President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

Maybe the metamorphosis is just in an instant.After Yang Dehui arrived in Shanghai, he separated from them, and Xunwu also returned to the rehearsal room. The only ones left were Wen Zixin and Zhen Wenxin. They returned home. Perhaps the end of this journey also symbolized They have returned to their miserable lives once again.Everything is normal, nothing has changed, and they can only return to this peaceful life, but Zhen Hua, whom they all look forward to, is in nowhere in this world. The only thing they know is that Zhen Hua is still in China. After all, Zhen Hua did not carry a passport when he left from the very beginning, so he was unable to leave the country. However, China is so big that it is not so easy to find a person who really wants to escape. Besides, they all know how to find Zhen Hua. It doesn't make any sense.

Where is Zhen Hua?He is in the deepest part of everyone who misses him, and this is the best answer.He walks through strange cities one after another, leaving his footprints everywhere, whether it proves that he once existed in this world, maybe yes, in fact, he has no answer in his heart, he is just purely confused .His initial departure was to search for the self that no longer existed, that period of youth that no longer existed, but at this time, he no longer had such naive thoughts, maybe he had already understood that the original self was just Being young and frivolous is nothing more than a silly boy falling in love with an ignorant girl. That's all, it doesn't make any sense. That period of youth just needs to be commemorated. It doesn't need a reason, but it can't exist today. It was during that time that he had given up searching, so what he was doing now was just walking aimlessly.

Sometimes he also thinks that he has a destination, and he can do something in that destination, but he can't think of a place worth looking back on. The place in his life that is worth nostalgia has already gone , those places deep in his memory have changed beyond recognition, and there is no need for him to go all over again, maybe what he needs to do in this life has already been done.Before he was diagnosed, his life couldn't be more fulfilling. He was busy with work every day, and his schedule was often arranged for a whole year. It is even more impossible to feel the boredom of life, but at this time, he is indifferent, he can't feel the meaning of his existence, he just walks in one strange city after another, it seems that this kind of life should have ended long ago, he also He had already prepared for the end of his life, but the disease seemed to be still tormenting him. He didn't want to break out, but it existed in his body, reminding him all the time that he was a dying person. I would rather end myself sooner.

Zhen Hua at this moment is actually tired, he feels that he is worthless.In fact, he understands that he has been away for long enough, no matter who it is, they should have gotten used to the life without him, or those who care about him have already adapted to his death, so he can accept death calmly , everyone needs to face death, no one can be an exception, he is just a little earlier, in fact, he has already bowed to fate, no one can resist success, resistance to fate is meaningless, he let nature take its course Well, since fate has decided to make his life shorter than ordinary people, then he will make this miserable fate more "rampant", or this can be regarded as his resistance to fate, he does not accept the fate given to him. He died at a specific time, he had to choose the time of his own death, and the time he chose was now.

There are too many ways for a person to die, because death is the easiest thing in this world, and living is the most difficult.But to choose death, all he needs is courage and indifference, which he already has. How many times has he experienced life and death, and how many times has he struggled on the edge of life and death?Maybe he doesn't want to count it down, but he is already able to accept his own death, and his last nostalgia in this world already has a better destination, he doesn't need to care about it, and he can face death calmly up.

Maybe he can do it too, life is as brilliant as summer flowers, death is as quiet and beautiful as autumn leaves.Death can also be interpreted so naturally and beautifully.But in fact, life is just a deception. From the moment you start breathing, you are already slowly dying.All he can do is to control his own life. Sometimes he has imagined that life is so beautiful, why should he commit suicide at will, but his life is already dying. A kind of resistance of life, sometimes what ordinary people like him can do is just such a simple thing.Because people cannot resist death, but people can choose how to die.Noble and humble, all in one thought.

But for those who are determined to die, death is the end, just ashes to ashes, dust to dust, only those who survive will suffer.The end of life is nothing but death, and the meaning of death is nothing but rebirth or eternal sleep.Death is not the loss of life, but the stepping out of time.No one can truly be calm, except for people who are about to die like him, and he is also preparing for his own death. He has been preparing for too long, so now he thinks that he has made enough preparations, so he Always ready to die.In fact, death is not terrible, but the pain caused by death is terrible.If one could die peacefully, the suicide rate in the world would be exponentially rapid.It's just that Zhen Hua is a mortal person, so he doesn't need to think about the pain of death, he can understand his own life in an instant, maybe he can also choose a slow death method, let himself look at the world quietly in pain, But for him, there is not much difference, he is going to die after all, no matter what way, he can accept it, maybe the only difference is whether he wants those who care about him to see him dead body.

Death is the ultimate beauty, and death is tantamount to rejecting all understanding.Life is not the opposite of death, death lurks in life.But death threatens life, death is irreversible, death is everywhere, death freezes time, death makes ephemeral things eternal.Perhaps life has the dignity of life, and death has the dignity of death. It is the human heart that is ever-changing, and destiny is what remains motionless.What human beings subconsciously fear is not the death of the body, but the hidden worries about not having come to this world in a trance.But death is also the only element that connects existence to everything else.The man who foresees death no longer shuts himself up in his room, nor confines himself to those near him, for he is ready to give himself up to the sky to play freely.If death means return, superman, eternal life, infinity, liberation, bliss, enlightenment, penetration, and fascination, do people still fear and avoid death?The answer is naturally no, but if it is not a last resort, who can easily give up their life?

At this moment he is on a deserted country road, he can choose to hang himself, he can choose a man-made car accident, and he has no hesitation at this moment.I stepped on the gas pedal to the bottom, took my hands off the steering wheel, and closed my eyes. Perhaps this way, the final outcome would only be a car crash and death. He may not even leave the body behind, but neither does he himself. He is willing to leave his body behind. If possible, he would rather erase all traces of his existence in this world. But what he can do now is to erase his body and this car. It is possible to extract his DNA from the wreckage of the car, but in such a deserted place, it is extremely difficult to find such a scrapped vehicle, not to mention the time it takes to extract his DNA. It was too long, so there was no need for Wen Zixin and Zhen Wenxin who received the notification at that time to make a fuss. After all, it was a corpse that no one could recognize. It hurts.

Except for desperadoes and policemen, no one can know what speed an off-road vehicle can achieve under full sprinting. If Zhen Hua opened his eyes, he would definitely see that the speedometer had reached an astonishing 280 yards. At this speed, any collision is enough to cause death, but Zhen Hua doesn't need to care about it, because what he wants is death, so he keeps moving forward at this speed, as long as there is a curve ahead, he Then he will rush to death, but this straight road does not even have a small slope, the car is driving smoothly like this, but his head has been empty, and those unforgettable pictures do not appear in his mind as before, maybe All nostalgia has already ended, the way of death, the process is unknown, but the end of death is inevitable, maybe this is his end, his life will be over, with peace, silence accepted his own death.

To underestimate love for decades, and then underestimate death in the rest of the time, his mission in life is nothing more than that.Knowing people and obeying destiny is the highest state of spirit.When you look down on death and life, and detach yourself from the outside world, death is just a process of breaking through the limit of the body and traveling the world spiritually.And what should go is gone, I wander alone on the edge of death, some things are only suitable for nostalgia, memories are just to make people look down, some people are destined to be passers-by, it's just the length of time.A man who has experienced hardships that ordinary people have never experienced, who can see clearly the countless emotions and desires in the world, and who has looked down on death and setbacks in life, this life is enough.

"I have been in this world, I have loved someone, and I have been responsible for someone. I have no regrets in this life."

Sometimes, a person may really be able to do some things that ordinary people cannot understand. His eyes are closed, but the road ahead is already a curve. He seems to have really anticipated his own death. Said his last words to himself, no one knows this last words, but he doesn't need anyone to know, and the off-road vehicle he was driving has broken through the guardrail and fell into the bottomless abyss.