President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

The most regrettable thing in life is to easily give up what should not be given up, and stubbornly persist in what should not be persisted.What did Zhen Hua give up?Too much, he gave up a long-lasting relationship, he gave up his right to have children, and these are just the tip of the iceberg, in his 40 years of life, he gave up too much, and he The things she insisted on seemed so fragile, humble and helpless.

He was alone on the top of the mountain, drinking from dawn to dusk, and he didn't stop binge drinking until he drank all the wine in the case.

The past followed the wind, and in this night when no one was around, too many pictures of people appeared in his mind, but in the end, it was fixed on the picture of Wen Zixin. This was the last time before his consciousness disappeared. screen.

How great it would be if he could just close his eyes. He no longer wants to open his eyes. Facing this world, he can't be carefree, but he has done his best, and he doesn't care about the rest. , or that he is no longer willing to care, more precisely, he dare not care, dare not face the unknown ending.

Life is originally a rush, with twists and turns along the way, continuous crossing, hardships along the way, continuous transcendence, growth and gratitude along the way.This glass of wine in life needs to be tasted slowly. You will feel a bit bitter when you drink it in your mouth, but it will become mellow once you swallow it. When you finish drinking it, the wine stains in the glass are your life to the remnants of the world.Who has ever seen someone want to erase the traces of his existence in the world, and Zhen Hua did just that.

He understands that life is a barren journey.Not fighting is compassion, not arguing is wisdom, not hearing is purity, not seeing is freedom, not being greedy is giving, giving up evil is doing good, reforming is repenting, humility is worshiping Buddha, observing rituals is keeping precepts, forgiving is liberation, contentment is letting go , benefiting others is self-interest.Hope lies in the heart, and he cannot be eternal. Since the ending is already doomed, why bother to force it, why not just disappear.

Life has had ups and downs, experienced ups and downs of life, Zhen Hua's life is considered complete, but this cliff is like a burial place specially prepared for him by God, he keeps kneeling, drunk Like mud, but also want to die.

Unfortunately, early the next morning, he still struggled to get up from the ground. His knees were scratched by the rough ground with blood, and the ground was soaked in blood. The kneeling position all night made his legs numb. He got up, fell down again, relied on the strength of his hands to prop up his body, and fell heavily again. This seemed to be the punishment of his old friend for abandoning Zhen Wenxin. After repeating it countless times, he finally moved to the car. Leaning back on the seat, he let out a long breath.

The current Zhen Hua couldn't drive a car, his knees were dripping with blood, and the numbness of his legs made him temporarily disabled.Zhen Hua also seemed to have forgotten why he was so hard for no reason. He didn't find the broken wine bottle until he looked through the car window, and the place where he was kneeling was covered with broken wine bottles There was blood all over his body, but he seemed to have no memory at all. The drinking fragments hadn't happened for many years.

Of course Zhen Hua remembered the last time he was cut off, it has been more than 20 years, and his drinking capacity was only three or four bottles of beer back then, but on the day he graduated from high school, he drank a full case of wine at the teacher appreciation banquet, and then Early the next morning, he couldn't remember what happened last night at all.

According to the fragmentary memories that many people have pieced together, that night he made his cowardice obvious.That night, after eating, they went to ktv. According to the descriptions of the students, they never left Wen Zixin's side that night, and hid in the Behind Wen Zixin, and Wen Zixin seemed to have no choice.

These were all pieced together by the students, and Zhen Hua naturally didn't want to believe it, but according to Wen Zixin's explanation later, it seemed that it was almost the same. After he was drunk that night, he hid in Wen Zixin Behind him, every time someone wanted to toast, he would sneak out a bottle of wine timidly, and then forcefully poured it down, and would secretly throw the empty wine bottle far away, as if it was not what he drank. Same.

Zhen Hua thought of that fragment, it was really funny, he didn't know what he did that night, and he didn't know what he did this night, but when he was drunk back then, he showed a cowardly side, while Looking at the broken wine bottles in this place, the self last night must not be cowardly. The self last night probably showed a rough side that even he himself didn't know about.

In fact, the real situation is that last night he didn't say a word, his heart was full of remorse, and he threw the bottle on the ground after drinking a bottle. Every bottle with a hardness of about 7 was smashed to pieces. But he didn't open his mouth from the beginning to the end, he just lost himself in the glass of wine, so that he got hurt all over his body, but last night he was quiet and terrible, without any trace of anger , with an extremely flat expression, but every wine bottle was smashed to pieces.

But now, he is lying on the armchair weakly, there is no first aid kit in his car, and his knee is still bleeding. He can only tear off his clothes and do some simple treatment, but it doesn't help much. The current situation An ambulance has to be called, and he may also need to stay in the hospital for a long time.

But now he can't even do the most basic self-rescue. This is a mountainous area, there is no signal at all, and this time he went out, he didn't bring a satellite phone, and there was no food or drinking water here. It won't take long, and he lost a lot of blood Symptoms of dehydration, hunger, and dehydration will all break out. At that time, even if he still has nostalgia for this world, it is useless. A person in this situation should undoubtedly die.

He had thought about suicide, but he didn't expect that the idea after getting drunk last night came true the next morning, the blood on his knee was still flowing, it seemed that some glass shards had stuck into his flesh, and the simple treatment The bleeding can't be stopped at all, and all he can do now is lie in the car and wait to die. Even if he wants to struggle, the most basic thing is that he needs to drive away from here, go to a place with a signal, and call an ambulance. Now if he wants to leave, all he can rely on is this car. It's a pity that his legs have long been numb, so how can he move?
So all he could do was to wait, to wait for the moment of his own death, and he couldn't do anything else.He was very thirsty, and when he sobered, his throat was so dry that it was on fire.He is very hungry, yesterday he drank all day except for one breakfast, and today he has not eaten a drop of rice.But none of this can compare to the sense of collapse caused by excessive blood loss.He knows that his life is being lost, the real loss, and he will really face death, but he has no fear at all, he has already been able to face death calmly, even at this time, he can only smile helplessly .

Let's lie down quietly, there are still a few boxes of cigarettes in the storage box that have not been opened, thinking that I don't have much time left, and there is no point in quitting smoking, let's just indulge once, it seems that the weak body can't even tear the cigarette packaging He opened it, and put the cigarette in his mouth with difficulty, but the lighter started to fight against him again. After trying several times, he couldn't open it. After trying several times, he finally lit the cigarette and took a deep breath. Thick smoke was exhaled.

This cliff was originally a place where distant mountains are continuous, just like a long dragon flying towards the sky. A mess, broken wine bottles all over the floor, burnt cigarettes and banknotes, mixed with his blood, this scene does not seem to be made by one person at all, it seems to be a scuffle, extremely bloody, extremely Violence, but who would have thought that this was done by a person very calmly after drinking?
Zhen Hua's exhaustion has begun to intensify, and there is nothing he can do. He can only smoke one cigarette after another. Maybe he is still unwilling, but he also let go. If you can't get it, you should let it go, and if you can't protect it, you should give up. , he is not reconciled, if he has a longer life, maybe everything can be realized, but he also understands that he is destined to be like this, so he will not force it anymore, and let the last few cigarettes be given to himself let's go.

One by one, Zhen Hua's weak body seemed to have regained some vitality under the stimulation of the cigarettes, but Zhen Hua didn't plan to do anything else, he opened all the cigarette packages, and kept pulling out the cigarettes from the pack , From the first 3 minutes, to the next few tens of seconds, he was like a cigarette selling machine, frantically swallowing clouds, sitting weakly, waiting for death to come.

Perhaps it is because he is facing death that he has no fear. He knows that the time is coming. He calmly watched the things in front of him gradually become blurred. On his clothes, he spat out the filter with great effort, took out the last cigarette with difficulty from the cigarette case, put it by his mouth with all his strength, and lit it.

The cigarette burned with his breathing, and his eyes were closed, and he fell into a state of shock, which is the so-called suspended animation, but if there is no further treatment, then the suspended animation will become a real death, but now he has no The condition of treatment, in this wilderness, he has no hope.

It's a pity that miracles often happen in desperate times, and at this time a helicopter landed steadily beside Zhen Hua, and the strong air wave blew away the cigarette in Zhen Hua's mouth, and at the same time, the mess was blown away. Zhen Hua, who was dying, was also picked up by the people who got off the helicopter.

Zhen Hua was carried into the helicopter and rushed to the hospital as quickly as possible, while the person who arrived by helicopter was crying.