nodded yes, went to the chair closest to my father and sat down, and my mother went to get me something to eat. After smoking, my father said, "Ruoruo, have you written today? Dad is a literate person. My three I started to write when I was 20 years old. When my father asked me if I had written, my heart warmed up. Who said that my father ignored me? He still cared about me. In my room, show my dad the words I wrote at noon. Dad, this is what I wrote. Dad picked up the book in my hand, read it carefully, and praised: If there is any progress, continue to work hard next time. Well, I nodded and replied, in fact, I was thinking about what Li Xiaopang said to me today, I wanted to understand, so I held my father's arm and said coquettishly: "Dad, Li Xiaopang and the others bullied me today , They hit me with snow, and they also said that you don't want me and my mother anymore, that you and the third aunt are on good terms, and you are going to hurt the brothers in the third aunt's house. "Dad was very embarrassed. He let me know about his affair. Facing my questioning, he really didn't know what to say. At this time, Dad didn't expect that I would ask this question. He didn't want to have a relationship between himself and his mother. This is just my wishful thinking. In fact, this marriage between father and mother is very unhappy. I heard others say that they were an arranged marriage, but it was a marriage between close relatives. Brothers and sisters, it was my deceased grandma who insisted on my father marrying my mother, saying that it was a close relationship. My father married a mother who was one year younger than him when he was 70 years old. This was the case in the countryside in the [-]s. Arranged marriages were normal. , Free marriage is regarded as an alternative.

I got away from the topic, and my father ended my questioning with a lying explanation. He said: "Baby, it's not that my father doesn't want you, don't listen to their nonsense, how can my father not want you?" I seem to understand, but after a while, my mother cooked the meal and brought me my favorite fried rice with eggs. Ruoruo, come, come to my mother for dinner. Maybe it’s because I’m hungry. A bowl of rice was swept away. After eating and drinking, I felt sleepy. My father asked my mother to take me to bed. I fell asleep obediently. In the middle of the night, I was awakened by my parents’ quarrel. The voice of father scolding mother: "Zhu Xiaohui, look at your ghostly appearance. You look like a woman, like a zombie, and you are not ugly. To tell you the truth, I have had enough of you. If you agree to divorce, I I will give you alimony, is [-] enough?" At this time, my father was very arrogant. Hearing what my father said, my heart sank. It may be because I watched too much TV. When I was four years old, I still understood the word divorce. Yes, Dad wants to divorce Mom, so what should I do? Is it really like Li Xiaopang said, Dad really wants to abandon Mom and me? What he said just now is a lie. At this moment, I am not sleepy at all, I Quietly got out of bed and listened to the conversation between father and mother through the door. At this moment, I heard mother crying, she sobbed and said: "I don't want a divorce, you don't want to be with that bitch Yu Fang, you two bitches , I was really blind back then, and I was so kind to her." Yu Fang, isn't that the third aunt's name.My dislike for my third aunt increased, and my father laughed at my mother unceremoniously: "It's not that you are stupid, it's you. You gave up your happiness to others, and you have the nerve to call others a bitch." After hearing what my father said , I really want to go up and beat him up. The man cheated, and he is so arrogant, so righteous. If he is not my biological father, I have the urge to beat him, and even have the intention of killing him. My mother just cares about crying. At this moment, she couldn't even swear any bad words. After a while of quarreling, the room returned to silence. I was afraid that my parents would find out that I was eavesdropping, so I sneaked into the bed again and stayed there all night...

The sad memory of the past repeats like a movie,,,,, the pain in my heart is unspeakable,,,,,,,,,,