famous first flash marriage

Before coming here today, Pei Yuancheng got into another car to go to the company. On the way, he called her again and asked her to ask Yan Lili if she needed someone to take care of her. If necessary, he would send someone over, or simply let Yan Lili move. Live with them in the past.

Tang Xiao knew that Pei Yuancheng had good intentions, but it was absolutely impossible for Yan Lili to agree.

So just skip it.

"No, I'm fine now."

Yan Lili slightly raised her chapped lips, revealing a hint of timidity: "Sister Xiaoxiao, I'm going to Eagle Country next week."

"what?!"

Tang Xiao was very surprised, his almond eyes widened immediately, and he looked at Yan Lili in disbelief.

She had never mentioned this to her before—

Could it be that she made a temporary decision?
Is it because Yan Ling is getting engaged?
This guess first appeared in Tang Xiao's mind.

"Sister Xiaoxiao, I've actually been thinking about this for a while. When you give birth in China, you will inevitably meet someone you know, no matter how careful I am."

Yan Lili laughed at herself helplessly: "Besides, it's impossible for me to hide here and see no one, right? In the past few months, I feel like I'm shrinking at home every day, like a little turtle that can't see the light."

Tang Xiao was amused by Yan Lili, but what followed was indeed a huge heartache.

At a young age, it is the age that loves to play and make trouble. Who would like to stay at home all day?

No wonder she looks so mentally ill now.

"It happened that a trustworthy best friend married to Eagle Country a few years ago. After I told her about me, she told me that her neighbor's house was just about to be sold. If I wanted, I could go to Eagle Country to be her companion. ——Her husband died in a car accident last year, and now, she is raising her and her husband's children alone."

Yan Lili said with emotion: "Perhaps, she and I share the same disease, so we can understand each other very well."

She thanked Tang Xiao for always thinking about her and taking the time to visit her. However, at this time, only people in similar situations can understand her better.

She is not as lucky as Tang Xiao, she sees her so happy and happy, which forms a strong contrast with herself, she has exhausted all her strength not to be jealous of her.

She was living in too much pain and suffering, and she was unwilling to accept the pity bestowed on her by a person who was lucky enough for her——

That would only make her more miserable.

"is that so……"

Tang Xiao was silent for a moment, and said: "That's fine, but... I don't know if you can get used to going there, Lili, I really miss you."

"Sister Xiaoxiao, don't worry, I will take care of myself."

Yan Lili smiled and said relaxedly: "Besides, I still have my best friend. We have known each other since we were young. Even though we have been separated for a few years, we have never broken contact."

"Well, it's good if you have someone you trust to take care of each other over there."

Tang Xiao nodded in relief.

Before coming, she wanted to ask Yan Lili if she knew about Yan Ling.

But after she came, looking at Yan Lili in front of her, she didn't want to mention Yan Ling anymore.

Why bother?
It seems that Yan Lili can go to Eagle Country to live a peaceful and stable life. Going there, maybe she can really bid farewell to her past self, and she will never have anything to do with Yan Ling again.

It's better than staying in the country and watching Yan Ling get married and have children.

"Yes."

Yan Lili smiled, and said: "Sometimes, I feel that life is despair accompanied by hope, hope accompanied by despair, and there is light and darkness alternately, but as long as you get through the hard times, the next will be alright."

"Li Li, you have grown up a lot than before."

Tang Xiao said with emotion.

"Of course I have to grow up, I am going to be a mother."

Yan Lili gently stroked her round belly with loving eyes.

"You'll make a good mother."

Tang Xiao smiled.

"Well, I think so too."

Yan Lili looked down at her swollen belly, and suddenly said: "Sister Xiaoxiao, I actually know that Yan Ling is getting engaged."

"..."

Tang Xiao froze.

She didn't expect that Yan Lili would suddenly mention Yan Ling.

What made her even more exceptional was that Yan Lili no longer called him Brother Ling Zi, but called him by his name directly.

She didn't understand what kind of psychological changes had taken place in Yan Lili during these days.

Maybe, she no longer loves him like before?
But it seems that she did not regret choosing to keep the child.

"Sister Xiaoxiao, have you received the group message from him?"

Yan Lili looked at her sideways.

"Yes."

Tang smiled and nodded.

"I got it too."

Yan Lili suddenly smiled wryly, "Heh...he didn't even call me, he just sent a group message to notify me."

"This...Actually, Pei Yuancheng and I also received group messages. Maybe...he has been too busy recently."

Tang Xiao explained with difficulty.

"Sister Xiaoxiao, you don't need to speak for him."

Yan Lili raised her head and leaned on the back of the chair, with a bitter smile on her mouth: "I know, he just doesn't have me in his heart, from the beginning to the end, I haven't had me all the time, I have always been forcibly clinging to him, thinking that I am good to him, and love him desperately , will be able to impress him..."

"..."

Tang Xiao was speechless.

She understood that at this time, saying nothing would help.

"It's my fault."

Yan Lili sighed, and said sadly: "I finally understand one thing now, men, it is impossible to be moved by women. They always pursue women they can't get, just like dogs, the more they can't get, The more you have to chase desperately.”

"Because men are born full of the desire to conquer and chase. It's no wonder why women chase men's interlayer gauze... Men don't even look at the woman who comes to their door. Even if they reluctantly accept it, they won't cherish it. .They are only ever interested in the women they see."

"I used to be so naive. Heh...it's all my own fault."

"..."

Tang Xiao didn't know whether what Yan Lili said was right or wrong.

She was silent, looking sympathetically and lovingly at Yan Lili whose haggard little face was full of resentment.

After all, she began to resent Yan Ling.

The love that was desperate at the beginning turned into resentment after being hit hard by reality again and again.

How can there be true unrequited love in the world?
But when you love someone, there is always a plan.

People are not as noble as they think.

Love is not as great as people think.

Living well and making yourself happy is more important than anything else.

"Sister Xiaoxiao, actually I... regret it a little bit."

Tears suddenly fell from Yan Lili's eyes.

Tears dripped on the back of her hand, very hot, just like her fiery heart back then.

But how hot the love was at the beginning, how painful the heart is now.

"Regret what?"

Tang looked at her with a smile and asked.

Yan Lili blinked, and a large tear fell down.

She sniffed and smiled wryly: "I regret insisting on giving birth to this child, and I regret pretending nothing happened after the one-night stand—Sister Xiaoxiao, I should have been more selfish at the time and asked him to be responsible for me, why should I pretend Fearless, why did I pretend that nothing happened because he didn't remember it when he took the first time? I'm so stupid! I'm just an idiot."

"I thought that my love for him could move him, and that I could show how great my love was without asking for anything in return. I even imagined that one day he would be grateful to me when he learned everything I had done for him. I will realize that the person who loves him the most in this world is me, and only I, Yan Lili—I thought he would regret that he didn’t know that I love him so much earlier, I thought he would come to me one day, and then be with me And our children live a happy life together, even if the happy ending in a fairy tale is the same."

"But I was wrong. I was so wrong!"

Yan Lili cried, "Why am I so stupid? I hate myself. Sister Xiaoxiao, do you know? When I saw the picture of him and that woman, I really wanted to kill him! Why... Why did I love him silently for so many years without asking for anything, I loved him so humblely, but he was like a licking dog, loving Ren Feilin more humblely than me..."

"The woman he was engaged to looks like Ren Feilin. They really look like... He is such an idiot. Does he think that this will let Ren Feilin know that he still loves her? He thinks so, Can you declare to the whole world that he, Yan Ling, only loves Ren Feilin forever?! Idiot, idiot!!"

Yan Lili's eyes were red, her shoulders were shaking, and she sat on a chair and cursed.

Seeing her getting more and more agitated, Tang Xiao hurriedly stroked her rounded back gently, and comforted her softly: "Li Li, calm down... Calm down, calm down, don't get angry... "

Tang Xiao knew that these words were useless.

But at this time, what can she say?

She understood that Yan Lili was angry, and she needed to vent it.

This is a matter of time, even if you don't vent it this time, you will definitely vent it in the future.

She needs to scold and cry like this.

No matter who the person next to her is.

"I really hate him, Miss Xiaoxiao..."

Yan Lili rubbed her red eyes, cried and said: "I hate him for being so stupid, why he is obsessed with that woman Ren Feilin? But, I hate myself even more, because I am even more stupid than him... Sister Xiaoxiao , My heart hurts so badly, when I think that he is going to marry another woman——a woman who looks exactly like Ren Feilin, I feel so uncomfortable that I feel like I’m dying. If I stay here, I'm afraid I'll want to die."

"Sometimes I can't sleep at night. I wish I could rush to the nursing home to find him. I really want to tell him, Yan Ling, do you know what you did? You made my belly bigger! You have to be responsible for me and the child But my mind keeps pulling me back again and again, and I can't do that—I don't want to interfere with his life."