Mr. Lu, goodbye forever

Her elder brother Yunzheng still refused to forgive her.

Thinking back, she was too naive before, thinking that the departure of Lu's father and Lu's mother would be cured by time, but she was too stupid, Lu Yunzheng would never forgive her in this life.

But it's funny, what qualifications does she have to be forgiven?

Xu Nanqiao stood up, saw the vase on the bedside, lifted it up, smashed it down, and the tiles spilled all over the floor, she picked up the broken tiles, and scratched hard at her wrist, blood soon overflowed.

No way, it's not deep enough. She adjusted the tile and scratched it again.

Qin Yaping heard the movement in the room, ran out of the kitchen, and the moment he opened the door, he saw Xu Nanqiao squatting on the ground, scratching his wrist with broken porcelain.

He pulled Xu Nanqiao up, and saw that her eyes were empty and she didn't seem to respond to pain, he felt anxious.

"Nan Qiao, what are you doing!"

He snatched the tile from her hand and pressed her on the bed. Xu Nanqiao suddenly pushed him away, "Yaping, leave me alone, okay? I'm a person who really can't be forgiven. Please, please leave me alone." I'm dead, let me fend for myself, okay?"

"How could I let you fend for yourself!" Qin Yaping covered her wrists with both hands, in a panic, "Xu Nanqiao, don't just run away like this! Don't just think about dying like this! Impossible, if you dare, do it!" If he dies like this, I will definitely kill Lu Yunzheng! Even if it costs me my whole life, I won't make him feel better!"

Hearing Lu Yunzheng's name, Xu Nanqiao's voice became much softer, "Brother Yunzheng did nothing wrong, he can't forgive me, I understand, I don't blame him, I'm too bad, Father Lu and Lu Mom's death is all because of my willfulness, isn't it me who is the most damned person?"

Xu Nanqiao's blood was still flowing out, Qin Yaping didn't dare to leave, the medicine box was under the coffee table in the living room, even though it was only a few steps away, he didn't dare to leave easily.

He had no choice but to use the bed sheet first. He pulled the bed sheet and wrapped Xu Nanqiao's wrist several times.

"Nan Qiao! Wake up! You can't punish yourself for this matter for the rest of your life!"

But Xu Nanqiao still didn't understand, "Why not? The life of Lu's father and Lu's mother is over because of me, I should pay it back, shouldn't I? I also want to die soon, go to them, and say sorry to them, Tell them I was wrong, I will always be with them in the future, I will listen to whatever they say, and I will never go against their will again.”

Qin Yaping took out a bottle of medicine from the bedside with one hand, and Xu Nanqiao's eyes lit up.

"Is this a sleeping pill? Give it to me."

Qin Yaping held the medicine high, "I'll feed you."

Xu Nanqiao put down her hand obediently, "I want the whole bottle, and I want to eat it all, so that I can see Lu's father and Lu's mother without pain."

Under Qin Yaping's estimation, he finally gave her three sleeping pills, which could make her fall asleep.

After waiting for half an hour, she finally calmed down and fell asleep slowly before Qin Yaping could deal with her wound.

Qin Yaping believed it, and hoped that time could heal her wounds, but after so many years, and this time because of Lu Yunzheng, her depression broke out.

Lu Yunzheng...

Coming out of Xu Nanqiao's house, Qin Yaping called Lu Yunzheng, and finally made an appointment with him at a coffee shop near Xu Nanqiao's house.

As soon as they met, Lu Yunzheng saw that Qin Yaping's eyes were full of bloodshot eyes, and his eye sockets were also red.

"What's up?"

He started coldly.

Qin Yaping was very decadent. He said with a wry smile: "Now that we have become like this, guess what is the reason why I am looking for you?"

Lu Yunzheng was silent.

Qin Yaping's hands were still stained with Xu Nanqiao's blood. He spread out his palms, and the pool of blood appeared irregularly in front of Lu Yunzheng.

Lu Yunzheng's heart tightened, he could guess whose it belonged to.

"You were also in the hospital that day, right?" That day, when the reporter found Xu Nanqiao in the hospital, a paparazzi shouted that Lu Yunzheng was also nearby. At that time, he guessed that he was the one who led the paparazzi away.

Lu Yunzheng didn't speak.

"Since you distracted those people, can I understand that you have feelings for Nan Qiao?"

Qin Yaping's heart hurts so much that he doesn't know what to say. The woman he loves the most has been dying for Lu Yunzheng from the beginning to the end, and he can only be her good friend.

"After that day, Nan Qiao's condition has been not good. The doctor said that her memory will recover as her body improves. I asked Liang Ruo to take care of her. She remembered everything because she saw Liang Ruo." Qin Yaping Rubbling on: "Do you know? She committed suicide today. When I didn't take care of it at all, she broke the vase by the bed and cut her wrist with a ceramic piece. One time was not enough, but she also cut a lot. Come on, when I stopped her, her wrist was already bloody."

Lu Yunzheng didn't want to hear this, "She has nothing to do with me."

Don't want to hear it?He still didn't dare to listen, and Lu Yunzheng didn't want to tell the difference.

"Is it okay? If it's really okay, why did you appear in front of her? I managed to give her a glimmer of hope in life. Once you came back, you pushed her into the abyss again. You want to watch her die so much ?"

Lu Yunzheng still didn't speak.

"Yunzheng, we have grown up together since we were young, so I beg you, please forgive her. In the past few years, she has lived in the shadow of losing her loved ones almost every night. It was in exchange for sleeping pills." Qin Yaping almost shed tears, "She never forgot!"

"I said, she has nothing to do with me." Lu Yunzheng stood up, ready to leave.

Qin Yaping stopped him, "Can you go and see her?"

I don't know how much courage it takes to say this sentence, as if giving away the treasures that I have treasured for many years to others, the pain in Qin Yaping's heart is layer upon layer, and his heart is full of bitterness.

"I think you're funny." Lu Yunzheng looked straight into his eyes, "Haven't I already fulfilled you? Now that you are by her side, she can't live without your care. Isn't that great? I still need to do it." what?"

Lu Yunzheng left.

Qin Yaping watched him leave. At first he wanted to explain again, but after thinking about it, it was completely unnecessary.

Lu Yunzheng understood everything, he really couldn't let go of the past hatred, how could Qin Yaping not know, how could it be so easy to let go of the hatred of his parents.

These things seem to be predestined, and no one can change it.

But in the next half month, Xu Nanqiao still didn't get better at all. As long as it was something Qin Yaping didn't notice, she would have self-harm.

Sometimes she also uses the computer, and Qin Yaping encourages her to watch movies.

But when Qin Yaping looked at the screen, it showed: how to euthanize.

Qin Yaping still felt that only Lu Yunzheng could solve this situation. He quietly called Lu Yunzheng behind Xu Nanqiao's back, and before he could say a few words, he heard Xu Nanqiao's voice.

"Yaping, Yaping, I found it. I want to go to the Netherlands. Euthanasia is legal in the Netherlands. I want to go there!"

There was impatience in her voice, as if it was a very happy thing to die at this moment.

"Yaping..." Xu Nanqiao was sober on rare occasions, she looked at Qin Yaping's expression and knew that she had hurt him by saying that, "Yaping, listen to me, my life is really painful, and I don't want to die either. It's too ugly, please, take me to Holland, I really don't want to drag anyone down, okay?"

Qin Yaping put down the phone in his hand, and didn't know how to resolve the soreness in his heart. He hugged her and finally cried on her shoulder.

"Nan Qiao, I beg you, please don't go on like this, please stay by my side, you know, I really can't do without you..."

He has always been strong, even if it is difficult, he can carry it by himself. For so many years, he has been by Xu Nanqiao's side, to be the one who will never leave, to support her when she needs care most, and when she is mentally broken. Giving warmth, even when she left him, he controlled it well and didn't let himself disturb her life.

But he really couldn't stand it, he couldn't stand Xu Nanqiao like this, thinking about how to die all the time.

"Yaping, I know that I won't get better. I may have a pillar to support me before. At that time, I wanted to wait for Brother Yunzheng to come back so that I could go to redeem myself. Now I understand that, apart from this Lu, I have no other way to atone. I am enough, at least in my last period, brother Yunzheng treated me well, I already feel very satisfied..."

Qin Yaping raised his head, "What about me! What about me!! Have you ever thought about me!"

"If I die, you can get rid of me completely and start a new life."

Xu Nanqiao spoke calmly, as if discussing other people's affairs.

"Don't... Nan Qiao, please don't..."

Xu Nanqiao wanted to say something more, but just as he opened his mouth, a nausea came up.

She ran to the bathroom to throw up.

Qin Yaping picked up the phone and found that the other end of the phone had already hung up.

As Qin Yaping's request was accepted, Xu Nanqiao didn't mention it again in the following days, but she was in a daze for longer every day. Liang Ruo visited her a few times, but she was always immersed in her own world.

It's just strange that her vomiting is getting worse and worse, and she doesn't like to eat those greasy things.

Even Qin Yaping saw something was wrong.

Qin Yaping hugged Xu Nanqiao who was about to faint from vomiting to the sofa, and he stared at her stomach until Xu Nanqiao felt a little uncomfortable.

"Yaping?"

"Nan Qiao, you, are you..."

Xu Nanqiao didn't understand what he meant.

"Are you pregnant?"

Xu Nanqiao seemed to be struck by lightning. She stroked her stomach and thought about her recent physical condition. There seemed to be some changes.

"I am pregnant?"

Xu Nanqiao couldn't believe it, a smile slowly appeared on her face.

Begging Qin Yaping to take her to the hospital, Xu Nanqiao finally confirmed this idea.

She is pregnant and has a baby with Lu Yunzheng, which is great.