famous first flash marriage

Tang Xiao was stunned.

She didn't understand why Xiaoru said that.

"Bleeding... someone died..."

Ji Xiaoru murmured, trembling all over: "Someone died... I killed it... It's all because of me, it's all my fault..."

"...Xiaoru?"

Tang Xiao walked up to Ji Xiaoru, stretched out his hand to hold her shoulder, and stared closely into her eyes.

Ji Xiaoru's beautiful big eyes were full of confusion.

Tang Xiao was very distressed, and said softly: "Don't be afraid, Xiaoru, calm down...Xiaoru, calm down."

Ji Xiaoru panted heavily, as if her heart was hurting, she reached out to hold her beating chest.

"I... I killed someone... It's all my fault, Xiaoxiao, the dead person... Blame me, all my fault..."

"No, it's not your fault."

Tang Xiao gently stroked Ji Xiaoru's cheek, and stared at her gently but firmly: "Xiaoru, those bad things have nothing to do with you, you did nothing wrong, don't blame yourself anymore, Xiaoru, I don't blame you .No one really blames you..."

"No... not really."

Ji Xiaoru's big eyes looked very hollow at the moment, she looked at Tang Xiao blankly, and tears suddenly appeared in her black pupils.

"Smile, I killed someone... He always appears in my dreams, I know, he blames me, he blames me..."

Her bloodless lips trembled uncontrollably.

Tang Xiao was startled. He thought Xiaoru was completely immersed in the happiness of the moment, but he didn't expect that Lu Chenxi's accidental death was still a shadow hidden deep in her heart.

"He didn't blame you."

Tang Xiao said seriously: "Believe me, Xiaoru, he didn't blame you. He loves you so much, why is he willing to blame you?"

"No, you don't understand... He blames me, smile, he always dies in my dreams, sometimes, he is covered in blood and sinks to the bottom of the sea, his blood dyes the whole sea red, he His eyes were also full of blood. He always looked at me with eyes full of blood and tears, and asked, Ji Xiaoru, you killed me, you made me die so badly, how dare you live so happily? Ji Xiaoru , you are not worthy, you should die, you are not worthy of happiness..."

Ji Xiaoru spoke excitedly, shaking all over her body, and even her teeth rattled as they chattered up and down.

Tang Xiao was extremely sad.

She felt sorry for Ji Xiaoru, who was living with self-blame, and also for Lu Chenxi.

No one can know what Lu Chenxi is thinking, because he is dead.

Because of his death, Xiaoru will never be able to have real happiness.

She would never be free from the dead man who had exchanged his life for hers.

Perhaps, because she really fell in love with Pei Yuancheng, she blamed herself and felt more guilty.

"Xiaoru, it's not like this. What you dreamed is not real, it's just your own imagination."

Tang Xiao stroked her lightly, and comforted her: "You blame yourself too much for having such a dream, but none of that is true, the real Lu Chenxi will never blame you for regaining your happiness. He loves you, so he only wants you to be happy."

"really?"

Ji Xiaoru looked at Tang Xiao blankly, and murmured, "He loves me?"

"It's because I love you that I'm willing to give up my life for you. Could it be that he exchanged his own life for yours and hopes that you will be unhappy and live in pain for the rest of your life?"

"But I dare not, because I am not worthy..."

Ji Xiaoru looked blankly at the dark night sky.

"If I become happy and joyful, wouldn't that be a kind of betrayal to him?"

"..."

Tang Xiao was speechless for a while.

"If I completely and completely forget him, then I'm betraying him and the love between us..."

Tears streamed down her cheeks, and sadness filled her empty eyes.

"I don't want to be sorry for him, I don't want to be a hateful woman, I can totally understand that Ms Zhu hates me so much, after all, I'm so shameless, so selfish, I don't think about anything in order to get happiness, I just think about myself To get Pei Yuancheng, to get a beautiful marriage... I'm so selfish."

"It's not like that, it's not..."

Tang Xiao didn't know how to persuade her, maybe at this time, any words are so feeble.

She could only stretch out her arms and hug her gently.

"Xiaoru, believe me, everything will pass, he will bless you in heaven, you have not betrayed him, your love is still there, but this does not mean that you are not entitled to happiness..."

"Woooo..."

Ji Xiaoru leaned her head on her shoulder and sobbed slowly.

She is so sad.

She has been suppressing and making herself look like a normal person.

She pretended that she was perfectly well enough not to trouble anyone.

She didn't dare to let anyone, especially Pei Yuancheng, know that she still had nightmares from time to time, was stimulated from time to time, and felt panicked and helpless.

She didn't dare to show her fragility, because she was afraid that others would not accept it.

She doesn't want to live like a madman.

She pretended to be normal, cheerful and lively, just to convince Pei Yuancheng and everyone else that she, Ji Xiaoru, was just like everyone else.

But only she herself knows what she looks like deep inside.

Everyone has a side that they don't want to be known by others, and this side of her is extraordinarily pale and powerless.

How to do it?

In the future, this is still the only way to continue performing in front of everyone.

This is cause and effect.

She killed Lu Chenxi, and she has been guilty all her life. She deserves it, and she reaped the consequences.

Why, did Lu Chenxi want to save her back then?
Why, wasn't she the one who died?
Her tears rolled down and wet Tang Xiao's shoulders.

Tang Xiao has been patiently stroking her back, silently and quietly accompanying her.

I don't know how long it took.

She finally raised her head gently from Tang Xiao's shoulder.

Tang Xiao looked at her quietly: "Xiaoru, are you better?"

"Ah."

Ji Xiaoru showed a shallow smile.

"It's okay, smile, thank you."

"Is it really all right?"

Tang Xiao frowned his delicate long eyebrows.

"It's really all right."

"Xiaoru, you are like this...I feel sorry for you."

She looked at her and said.

"It's okay, maybe I'm just... a little excited at the moment."

She lowered her head and pursed her lips with a chuckle: "You see, I'm usually fine."

The more she was like this, the more worried Tang Xiao was.

"Xiaoru, if you are not good, you must tell me, okay?"

"I'm fine, really."

Ji Xiaoru smiled, and said in an unquestionable tone: "I'm really healed, just now I was stimulated, so I lost control of my emotions, don't worry about me, smile, I'm fine."

"Xiaoru, do you... need a psychiatrist? I have a classmate who is doing well in this field. If you need it, I—"

"I do not need."

Ji Xiaoru still had a faint smile on her lips, but her tone was very cold: "Smile, I said it, I don't need it."

"But……"

"But what? Smile, you won't still think of me as a delirious lunatic, will you?"

Ji Xiaoru interrupted Tang Xiao, tilted her head and frowned at her.

"No...Xiaoru, I didn't mean that, I just thought, maybe you need it."

"You think I need it, isn't that what you mean - treat me as a crazy person?"

Ji Xiaoru seemed a little unhappy: "Xiaoxiao, you are my best friend. I think you should fully trust me instead of doubting me all the time. If this is the case, I will be very sad."

"Xiaoru, I didn't..."

Tang Xiao defended weakly.

In fact, she is also very contradictory now.

She had an intuition that there was something wrong with Xiaoru's state, and she thought maybe she could let Xiaoru see a psychiatrist to see if she needed to continue treatment.

However, Xiaoru thinks that she has no problem, and as a friend, she wants to believe her again.

Nobody likes being thought of as a mentally ill person.

Xiaoru is no exception, which is not surprising.

Moreover, Xiaoru is a girl with strong self-esteem.

"Okay, Xiaoxiao, since you haven't, it seems that there is no need to continue this topic, right?"

Ji Xiaoru smiled again.

Tang Xiao hesitated to speak, nodded and said, "Well, all right."

Although she still felt worried, Xiao Ru would definitely get angry if she continued talking.

She didn't want to make Xiaoru unhappy.

So, on this matter, let's go back and ask Pei Yuancheng tentatively?

Perhaps, as the closest person to Xiaoru, he knows best whether Xiaoru is fully recovered.

However, Ji Xiaoru seemed to see through her mind at a glance, took her hand and said, "Xiaoxiao, I want to ask you to promise me one thing."

"Huh? What's the matter?"

Tang Xiao asked very unexpectedly.

"I hope you promise me... don't tell Yuan Sheng about my emotional outage tonight."

Ji Xiaoru watched her with a very serious expression.

"This……"

"Smile, promise me, okay? I'm really just afraid that he's worried. Yuan Sheng from our family is cold and indifferent on the surface, but in fact he cares about every little thing. I'm really afraid that he will take this matter too seriously. Seriously, and went to great lengths to arrange for me to go abroad."

Ji Xiaoru showed a rare look of pleading.

"Smile, you know, I'm going to get married."

"Ah."

Tang smiled and nodded.

"You know how much I want to be the happiest and most beautiful bride in the world. Smile, you will bless me, right?"

She clasped her hands tightly.

"Of course, of course I will bless you."

"So, until I get married, I don't want any more surprises - not even a little bit."

Ji Xiaoru said seriously: "I don't want to be sent abroad for compulsory treatment on the eve of the wedding."

Tang Xiao was amused by Ji Xiaoru's extremely contrasting expression from peacetime.

"Ha... what, Xiaoru, how is this possible? Pei Yuancheng wouldn't do that."

Tang Xiao is still sure about this.

"Who said it better? Smile, I just want to finish the wedding safely, and I don't want anything to go wrong before that."

She emphasized again.