Shen Shaojuai: I'm sorry I love you too much

Yilia came out of the coffee shop in a hurry. She was afraid that Lin Qiumo would catch up, so she panicked when she ran away. She found a direction at random, and when there were no more calls from Lin Qiumo behind her, she found that she was lost.

Her foreign language is not very good, standing in the middle of the intersection, with a helpless expression on her face.

Suddenly, a familiar figure appeared in the crowd, just like the one who haunted me in the daily dream.

So familiar, so heartbreaking for her!
Her heart moved at will, and Yilia hurriedly ran towards the figure without thinking about it.

"hiss!"

She was so anxious that she twisted her ankle before she could run a few steps, and her ankle was swollen.

Yilia looked at her red and swollen feet, and then at the familiar figure getting farther and farther away. She bit her red lip with her white teeth, and she continued to chase after it reluctantly.

But she was limping, unable to keep up with the pace of a normal man.

Seeing that the man was about to disappear around the corner, Yilia gritted her teeth and ran quickly, shouting as she ran, "Please, please, please wait a moment."

How could her sprained foot allow her to exercise like this, and she fell to the ground without accident, and the familiar figure was about to disappear at the corner.

Yilia fell to the ground, clutching her painful ankle, tears streaming down her face.

I don't know if it's the pain, or something else...

You, who are you?
You turn around and let me see, okay?
Yilia shouted in her heart, as if telepathically, the man stopped at the corner.

Yilia almost stopped breathing, and she stared at the man's back without blinking, waiting for him to turn around.

Maybe seeing his appearance can remind me of the past.

"Ah! It hurts!"

Yilia hugged her headache and exhaled, her head suddenly felt a sharp pain, like being hit by a boulder, and a voice in her head shouted: "No, don't look! Don't look!"

What not to look at?
Why does her head hurt so much every time she just wants to figure out her past?

What happened to her past?
Why doesn't her body want to think of itself?

Is it because it is too painful?When you are sober, you will wish to forget everything and start over.

But when you really lose your memory and your head is blank, no matter how painful it was to have the memory before, because you forgot, curiosity always forces yourself to find the original memory.

Tears fell silently from Yilia's eyes and fell to the ground.

She gritted her teeth in pain and looked up, trying to see clearly who was the owner of the figure that was lingering around her all the time?What is the story between him and her!
Finally, the man turned around slowly.

Her azure blue eyes are like a deep ocean, and her facial features are impeccably handsome.

wrong!

It shouldn't be such a face. Although it has the same familiar black hair and back, it shouldn't be the deep face of a Westerner.

So, what kind of face is it?
Why can't she remember anything?
Yilia shook her head and murmured: "No, no, you are not him, you are not him."

"What's wrong with you?"
The black-haired and blue-eyed man looked blankly at the strange oriental woman sitting on the ground, and asked in a standard London accent.

He stretched out his hand very gentlemanly and asked, "do you need my help?"
Trapped in her own thoughts, Yilia didn't listen to what he said, but just looked at the slender fingers stretched out in front of her eyes, and endless sadness welled up in her heart.

In the past, she seemed to have expected countless times to have a hand stretched out to her when she needed it, but she couldn't wait no matter what.

It hurts, it hurts!
The sharp pain in her head swept over again, Yilia's eyes went dark, and she passed out completely.

The black-haired and blue-eyed man didn't expect this to happen, and he froze on the spot with his hands stretched out.

Lin Qiumo, who finally found her, saw this situation and shouted, "Stop! What are you going to do to her!"

The black-haired, blue-eyed man came back to his senses, and hurriedly waved his hands to show that he didn't know anything.Lin Qiumo glared at him, and hurriedly hugged the person on the ground.

"Yilia, Yilia. What's wrong with you? Wake up."

Although the black-haired and blue-eyed man didn't know what happened, he lacked some guesswork, so he explained the process in a series of English.

Finally, he kindly suggested: "I think you should take her to the hospital."

Lin Qiumo's face darkened, after listening to his explanation, he knew he had misunderstood.After thanking him coldly, he hurriedly hailed a taxi and went straight to the hospital.

In a taxi.

Lin Qiumo tightened her arms around Yilia, her eyes darkened.

He felt that he would not allow such a thing to happen again in front of his eyes, just seeing her passed out on the ground, his heartbeat almost stopped.

Yilia in her arms was frowning even though she was unconscious, as if she was in pain.

What's the matter?Who else?

Lin Qiumo couldn't imagine making her care so much.It must be important to make Yilia amnesiac and unforgettable.

Thinking of this, Lin Qiumo felt a little sour in his heart.

He laughed secretly that he was really stuck in it, and he was jealous for someone or something that didn't exist.

A taxi quickly took them to the hospital.

It may be because the number of visits recently is too frequent, the doctors and nurses in the hospital can call Lin Qiumo by name.

Soon, with their help, Yilia was arranged to be hospitalized. The doctor gave her an injection and said when she left that she would wake up in a while.

Lin Qiumo pulled over the chair and sat by the hospital bed to wait.

He carefully looked at the little man lying on the hospital bed, his dark eyes were so full of affection that it was about to drip out, he lowered his head and kissed Yilia's forehead lightly, swearing silently.

Yilia, I will always be by your side, and I will never let you get hurt again.
a long time.

"Oh!" the person on the bed murmured softly.

Lin Qiumo hurriedly probed and asked, "Are you awake? Yilia."

Yilia slowly opened her eyes and saw the worried look on Lin Qiumojun's face. She looked around and found herself in the hospital again.

She forced a smile at Lin Qiumo and asked, "What's wrong with me, why did I come to the hospital again?"

Lin Qiumo frowned and asked, "You don't remember?"

Yilia thought about it seriously and said: "I remember you asked me to meet in the coffee shop"

"Then?" Lin Qiumo asked.

Yilia frowned and thought hard, then shook her head.She seems to have forgotten something again? But as long as she thinks about it, her brain hurts.

How could this be?
Lin Qiumo comforted Yilia and told her not to think too much, so she called the doctor.

After an examination, the doctor asked Yilia many questions, and then called Lin Qiumo out.

"Mr. Lin!" The doctor hesitated to speak.

"Doctor, why don't you just say it straight?" Lin Qiumo signaled that he didn't have to worry about his feelings, he could accept anything.

The doctor nodded and continued: "Yilia's illness, from the current point of view, may not have much to do with her body."

"How do you say that?" Lin Qiumo frowned.

"Based on my many years of experience, Ms. Yilia's illness should be a mental problem, also known as heart disease. In our psychiatry, there is a mental illness called avoidant personality disorder."

"Avoidant personality disorder." Lin Qiumo didn't understand anymore.

"Yes, people with this disease will subconsciously take an evasive and withdrawn attitude towards things that make them suffer, and they are unwilling to do or face. In severe cases, like Miss Yilia, they refuse to think or recall the things they did before. People or things that cause pain."

Lin Qiumo's brows frowned even tighter: "Doctor, what do you think could be the cause?"

"Well," the doctor replied a little veiled, he said: "Maybe something happened to Yilia that made her feel very guilty, and she didn't get the approval of the people around her, so she got into a dead end."

Lin Qiumo's dark eyes narrowed slightly, his expression was dark and inexplicable.

"Doctor, is there any way to cure it?"

"Yes, but you have to figure it out slowly. I am not an expert in this field, but I have an expert in this field. I will go to work with me. I will give you his business card. You can just find him."

Lin Qiumo hurriedly said, "Thank you very much, doctor."

"Be polite. This is what we doctors should do."

After getting the business card from the doctor, Lin Qiumo stood at the door of the ward for a while, not rushing in. Yilia didn't notice him coming back, she was lying on the bed, staring at the ceiling with empty eyes, like a lifeless doll, which made his heart ache a lot.

What kind of people or things can make Yilia suffer so much that she chooses to forget those memories and doesn't want to think about them?
Lin Qiumo stood at the door and thought for a while, then took a deep breath, calmed down, and walked in.He pretended to be relaxed and asked, "What are you thinking?"

Yilia turned her head to look, forced a smile at him, and said softly, "It's nothing."

There was silence in the ward.

Lin Qiumo opened his mouth and wanted to say something, and heard Yilia whisper: "Qiumu?"

"Huh?" Lin Qiumo responded softly, this was the first time Yilia called him so intimately.

"Don't like me, okay? It will be very hard to like me, and I will forget things easily." Yilia's voice is so soft that you can't hear it if you don't listen carefully.

Lin Qiumo naturally heard it. He froze for a moment, then reached out to hold Yilia's soft little hand.

He said seriously: "It's okay, I'm not afraid!"

Yilia didn't withdraw her hand, but looked at Lin Qiumo with such sad eyes, as if she could shed tears in the next second.

Looking at her like this, Lin Qiumo couldn't control her emotions.

"Yilia, listen to me."

"No, listen to me." Yilia interrupted Lin Qiumo.She knew what he said, but she couldn't accept it. She felt that a person like herself didn't deserve love.

Like her, it's unfair to Lin Qiumo, he is so outstanding.

Yilia gritted her teeth and said, "At the end of autumn, I'm afraid!"

She didn't say what she was afraid of, but the smart Lin Qiumo knew it.What she is afraid of is her lost memory like a timed bomb.

Lin Qiumo carefully sat next to the bed. He helped Yilia sit up like a treasure, and then hugged her in his arms, pressing her fluffy head into his arms.

Yilia was still being moved by him, with a dazed expression.

"Did you hear that?" Lin Qiumo asked softly.

"What?" Yilia didn't understand.

"My heartbeat." Lin Qiumo replied.

When Yilia heard what he said, she listened carefully, "Plop, thump" one after another, the strong heartbeat can make every woman who falls in love with her feel at ease.

Lin Qiumo said again: "Before I met you, my life was muddled and meaningless. Until I met you, only you, and only when I was with you, did I feel that I was alive and my blood was hot. My heart beats for you too."

It was Xu's first confession in his life. Lin Qiumo was a little nervous, his face was slightly red, and he stammered a little. He said, "Yilia, I, I love you."