half thorns, half joy

Xiao Zihan took a cursory glance and comforted Tang Xuan, "Don't be afraid, someone's patient should have brought it here, it's not a big deal."

Having said that, the further she walked, the more flustered Tang Xuan became.

This inexplicable discomfort was strange and intense, and made Tang Xuan's palms sweat profusely.

As he got closer, he could hear what the people in the crowd were saying.

"Young, I don't know what you can't think about."

"That's right, whoever comes to this place doesn't have any difficulties. Look at those who are dying of cancer, don't they all grit their teeth and persevere? Why is it so young?"

"Hey, I just went to the front. I heard that the woman who jumped off the building didn't have some kind of illness. She committed suicide at home and almost died. She was rescued in the hospital. She was rescued this morning and jumped again at night. See I really don’t want to live.”

"So it can't be depression. I heard that depression is the symptom. I think about how to die every day."

"I don't know, it should be."

Tang Xuan originally walked towards the inpatient building with Xiao Zihan, but she slowed down when she heard the discussion.

When she heard words such as "rescued from suicide in the morning" and "young" one of the women said, she couldn't calm down.

This hospital is not a big hospital, and it is impossible for many people to be sent because of suicide on the same day, so there are not so many coincidences.

She turned around abruptly, let go of Xiao Zihan's hand, and ran towards the place pulled up by the cordon.

"Back back, back, you can't go here." A policeman saw Tang Xuan rushing over like a wind, and immediately stepped forward to scold her.

However, the people from Tang Xuan had already reached the cordon.

She looked at the pool of blood on the ground not far away, the color of which was indistinguishable under the street lamp, and she trembled uncontrollably.

"Trouble... May I ask, did someone jump off the building here?"

The police originally wanted to chase Tang Xuan away violently, but when they saw Tang Xuan's pale face and trembling lips, they guessed in their hearts that this was someone unrelated, and their attitude became gentler, with a little sympathy in their tone.

"Yes, I jumped half an hour ago, and now I'm in the morgue, are you a family member?"

Tang Xuan didn't dare to say that she was, so she could only answer stiffly and fearfully, "I...I don't know...I don't know."

The police were already used to such things, and he still had to go to clean up the scene. He didn't have time to spend here with Tang Xuan, so he said coldly, "The woman who jumped off the building is surnamed Huang. If you are still not sure, go to the mortuary at the back to check. Look, or ask the nurse, this is not the place for you, go, don't hinder our work."

Tang Xuan's mind was buzzing, except for the sentence "the woman who jumped off the building is surnamed Huang", she didn't listen to a single word the police said.

She just felt that the world was spinning at that moment, and the whole person was about to fall straight down.

At this critical moment, Xiao Zihan, who had been standing silently behind Tang Xuan, stretched out his hand to support Tang Xuan with sharp eyes and quick hands.

"Xiaoxuan!" He yelled worriedly.

Tang Xuan fainted for only a few seconds, and soon regained consciousness. She grabbed Xiao Zihan's sleeve tightly and wanted to speak, but she couldn't utter a single syllable when she opened her mouth.

"Don't be afraid, it's okay, it's okay, if you made a mistake, you must have made a mistake." Xiao Zihan hugged Tang Xuan tightly, giving Tang Xuan strength with his own body temperature.

Tang Xuan buried her face in Xiao Zihan's arms, tears streaming down her face.

She knew very well that there was no way she could be mistaken.

The location of this building is exactly the location of the ward where Huang Tingting lived. She stood by the window and looked at it, so she couldn't be wrong.

What's more, the police even said their surname just now.

But even so, Tang Xuan still didn't want to believe it, she didn't want to believe it, sobbing in Xiao Zihan's arms for a few seconds, she insisted on going upstairs to the ward.

Just treat her as a fool, she won't believe it until the last moment.

In the elevator and in the corridor, people were discussing the fact that a girl jumped off the building, chattering, expressing emotion, disdain, and guessing the reason.

Tang Xuan wished she could cover her ears so that she could not hear a word and pretend nothing happened.

Soon they arrived at Huang Tingting's ward. The door of the ward was closed, and it looked the same as before Tang Xuan left.

Tang Xuan's heart was beating fast and she rushed forward.

At this moment, the door of the ward opened from the inside to the outside.

Tang Xuan, who was about to touch the doorknob with her fingers, was startled by the sudden opening of the door and almost screamed.

The one who opened the door was the nurse in charge of Huang Tingting's bed.

She looked ugly, as if she had cried, her eyes were red, and the light makeup on her face became mottled.

Tang Xuan's heart sank, she didn't know how to speak.

However, before she could say anything, the nurse spoke first, her tone extremely aggrieved, it was accusation and even more blame:
"What's the matter with you, the patient committed suicide in the morning, and your family members didn't take good care of it, and all of you left, leaving the patient alone in the ward, you are very irresponsible, but you killed us, you know? "

Tang Xuan's face turned pale, and the chill was like dense vines, crawling up to her skin with the icicles from the cellar.

In front of him, the little nurse was still chattering.

"Do you know that because of your ineffective care, I was deducted a month's salary, and my regularization was delayed by one month. I just graduated."

"Sorry, we will compensate you for the loss." Xiao Zihan didn't want to watch the nurse continue, he supported Tang Xuan worriedly, and interrupted the nurse's scolding.

The nurse wanted to say more, but due to Xiao Zihan's coercion, she saw the head nurse at the nurse station in the distance, gritted her teeth, stamped her feet and left with a pile of instruments.

As soon as the nurse left, Tang Xuan's legs gave way and she slid straight to the ground.

Xiao Zihan stopped Tang Xuan and hugged her.

"Really, this is actually real." Tang Xuan murmured in disbelief, "Am I dreaming? How could this be real?"

Yes, just went out to eat a meal of crayfish, a good person, how could he disappear, and it was still in such a tragic way.

Xiao Zihan helped Tang Xuan into the ward. The ward and the room were empty, there was no one there, and there was no anger at all.

Tang Xuan stared blankly at the empty bed for a while, then whispered, "Let's go to the morgue."

"It's better not to go." Xiao Zihan frowned, "I'm afraid...you won't be able to bear it."

Tang Xuan lowered her head, unable to see the expression on her face clearly, she could only hear her voice.

It was a voice that was extremely sad, but it was calm like deathly silence.

"If you can't bear it, you have to bear it."

Things have already happened, what can I do if I can't stand it, can I go with you...