Second Marriage and Pregnancy: CEO?

The two of us sat together on the chairs in the playground, I looked at Pei Li who was sitting next to me, and smiled.

Pei Li seemed to be reading some documents and didn't notice my smile.

The children's laughter came over, and I looked at the two children who were still far away, and suddenly felt that this moment has always been the life I want to pursue.

I inadvertently saw Pei Li next to him, he seemed hesitant to speak, just thought he was thinking about something else, so he didn't care.

The two children in the distance were playing happily at this time, and they didn't notice this at all, but my eyes were always on the two of them.

"Have you figured it out yet?" Pei Li suddenly asked me a word for no reason, and immediately regained my sanity. I was still a little dazed at this moment, and didn't know what he was talking about.

"Ah? What are you talking about?" I didn't understand what he was talking about, nor did I know what his words meant.

When I looked at Pei Li in a daze, I found that Pei Li was acting a little cautious at this moment, not as comfortable as before.

Looking at his current state, I suddenly thought of what Pei Li wanted to tell me.

I originally wanted to answer, but before I could speak, I saw Pei Li who was sitting on the side speak first.

"I just wanted to ask you if you have any ideas." Pei Li still only said half a sentence, but coughed lightly. The state at this time was much more natural than before, but he still seemed a little reserved.

It turned out that he wanted to ask me about my thoughts on reconciliation.

Looking at Pei Li's state, I suddenly understood something in my heart.

I suddenly felt a little happy in my heart, and I couldn't even explain why.

"I"

At this time, I was still a little bit at a loss. Pei Li suddenly asked me such a question, and I didn't know how to answer him.

Besides, the relationship between the two of us is still a little complicated. I don't know what attitude I should use to face him, and what choice should I make now?

I've had a good time during this time, but that's not everything.

Not to mention I have two kids and I need to think about them.

I have many places that need to be taken care of, and there are many places that I can't let go of.

For these reasons, I cannot easily draw conclusions.

"I" Okay, I wanted to answer Pei Li at this time, but I found that I couldn't say anything. When I opened my mouth, it was a monosyllabic word that I didn't even hear clearly, and then quickly disappeared into the wind. middle.

"What's wrong?" He noticed that my state was not right just now, as if he had forgotten the previous incident, he asked me with some concern.

I shook my head slightly, and was also shocked by my own "OK" just now.

Maybe I'm yearning for this.

But I still don't want to give Pei Li an accurate explanation at this time.

"Isn't life good now?" I thought I had come up with a compromise, and looked at Pei Li who was sitting next to me and the two children who were still playing not far away, and my thoughts became more and more firm.

It is obviously too early to make a choice at this time, and I have not made corresponding preparations myself, so when I face all this, I naturally have resistance.

If I was able to make brave choices before, then now I am a little scared. I am afraid to face the roads ahead, and I don't know how I should make myself look stronger.

I'm not who I used to be.

I know that it is really wrong for me to do such a thing now, but I have indeed lost those things before, I am still the same me, but the thoughts in my heart have quietly changed.

"Are you thinking about anything else?" Pei Li saw that I was distracted by myself, and asked me such a sentence.

"No, I'm just." I shook my head slightly, but I didn't know what answer I should give him.

I'm just afraid to make a choice.

But what can I do alone?I am no longer the old me, that Qin Yan has also been smoothed over the long years, and has begun to compromise with life.

But I don't know how to explain all this to Pei Li now. I don't know if I can fully express what I mean, and I don't know if Pei Li can understand what I'm expressing.

What's more, I always think that exposing all my shortcomings and anxiety will only show my helplessness and anxiety. What's more, when those behaviors are put in the eyes of others, they may not be confused, but just affectation.

I don't want to admit defeat.

I also don't want to bow my head.

I know that I have changed a lot, but the things in my bones have not changed.

During this period of time, I seem to have more ideas and seem to have grown up, but I know that under the delicate appearance, I am still the same me.

I looked into the distance, then looked back at the person beside me, and suddenly smiled.

The current life is what I want, and I don't need to think about those other things, I just need to cherish the present life.

As for those choices, I don't have to decide now. I can wait until I can make up my mind after a while, and then I will make a choice.

Suddenly, I felt that I was not so hesitant again. Although the front looked dark, there was always a way.

"The thing you asked me about before." I opened my head and saw Pei Li's puzzled eyes, showing a somewhat sly smile.

I didn't finish the rest of the sentence. Instead, I showed a smile and left here, looking for the two children not far away.

"take it easy."

But what I didn't know was that when I was leaving, Pei Li looked at my back and said such a sentence with a smile. His voice was so soft that he couldn't hear anything clearly in the wind .

I did it on purpose.

Muqin and Xuanxuan were obviously very surprised when they saw me, they didn't expect that I would choose to play with them at this time, "I'm here to play with you now, do you want to do other projects?"

"That!" The two children pointed to the roller coaster on the side, and then showed a look of longing, "We think that is fun, but the uncle said that we are children and won't let us play that, but we have grown up a long time ago !"

Xuanxuan seemed a little excited at this time, with his hands on his hips, and said to me indignantly, while Mu Qin just listened quietly, showing a cute look.

"These projects are still too dangerous for you. You are still young. When you grow up, I will take you to play, okay?" I knew that the two children just wanted to act like a baby with me.

Xuanxuan's cute appearance made me make such a promise. I rubbed his head, then smiled gently, and looked at Mu Qin who was quietly standing beside him.

"Mom, then you must not lie! We remember what you said to us today!"

After Xuanxuan thought about it for a while, he seemed to think that what I said made sense, so he put his hands on his hips, pretending to be mature, and told me like this.

"Okay, since we have already promised you, we will come back when you grow up," I made such a promise with a smile.

"Mom, it turns out that the amusement park is so fun!" Xuanxuan still had a smile on his face, "We must come here often in the future."

I took the hands of the two children, squatted down, and looked at them both.

"After playing for so long, are you tired? If you are tired now, let's go to rest for a while."

I saw that Mu Qin seemed a little tired, so I asked this question.

"We're not tired!" Before Mu Qin could speak, Xuanxuan interrupted the conversation between the two of us in a hurry. He thought we were going home now, "The two of us are not very tired now, we can still Want to play a little longer?"

Knowing Xuanxuan's thoughts, I didn't blame the two children in front of me, "If you two are not very tired now, just keep playing, I will accompany you by the side."

After I said these words, I tidied Mu Qin's somewhat messy hair, "If you are tired, remember to tell Xuan Xuan, take a rest and eat something."

"Well," Mu Qin still looked calm, but at this moment her cheeks were a little red, and when she looked carefully, her eyes were also filled with joy.

When I was talking to them, I deliberately pretended not to care, and inadvertently looked at Pei Li, only to find that he was just sitting quietly on a chair, looking here from time to time. look.

I didn't answer Pei Li's previous question directly, nor did I give him an accurate answer.

In fact, this kind of life is also very good now. I have everything I want, and what I want to pursue is always by my side. I don't need to pursue those other things. 
Living this way is also a choice, and I happen to like it that way.

But what I didn't notice was that when Pei Li looked at the three of us, the corners of his mouth curled up in a way that he didn't even notice.

This kind of life is also very good. Compared with this kind of life, reconciliation does not seem to be so important.

Our group had a great time in the amusement park. We never thought that life would be as beautiful as in our dreams.

And we seem to have been separated because of various things before, and now we can finally be together. This kind of thought makes me happier.

This kind of life is the life I have been pursuing.