The predecessor is back, the president please take his place

Gong Ruoxuan wanted to drink some wine crazily now. He saw a person walking towards him on the street, and then he wanted to rush up and ask if it is okay to give me a drink. Of course he would not just walk over in such a reckless and abrupt manner. He has not reached the point where he must drink, but he feels that he has never had a desire for alcohol like he does now.

I seemed to be 16 years old that year, but he was actually a very healthy age. Like all normal children, he should have experienced the ignorant first love and his rebellious period.All the children I can see have conflicts, or have conflicts with teachers, or cause trouble at home.

But Gong Ruoxuan can't, he always seems to be level, nothing can stir up waves in his heart, his eyes are as smooth as lakes that have not changed for thousands of years, he should be like this He looks like he spent his high school life simply, his grades are excellent, his appearance is handsome, he has everything, what others want, and everything he can easily get.

Then, Gong Ruoxuan couldn't remember clearly, on what day, on a specific afternoon, he returned home, returned home quietly, and said casually as if reporting, I'm back .

After a while, no one in the room replied to him, but he could see that his mother's shoes were still placed at the door of his house, which meant that she had returned.Probably didn't hear it.

Usually someone will reply, sometimes no, mother will gently knock on his door at meal time and ask him to eat, but there is no one on that day. When he came home that day, he saw a birthday cake and thought in a trance. Woke up, today seemed to be his mother's birthday, but he didn't seem to remember it, maybe his mother would be disappointed, Gong Ruoxuan mentioned it in his calm heart.

But that day, Gong Ruoxuan didn't go to the deepest part of the room to say happy birthday to his mother. In fact, he could have done it, so he was lazy. Then, when he was thinking about eating, he could mention it by the way, the father of that era Mother's birthday doesn't seem to be that important.

Gong Ruoxuan could understand that he was the weight of her mother's entire life, and her mother loved him more than herself.So Gong Ruoxuan, no, at the age of 16, he should be able to accept all the care from his mother without any feedback.

He was calm without any waves, and it can be said that he had a cruel and calm life. On that day, he was beaten to pieces. He was like a dumb fool. Hungry, I ran into my mother's room to see why dinner was not ready.

Then, he opened the bathroom door of the wireless room. My room is still in the same direction now. I remember the scent of the petals inside. My mother is elegant, so when a woman like this is making some important decisions, There will always be some romantic sense of ritual, returning to memory, the moment the bathroom door opened, he froze, about half a minute later, he screamed and slapped himself frantically.

Then, it was as if someone had slammed the switch off. After screaming like that, he fell to the ground and fell into a coma for an unknown number of days. When he woke up, he couldn't figure out where his mother was. If one day passed away, didn't it mean the birthday?But what some people told me is often different from the date on the ID card.

Gong Ruoxuan will never forget that day, he will never remember which day it was, he fell into a coma for a while, and when he woke up again, he was in front of him, the father he loved so much Gong Ruoxuan almost cruelly pushed away his father's caring embrace.

"Go away, you murderer is all your fault." This is all the information in Gong Ruoxuan's brain when he was 16 years old, blood red blood spread throughout his mind, and the bright red hand on the edge of the bathtub , and a drop of bright red blood dripping down his arm.

These became the theme of Gong Ruoxuan's life for a long time afterwards. He continued to walk through groups of people indifferently, even more indifferently than before, and the surface would change a lot. He went abroad to study, He saw all kinds of people, and there were all kinds of changes on the surface, but when he returned to the room and closed the door, only he knew that he was so lonely in his heart.

He still feels scared, and at the same time, there will always be some uncontrollable memories creeping into his mind, such as the smell of incense in the room on the day his mother committed suicide and cut her wrists, which is still vivid in his mind.

The word vividly vivid is really strange. Gong Ruoxuan just wanted to express himself. When he closed his eyes, he seemed to be able to smell the smell of that time. When he walked into the room where his mother was closed, he seemed to be able to smell the sea of ​​roses. The woman's bright red blood merged with the bright red roses.

No one is capable of holding such a grand farewell ceremony for himself, but his mother did it.After she experienced depression for several years, finally, for a moment, something gave her the courage to let her mother abandon herself and all those painful past events.

Like a beautiful rose blooming in a bathtub full of blood, so, the mother in Gong Ruoxuan's memory is beautiful, even the ceremony of saying goodbye to life is so perfect, she wants to end herself And the designed scene should be the most beautiful that Gong Ruoxuan has ever seen.

"Are you so desperate? You can't wait to leave this world. At the moment when you wanted to die, did you think of me?" Gong Ruoxuan saw his mother in dreams several times later, and he couldn't wait to ask Ask the following questions.

Do you hate me that much?So can't wait to leave me!Then every page and every page I burst into tears.

However, in the dream, the mother in the dream is always so beautiful. There is a distance between her and himself, but Gong Ruoxuan can feel it, and he can see it!The mother has been smiling to herself, the eyes are reluctant, encouraging, and nostalgic, but more of a kind of poignancy and sadness.

He often feels that he is like the boy in his dream. In his dream, he is always 16 years old, and the six 16-year-old selves are like a silly little animal, watching everything happen, while he only Can accumulate more resentment in the heart.