Lord, don't chase me, I want to go back to modern times

"Lead me to enjoy the happiness that I have never tasted in this life. He understands me and understands me. He even gave up his desire to hide from the world for me, cater to the emperor, and ascend to the position of powerful minister, just to protect me and prevent the arrogant Xia Guiren insulted me. This love is so selfless, and how can I resist it." Although she was crying at this time, when she talked about the past with Xiao You, there was a smile on her face, happy.

My hands were trembling because of her words, and I was moved by what she said.But reason tells me that I can't be soft-hearted, "No matter how beautiful and touching your love is, you shouldn't have the heart of bullying the emperor and encourage Xiao You to rebel."

"I didn't. I just made excuses to keep him. I didn't let him rebel. Now I don't ask this humble life to stay, but I beg you to let Lord Xiao go. He is the most trusted person of the emperor. Ah!" Her voice trembled uncontrollably, pleading for Xiao You all the time.

"You also know that the emperor trusts him, so you shouldn't encourage him and let him relax. Do you know that you will harm him?" I picked up the medicine bowl that had been placed on the table with one hand and stared at it for a long time.Finally put it in front of her, "I will never allow anyone to threaten his hard-won imperial power."

Her already pale face became even paler after seeing this bowl of medicine, "This is..."

"As long as you drink it, you and Xiao You will be safe. I won't care about what I saw and heard that day." The voice paused, and after a long time, "If you don't drink it, you and Xiao You... die."

She stared blankly at the medicine in my hand and dared not take it. The hand I had been stretching out in front of her began to feel sore.

"As long as I drink it, can you really not reveal the matter between me and Mr. Xiao?" Her expression has calmed down a lot, she looked at me with the heart of death, and there was distrust in my eyes.

I nodded sincerely.She quickly snatched the medicine bowl from my hand and drank it all in one gulp. "I hope you mean what you say."

Sitting quietly on the round stool, I watched the medicine bowl in her hand fall to the ground with a piercing sound, which shocked me.

Her face was tangled up in pain, bursts of pain came from her lower abdomen, and she screamed in pain, shrill.

In the end, she lay paralyzed on the ground and couldn't stop rolling, blood slowly oozing out from under her skirt, dyeing the whole area red, which was shocking.

Her screams attracted the servants from outside to break in, and they screamed when they saw this scene. In an instant, Qianniao Palace became a chaotic place.

The imperial doctor rushed to check the pulse of Mrs. Ya, who was already in pain and had no strength to speak. Xiao Jincheng also rushed over after hearing the news, looking anxiously at Mrs. Ya who was lying lifeless on the bed.I was still sitting quietly on the small white marble stool, staring at the pool of dark red blood on the ground without blinking.

I cut off her chance to be a mother in this life.Now I can just watch this bloody scene without changing my face, when did my heart become so vicious?

"Imperial Concubine..." Zhi Tao called me with a trembling voice, as if she had sensed something, with tears in her eyes.

"Lady Ya will never be pregnant again." The imperial doctor sighed wistfully, shaking his head regretfully.

"What did you say?" Xiao Jincheng's voice rose instantly, his eyes showed a cold look, "How could it be...?"

The imperial doctor glanced at me tremblingly, and mumbled, "It seems...it's...a medicine for infertility."

Before Xiao Jincheng could react, Madam Ya called weakly, "Your Majesty..."

He immediately stepped forward and said in a low voice, "I am here." He is ashamed of this woman!
"I did it voluntarily. I didn't protect your child well. I blame myself... I beg the emperor... to forgive me." The more she spoke, the more excited she became. The words were obviously incomprehensible, and tears flowed from the corners of her eyes uncontrollably Scratch it and drip it on the pillow, leaving a large print.

"Okay, I understand." He sighed lowly, not knowing how to comfort him.As for comforting women, he has never said anything to other women except An Huai Xin...

The disappointment in Mrs. Ya's eyes flashed away, and finally turned into a powerless smile. She glanced at me from the corner of her eye, her eyes full of envy.

Then he withdrew the hand held by him without a trace, closed his eyes instead, and fell into a drowsy sleep.

Xiao Jincheng took a deep look at the petite and pitiful person on the bed, then turned his gaze to the broken bowl on the ground, and then to me, "Come out with me." Before I had any reaction, he left first and walked towards the main hall. And go.

I followed his footsteps vainly, and came to the silent and deserted hall, which was very cold and desolate.He looked at me for a long time, and asked in a cold voice, "Why?"

Not a doubt, but an affirmation.

I looked back at his sinister eyes, and said in my very feeble voice, "Because I'm jealous!"

As the sound fell, a slap was already slapped hard, and the sound of "slap" resounded back and forth in the hall for a long time.I took a few steps back because of his sudden slap. The heavy, merciless slap made my brain buzz and go blank.

I had expected that he would scold me, he would ignore me, he would alienate me, but I never expected that he would beat me.He slapped me down without even asking me why.It hurts, really hurts.

"You know that she will not pose any threat to you, and the child in her womb is not mine. Why do you want to cut off her chance to be a mother so cruelly? You know, women in the harem are infertile and die unintentionally. You... When did it change...!" He pointed at me angrily and asked.

die?At least she can live... My sight has always lingered on his face, never leaving for a moment. "Yeah, I'm cruel, but I still save her life, don't I?"

His eyes were full of disappointment, and he sneered at me without emotion, "Yeah, she should also thank you, if you didn't mention it, I would have forgotten that before you even refused to let go of an unborn child, now like this That's kind of merciful."

He thought the kid was me...wasn't it him?
I tried my best to calm myself down, "Even without me, can you keep that child?" I let out a loud voice and roared excitedly, but the tears that pooled in my eyes still refused to drop, "How are you going to punish me today? , I have no complaints."

Maybe it was because of the slap in my heart that I was angry, so I didn't even want to explain, I just talked back.

His voice was louder than mine, covering up all my echoes, "Do you think I really dare not do anything to you?"

I stopped talking and looked at him quietly, and he also looked at me for a long time.

In his eyes, the tenderness and love can no longer be seen.He closed his eyes abruptly, and opened them again, as indifferent as usual.Don't look at me any more, just walk away without a trace of nostalgia.

I sneered, and Huanwu was floating in this hall, so I was still no match for a child, no match for mutual suspicion.

The palace is silent and the sky is covered with a moon, the spring breeze slowly floats the clothes, the dark dust is flying, and the silver candle is cold to draw the screen.I was dressed in thin clothes, sitting quietly on the stone steps in front of the porch, holding a small stick in my hand, and gently fiddled with the dust at my feet.

My heart is empty, I always feel like something is missing, sometimes I feel like I don't belong here at all.

The story of Mrs. Ya's infertility was rumored in the palace, and everyone began to speculate, and concluded that I had killed the child in her womb, but Mrs. Ya insisted that she accidentally fell and died. abortion.

I know the reason why she said this is because she is afraid or grateful?If she is grateful, she really doesn't need it. After all, I deprived her of her rights as a mother.

It's been five days, and he hasn't been to Zhaofeng Palace again, am I really unforgivable?

Zhitao said that now the imperial court led by Xiao You led a group of officials to participate in me, and asked the emperor to punish me severely and thoroughly investigate this matter.

She said that I was too stupid to take the medicine to her face. Isn't that the same as telling everyone that I can't tolerate all the women in the harem?She also said, in fact, she can deliver the bowl of medicine for me.

I fiddled with the soil, and the smell of dust came into my nose, and I coughed a few times.I was so stupid, so stupid that I overestimated my position in his heart, and I got a slap from him.So stupid that his heart softened and he wanted to let Xiao You live, but what he got was his ruthless participation.

Why did I only think at first that as long as I let them live, Xiao You would be fine.But I didn't expect that Mrs. Ya is Xiao You's woman, he loves her very much, and I deprived them of their right to be parents.So, how could he let me go?However, Mrs. Ya must not have children in the future. I cannot let Xiao You be instigated by her to rebel and push her own child to the position of prince. Can't stand his betrayal.

I asked myself if I regretted it, no, I didn't regret it.Just take it as Xiao Jincheng's repayment for my love, at worst I won't leave the palace here!
"Imperial Concubine..." A shadow stretched for a long time under the moonlight, overlapping with my shadow.

I slowly raised my head to look at Mrs. Ya, who had just recovered from a serious illness, and her face was slightly pale, "Why are you here, are you just reading a joke?"

She was silent for a while, lifted her dress and sat side by side with me on the porch steps, looked at me blankly, "I came to thank you for letting me live that day."

My hands that had been poking the soil froze, and I asked a little funny, "Really. But you will never have children again in this life, don't you hate me?"

"I know, if you intend to harm me, Lord Xiao and I would have been imprisoned long ago." Her eyes were full of sincerity, "I thought you hated me."

I smiled lightly and discarded the dead branch in my hand, "I have never liked you." I looked back at her in a daze, "Don't think about leaving the palace with the excuse of infertility, and finally you can be with Xiao You. You can only die in the palace. For the sake of the two of you, let's give up this relationship."

Mrs. Ya lowered her head and remained silent for a moment, "Why did you let me go. Besides, everyone saw that you brought the medicine into the Palace of Thousand Birds with your own hands. Aren't you afraid? Murdering the concubine, aren't you afraid?"

"I'm afraid, why am I not afraid?" The voices of the two of us stopped suddenly, and the surroundings became quiet, only the cold wind was blowing against us.I sighed quietly, and said in a self-deprecating voice, "That day I dared to bring medicine to the Thousand Birds Palace in front of everyone, and I pushed my life out. I was betting on my life."

"Who are you betting with, Lord Xiao?" Her voice was slightly surprised and slightly worried.

I shook my head slightly, "Actually, I lost."

"I don't understand. The emperor didn't dispose of you, which means you haven't lost yet, doesn't it?"

"Actually, I lost a long time ago, as early as that day... I lost."

I sat with Xinyue and Zhitao in the Feixian Pavilion behind Zhaofeng Palace, the sun was warm and the wind was blowing, and the wind was blowing and the flowers were gradually drifting.For two months, he hasn't been here again. The matter of Mrs. Ya's death has faded with time, and no one has ever pursued whether her previous child was caused by me or by myself.Xiao You didn't ask for a thorough investigation of the matter again.I don't know how to calm down, but the person who calmed down must be Xiao Jincheng, I know.