The hero of the female supporting role in fast time travel is highly poisonous

Recalling Xie Yan's treatment of me, I know that he loves me and cares about me all the time. Although the way I don't like it, it doesn't mean that I don't love him because of it. In my heart, Xie Yan is my everything, I can't live in this world without him, on the contrary, I will kill myself if I lose him.
It is precisely because of this that when the idea of ​​falling in love with someone else arose in my heart just now, I felt such panic and anxiety, because that is the thing I hate and cannot tolerate the most. I feel that this kind of thing has absolutely nothing to do with me, but now I, who was the most shameless behavior of betrayal at the beginning, have actually made this kind of mistake, and this sudden sense of moral shattering made me feel a little I was at a loss, because this subverted the most stubborn cognition in my heart. In my heart, it is impossible and impossible for a girl and a pure girl to fall in love with two men at the same time.
I suddenly felt that my heart was very tired and tired. I didn't know why I suddenly felt that way, but this feeling obviously happened to me. It is impossible for me to betray a man I love deeply and choose fall in love with another man.
Although the two men I fell in love with are equally outstanding, each of them has a stunning face, and one has unfathomable mana, and the other has a huge influence in society that is desirable, If you really want to compare these two people together, they really have their own merits and are evenly divided, but it is useless to compare them. I can't betray one person and fall in love with another person. If I didn't fall in love with Xie Xie before this Yan, maybe I might consider being with Chen Jiaming, but I have chosen to be with Xie Yan now, if I am turning to Chen Jiaming now, then I am still in love, then this is not love No, but betrayal!
I have always believed that love is not just a temporary impulse brought by a hormone, but love represents a kind of responsibility. His responsibility not only means being responsible to the person who loves him, but also means being responsible to himself. Loved ones are in charge.
It is often that the person who gives love has suffered too much, but the person who has endured the love is the most likely to be betrayed and make himself heartbroken. Therefore, it is impossible for him to give love too easily, because once he has given like?It is equivalent to making a promise over there, promising never to betray, never to transfer one's love.
The kind of love that can be easily transferred to other people is definitely not a heartfelt and sincere love, but a very casual and cheap love, or that kind of cheap love is not worthy of being called love at all. It's a kind of teasing, an excuse to entertain one's own loneliness.
Perhaps just now when Chen Jiaming was answering my question, he inadvertently said that he had silently paid attention to my behavior, I did have such a little joy in my heart, I was secretly happy that she actually Really doing those actions, it shows that he really has me in his heart, he has been paying attention to me silently all the time, but because of some of his own psychology, he doesn't pay attention to and care about me. He didn't take any positive actions to please me on the surface, he just hid it deeply in his heart, but this is not a good explanation, he really loves me, otherwise, he can actually be very easy. Casually speaking, if I show that I don't love him, then he will immediately look for the next person.
If he is the kind of person looking for lonely comfort, as long as I show a little disinterest in him, then he will give up on me and find someone who is interested in him, because he can't afford to wait and doesn't want to wait, for him, Waiting a little longer is tantamount to a little more loneliness. For him, it can easily cause tons of damage, and he can't afford to wait and dare not wait.
But Chen Jiaming is not that kind of person. He is a man who takes love seriously. He can silently guard and wait for love. I believe that if it wasn’t for this time that I accidentally exposed my feet, maybe I would never know. He still has this thought in his heart, that he actually loves me.
But all this happened so fast, I didn’t know how to face him, I just regarded him as a good friend, and didn’t take his passionate pursuit seriously at all, it would be false to say that there was no feeling of heartbeat, Every time I hear his gentle words, full of deep love for me, my heart is as sweet as honey, really sweet.
Xie Yan's method is different from his. He likes me, but he confesses his love without any concealment, very direct, so that I can completely see what he thinks in his heart.
He unreservedly gave his whole heart to me, and only when I am with him can I feel safe, like a weak and boneless girl who needs a big man's shoulders to lean on behind her.
From getting acquainted with Xie Yan to being together, although it is very speechless and there will be small quarrels, it will not hurt the relationship, and will not easily bring up sensitive words such as breaking up.
As the saying goes, there is a quarrel at the head of the bed and the end of the bed. Xie Yan and I are like this. We are destined to be a happy couple. What makes me a little regretful is that Xie Yan is not an ordinary person. Although he can accompany me until the end of life, but He will always be the same as when he was young, nothing has changed.
I'm just worried that if I'm with him when I'm gray-haired, I'll be called mentally ill by others, but Xie Yan doesn't mind it at all.
So love is so wonderful, one person obviously loves another person, but he doesn't say it, so if this continues, the other person may never know.
It's just that this feeling is so tiring that people can't last until the last moment. They often choose to empathize and not fall in love with others for one reason or another, but that is not necessarily true love, but It is a kind of caressing for pain, a kind of calming for pain.
I don't want that feeling, that's why I want to be with Xie Yan properly. When I think of Xie Yan, I don't know what he is doing at home at this time, will he cook a few dishes that he is slightly good at, and wait for me to go back have dinner.
After being in love for a long time, lovers tend to become indifferent, because he knows that love can easily turn into hatred if it cannot be reciprocated.
That's why I regard Chen Jiaming as a good friend, I don't want him to hate me in the end, even friends can't be made, but I'm a little greedy, I want to rely more on the warmth from Chen Jiaming, he The concern for me and the kindness to me made me reluctant to leave him.
If the other party is a rational person, then he can vent out this ruthlessness reasonably, but if he is an irrational person, then he has nowhere to vent this kind of hatred, and it will easily hurt others when it accumulates in the end , It will also hurt yourself, so in the end it is still hurting others and yourself.
I don't want to be that kind of person, I just think that everyone can be friends, and we all pretend to be the one we love the most in our hearts. I love Xie Yan, just like Chen Jiaming loves his former favorite.
After thinking so much, I took a few deep breaths, trying to calm down my complicated mood a little bit, and a bright smile was restored on my face, and then I said slowly: "Since you said, there is no such thing here. Kind of cold air, then well, I will believe it, let’s not talk about this, just now you said that you can give me a sum of money, I will thank you here first.”
When Chen Jiaming heard this, he was taken aback for a moment. It turned out that he was thinking about my mention of borrowing money. I.Immediately afterwards, he laughed, waved his hands and said, "It's nothing, you send your card number, and I'll transfer the money to you directly."
Hearing this, I didn't say anything more, so I nodded, then took out my mobile phone and sent my bank card number to his mobile phone, and then said to Chen Jiaming as if thinking of something, "I really have some Curious how powerful your family is to not take 100 million seriously."
Chen Jiaming saw that I seemed to be a little curious about his family's affairs, so he smiled and shook his head and said to me: "There is nothing curious about this matter. It is not necessarily a glorious thing to take 100 million seriously. It can only represent the accumulation of the family. With such accumulation, the family naturally stands tall and will not take the trivial things under their feet seriously. But this does not mean it is glorious. Sometimes, the family's Glory comes with other people's bloody storms, but people can only see their superficial brilliance and don't think of those dark places, just like what you just did, pay attention to that, don't take 100 million seriously They didn’t ask me how I got there.”
Hearing this, I said angrily, "Should I ask you how you became rich? Then you told me in an official tone like those people on TV, you must study hard every day, work hard, and soon Realizing my ideals, I'm not that boring, I'm just curious, and I didn't insist on asking you to talk about it, it doesn't matter if you don't want to talk about it, and you don't have to act like I'm doing Tai Chi here."
Although he was a little angry in his heart, he was more surprised that his family could grow to the current scale, and he could not take 100 million yuan seriously. It is unimaginable that his family can have such strong strength.
Chen Jiaming was not in a hurry to defend himself when he heard the words, but first he laughed and then said to me, "I'm angry, I was just joking with you. You don’t know much about this kind of thing. You said that even if I want to explain it to you in detail, I can’t explain it clearly. Besides, I just borrowed you 100 million just now, so that’s it. In a blink of an eye, you were sneering at me, tell me, aren't you a little too ungrateful to cross the river and tear down the bridge?"
There is still a warm smile on his face, like a sunflower, facing my cold face, I can't resist the magic of this smile, to be honest, I really didn't think that his smile is so It's charming, it can be said to have healing properties, and I have to eliminate the anger in my heart.