I used to love you in a wrong name

Shi Sheng took the elevator to the 7th floor.

"Drip" the elevator door opened, and the intensive care unit was separated by layers of glass. In each intensive care unit lay a person, all of whom were covered with tubes, struggling to survive by relying on oxygen cylinders.

"Hi miss, who can I ask?" A nurse wearing a mask asked Shi Sheng.

"I'm looking for Gu Qingyue."

"Mr. Gu, this way." Shi Sheng followed closely behind the nurse.

"When you enter our place, you must be disinfected first. I am afraid that bacteria will infect these patients again. They are too fragile." The nurse took out the disinfectant while talking, and handed Shi Sheng a set of disinfected disposable plastic clothes. .

When Shi Sheng put on his clothes, he could see Gu Qingyue immediately, and felt a little uneasy.

The nurse brought Shi Sheng to a door, "Mr. Gu is inside, try to keep your voice as low as possible after you go in, so as not to affect the patient's rest."

Said the nurse opened the door.

In the ward, Gu Qingyue was put on an oxygen mask, with a thick needle inserted in his hand, and a bag of red liquid hung on the infusion stand next to him, and the sound of liquid dripping could be heard in the quiet ward.

"Gu Qingyue..." Shi Sheng softly called Gu Qingyue's name.

The person on the bed was motionless, lying there completely.

"Gu Qingyue." Shi Sheng called out again.

Still dead silent.

Shi Sheng walked to the bed and looked at the man lying on the bed, even though his face was a little pale, it still didn't affect his handsome face.

"You used to always look at me and smile, but now you can't even open your eyes." When Shi Sheng thought of Gu Qing, whose eyes were always smiling like crescent moons, his eyes turned red.

"You used to hug me if I was a little sad, but now you can't even move your fingers." Shi Sheng knelt in front of Gu Qingyue's bed and held Gu Qingyue's hand. She put Gu Qingyue's hand on her mouth side.

Shi Sheng's tears fell down "patta patta", no matter how sad Shi Sheng was crying, Gu Qingyue still showed no sign of waking up.

The visit ended soon, and the nurse knocked on the door, "Miss, the visiting time is over, we have to ensure the patient's rest."

Shi Sheng nodded slightly and stood up, but his eyes never left Gu Qingyue's body.

"Gu Qingyue, you must wake up quickly." Shi Sheng could only pray in his heart.

"By the way, Miss Nurse, there is also a little boy named Xixi, which ward is he in?"

"Xixi? We don't have any little boy named Xixi here." The nurse shook her head.

"Impossible, you must have misremembered." Shi Sheng desperately wanted to see his son.

"I might remember it wrong before, but I won't this time." The nurse was sure, "Because there are no other children in the intensive care unit except for a few premature babies who were just born."

"Impossible, please ask the nurse to read some registration information and check for me." Shi Sheng was a little anxious, "I am the mother of this child, he should have come to this hospital with me two months ago. "

"The ones that came two months ago are gone." The nurse said and opened the computer file, which clearly recorded all the patient's information.

The nurse asked Shi Sheng to watch them one by one.

Shi Sheng read it for the first time, "Why not."

Then she read it again, still nothing, Shi Sheng panicked, repeated several times, but there was no information about Xixi, not even his name.

Shi Sheng threw down the computer, and ran to the nurse's station outside his ward to ask again, but except for the nurse who took care of him, everyone had seen Xixi, and hadn't even heard of him.

Shi Sheng returned to the ward like crazy and pressed the emergency bell. After a while, the nurse who took care of Shi Sheng opened the door and entered the room.

"Where's my son?" Shi Sheng cut to the chase.

"Didn't you say you're still in a coma?" The nurse turned her back to Shi Sheng and began to fiddle with those useless instruments.

"Don't lie to me, he's not here at all!" Shi Sheng reached out and grabbed the nurse's wrist, the sudden pain made the nurse turn her head to face Shi Sheng.

"Please tell me, where is Xixi." Shi Sheng suddenly had tears in her eyes, she begged the nurse, she wanted to get the truth.

Seeing Shi Sheng like this, the nurse didn't plan to hide it anymore, "After finding Gu Qingyue by the river two months ago, three more people were salvaged from the river, and two of these three people still had weak symptoms. Breathe, one is you, the other is Mr. Gu Qingyue's aunt, and there is a child..."

The nurse's eyes turned red before she finished speaking, Shi Sheng held the nurse's hand tightly, she was too nervous.

"He is so pitiful, he was gnawed beyond recognition by fish when he was salvaged, already...already..." The nurse sobbed.

"It's too late, I can't breathe." Thinking of the child's plight, the nurse felt distressed.

Suddenly the world went blank, and all the voices seemed to be far away from Shi Sheng.

"Xixi is dead..." Shi Sheng's mind was full of these words.

"My son is dead." Shi Sheng sat limply on the head of the bed, "Only my son died..."

Shi Sheng couldn't bear the bad news, and she fainted again after she just woke up and was very weak.

After a few days and nights, Shi Sheng's consciousness began to accept information from the outside world. She heard the doctor come again and again, the electrocardiogram was taken again and again, Gu Qingyue's mother also came, and she was in Shi Sheng's bed. I couldn't breathe before crying.

But Shi Sheng didn't want to take care of them, and he didn't want to open his eyes, "Isn't it good to keep sleeping like this?" In Shi Sheng's subconscious mind, he refused to recover.

She doesn't want to face the world.

"But if she can't wake up, she won't be able to confirm whether the child that was salvaged that day is her son." Shi Sheng heard the nurse asking the doctor in a daze, "These things can't be cured by medicine, they are patients. I don’t want to wake up, so I can only wait slowly.”

"Can I... still see Xixi?" Their conversation caught Shi Sheng's attention, and she wanted to see Xixi for the last time.

Shi Sheng tried his best, but his eyes couldn't be opened as if stuck in glue, and his limbs couldn't use any strength at all.

Shi Sheng tried countless times, and with perseverance his fingers were finally able to move.

A few minutes later, Shi Sheng opened his eyes again, the sudden light hurt his eyes, Shi Sheng subconsciously covered his eyes.

"Hmm." Shi Sheng found that his head was in pain as if it was bursting, and couldn't help but hum softly.

Shi Sheng pressed the bell next to him, and after a while, the nurse came in.

"You finally woke up." The nurse looked at Shi Sheng with relief.

"En." Shi Sheng had no extra strength, "Can I still see my son?"

"That little boy was buried in the ground long ago. If you want to see it, I can show you the photos at that time. By the way, you can identify whether it is your child or not."

"Photos are fine too." This is the only way for Shi Sheng to see Xixi's last side.

The nurse brought a few photos and warned Shi Sheng, "If you want to see it, you have to learn to stabilize your emotions, otherwise your body may really not be able to hold on."

Shi Sheng nodded slightly, and stretched out his hand to ask the nurse for a photo.

In the photo, a little boy was lying on the ground, his face was bruised and purple from the cold of the river, and there were pits and pits on his face that were chewed out by fish, and large chunks of skin were turned outward, leaking out the bloody meat inside, and the rest was A large area was swollen and bruised, and it was impossible to tell where the facial features were on a face. Shi Sheng couldn't believe that this was the frisky Xixi.

He clenched his little hands tightly, and his usually white and tender hands turned black and blue, and the clothes on his body were washed away by the river, leaving only a thin autumn clothes stuck to his body, as can be seen from the photo. Through the thin layer of clothes, the ribs are clearly visible.

Shi Sheng finally couldn't control himself, and burst into tears with a "wow".

Then the miserable cries of a woman could be heard throughout the floor.

Shi Sheng saw the triangular-shaped mole on Xixi's neck, and Shi Sheng knew it was Xixi.

The days passed day by day, and Shi Sheng hadn't eaten or drank for three days and three nights.

"Shi Sheng, what will I do if something happens to you again?" Mother Gu came to the hospital to take care of Shi Sheng.

Shi Sheng's eyes were empty, and he sat motionless on the bed like a fool, "If you don't get well again, Mom will spend the rest of her life in guilt."

Mother Gu wiped her tears and took out a bowl of chicken soup from the insulated box, took a spoon to test the temperature, and put it near Shi Sheng's mouth, "Eat some, girl."

Suddenly, Shi Sheng pushed the bowl open to his mouth like crazy, and Gu's mother almost fell down.

"You all go, you don't care about me...you all go...you all go...all go..." Shi Sheng hugged his legs and curled up at the corner of the bed, repeating this sentence over and over again, with his head buried in his knees incessantly trembling.

Seeing this, Mother Gu had no choice but to leave.

"If she continues like this, we may need to give her a sedative." The doctor told Gu's mother, "She is too emotionally unstable, and she needs to be taken care of during this time, so as not to do things that hurt herself."

"Okay, doctor, I will come to accompany her every day during this time, and find the best psychologist for her by the way." Mother Gu sighed.

In the ward, Shi Sheng suddenly grabbed the quilt and covered himself, covering himself tightly, even covering his head.

"I want Xixi, I want Xixi..." Shi Sheng who was under the quilt bit his big thumb, the blood dripped down the nails on the snow-white sheet.

The sudden smell of blood made Shi Sheng sober up. She looked at the broken finger bitten by herself, and the blood couldn't stop gushing out.

"It's said that the fingers are connected to the heart, why don't I feel any pain at all." Shi Sheng's heart was empty, since seeing Xixi's photo that day, Shi Sheng has no heart to hurt.

A heart is already broken.