President of the Buddhist Department: A loving wife must be teased

In fact, Zhen Hua has not changed, it is just that time has allowed him to learn too much, so he understands what he should do, when to be patient, and when to retreat, so he is just compromising, Facing Lu Jing, he blindly compromised, just like he compromised with Wen Zixin, so sometimes, he couldn't even tell whether the person next to him was Lu Jing or Wen Zixin. In the movie, the person he sees is still Wen Zixin after all, but in many cases, Wen Zixin is just his fantasy after all, and Lu Jing is the reality. Unfortunately, he never cherishes what he has already got, trying to get those false feelings Of course, if he knew the truth, maybe Zhen Hua would regret it too much, but he couldn't blame others. Too many things were caused by misunderstandings, but the misunderstandings all came from himself.

It was like Lu Jing looked at the sleeping Zhen Hua, but everything in front of her seemed so unreal, recalling everything before, it was also so false, but what could she do?It's just holding on, Zhen Hua is already sound asleep, but it's only noon, she still has a lot of time, she shouldn't be huddled in the room, she should have her own life, instead of surrounding all of herself Zhen Hua, Zhen Hua should not be alone in her world. In fact, all she should do now is to walk out of the room and step out of the door. That's all. Once she steps out of this door, she will escape. She wanted to break the imprisonment of herself, but she couldn't do it. Because of her deep love, the cage she set for herself was stronger. It was not easy for her to escape from the imprisonment of herself.

Zhen Hua won't wake up for a while. During this period of time, she must be free, but she is not free. Her current philosophy is that wherever Zhen Hua is, she will be there. The prison she set for herself The cage was too strong, so it was difficult for her. She should have gone out alone, even if it was just to breathe fresh air, but she had no intention of going out at all. She just took out a cigarette from her arms and lit it. He sucked it in big mouthfuls, but it didn't help.In fact, only by making one's self-abased heart confident, can the crooked body straighten up; only by strengthening one's cowardly body, can the restrained steps be moved forward.Only by broadening one's narrow mind, can one's short-sighted vision go far.But in the end, only by making her ignorant mind smarter can she abandon her ignorant fantasies. Unfortunately, she failed to do so, so she chose the most incompetent method, which may not help, but it is also a way to paralyze herself.

People walk in the secular world, quietly waiting for the moment of adulthood to run at full speed in the slowly passing time.But after a long wait, she found that all kinds of desires and worldly concepts stuck to her body like plasticine, accumulating heavier and heavier, and finally swelled infinitely, binding her legs and slowing down her pace.She can't walk easily, and she can't run at full speed.They even covered her eyes, covered her pure heart, and made her steps start to be messy, spinning in the feasting and colorful world.And love, sometimes, is a sinking thing. The so-called reason and determination are just ridiculous self-comforting words.In fact, love has always been a kind of bondage, and the pursuit of love does not mean the pursuit of freedom.Freedom is precious, and people exchange this most precious thing for love.Because if you love someone, knowing that you will lose your freedom, you are willing to make a promise.Promise is used to contend with all changes.Change is eternal, and only the promise of eternity can be used to control the changes of the world.What cannot be eternal is not a promise.Promises are expensive if she respects her own personality.

But she never seems to have respected her own personality. For that humble love, she has given up too much, and these years, she is not so much waiting for a long time, as it is lingering, like a zombie Usually, she just lives for the sake of living. Many times she doesn't know the meaning of her existence at all, until Zhen Hua appears in front of her eyes again, and at that moment, she thinks she has found the meaning of living, but is that really the case?Absolutely not.No one is anyone's vassal, everyone is an independent individual, no one should live for anyone, let alone give all of themselves to another person, and that person did not appreciate it, what she did , It's more like wishful thinking, such a one-sided infatuation, she gets very little, but what's the use?She is still holding on, what has she got?Maybe.

Unlike Zhen Hua, she is always worried about gains and losses. Because she is afraid of losing, she dare not own; because she is afraid of being deceived, she does not dare to believe; Persist; I don’t want to cry, so I keep pretending to be smiling; I don’t want to be left behind, so I’d rather be alone; I don’t want to be bound by the past, so I choose to forget the past; I don’t want to say goodbye, so I’d rather not meet.But what Zhen Hua did was just to escape, but she was facing the bleak feelings. At least in this point, she did much better than Zhen Hua, but unfortunately she envied Zhen Hua, maybe because of admiration , so she didn't think much about it.

But it's useless for anyone to say anything about feelings, it's all you want to understand.No matter how scumbag a person is in the eyes of outsiders, if she loves him, she will definitely think that person is the best.What others said was scum, she couldn't see it and didn't want to see it because she was dazzled by love.Perhaps this is the magic of love, not bound by reason, love can be greater than everything.Maybe you can only have a chance to see it through when you get hurt.Sartre once said: People live in the eyes of others, and people cannot know themselves, they can only know themselves through the evaluation of others.People cannot live alone, people must live with others, so people live in the evaluation of others all their lives.The evaluation of others is a kind of constraint on oneself. Some people can break through this constraint, and some people are bound in this evaluation all their lives.It is at this point that the evaluation of others affects me all the time, Sartre said "others are hell".

But the heart is gradually cooling down, foreseeing a certain ending, and turning away, the heart that has been aired for too long is already cold, no matter how hard it is to cover it, it will not be warm.Some people can forget in a blink of an eye, and some people will always be in the depths of memory. There are not many friends and only a few confidants. Even if they leave, they will never forget.Feel the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of life, move the friends around you to ask for warmth, if you smile at life, life will return a sunshine, break free from the shackles of sadness, and filter those melancholy moods, that is the freedom you want.

How she wished that the whole world was a smiling face. Collapsed buildings could be rebuilt, but they were no longer the original materials. Broken glass could be glued together, but she dared not move a place easily.What should be used to mend a heart scratched by tears?Some people even want to forget, but in the end they are still in her mind, seeing some things, thinking of some people, seeing some photos and thinking of the past, the bottom of her heart is sore.

So she sat down anyway, imitating Zhen Hua's appearance, one after another, with endless sorrow in her eyes, but what is she worrying about?Maybe it's because of helplessness, even though she knew that the love she got didn't belong to her, she still didn't dare to give up, even if she desperately wanted to protect it, she had been shaken, but she still stuck to her heart, even though it was A kind of morbid psychology, but it is enough that she still loves Zhen Hua.

But there are many things in the world that can be redeemed, such as conscience, such as weight, but there are more irreversible things, such as old dreams, such as years, such as the feeling for a person.Who made her not know how to say no? She was always afraid that her words and deeds would make Zhen Hua unhappy. She always tried her best to meet Zhen Hua's every request, but she was not grateful, only indifferent, because in Zhen Hua's eyes, what she did was justified. It should be, so it got worse, she didn't know why, in fact, it was all because of herself that she was in so much pain, whoever made her care too much about Zhen Hua but ignored herself, that was just her own fault.

But sometimes, people who choose to live forever will always get off halfway.People who are single-minded are actually the most half-hearted.So whether it is love or marriage, in fact, it is really not selected by oneself.Everyone's own choice is often not very reliable.The real lover who can be with her forever is the one who keeps it.It went on unconsciously.The days are all passed.In fact, she doesn't know what to do, but she is still guarding, maybe guarding, that is, for a lifetime, the love of a lifetime does not need those sorrows and sentimental feelings, just need to guard quietly. good.

But no one is born ruthless, they have experienced and seen too much that they don't want to see, and finally choose to close a certain door of their own, Zhen Hua is not willing to be indifferent, he is not an indifferent person, but He can't feel a relationship, because this relationship is not the relationship he wants, maybe the relationship he wants will never come, but the love within reach is definitely not what he wants.

In middle age, he still doesn't understand that the heartbeat is just a momentary surprise, and daily necessities are the way of life for a lifetime.Passing by a person's world, only to realize that it is his world.If he is just passing by, he can only wait at the end, but it is not the end of love, but the end of life.

In fact, Lu Jing wanted to say to Zhen Hua more than once: "Let the past things go, those stories have turned the page, don't care about your affairs, be your current friend, don't mention the past, don't talk about the past, you I also have a lover of my own."

But she can't say such words at all, because she doesn't think she has such qualifications, because it is also a heart, some can hold mountains, some can hold the sea, and some can only hold oneself There is no place for her in Zhen Hua's heart, she knows it from the beginning to the end, so she never dares to expect extravagantly, and never dares to pretend to be the rightful lord. Is this sad?Maybe.