famous first flash marriage

"I'm not dead."

He repeated this sentence to her for the umpteenth time: "Look, didn't I look good in front of you?"

"Then why are we here? Why do I have to go to the doctor every day?"

Ji Xiaoru scratched her long hair in pain.

"Lu Zi, let's go back to China, I don't want to stay here anymore."

"Hey, don't you often sleep well at night? You still need medical treatment now."

Pei Yuancheng walked up to her and gently held her hand to stop her from scratching herself nervously.

Ji Xiaoru felt extremely uncomfortable.

She feels uneasy.

Everything here is very strange.

At first I thought it was a vacation, but it turned out that it didn't seem to be.

She needs to go to the doctor every day for hypnosis.

Sometimes she fell asleep directly, sometimes dreamed, but she couldn't remember what she dreamed after waking up, and sometimes dreamed of some fragments. Once the doctor questioned her carefully, she couldn't control her hysteria.

She didn't know what was wrong with herself.

It seems that I can't control myself more and more.

She felt like a plane that was out of control and was falling fast.

She often clearly felt the weightlessness.

She tried to describe it to Lu Chenxi, but he always reassured him that he was fine.

She could only hold on to his hand tightly, like grabbing the last straw.

But, why his face is sometimes Pei Yuancheng and sometimes Lu Chenxi?
Are they... really that similar?

She looked at him with flickering eyes, her pale lips were slightly parted, and her face was full of confusion.

"what happened?"

he asks.

He was always patient with her.

In this foreign country with no friends or relatives, he is the only one who gets along with her day and night.

She couldn't leave him more and more.

Recently, because she has been taking drugs every day, her actions sometimes become sluggish, and her thinking is not as quick as before.

Without him, she dare not imagine how bad her life would be.

"Lu Zi, I'm tired, can you go to sleep with me?"

She knew he was busy with work, but she had been alone in the bedroom for a long time.

I really can't wait any longer.

If he didn't come, as soon as she closed her eyes, she would see a lot of horrible twisted shadows. Those shadows made her unable to sleep, and even felt suffocated.

She would feel better only when he was by her side.

"Okay, but I haven't washed yet, can you go back to the room and wait for a while?"

He touched her cheek to discuss with her.

She frowned and said irritably, "Hurry up, okay? I don't want to stay in the bedroom alone, I always see a lot of scary black shadows, I can't breathe... Lu Zi, go take a shower ! I'll be waiting for you in the living room."

Her nervousness made him helpless and exhausted, but in the end he just smiled indulgently and said, "Okay."

"Ah."

She smiled sweetly.

This smile is full of flattery.

Although her mental state is different from that of normal people, she is also extremely sensitive, and she can always detect the trouble she brings to the other party.

She was very afraid that he would dislike her.

She knew that if she could take good care of herself and not cling to him so much, he would not find herself annoying, but she couldn't control her behavior.

Lu Chenxi—or Pei Yuancheng, approached the bathroom under Ji Xiaoru's gaze, and closed the door behind his back.

But even so, Ji Xiaoru's gaze was still glued to the door, wishing to glue it back to him the first moment he walked out of the bathroom.

As soon as Pei Yuancheng closed the door, he took off his home clothes in disgust and threw them into the laundry basket.

The white home clothes were spotless, but it seemed to be stained with some tangible unclean thing.

Pei Yuancheng leaned against the bathroom wall and breathed a sigh of relief.

He closed his eyes and suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette.

Of course his physical condition is such that he cannot smoke.

Despite the successful heart transplant, he is still not allowed to smoke or drink.

It's just...it's just a little irritating at this time.

He is not tired of taking care of Ji Xiaoru.

In getting along day and night, he has become more and more used to having her in his life.

At one point, he even wondered if he really fell in love with Ji Xiaoru while playing Lu Chenxi.

But soon he realized it wasn't.

The person he likes in his heart is Tang Xiao.

This point, the more time passed, the more certain he became.

For Ji Xiaoru, he should have developed a special feeling mixed with family affection and friendship during getting along.

But the longer they are together, the less likely Ji Xiaoru will become a woman who can make him fall in love.

He couldn't fall in love with Ji Xiaoru.

If he could fall in love with Ji Xiaoru, it would be good for both him and Ji Xiaoru.

Maybe Xiaoxiao will also be happy about it.

However, he can't force himself to fall in love with someone he doesn't love.

What made him more and more unbearable was Ji Xiaoru's excessive dependence.

It's normal for her to depend on him.

After all, he is Lu Chenxi now, and they are a couple after all.

But her dependence is the kind that she is unwilling to part with him from morning till night.

He had almost sacrificed all his freedom to be with her.

Occasionally, when he wants to go out and be alone, she will use various methods to let him take her with him.

Every day I went to the psychiatrist routinely, and he had to pick me up and drop me off in person.

The only free time for him is probably only when she is hypnotized and he works alone in the study.

For example, at this very moment.

However, even at this moment, he was completely sure that she was on the sofa in the living room, looking at her in the same posture.

When Pei Yuancheng came out of the shower, he opened the door and saw Ji Xiaoru staring straight at him.

Although it was expected, he still frowned, feeling unhappy.

Seeing his frown, Ji Xiaoru twisted her fingers uneasily, hesitated for a moment, stood up from the sofa, her pale and pretty face was filled with flattering smiles.

Even his voice was deliberately squeezed to appear more gentle and submissive: "Lu Zi, have you finished your bath? Would you like some water? Are you thirsty?"

With that said, he picked up the warm kettle on the coffee table and poured a glass of water, and hurriedly brought it to Pei Yuancheng.

She held the glass of warm water in both hands, raised her head and looked at him eagerly, her big eyes were shining with uneasy light.

Pei Yuancheng sighed silently.

He took the water glass from Ji Xiaoru's hand and drank it in one gulp.

A smile spread across her beautiful little face.

He looked down at her.

She has lost a lot of weight.

When he saw her for the first time in Chengbei, she gave him the impression that she was thin and tall.

She has a slender frame and is very light in weight, but she has a very good figure, and her facial features are extremely gorgeous and beautiful.

She's one of those beauties who have a contagious smile.

Even though Pei Yuancheng has seen countless people, it must be admitted that Ji Xiaoru is really a charming woman.

It's a pity that Ji Xiaoru is too thin now.

Her face was too thin, and her eyes were getting bigger and bigger, especially when her pair of big black eyes were staring at him fixedly, he even felt a little scary.

But no matter what she did, he couldn't blame her.

After all, she was a victim too.

If you want to blame, you can only blame that accident that took Lu Zi's life away.

If Lu Zi is still there, Ji Xiaoru must not be the current Ji Xiaoru.

If Lu Zi is still here, he and Ji Xiaoru should already be married, right?

Pei Yuancheng often blames himself for inviting Lu Zi and the others to play on the island.

If they hadn't come, Lu Zi wouldn't have drowned in the sea.

Xiaoxiao always thought that he was willing to sacrifice himself for friendship.

Only he knew in his heart that on the one hand, he was doing it for Lu Zi, and on the other hand, he was doing it for atonement.

Ji Xiaoru's ability to become what he is now has nothing to do with him.

He killed her himself.

All the exhaustion and hard work caused by this incident are what he should bear.

"Thank you for the water, go to sleep."

He tapped her on the shoulder lightly.

She was too thin, and her shoulders were a little tight.

"What about you? Aren't you with me?"

She widened her eyes and asked eagerly,

"I just remembered that there is one more thing that hasn't been dealt with. Now go back to the study and continue to deal with it."

He just wanted to be alone for a while, even if the silence was only for a moment.

"How about I stay with you? You are busy with your work, I just need to sit beside you."

She looked at him expectantly.

He frowned and shook his head slightly.

"No. Go to sleep."

"why not?"

She suddenly became a little cranky.

She really couldn't understand why he was unwilling to satisfy her even such a small request.

In the past, he was willing to accommodate her in everything.

That included opening up about his relationship with her at a press conference, including kissing her on the cheek in front of fans picking her up at the airport.

Obviously he used to be so obedient to her.

Why has everything changed now?
She couldn't take it.

"No reason."

He said patiently, "Be obedient and go to bed."

"No! I'm going to the study with you! Lu Zi, you can't leave me alone! You can't leave me!!"

She suddenly cried out.

The sharp voice was especially harsh in the huge villa.

He took a step back calmly.

As if being stabbed by this voice, a look of pain flashed across the handsome face.

Such hysteria and sudden screams reminded him of when his father was a child and his mother Julia uncontrollably spoiled him and screamed.

She was always well-behaved and suddenly started calling him a beast, calling him damn, why he didn't die, and why the person who died was his father.

He was puzzled at first, his father died of illness, why should he blame himself?Why torture yourself day after day?

After a long time, he got used to it and became numb. He thought resignedly, probably, his father's death was indeed his fault.

If he hadn't been born, perhaps mother and father would have been able to live happily together.

Mother might be happier if he were dead.

He despises himself, thinking that he should not live in the world at all.

For a long time, he waited numbly and calmly for his own death.

……

He thought he had forgotten all this.

But now, Ji Xiaoru's hysteria dragged him back into the vortex of his forgotten memory.