Quan Shao greed for joy: 99 days of marriage

Seeing her standing at the door of the room and leaning against the head of the bed, there was not much expression on her face, but her eyes honestly explained the surprise in her heart at the moment.

"Oh, what a rare visitor." Naturally, he stuffed the photo frame in his hand under the pillow, and the person on the bed waved at her, "I thought we'd meet that day, that's good-bye. And it doesn't seem like a few days have passed since we last met Right? I didn’t expect you to come early today—forget it, I don’t ask so many questions. With your character, you must have something on your mind to come to me. In fact, even if you don’t know your character, just look at it Seeing your expression, I should have guessed that you have something on your mind. Why, what is on your mind, can I help you? "

Gently shaking her head, An Ning looked at Su Luoxi who only had a pair of beautiful eyes exposed from the bandages, and for a moment didn't know how to speak.

On the way here by car, she had so many questions that she wanted to ask Senior Sister Su, but when she actually saw Senior Sister Su, she couldn't ask anything.

Seeing her hesitant to speak, Su Luoxi actually already had some answers in her heart about her coming to find him.

But Su Luoxi didn't ask directly, but said slowly, "Actually... what are you afraid of? Junior sister An, you are always afraid a lot. You are afraid of losing after you have it, and you are also afraid of the pain after losing it. But have you ever thought that if you are so afraid, can you put an end to pain? I don’t think so, you think you can look at everything from the perspective of God like an outsider, and look around you You separate yourself from people and things, so calm. But this is just the surface, and in many cases, you have no way to control it. "

An Ning didn't speak, she thought Senior Sister Su had guessed something.But obviously she didn't have an answer in her heart.

Su Luoxi said again, "The fear of losing after possession makes you close yourself up. You have lost a lot, and you are afraid. So you think, since the final ending is also to be lost and painful. Then at the beginning Stop it, if you don't start at the beginning, then you won't feel bad. Is that what you think?"

"I-I don't know either."

"If you don't know, then you don't know. There is really no need to live so clearly when people live. Everything is like a mirror, which is too boring." Su Luoxi seems to have become a lot more open-minded overnight. , I can take everything seriously, and I don't take it so seriously, "You are a guy like a pool of stagnant water, but there are always so many people around you who don't care what other people think and do whatever they want. Xin Ran is like this, and so is Fifth Master Quan. I think people like them are the best able to control you. "

An Ning opened her mouth dumbfounded, but still didn't know what to say.

"If you want to take the initiative, it's harder than going to the sky. No—maybe it's not that difficult to go to the sky. An Ning, you always accept things passively. You never take the initiative. But you In my heart, I am very clear. If it is someone you don’t like, no matter how much the other party stalks you, you will not accept it. Have you noticed that what you accept now, you thought you were very passive, is The relationships you have no way to refuse are actually the results of your own screening.”

An Ning blinked her fox eyes. This time, it wasn't that she didn't know what to say, but that she had completely lost her ability to speak.

When you are in front of a very smart person, all your thoughts will be seen through by the other person, and it seems that there is nothing to say.

When she was in college, there were other classmates who wanted to play with her, just like Miss Jiang, they would appear in her life whether she liked it or not.But for some reason, those people failed to stay, but Xin Ran did.

Senior Sister Su was right, she told herself that Xin Ran was not the friend she took the initiative to make, but Xin Ran was too proactive and forcibly inserted into her life.When she got used to having a chattering Xinran by her side, they were already friends.But in fact, this is not the case.

The reason why Xinran can stay is because she likes Xinran and she wants to be friends with him.

Then... what about Emperor Quan Yu?
Is he like this too?

She kept saying that Fifth Master Quan had inserted into her life domineeringly and shamelessly, she was forced to accept it, and she had no choice.

"Junior Sister An." Su Luoxi called softly.

An Ning actually heard a bit of a mother from this "Junior Sister An".

She raised her small face and gave a soft 'hmm', "Why?"

"There are two kinds of people whose performance is very extreme. You and me are the best examples and representatives. The extreme performances come from the same emotion. I am afraid of losing and have no sense of security. I am too possessive Now, no matter what it is, I must firmly hold it in the palm of my hand, because I am afraid of losing. And you, because you are too afraid of losing, so you simply don’t want to have it. But our two extreme behaviors , in the end, only makes our worst fears come true. It’s happening right before our eyes, and there’s nothing we can do about it.”

An Ning smiled wryly, "Senior Sister Su, why did you stay in the hospital for a few days, it almost turned you into a philosopher."

"Because it's too idle. Once people have nothing to do when they are free, they will always think a lot. When people think too much, they will become very strange."

An Ning blinked her fox eyes.

Is she... getting weird now?
"I don't know who you are worrying about, but I think you can't do without that Fifth Master Quan. My emotional performance is also a mess, and it seems that there is nothing that can remind you and experience. But, I think Let me tell you something, one day is one day, what are you afraid of? What is there to be afraid of? If you like it, go after it, if you don’t like it, separate it. The thing between people, to put it bluntly, isn’t that simple. Don’t put Simple things are complicated, but complicated things are simplified."

"Senior Sister Su, but if you know that you will be separated in the end, why bother—"

"It is necessary." Su Luoxi said firmly, "The process is very wonderful. Of course, there will inevitably be some sad things in the process. But everything is never complete. If you want everything to be sweet, why not Possibly. Sorrow and joy, bitterness and sweetness, always appear together. You just want to taste the sweet fruit, but you don’t want to go through the hard work of bearing the fruit. Let me ask you, why? Why do you have such a big face? Son."

An Ning said with some stubbornness, "Knowing what the ending will be, but still yearning for a moment of beauty in the process, you will only torture yourself."

The more beautiful it is, the more heartbroken it will be when it is lost.

And she didn't want to.

Su Luoxi's clear eyes seemed to be full of wisdom when looking at the world.

"Then are you happy now? Don't you have any distress now? According to what you said, since you already know the ending, don't start at the beginning, and you won't be in pain and discomfort. You should be without any pain now." You are carefree, but if you are really carefree, you will not show up in front of me before 06:30 in the morning."

Before she left, Su Luoxi said another sentence that made her heart tremble.

"If you just want someone to listen to, you can go to Jiang Xinran. She is the friend you recognize the most in your heart. You don't have to come to me. If you want someone to help you analyze, give you answers, or say You pointed out the way, and you still don’t need to come to me. But you just came to me, what do you mean? Shimei An, when people are hesitating, they actually have answers in their hearts. But you just want to Find someone to affirm the answer in your heart that makes you unsure. You just want to find someone who stands firmly on your side, conforms to you, and supports you. Sorry, I am not such a person, you and I, also Not that kind of relationship."

"Sorry, Senior Sister Su, I won't bother you in the future."

"An Ning, what are you afraid of? Anyway, you have already predicted the ending, why don't you make the process happier and better?"

The rapid ringtone of the mobile phone pulled her back from her thoughts.

When she saw the three words on the phone screen, she didn't even notice it, and the corners of her mouth couldn't help but curl up.

"An Xiaoyao, I will give you 10 minutes to go home!"

She was already used to that domineering command tone.Never feel uncomfortable again.

"How long do you want eldest sister to wait for you? Hurry up and let me go home!"

"Quan Wuye is reasonable, okay, it's not yet seven o'clock, and the family dinner is at 07:30 in the afternoon, okay? It's been twelve hours, and your math teacher died early?"

"Three 10 minutes, go home!"

beep-

The familiar busy tone came from the phone.

An Ning laughed out her nose bubbles angrily.

This damn stinky man is really annoying.

But she... doesn't even hate his hate.

Yeah, what is she afraid of?For this answer, can she not have a clue in her heart?
She knew the answer.

What she is afraid of is this moment of tenderness.Because it is too warm and I like it so much, I have just started to get it, and I am already afraid of all the negative emotions brought about by the loss.

And she is not a person who can digest negative emotions well.

She just seems to be good at digesting negative emotions. That's because she hides everything in her heart, and she doesn't tell others, let alone show it.

But hidden in her heart, only she knew how painful it was.

Others can't see it.

Can't empathize either.

She was afraid that she would get used to Quan Yuhuang's decisiveness towards others, and the momentary warmth he showed to her alone.She was deeply afraid that she would be obsessed with this special thing.She was even more afraid that she would get used to it and gradually get lost in the warmth that Quan Yuhuang brought her.

Maybe she is cowardly and cowardly, but such a cowardly and cowardly person like her also has her own pride.

The pride of Master Quan Wu cannot be touched by others.

Her pride is not allowed to be trampled on by others.

She didn't want to let herself become like Xin Ran, because alone, she was humbled into the dust.

She didn't want herself to become like the Hai family sisters, because she made herself ugly and dark because of being alone.

Yes, she was afraid, terribly afraid.

She was so scared that she didn't look like her anymore.

Since the ending is already doomed, why not make the process better?
Come on--

She doesn't want or need this moment of beauty.

A pool of stagnant water should not be disturbed.

The guy who disturbed the stagnant water patted his ass and left, but he never thought about how turbulent the disturbed stagnant water would be.

She admits that she has no courage, that she is timid and cowardly.

Avoidance, closure, this is the only way she can protect herself.