half thorns, half joy

Xiao Zihan's gaze slid down from Tang Xuan's face and landed on Tang Xuan's hands.Tang Xuan's hand was still holding the box due to being too nervous.

"I... I was not careful..." Tang Xuan blushed instantly. She really didn't expect Xiao Zihan to carry such a thing with him.

What made Tang Xuan most embarrassing was that she was afraid that Xiao Zihan would propose to her and dared not bring it up, but now she naturally brought up this topic.

Or in such a way that there is no retreat at all.

Xiao Zihan was also a little surprised. He also did not expect to be discovered by Tang Xuan. The reason why he carried it with him was because he couldn't put it down because he couldn't put it down, and he was worried that when the right opportunity came up, the ring would not be with him.

"Um... you're almost home." Tang Xuan let go in a panic, and subconsciously pushed her jacket towards Xiao Zihan, like pushing a hot potato.

Xiao Zihan reacted, he stretched out his hand, and took out the box from his pocket.

The crimson velvet box, under the dim light inside the car, looks noble and elegant, and people who see it can't help but look forward to the moment when it is opened.

"I planned to give you a surprise." Xiao Zihan smiled faintly, "But since you already know, there's no need to hide it."

Tang Xuan felt as if she had lost her breath, leaving only a shell, staring blankly at Xiao Zihan.

"Originally, my plan was to find a romantic time, a romantic place, and in a beautiful atmosphere, to propose to you, but now I suddenly feel that this moment is also very suitable for a proposal." Xiao Zihan finished speaking on his own , turned to look at Tang Xuan, the affection in his eyes almost turned into reality, "Xiao Xuan, would you..."

Tang Xuan didn't know what she was thinking at that moment. When she realized it, her hand was already on Xiao Zihan's finger, preventing Xiao Zihan from opening the ring box.

"Xiao Xuan?" Xiao Zihan looked at Tang Xuan in disbelief.

Tang Xuan quickly withdrew her hand, "I...I...no..." Being looked at by Xiao Zihan like that, she couldn't even utter a complete sentence.

In fact, she didn't know what to say or what to say.

Her action just now was more extreme than what she said, and it was irreparable.

It took a long time before Xiao Zihan uttered three words.

"why?"

Tang Xuan didn't dare to look at the confusion and hurt in Xiao Zihan's eyes. She lowered her eyes and bit her lips tightly.

"What... do you mean?" Xiao Zihan asked again.

Tang Xuan felt as if her heart had been pulled out of her chest by a human being, and she was rubbed into the juicer, and began to stir wantonly.

"Xiaoxuan, what do you mean?" Xiao Zihan asked again.

Tang Xuan tightly closed her eyes, and said three words in pain.

"sorry."

Xiao Zihan's hand holding the ring box fell on his lap as if he had lost all his strength, and the ring box in his hand also rolled to the side.

Tang Xuan seemed to be able to hear Xiao Zihan's sad heart.

She knew that she could speak cleverly and make up a perfect set of rhetoric to continue to deceive Xiao Zihan, or more precisely, to continue to stabilize Xiao Zihan so that she could achieve her goal.

However, those hypocritical words and those elaborately embellished words seemed to be rejected by her mouth. Many words flashed through her mind, but she couldn't utter a single word.

Silence was like a knife, stabbing fiercely into Xiao Zihan's heart, and also between the two of them, cutting a bottomless gully.

In this extremely depressing silence, the car stopped and stopped at the entrance of the community.

Indeed, home.

Xiao Zihan sat without moving, and Tang Xuan also sat. After an unknown amount of time passed, Xiao Zihan finally spoke again.

"Let's separate for a while."

Tang Xuan's hanging heart fell back.Although it was painful, she seemed to have waited for a verdict, and finally she was not so afraid.

"……it is good."

Tang Xuan's nose was sore, half of Xiao Zihan's coat was still on her body, and the scent could still penetrate her nose clearly, but she and Xiao Zihan were as far away as a hundred thousand mountains.

"I'm leaving." Tang Xuan tried her best not to cry. She lifted off her clothes, put them aside gently, and opened the door to get out of the car.

After closing the car door, she lowered her head and walked into the community step by step.

Xiao Zihan's car behind her also turned around and drove away the moment she entered the community.

Like a puppet, Tang Xuan went upstairs with one foot deep and one foot shallow, opened the door with the key, changed into her slippers, and sat on the sofa.

On the coffee table in front of the sofa was half a watermelon that Xiao Zihan had cut up before going to the banquet. Only the flesh in the center had been eaten for several bites, and the spoon was still inserted in it.

Tang Xuan stared at the watermelon for a while, thinking of Xiao Zihan's smile and words before going to the banquet, she couldn't help it any longer, and cried out loud while hugging her head.

She has always been a patient person, and it has been a long, long time since she cried like this.

Tang Xuan couldn't figure out why she was crying, was she crying that she had lost someone who loved her, or was crying that she was worthless and unable to complete the task rationally.

Or, she was crying that she hurt Xiao Zihan.

She was out of breath from crying, almost dehydrated, her eyes were red, and she couldn't shed any tears before she lay down on the sofa and stopped.

"Sorry……"

"sorry."

Tang Xuan lay on the sofa, buried her head in the sofa, and repeated these three words over and over again.

She said it too many times, and she didn't know whether it was Xiao Zihan who she was sorry for, or her love that was doomed to lose before it even started.

Tang Xuan stayed up all night, lying on the bed with her eyes open until the sun rose, and the dazzling sunlight shone directly into the room.

The alarm clock rang on time, breaking the silence of the house.

Tang Xuan turned off the phone with a sullen face, and looked at the time. At eight o'clock in the morning, she threw the phone on the coffee table, hugged her legs, and huddled into the sofa.

According to the past, at this time, she had already got up to wash her face and brush her teeth, then made a simple breakfast, woke Xiao Zihan up, and then set off for work.

But last night Xiao Zihan had already said that she wanted to separate, and she didn't know if she could still be the secretary.

If Xiao Zihan broke up with her, it would be inappropriate for her to stay beside Xiao Zihan as a secretary.

Xiao Zihan shouldn't be so heartless as to fire her, but it's impossible to keep her, maybe, let her go back to the original editorial department.

Tang Xuan thought about it intermittently. After not sleeping all night, her mind has become a mess, and she is not quite awake.

She even wondered in a daze, now that things have turned out like this, whether Police Officer Liu and Ke Ke will be disappointed in her and kick her out.

Tang Xuan seldom loses her temper. No matter what happens to her, she will keep it in her heart.But a person's ability to bear is limited, and the capacity of a heart is also limited. When there are too many things in the heart and the load is exceeded, the person will collapse.

Of course, people who are on the verge of collapse rarely have the awareness of self-help.

You may even feel angry and think that if you collapse, you will be relieved. Forget it, there is no need to struggle.

In such a state of mind, Tang Xuan fainted.

She collapsed on the sofa, unconscious.

Xiao Zihan had a sleepless night, so he ordered the driver to take him to the newly bought house, and sat on the balcony all night watching the lights of Wanjia outside the window.

He didn't cry, he just smoked a whole pack of cigarettes.

The cigarettes were left by the decoration workers. Xiao Zihan didn't smoke, and he never smoked because he was sad and angry. This was his first time.

The workers' cigarettes are not good, they are astringent and bitter, making them difficult to smoke.

But Xiao Zihan didn't dislike it at all. He smoked one after another, unable to tell whether it was the bitterness of the cigarette or the bitterness in his heart.

When he thought of Tang Xuan's evasive and refusing eyes, his heart ached so badly that he could hardly breathe.

That's not fake, that's real.

Xiao Zihan couldn't figure it out. He couldn't figure out why Tang Xuan was like this. He asked at that time, but Tang Xuan didn't answer.

I don't know if I won't answer, or if I don't want to answer.

No matter which one it was, Xiao Zihan felt equally uncomfortable.

He really liked Tang Xuan, her gentleness, her understanding, her thoughtfulness, and her independence.

There was never anyone who could make him like her so much, so much that he wanted to give her a home, to shield her from all the wind and rain, and to hold her in his palm.

However, the person he likes showed such a look to hurt him.

So in a fit of anger, he said to separate for a while.

He wants to be calm and calm.

Xiao Zihan looked at the sky at dawn, thinking of Tang Xuan's lonely figure when she walked into the community alone last night, and his heart ached again.

Tang Xuan like that made him feel very distressed.

Xiao Zihan sat until his calves were numb, and just about to stand up to drink some water, the cell phone that was lying beside the cigarette butts suddenly rang.

Xiao Zihan glanced at the caller ID, it was Xiao Yu calling.

Xiao Yu's call was most likely at the behest of his father. Xiao Zihan sighed and picked it up.

"Xiao Han, why didn't you come to the company today?"

"I... overslept." Xiao Zihan cleared his throat, trying not to sound so tired, "What's wrong?"

Xiao Yu said: "Oh, it's okay. Your assistant didn't come either. Both of you were absent from the morning meeting today, and there was no news. Mr. Xiao asked me to call and ask you what's going on."

Xiao Zihan's heart sank, Tang Xuan didn't go either?
"That... I'll go there later, it's okay."

"That's good, hang up."

"Ah."

Hearing the beeping sound coming from the phone, Xiao Zihan frowned tightly.Tang Xuan was the most punctual and serious person he had ever met. Why didn't she go to the company?
Could it be because of what happened last night?

Suddenly, Xiao Zihan felt a little regretful about what he had said at the time. He thought to himself, the situation at that time was indeed rather sudden, and it was understandable that Tang Xuan couldn't accept it for a while. He said that they would be apart for a while, which probably scared Tang Xuan. up.

Tang Xuan's personality is quite serious, so maybe she is planning to resign because of what he said?

This realization made Xiao Zihan nervous.

He spent the whole night dejected, anxious and lamenting all night. It was only after dawn that he realized that he couldn't lose Tang Xuan.

Besides, Tang Xuan has been with him for so long, if she doesn't want to marry him, how can she stay with him forever.

But if Tang Xuan really thought that he was going to break up and left the city in despair, then the two of them really wanted to call it a day.

The more Xiao Zihan thought about it, the more outrageous it became. He seemed to see that Tang Xuan had already packed her luggage and was about to leave, his eyes were burning with anxiety.

Before he had time to think about it, Xiao Zihan called Tang Xuan.

Anyway, let's stabilize Tang Xuan first. He needs to explain to Tang Xuan that the separation for a period of time is not breaking up, but calming down.

In addition, his call was not to ask for peace, but to remind Tang Xuan that even if there was any conflict between the two, the company had to go, and the work had to be done seriously.

In order to appear colder, Xiao Zihan coughed a few times, adjusted his voice, and planned to speak coldly as soon as the call was connected.

But what he didn't expect was that no one answered the phone call he made.

After the phone rang a dozen times, it automatically hung up.

Xiao Zihan panicked.