A lifetime of lingering: the army is unbridled

Hearing her questioning, Huo Yuan pursed his mouth slightly into a beautiful arc. He rubbed his chin with one hand, as if he had thought of something interesting, and his brows were also tinged with joy.

Seeing Huo Yuan's expression, Su Jinsheng pouted unconvincedly: "You thought of something beautiful by yourself, but you didn't share it with me."

Her voice was weak, and it sounded like she had no confidence. It was just because her body hadn't fully recovered and her blood was insufficient.

Seeing her so weak makes people feel distressed to the bone.

Huo Yuan reached out to straighten her slightly messy hair, and comforted her softly: "I'm wondering if we can sleep together tonight."

He stared at Su Jinsheng quietly.

These days, he basically slept in the family ward, because this is a high-risk ward, and the family members of general patients cannot live here, so as to avoid any bacteria from infecting the patients.

Huo Yuan was dissatisfied, but considering Su Jinsheng's safety, he finally endured it.

Since Su Jinsheng woke up a few days ago, he wanted to ask over and over again to move here to rest, but he was always afraid that she would not get used to it, because when she just woke up, she spoke very little and her eyes were always slightly sad.

He knew that she felt uncomfortable in her heart, why didn't he feel the same way.

Now that she has finally recovered a bit of vitality, and she has talked more with himself, he can't wait to move in.

Being together again seems to be back to the time when we just started falling in love together.

This feeling is subtle.

Hearing this, Su Jinsheng's eyes froze, and then he said: "Although the doctor relieved the crisis in the intensive care unit, I am in this situation now."

As she spoke, an imperceptible sadness flashed across her eyes. She wanted to say that her dilapidated body was really not worth mentioning. When she woke up this time, it seemed as if she had been reassembled. Feeling uncomfortable, thinking that I will have to face Huo Yuan in the future, those sweet pictures from before popped into my mind.

She was even more worried, thinking of his persevering and caring care, she could not be depraved, nor could she be depressed, but she wanted to return to the radiant look before, as if she had lost her courage all of a sudden.

All these changes in her were seen by Huo Yuan. Her heart was in pain, but she pretended not to notice it. He slowly sat down beside her bed, leaned over and kissed her forehead : "The past, can we just treat it as the past, let's start again, okay?"

From the very beginning, he was worried that this matter would become a gap and scar in Su Jinsheng's heart. Even so, what he was worried about finally happened.

At this moment, he found that he didn't even have the courage to sigh.

He didn't know what to say to soothe his mood. After he said such a sentence, he only looked at Su Jinsheng with burning eyes, waiting for her response.

At the time of youth, no one wants such an accident to happen.

But life doesn't seem to be smooth sailing.

Su Jinsheng looked at Huo Yuan's gentle eyes, the eye sockets were slightly moist, moved his lips, trying to make a sound, but found that his throat was already choked, Huo Yuan looked at her as if she was about to cry.

He leaned over and hugged her, and patted her arm gently: "Don't be sad, it's over, it's over, it's over."

He repeated this sentence three times, not only for Su Jinsheng to hear, but also for himself.

At this moment, Su Jinsheng seemed to have a chance to vent all her forbearance. She stretched out her movable hand and firmly held Huo Yuan's arm.

crying like a child.

Huo Yuan didn't speak, just let her cry quietly, he thought, some hidden emotions should be vented in this way, otherwise holding them in his heart would ruin people.

A long time passed, and Su Jinsheng felt as if all her strength had been used up. She said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, but I didn't protect our child well."

For her and Huo Yuan's first child, after she lost her, she felt a deep self-blame in her heart. In her heart, she subconsciously blamed herself for this matter. If she wasn't so stupid, she could With a little scheming, you won't be treated as a living target.

After losing it, I realized how stupid I was.

Every time she thinks of these things, she faces herself facelessly, not to mention Huo Yuan.

She will never forget in her life, Huo Yuan's ecstatic expression when she had his child for the first time, remember that time, he was excited like a child, hugging himself up, holding on Turning around in circles until I felt dizzy for a while, I didn't put myself down.

All his expressions at that time were clearly imprinted in her mind. She felt that she was very happy, after going around, she finally found her own good match.

She imagined what Huo Yuan would look like when she gave birth to a child, what would be her name if she had a girl, and what would happen to her if it was a boy.
All of this, she had rehearsed in her mind time and time again, so that when she was bored, she knit a sweater by herself, with a neutral appearance.

Because she didn't know whether it was a boy or a girl, she knitted a unisex sweater so that both boys and girls could wear it.

Now lie quietly in the hotel.

She thought so in her heart.

Not only did she feel deeply guilty towards Huo Yuan, but she also felt a kind of silent guilt towards this unborn child.

Because she was strangled in the cradle before she was born.

Hearing this, Huo Yuan stretched out his rough fingertips to wipe away the tears on her face.

His voice involuntarily added a touch of solemnity: "Sheng'er, the doctor said that we still have many opportunities to have children in the future, and this child was just an accident. Don't be sad alone. This matter is ultimately about me, the father. I am incompetent, I have lived most of my life, and I have never done a thing well. The wedding I mentioned before was also inexplicably delayed, and I went to some broken army. Don’t blame yourself, if you want to blame me, it’s always me who prompted This happened to this point."

This matter was like a heavy stone, pressing hard on Huo Yuan's heart, sometimes when he was in a bad mood, he even felt a little out of breath.

Even so, life still had to go on, and he had to suppress such strong emotions deep in his heart.

Su Jinsheng looked at Huo Yuan with teary eyes and said, "This matter has nothing to do with you. If I hadn't been so stupid, I would have let people plot against me casually. Things must not have ended like today. I was the one who persevered in the beginning. I can't blame you for asking you to go to the army, in fact, I am a duplicity woman, in fact... I am not good enough for you. "

The last sentence was said by Su Jinsheng with all his strength. This sentence has been held in his heart for a long, long time, and there has never been a suitable opportunity to say it.

Now that she said it, she felt that she felt more comfortable all over.

Hearing this, Huo Yuan's handsome face suddenly became extremely dark, and he glared at Su Jinsheng fiercely: "What did you say, look into my eyes, and say it again?"

His whole body exudes an air-conditioning that is three points colder than Hanjiao. To be honest, looking at Su Jinsheng who spurned him like this, he felt that she said such words, as if she was holding a sharp knife, slashing his own hair. on the meat.

An inexplicable anger came to his mind, and he looked faintly: "Su Jinsheng, you say that, do you know that I feel really sad in my heart, at this moment, even if someone stabbed me with a knife, you didn't say a word The words make people feel uncomfortable, in my eyes, in my heart, you are my everything, if there is no you in my life, I feel that I have lost the color, only black and white grids are left, why do you want to It's so cruel, don't you want me?"

What he said was somewhat anticipatory, which was not at all like what the distinguished Huo Yuan would say.

The last sentence, like a knife, stabbed Su Jinsheng's heart fiercely. She didn't mean it that way. She thought about it a lot. Sometimes she couldn't help being so proud of such a broken self. Such an excellent Huo Yuan, Could it be that one day, I suddenly dislike myself? With this recognition, more and more bad emotions rush out.

Until it got out of hand.

She was apprehensive and terrified, but such self-pity was not a thing after all, she decided to say it openly, if Huo Yuan really chose not to love, at least she would know how she should live in the future.

As the saying goes, it's good to have a plan.

She was left speechless by the question.

Huo Yuan suddenly approached a little closer, and said slowly: "Speechless? Is it all right if I am like this? What about the promise we made together at the beginning, have you completely forgotten it now? Or , In fact, in your heart, during my absence, there are already other people, thinking of using such an excuse to push me away?"

The reason why he said the following words was because when he was thinking, Bai Mu's figure suddenly entered his mind.

Thinking of some possibilities, he found that jealousy twisted himself.

"No, Huo Yuan, you misunderstood me, I'm not. Phew." Su Jinsheng, who was too excited, suddenly became a little short of breath at this moment, and his little face, which already had a little blood, was as pale as paper at this moment, very oozing. people.

There was even fine sweat on his forehead.

Huo Yuan was startled, and quickly stretched out his hand to hold her among the people.

5 minute later.

The doctor replaced Su Jinsheng with another bottle of intravenous drip. Su Jinsheng didn't know why, but only entered one-third of the intravenous drip before falling into a deep sleep.

The doctor sighed, and looked at Huo Yuan with burning eyes: "Miss Su's emotions were too agitated just now, and her heart can't bear it for the time being. May I ask what Mr. Huo said?"