half thorns, half joy

That night, Huang Tingting suffered from insomnia until the middle of the night before falling asleep.She had something on her mind, so she didn't sleep soundly this time, and woke up several times.

In the morning, she couldn't sleep anymore, but she didn't want to go out to meet people, so she got up and went to the balcony to sit and watch the scenery outside the window.

Her room did not face the sea, and she could only see the trees and some artificially cultivated flowers in the small garden outside the window.

The morning sun shone on the flowers and plants, coating them with a golden halo. On the street farther away, there was a woman walking slowly with a dog.

Everything looks so harmonious, so vibrant, so hopeful.

Huang Tingting was not affected by the beautiful scenery outside the window at all. She stared out of the window haggardly and sadly, looking so desperate that she had nothing to do with everything outside the house.

She sat with her knees hugged for a long time, until the sun rose, and there was a sound of horns on the road outside. It should be a passing vehicle, or someone nearby got up early to go to the company.

Huang Tingting didn't sleep well all night, her eyes were so sore that she couldn't open them anymore, she rubbed her eyes and went back to bed.

Because she was so tired, she slept until noon to eat.

"Tingting, it's time for lunch." Tang Xuan knocked on the door outside.

Huang Tingting wiped her face and replied: "...Okay, I'll be right there."

When she got out of bed to change, wash, and brush her teeth, she looked in the mirror at her eyes that had grown dozens of wrinkles overnight, and she didn't even have the strength to smile bitterly.

There is nothing greater than death, that's how she feels now.

After brushing his teeth, he left the bedroom and walked to the dining room.Tang Xuan was putting a bib on the baby in the dining room. When she saw Huang Tingting, she smiled and said, "I saw you didn't come out this morning, so I didn't ask you to have breakfast. You're going to be starving."

"...It's okay." Huang Tingting felt very complicated about Tang Xuan's thoughtfulness.

Tang Xuan wrapped the bib around the baby, turned her head to look at Huang Tingting, the smile on her face froze, "Tingting, what's wrong with you, why are you looking so pale, and why are your eyes swollen?"

Huang Tingting had long thought that Tang Xuan would definitely ask, so she said the answer she had prepared early in the morning: "I'm fine, it's just... I had a few nightmares last night."

"No wonder you didn't come out for breakfast this morning." Tang Xuan is not a person who likes to chatter, and she didn't say much after hearing the words, she just sat down with Huang Tingting, "Eat more, and go to rest after eating."

The gentle words and caring tone were supposed to make people happy, but when Huang Tingting heard this, she quickly avoided Tang Xuan's eyes and lowered her head to grab the chopsticks.

Because, she has a guilty conscience.

Fortunately, Tang Xuan just said this, and the baby next to her was babbling, and she went to coax the baby again.

Huang Tingting ate her food in silence, almost unable to swallow. When she thought of Bai Xin's tone of swearing she would not let Tang Xuan do anything on the phone last night, her mind was throbbing with pain.

Not to mention her prejudice against Tang Xuan in the past, or she was jealous of Tang Xuan, let's just say that this time she came back in this state, Tang Xuan still did not despise her, she still took her in, treated her as a good friend, cared for him, She thought, no matter what, she couldn't do anything wrong to Tang Xuan.

The problem is, she has no choice now.

"Tingting, are you really alright?" Tang Xuan turned her head and was caught off guard when she saw Huang Tingting crying, she quickly put down her chopsticks and asked.

Huang Tingting didn't speak, just shook her head and cried silently.

Tang Xuan sighed softly, and exchanged glances with the nanny who was also eating at the side, both feeling a little helpless.

In the end, Tang Xuan could only wrap her arms around Huang Tingting's shoulders, using her body to comfort Huang Tingting.

"It's okay, it's all over."

Huang Tingting seemed to realize that she had lost her composure, and quickly wiped away her tears, showing a forced smile: "I'm fine, I just think I'm too stupid, too stupid. I'm sorry, I made you laugh."

Tang Xuan: "What are you talking about, you idiot, we're friends, there's no one who doesn't read jokes. You've already come out, so you don't have to think about the past anymore, let the past pass by, we people Ah, gotta move on."

Huang Tingting: "...um."

She didn't know if she had a future or where her future was.

Fearing that Tang Xuan would find out if she was too emotional, Huang Tingting didn't continue talking. She picked up her rice bowl and continued eating.

Tang Xuan felt sorry for Huang Tingting, so she put several kinds of meat and vegetables in Huang Tingting's bowl, and patiently coaxed Huang Tingting like a child.

After eating, Huang Tingting couldn't stand staying with Tang Xuan any longer, so she excused herself to rest and went back to her bedroom.

On the floor of the bedroom, the mobile phone whose screen was broken by her was lying quietly.Huang Tingting walked over and picked up the phone.

Although the screen of the mobile phone was broken, the mobile phone was not broken. When she pressed her finger on it, the fingerprint automatically unlocked and opened it.

Huang Tingting's mobile phone screen saver is a selfie that she set before, which she is very satisfied with. It was taken when she was in her best condition after recovering from plastic surgery.

In the photo, her smile is the sweetest in her life, but not the brightest.Because she was thinking about how to take the best photos, her smile was not so sincere.

There is a time limit for cosmetic surgery, whether it is injections or filling prostheses, it needs to be repaired and maintained after a long time.

On her face, except for the double eyelids cut with a knife, the other effects of plastic surgery have disappeared, and it can even be said to be a backlash.

There is no need to look in the mirror, Huang Tingting knows very well that she is completely different from the one in the photo.

The beautiful woman in the photo is like a beautiful dream that she jumped up to catch, and when she fell down, the dream would naturally be shattered.

Of course, this beautiful dream can still be paved with money and continue to be pursued.

But now, Huang Tingting has no energy to do this anymore.A moth can only fight a fire once in a lifetime, but a person has few chances to muster courage in a lifetime.

Huang Tingting only felt that she had used up all the courage in her life, although it was used for the wrong things.

……

The next day, Huang Tingting proposed to go out.

"Why do you want to go out suddenly? Is it too boring to stay at home?" Tang Xuan asked with concern.

Huang Tingting shook her head, and showed Tang Xuan the phone with the broken screen, "My phone accidentally fell on the ground and broke, I'll go out and change the screen."

This reason is very valid. A mobile phone with a broken screen is not only uncomfortable to use, but also easily damaged by water.

"That's fine, why don't you go by yourself, or I'll go with you." Tang Xuan was really worried, especially considering Huang Tingting's condition was still very poor.

Tang Xuan was afraid that if Huang Tingting went out alone and was absent-minded, there would be an accident, it would be terrible.

Without waiting for Huang Tingting to refuse, she called the nanny directly and explained to the nanny about taking care of the baby.

Beside Tang Xuan, Huang Tingting was stunned.

Huang Tingting thought it would be a simple matter to go out, but she obviously forgot how much Tang Xuan cared about her.

She was going out this trip to meet Bai Xin's people, how could she let Tang Xuan stay by her side.

But she was also very clear that if she refused at this time, it would definitely arouse Tang Xuan's suspicion, not because she suspected that she had done something bad, but because she was worried about what she did stupidly.

In Tang Xuan's eyes, she is now an object that needs to be protected.

"Okay, let's go." The extremely efficient Tang Xuan quickly arranged everything. She took Huang Tingting's hand and said as she walked, "It's not easy to call a car in this place. I really can't drive in your state." Don't worry, I'll go with you."

Tang Xuan was so calm, Huang Tingting couldn't find any reason to refute, so she could only bite the bullet and go out with Tang Xuan, thinking quickly about what to do next.

Of course, she couldn't tell Bai Xin the truth. If Bai Xin knew that Tang Xuan was going out with her, she might attack Tang Xuan. Although Huang Tingting promised Bai Xin to help Bai Xin, she could protect Tang Xuan When she was with Tang Xuan, she still wanted to protect Tang Xuan.

"Xuanxuan." Just as Tang Xuan opened the driver's door and was about to get in, Huang Tingting suddenly grabbed Tang Xuan.

Tang Xuan was puzzled, "Huh? What's wrong?"

Huang Tingting couldn't think of any other way for a while, so she hesitated a few words before saying, "Just the two of us, don't you ask Cai Lin to come with you?"

"You want to call her?"

"It's not that I want to call her, but..." Huang Tingting pursed her lips, "We two went out, don't call her, she will definitely act like a baby to you again when she comes back. Let's call her."

Tang Xuan nodded without doubting him, "Okay, I'll send her a WeChat message to ask if she has time today, let's get in the car first."

Huang Tingting: "OK."

Calling Cai Lin would give her a sense of security. Although Bai Xin was focused on dealing with Tang Xuan, with Cai Lin around, she should be more restrained.

After all, Cai Lin's family background is also very deep, before Bai Xin wanted to do something to Cai Lin, she should have thought about it.

Thinking in such a mess, Huang Tingting sat in the co-pilot and set off to the shopping mall with Tang Xuan.

Before that, Huang Tingting contacted Bai Xin. What she told Bai Xin was that she would be there between [-]:[-] and [-]:[-] in the afternoon and contact her when she arrived.

When talking about this time at that time, Huang Tingting wanted to give herself more time, so that she could observe it first when she got there.

Unexpectedly, an extra Tang Xuan suddenly appeared.

Huang Tingting glanced at the time, it was only one fifty one, and there was still more than an hour before the agreed time, she still had time to think about the current situation.

It's also fortunate that the time was said later at that time, otherwise, Huang Tingting really didn't know what to do.

"I came here when we were in college, and I haven't been here for a long time." Tang Xuan stopped the car at a red light ahead, looked around at the surrounding buildings and said to Huang Tingting.

Huang Tingting stared at the landmark building like a shell in the shopping mall, her heart was heavy.

"Yeah, I haven't been here for a long time." She said.