A deep love: Thousands of stars are not as good as you

I was taken aback by his nonsensical words, and I froze in place, unable to comprehend the deep meaning contained in it for a long time.Xu Yan seemed to understand my thoughts, and stretched out her hand to pull me over, "Master Shen, it's getting late today, I have to take Lin Xi home, let's have a good get together next time when I'm free."

"Okay." Shen Ke turned his head slowly, grinned at Xu Yan and me, and vividly interpreted the originally playful and flirtatious Young Master Shen. "Miss Xu is always welcome."

"Hey... Young Master Shen, this is all a trivial matter." Xu Yan snickered and leaned over, "I just hope that when I receive a private interview with Young Master Shen next time, I hope Young Master Shen can give me some advice." Convenience." Facing these love masters who are no less than actors in acting on stage, in Xu Yan's eyes, there is no difference between sincerity and falsehood.

Actually, when it comes to love, Xu Yan is far more infatuated than I am.For so many years, Xu Yan has never passed through a loophole in front of me, and even seldom mentioned that person.But it's not that if she doesn't say it, I don't know.She has been looking for someone all these years, from her childhood sweetheart to her adolescent yearning, she has been waiting.

Wait for that person who, like An Jinnian four years ago, said they broke up and left without saying goodbye.It's just that Xu Yanyuan is stronger than me. After she hugged my arm and cried for a whole day, she put that person in the deepest corner of her heart and never touched it again.Unlike me, I spread all my feelings for An Jinnian under the sun, and I can be hurt by it at any time.

"Of course, with Lin Xi here, Ms. Xu can come to me anytime." Shen Ke stood up, put his hands in his trouser pockets, a wicked smile appeared on his handsome face, and the loneliness just now was gone.

"Thank you for today, Shen Ke." I pulled Xu Yan away slowly under Shen Ke's gaze.

After going downstairs, I took the coat from the waiter, put it on, and left Shuiyueju.

As soon as he stepped out of the gate, he was blown straight by the cold wind, and the red and swollen face that had just cried was even more painful under the ravages of the cold wind.I sniffed, pulled my cotton-padded jacket around me, and wrapped myself up a little tighter.

At this time, the night was dark, and the scattered lights on the side of the road shone on Xu Yan and me, which was very desolate.

The high-heeled shoes "slapped" on the thick concrete road, making repeated noises, which unknowingly gave rise to a terrifying drama in people's hearts.

Xu Yan held my hand tightly, "Lin Xi, why do I feel like someone is following us?"

Uh... I have black lines all over my face, and I am quite speechless to Xu Yan, a teammate. It's such a beautiful night, and it's okay to think about it from the bottom of my heart. It's weird to hear it. "I think I also feel..." Halfway through the conversation, I pulled Xu Yan up and ran, "Run."

The dim light behind us stretched our shadows very, very long. We saw two girls wrapped in big padded jackets running hand in hand on the deserted street. The calf of our feet, the high-heeled shoes stepped on the floor, making a heavy sound, as if someone had been following us all the time, running as we ran.

Since we didn't drive when we came, Xu Yan and I almost trotted all the way.When I was tired from running, I sat on the steps by the side of the road to rest. When I was cold, I stopped by the side of the road and stomped my feet back and forth. I never mentioned what happened in Shuiyueju, as if nothing happened as long as I didn’t mention it. Same.

On the road, occasionally cars in twos and threes galloped past us, blowing strong winds.It was so cold that Xu Yan and I almost had no choice but to play tricks in the street.

Just stop and go like this, it was already midnight when I got home.

"The baby is freezing to death, no, I want to be warm." As soon as she entered the house, Xu Yan couldn't wait to turn on the air conditioners in and out of the living room, and even went into the bedroom. She didn't even have time to drag her shoes, so she hugged her The bedding wraps itself tightly.

I followed behind her, watching her swiftly and nimbly handle everything with amazed eyes, and then echoed, "It's really cold."

The winter in Jiangzhou is different from that in Beijing. Because the air is humid and cold, and there is a lot of rain, even standing under the warm sun in winter, you will feel icy cold.

As the air in the room improved, Xu Yan poked her head out from under the quilt, her pretty little face was flushed red under the biting cold wind, she sucked her nose from time to time, even the lipstick on her small mouth Lost color.

"Lin Xi, are you cold? Do you want to come up to warm yourself?" Xu Yan said as she moved to the side, and pulled the quilt tightly in her hand a few times. "Quick, come up."

I stood on the ground without moving, shook my head and said, "No, it's getting late, go to bed early." I stepped on high heels and walked back to the room under Xu Yan's gaze.

Because of running for too long, my feet were so painful that I couldn't stand up, so I had to walk with small steps.It wasn't until I returned to the room and took off the high-heeled shoes on my feet that I realized that after running all the way, the soles of my feet had been worn down with several blisters of different sizes.The situation is so miserable that I really can't bear to look directly at it.

He took out the necessary anti-swelling ointment from the bed cabinet, wiped it casually a few times, then lay down on the bed, buried his head in the quilt, and couldn't help sobbing softly.

The uneasiness in my heart overflowed.The scene of Shuiyue Juli'an Jinnian leaving, played back and forth in my mind like a movie ending.

My heart still hurts, an unstoppable pain.Even if I have been very careful, I am very careful to avoid thinking about it.However, whenever he thinks of the name An Jinnian, his heart feels as if being eaten by tens of thousands of ants.

This night, I had another inevitable insomnia.

When the first rays of the morning sun shone into the bedroom, I almost got out of bed without thinking.After not sleeping all night, the blue-black panda eyes at the corners of his eyes became a little swollen again.

Especially when I saw my face in the mirror, once again, I was frightened by myself.Fortunately, the endurance in my heart seems to have become stronger after seeing myself like yesterday.But now, it is even more acceptable.

Taking advantage of the early time, I changed into a comfortable thick sportswear, stepped on white sneakers, and casually coiled up my long hair, and walked out in the morning sunlight.

500 meters in front of Yu Jin's home, there is a small park, which is specially built for nearby people to play and entertain.Although it is still early, there are already elderly uncles and aunts in the park practicing Tai Chi with each other, and there are also many young people my age running in the park in the morning and exercising.

I trot all the way, shuttling back and forth on the runway in the park, enjoying the rare peace in my heart at this moment.

In the half month since I came to Jiangzhou, my world has been in a state of ups and downs, always revolving around only one person.Even in his heart, his figure flashed in his mind from time to time, as if he was the only one left in the whole world.

If someone hurts me, even if it destroys the whole world, it may not be in my eyes.But he, with just one word, can beat me back to my original shape, leaving me completely injured.

Regarding what happened last night, it would be a lie to say that I am not sad or heartbroken.

However, I understand better in my heart that I cannot treat people who care about me as bystanders because of my selfishness.

Family and friendship are essential in a person's life, so I can't just abandon my closest relatives just because of An Jinnian.So, An Jinnian, I can't lose myself because of you.

If you want to love, then follow your footsteps openly, where you are, I will be there.But, from now on, I will no longer live humblely because of you.

In the past four years, more than 1000 days and nights, I have been calling your name to fall asleep peacefully.But now, since you are back, I still have no reason to give up and make you disappear from my world again.

An Jinnian, this time, even if you want to let go, I won't let go, let alone let go.Because I clearly know that Lin Xi, who has lost An Jinnian, is doomed to cover up all her brilliance, and become an ugly and hard stinking stone in the mud puddle, and be despised by others.

After running for an hour in the morning, I felt that my depressed mood was much better.When she got home, Xu Yan was still sleeping in her own dream, in an embarrassing state of sleep.Knowing that she hasn't had a good rest these days because of my affairs, she didn't bother her much.

After returning to the room and changing into a set of clean and refreshing clothes, he simply tidied himself up and covered the thick dark circles under his eyes with concealer, and then he went out feeling good about himself.

Today's weather is exceptionally good, the soft sun shines on the body, and there is a pleasant sense of comfort, like a sunny day after rain, the thick layer of clouds in my heart, as if the moment the sun shines, everything is lightly Melt away, submerged in the sound of heartbeats one after another.

I deliberately picked a large shopping mall near my home, and wandered aimlessly among the crowd, wandering around.

It was obvious that the mall had just opened, and before the big panic buying in the mall started, there were already many people blocking the entrance and exit of the mall, waiting for the low-price panic buying from the salesperson of the mall to start.

I stood in the center of the mall, picked some low-fat, low-sugar and easy-to-digest snacks in the snack area, and turned to the vegetable area.

There are more people in the vegetable area than in other areas. People coming and going push each other amidst the yelling of the vegetable vendors. I stand behind the crowd and push the cart at a loss. I don’t know where to go. Going further, it is better to squeeze into the crowd of bidding, or to take a step back and submerge in the crowded crowd.

Just when I didn't know what to do, suddenly there were hands stretched out beside me, pressed on my stroller, and lined up with my hands.

"What a coincidence, Lin Xi." Yu Sheng was standing beside me with a smile on his face, the tenderness in the corners of his eyes and eyebrows seemed to melt into water.He took the cart in my hand "Do you want to buy vegetables?" He looked around and asked.

I nodded, looked at the crowd in front of me, left and right, and said with some embarrassment, "Hehe... yes!"

"Hehe... You came a little early, it's usually like this in the morning here." Yu Sheng shrugged, smiling. "Well, come with me." He suddenly took my hand, pushed the cart with one hand, squeezed into the crowd, and yelled loudly while squeezing, "Sorry, let... let..." In the noisy sea of ​​people, his voice seemed to be endowed with magical powers. The gentle voice full of masculine magnetism fell on the ears of the people present, making people feel as if there were wind chimes blowing by their ears, and they all fell silent all of a sudden. , stopped his hands and looked towards me and Yu Sheng.

After less than three seconds of silence, someone recognized Yu Sheng, "Hey, isn't this the male star in the TV series?"

"Wow, so handsome, I finally saw a real person today."

Amidst the din of people, there were exclamations from older aunts, and nympho admiration from little girls.

"That's Yu Sheng! Come on, ask him for an autograph."

"Don't rob me, that's the grandson-in-law I pre-arranged for my granddaughter."

"Bah! Shameless, it's obviously reserved for my daughter..."