President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

Zhen Hua looked at Wen Zixin in surprise, he didn't know what Wen Zixin was thinking, and he didn't want to guess at random, but this incident was a kind of sadness to him.Maybe Wen Zixin wanted to leave her a child out of love, but could he?If he passed away calmly, the pain he would bring her would only be a few years at most, but if he left behind a child, then she would definitely be worried about her for the rest of her life, which would be too cruel to her.Zhen Hua stubbed out the cigarette butt, and gently hugged Wen Zixin. He didn't know what to say, but he couldn't leave this child to Wen Zixin. He didn't want to be a stumbling block for Wen Zixin's life. He just committed a Wrong, he vented his love when he was about to die, but the mistake has already been made, he can't change it, but now he can't make the same mistake again, otherwise it will ruin the rest of Wen Zixin's life.

"I know your concerns. In fact, you don't need to think so much. You just need to live."

Zhen Hua understood that she wanted to live on her own. In fact, the matter of the child was just a cover. What she wanted was to receive treatment by herself. She wanted to live on her own, but could she bear that kind of life that was worse than death?Zhen Hua's answer is no, he has been in a comfortable living circle for too long, if he suddenly becomes a waste who can't take care of himself, he can't accept it, and his self-esteem won't allow him to live on like this ,so what?Is he going to refuse?He should refuse, he would rather die than spend the rest of his life in a ward full of disinfectant smell, such days will be very long, he can live in this world for a few more years with peace of mind, but the torment of living like years , but not acceptable to him.

"Do you also want to see me become a useless person? I know that your original intention is good, and so is Brother Hui. You all think that a good death is better than a bad life. As long as people don't die, everything is possible, but it's not you who get sick, it's me , Why don’t I want to live a long life, go through the years with you, have a child that belongs to us, and accompany him to grow up, but these are unrealistic. I have seen the scene of treating cancer patients, don’t forget Yes, my dad also passed away with lung cancer. I watched such a strong man turn into a waste who can only moan on the hospital bed. You know the last sentence my dad said to me when he left What is it? I am relieved. I will never forget this sentence for the rest of my life. It is the result of being tortured by the disease, so I am very scared. Instead of dying in the powerless struggle, it is better to give up treatment from the beginning. When I feel myself When it doesn’t work, just kill yourself, isn’t that good?”

Wen Zixin's tears had already fallen on his chest, but he didn't care.In fact, Wen Zixin only had a half-knowledge of the past, because it happened when he first entered high school. He himself was a single-parent family. , his father was diagnosed with lung cancer. At that time, his father was already one of the best entrepreneurs in Jianning, so he didn't care about money, but he only stayed in the hospital for a month. At that time, he felt that the sky was falling. At that time, he Gradually degenerate, learned to smoke, learned to fight, and skipping classes was common. At that time, Wen Zixin and him were just acquaintances.

Zhen Hua didn't reveal this past to anyone, even Wen Zixin only knew that his father was very important to him, and that his father died of lung cancer, the rest of Wen Zixin didn't know anything about it.So Wen Zixin knew that he would resist the treatment, but he didn't know that the reason why Zhen Hua resisted was that he had learned from the past. It was a scar in Zhen Hua's heart forever. If it wasn't for the sudden onset of cancer, maybe he wouldn't remember it Well, but this damn lung cancer also fell on him, and he will also be taken away by this terrible disease, so what should he do?

His choice is to escape, because he knows that treatment is useless, he doesn't need to waste time, his life is destined to come to an end, he doesn't want to struggle anymore, with his father's lessons learned, there is no need, he knows that he is powerless Therefore, he will not receive treatment. Although he knows that Yang Dehui and Wen Zixin's initial intentions are for his own good, but he has no desire to survive. During this period, he brushed shoulders with death twice. In fact, he Already numb, death is really an easy thing, as long as you close your eyes with peace of mind, if no one saves him, in fact, he can close your eyes with peace of mind, this is a very easy thing matter.

In this world, he still has concerns, but so what?Will there be a good end for those who fight against the god of death?In fact, it is just a question of the length of time. The hospital can extend his life, but the side effect is pain. For that little time, he is not willing, even if the people he cares about want him to live, but he has no life left. desire.

"So you are a bastard, completely disregarding other people's feelings. No one is alone in this world. People who care about you and you care about people constitute life. Your personal life and death have nothing to do with others, but people who care about you People will be sad and heartbroken. When he closes his eyes, how can he know how many people will cry for you? You have the hope of living, but you just want to give up. I want to say, live for me, but you are so How can a selfish person listen to it? But I still want to say, for me, for all the people you care about, live on. You are not your father, he did not survive, but I believe in you, you can survive Those pains, you are a businessman, you can exchange a little pain for ten years of life, this is a guaranteed business, why give up? Do you know that you are very selfish, death is a relief for you, for me For me, I am exiled, exiled by the whole world! Because you are my whole world!"

After Wen Zixin said these words with tears in his eyes, he buried his head in Zhen Hua's arms, and could not stop the tears, which seemed to represent endless sadness.Is this persuasion?This seemed more like a confession, Zhen Hua was dumbfounded, feeling the trembling of the person in his arms, his heart couldn't help trembling.Is he wrong?Was his self-esteem above all else?He doesn't want to be a useless person, but that useless person is Wen Zixin's whole sky, even if he can only lie on the hospital bed and moan helplessly, he is still alive, so those who care about him have hope, but his one-sided Denying Sheng's hope, how do those who care about him feel?

At this time, Wen Zixin had already told him.Swallowing up the long memory, belittle the vicissitudes of the world, deviate from expectations in reality, what is the future of you and me, in the world of mortals, suffering from lovesickness, distanced, and deep wounds after several reincarnations, waiting for the other side to stay together.I used to be young and ignorant and left too many regrets, and I didn't know how to express my love. In this confession, I miss you with a lot of thoughts, and I can't express the thoughts in my heart.Without sadness, there is no reflection; without pain, there is no vigilance.Without reflection and vigilance, there will be no motivation to turn grief into food and move forward better.People who have experienced life and death know how to love and cherish.Maybe the beauty of life comes from the ephemerality, like a beautiful trace left behind by fireworks; , How much do you know about the past? The small building was blown by the east wind last night, and the old country can't bear to look back in the moonlight. The jade carvings on the railings should still be there, but the red face has changed."Life is so full of helplessness, maybe this is life.

Life just goes with the wind.How can it be possible to talk about the beauty of love and the preciousness of freedom when life is gone? Without life, all wishes will become phantoms in dreams.Without life, the value and meaning of life are even more impossible to talk about.The withered petals reveal the end of life, and the withered leaves announce the cessation of life; the graceful peony shows the luxury of life, and the prosperous tree highlights the roughness of life.Life not only gives the creature a shape, but also endows it with incomparable splendor, so it should be cherished even more, but he doesn't understand, he wanted to die, but he didn't want to, life is not as simple as he thought, he It's not just living for himself, there are too many concerns that he can't let go of.

The cold wave is surging, unable to resist the happy mood.Rain and snow, the warmth of life can not be frozen.The changes of time cannot change the sincere friendship.Walking in a hurry, I can't take away the silent concern.The loose memory, the inexplicable dust falling, like the ups and downs of the breeze, blowing through the mind, forgetting everything, leaving only a concern of friendship.Bless her, never forget, love silently, love obsessively; wait silently, look forward to bitterly; she is the love that will never change in her life, she is also the eternal concern in this life, and is the terminal of emotion in this life, so For her, I need to live.

Time flies by in a flash, youth in a flash; footsteps incessantly, life as always; love at first sight is fate, and true love is single-minded; friendship is spotless, friendship is unchanging; friendship is caring It's a friend, and it's a blessing at the touch of a button.The one thing that will never change in life is love, and what I love the most in my life is to be by her side.This life may not be able to escape, this is the magic power of love, which makes him a disheartened person who insists on death, but also ignites the hope of life, maybe this is all forced, stumbling on the road of mortals, All the way ups and downs.There has been a lot of exhaustion, but I can't call myself tired, and continue with the trivialities of life.Time has polished the pride, and those sharp edges and corners have been slowly cut off by the knife of time.As time goes by, the once wrinkled heart is slowly healed by the years, a feeling like water, waiting for a kind of indifference, following the traces of fleeting years, calm and calm.

Life is a reunion, life is a forgetting, the heart has no other desires, everything is beautiful.The road of life has to go both difficult and easy; there will always be cold and warm love in the world.Some things, you have to do if you don't want to do it, even if you shed tears, you have to do it well.It was a painful ten years, or even longer, but after all, he had to live for her in his arms.

"Then try it."