The Nth Disappearance of My Wife

Is there anyone in your life who you care about very much, but who is already a stranger?It seems that there is no reason to tell her that I miss you.

Bai He said on Weibo:
I'm going to take the painting professional exam, and I hope I can succeed.

This day happens to be the 2020 college entrance examination.

Tian Xiaoxiao fiddled with the picture album in his hand, looked and tossed and turned, but put it down.

"Dong Q, if you really miss Bai He, go and see her. After all, you haven't seen each other for more than half a year." The secretary saw all Tian Xiaoxiao's longing.

"But I feel that I haven't contacted her for so long. Even if we meet, I have nothing to say. Bai He must have forgotten me. I don't need to meet her again or say anything. Some things can't go back. Forget it." Tian Xiaoxiao bit her lip, with a hint of sadness in her eyes.

"But Q Dong, can you really let her go? I don't think you can." Tian Xiaoxiao looked in the secretary's eyes, as if eating a candy and the candy turned out to be crying.

"Why let it go, I can't let it go, I can only hope that she will live well." Tian Xiaoxiao smiled awkwardly, tears falling drop by drop.

"Why are you crying again, kid? Hurry up and wipe your tears. I'm leaving from now on, what should you do?" The secretary handed Tian Xiaoxiao a tissue.

The song says that if you can't hug and laugh with someone, you must bid farewell.

But many times, we can't even say goodbye, we don't know what's going on, and we just walk away. I don't know if you have me in your heart or maybe you do.

That should be an existence that is not very important. When I see things about you by chance, I will be thinking about your inner activities, and it seems that I can't guess your thoughts no matter what.

After all, the person I like has become someone else's white moonlight. In the past, I would not mind thinking of what you said to me, and thinking of the little things we used to get along with, just like the rain outside the window that keeps in my mind.

Wiping my eyes silently in a corner, but refusing to tell others, I miss you.

"Q Dong, why are you crying again?" The secretary watched Tian Xiaoxiao huddled in the corner crying, approached Tian Xiaoxiao a little bit, and pulled out another tissue.

"I just got sand in my eyes, don't worry about me, I'm so ashamed to go away now." Tian Xiaoxiao buried her head in her legs, not wanting others to see her hurt expression.

Tian Xiaoxiao commented on Bai He's Weibo with a trumpet:

do well on the exam.

He didn't get a response from Bai He, maybe he was just drowned in the crowd.

Loneliness is a song sung alone in a lonely night. Loneliness is the silence when you are so bored that you just look at yourself in a daze. Loneliness is a cold snow that drowns all people. Loneliness is the subconscious weightlessness when you hear your news. .

The heat of summer will not dissipate because of people's loneliness and loneliness, but why my heart is still so lonely and cold when it is so warm outside.

The sun is not able to shine on everyone. With the loneliness and loneliness day after day, year after year, people's memory will become very poor.

"You forgot to water your flowers again," the secretary reminded.

"Okay... I'll come right now." Tian Xiaoxiao broke the daze.

After watering the flowers in a hurry, and then looking at a withered leaf, I started to think in a daze whether the future of human beings would be as dry as that leaf.

"Dong Q, you don't seem to be in a good mood recently." The secretary handed over Tian Xiaoxiao's favorite snacks.

"It's a bit bad, thank you for the snacks." Tian Xiaoxiao didn't want to say more, and ate the snacks given by the secretary like chewing wax.

Tian Xiaoxiao's comment on Bai He's Weibo has not been answered so far, maybe it really belongs to the bubble.

Holding the slightly hot phone in my hand, I felt a little cold in my heart, as if the things around me were just a repetition of yesterday.

The existence of life, no one has given an exact answer, what is it born for?Why do humans have emotions.

But there are always emotions that are just wasted, or it is a pity to discard them, tasteless tasteless chicken ribs.

"Director Q, this is the work report for this month, please check it out." The secretary showed Tian Xiaoxiao the document.

"Well, this month is as good as last month." Tian Xiaoxiao flipped through the pages and expressed his affirmation.

This month is not the same as last month. Looking forward in life, it seems that it is really day after day, year after year.

But our existence... seems to be nothing more than just sitting in gears day after day, year after year.

Flipping through WeChat from time to time, it seems that the news is still a long time ago, but I always read the news habitually, it seems to have become a habit, hoping that someone will come to chat with you.

It's kind of like, "I need you so much" feeling.

But why should you be needed by others? Isn't it lonely enough?
A message flashed by by chance, and when I clicked on it, it turned out to be an official account push. There are always some official accounts that are more enthusiastic than the friends in the list, although it is just a trap of consumerism.

On Weibo, Tian Xiaoxiao's male god Wu Yifan was updated.

He said: Come on for the college entrance examination.

This day is very important to some people, but to some people it is just a mediocre day repeating the past.

They used to say that feelings will be diluted by time, it seems to be true, even one day when you turn on your computer, you will find a few familiar and unfamiliar faces in the photo album.

And those people are people you clamored and said, want to see you, want to see you, want to see you, want to see you.

The people who came to you across time are gone, leaving only loneliness and indifference. The person who warmed your years and loved to make you laugh has gone away. He is now pursuing his dream.

She, who used to say that the world will last forever, has gradually become strange and strange, and she doesn't even know herself in front of her. It's ridiculous but sad to pretend that she doesn't know herself.

"Dong Q, shall we go out to play?" The secretary wanted Tian Xiaoxiao to go out to play, but Tian Xiaoxiao hadn't breathed for a long time.

"I'm not going, there's nothing fun outside." Tian Xiaoxiao didn't want to go, but stayed at home and played games.

"Hey, let's go out to play." The secretary pulled Tian Xiaoxiao forward, it was rare to let Tian Xiaoxiao go out for a while, the secretary was very happy.

I don't like to go out when I get older, and I feel uncomfortable looking at strangers staring at me, the sun is much more dazzling than my impression, and even the wind outside the window is much stranger than usual.

The previous summer always seemed to go by so fast, but the present summer seemed to go by so slowly, but one accidentally discovered that he was no longer the boy he used to be.

Even the scenery that has been fortunate enough to be there will look strange after a while, as if it has never been there.The scenery is the same, let alone people?

Actually met Mu Yixuan, Lin Muxing and Ye Zhe at the scenic spot.

"Q, why don't you contact me very often? It's been a long time since I saw you." Mu Yixuan said with some reproach.

"Well, I'm afraid you are too busy to talk to me." Tian Xiaoxiao spoke in a low voice because he didn't want to use too much energy to speak.

People who want to contact always feel that the other party is busy and don't want to disturb, and as time goes by, there is no need to contact again.

"Q, you look so good today." Ye Zhe stared at Tian Xiaoxiao's casual white T-shirt and loose black pants, coupled with Tian Xiaoxiao's aloof and cold temperament, he looked even more beautiful .

"Is there? Thank you." Tian Xiaoxiao couldn't help laughing, the smile was as light as the wind blowing.

Sometimes when I hear compliments from acquaintances, I feel a little bit of happiness in my heart, but soon return to calm, after all, I know what I am like best.

In her bones, she was still the humble and clumsy little girl who dared not stand in the sun. Even if she became a star, she couldn't help but think of the moment when the star fell.

"Q, here you are—" Lin Muxing gave Tian Xiaoxiao a cookie, which was the matcha flavor that Tian Xiaoxiao liked.

"Thank you, Brother Mu Xing..." Tian Xiaoxiao took the cookie, but was shocked by the "Brother Mu Xing" he just said. It turned out that some things were getting used to it even if he worked hard to correct it. It will still be spoken in an instant.

"As long as you like it." Lin Muxing's gentle smile paired with sweet and delicious cookies is probably the legendary beauty.

"Hmm." Tian Xiaoxiao put the cookie into his mouth, as if... he didn't like the taste very much.

Lin Muxing is still the former Lin Muxing, and he still remembers all the things Tian Xiaoxiao liked before. Lin Muxing can still see the emotions in Tian Xiaoxiao's eyes, so why does Tian Xiaoxiao still feel so lonely?

Obviously relying on it for a long time, but my heart is far away.

Let's go to see the lotus flowers blooming in the lotus pond together. The flowers are red and white, and the branches and leaves are swaying in the wind. It looks just right with the sunshine of that day.

"Dong Q, we have something to do in our company!" The secretary answered the phone and said eagerly to Tian with a smile.

"Let's leave immediately." Tian Xiaoxiao took the secretary's arm and left, regardless of the beautiful scenery around him.

The rare comfort is always interrupted by various things, and the reality tells mercilessly that there is no poetry and distance at all.

Tian Xiaoxiao finished handling the company's affairs and went home directly. She didn't know when she didn't like to socialize or play with a group of people.

Hating loneliness but unwilling to step out of the comfort zone, this is probably the most contradictory part of Tian Xiaoxiao's personality.

She lit a cigarette and habitually browsed the hot searches on Weibo that day, but she never commented or liked it, and then clicked into the empty WeChat, and found that no one needed her at all.

Watch interesting videos, and occasionally watch interesting videos alone and laugh dryly.

Staying up late is late at night, lonely is late at night, happiness is in the past, and relaxation is also in the past.

It seems that I am so out of tune with this world, I am very special and wonderful, I will stay quietly in the corner, and I will walk alone in the empty street under the sun, feeling the carnival that belongs to one person .

I have been walking in the sun, but the sun can not shine on me, is it the sun's fault or my fault.