Wife, do you see my kneeling posture is standard?

A petite figure was entangled in the white cold air, the small body curled up together, as if still in the mother's womb, serene and quiet.It's just that his whole body showed a kind of lifeless bruise, which made people desperate and painful.

Lin Qianqian struggled to get up, because the movement was too big and she hurt her wound without realizing it.She stared blankly at the little figure in the freezer, tears falling down uncontrollably.

Her fingertips moved slightly, wanting to touch his face, but she was afraid of alarming him.She used to be able to clearly feel his fetal movement, but now she can only watch. The reality is so cruel.

"I'm the one who's sorry for you." Finally, Lin Qianqian couldn't suppress her emotions anymore, and burst into tears.She wanted to tell him that it was her fault, that it was her carelessness that prevented him from coming into this world.

However, he will never hear it.

Xi Yinian stood aside, her crying was more like a sharp knife piercing his heart fiercely.He wanted to hold her in his arms and give her a moment of comfort, but his feet seemed to be nailed to the ground and he couldn't move.

In the end, he didn't go forward, but silently withdrew some distance away. She needed space to accept this fact and bid farewell to that dark past.

It has been three hours since Lin Qianqian was pushed out of the morgue. She was sitting in a wheelchair with a sluggish expression, her eyes were red, and it was obvious that she had cried.

Ever since she vented her heart out in the morgue, Lin Qianqian's mental state has also improved day by day.The wrist injury didn't bring her too much shadow trauma, at least others couldn't see it.

During Lin Qianqian's time of recuperating her body, she likes to stand at the window door and look at the scenery outside the window the most.Although his body was getting better day by day, the light in his eyes dimmed little by little.

"Are you waiting for him?" Xi Yinian sighed slightly after checking Lin Qianqian's body, and asked this sentence firmly.

Even though she never spoke, he could still understand her thoughts.

Hearing this, Lin Qianqian's eyes moved, and then she raised her lips and smiled bitterly: "Is my intention so obvious?"

Xi Yinian shook her head, "Ever since you woke up, I felt that you were waiting for someone." Once she broke down, but she was still willing to trust Gu Jinyan without reservation, this is enough to explain everything.

"I'm waiting for an explanation from him." The smile on the corner of Lin Qianqian's mouth gradually faded, the relationship was just someone else telling the ending from the beginning to the end, and she wanted to wait for him to draw this symbol by himself.

"He is not alone when he comes abroad this time, do you know?" Xi Yinian was a little angry, but more of a deep helplessness.He was also wrong before, but why was she so resolute in refusing to give him a chance?
"I know." Lin Qian smiled slightly, "But during the period of my illness, I could clearly feel his feelings. My heart will not lie to me."

"Qianqian, can you wake up a little bit?" Xi Yinian's eyes were slightly red, no longer the elegance of the past.

Lin Qianqian looked up at Xi Yinian and smiled, "I've never been more sober than now, Yi Nian, I'm not obsessed with obsession, but I know what I want."

Xi Yinian understood that it would be useless to say anything else, he looked at Lin Qianqian's side face, his eyes flashed with intense pain, and then quietly left the ward.

A month passed in the blink of an eye, and Lin Qianqian did not wait for Gu Jinyan to appear.If it wasn't for the weakness in her wrist, she almost thought that everything before was just her own hallucination.

At this moment, she was standing by the window, looking down at her wrist, deeply thinking about something.

Xi Yinian pushed the door open and basically gave up on persuasion.He put his hands in his pockets and said in a low voice: "Qianqian, the discharge procedures have been completed."

Lin Qianqian's eyes sank, she had waited long enough for Gu Jinyan. "Then please take me back."

Xi Yinian smiled and followed her with her bag.The two left the ward one after the other. Before leaving, Lin Qianqian looked at the ward reluctantly.

After being discharged from the hospital, Lin Qianqian didn't allow herself to be immersed in loss for too long. She contacted the cemetery immediately, planning to hold a funeral for her child.

Lin Qianqian carried the child out with her own hands, the cold body did not make her feel cold, on the contrary, this feeling was amazing.This is the first time she hugs him, and it will be the last time.

During the whole process, she behaved very calmly.It's just that when I saw the moment when the corpse was set on fire, I couldn't hold back my tears.She covered her mouth and cried in a low voice, holding the urn until she managed to calm down.

The child's funeral was not grand, if it wasn't for Xi Yinian's insistence, Lin Qianqian would be alone from the beginning to the end.Because the child didn't have a name, Lin Qianqian's name was only on the tombstone, making her look a bit lonely.

Lin Qianqian leaned against the tombstone, talking to him in a low voice.When the sun was about to set, I got up and sorted out my emotions and left this sad place.

On the way back, Lin Qianqian supported her head with one hand, stared straight at the trees outside, and thought about something in silence.

"Qianqian, what are your plans next?" Xi Yinian's peripheral vision kept falling on Lin Qianqian, and he sighed slightly, breaking the silence.

Lin Qianqian calmed down lazily, and said lightly, "I want to study and pursue the direction of drug research." The left and right hands can no longer hold the scalpel, it's like doing something you like in a different way.

"Then I'll help you contact the school?" Xi Yinian's eyes flickered, but fortunately she had no plans to return to China, "I have some connections here, so it's easier."

"Okay." Lin Qianqian didn't refuse his kindness, since she decided to start over, there was no need to always refuse Xi Yinian's kindness, deliberately pulling the two people's rejection away.

"Then do you have a favorite mentor? I can try to find a way." Xi Yi Nian's tone was filled with joy that could not be concealed, and the corners of his mouth could not help but rise.

"I want to recuperate before continuing my studies." Lin Qianqian didn't answer directly, because she couldn't concentrate on studying in her current mood.

Xi Yinian nodded, "Alright, take this time to take a good rest."

Lin Qianqian said it was resting, but in fact she was sleeping in the house.She needs a period of time to consume those negative emotions, and the best way is to let go.

It wasn't until the doorbell rang that she interrupted her simple and rude decompression method. Due to the doorbell's spirit of not giving up, she had no choice but to get up from the bed and open the door with weak steps.

Xi Yinian looked at Lin Qianqian who was wearing home clothes, and couldn't help but smile, "As expected, you haven't changed at all."

"Is there something wrong?" Lin Qianqian felt that there was nothing wrong with her way, but she just looked at Xi Yinian in surprise, wondering why he came here?
"Are you interested in going to barbecue?" Xi Yi Nian raised his eyebrows, and directly stated his purpose, "After so long, you should relax a bit, right?"

Lin Qianqian thought this proposal was good, and nodded immediately, "Wait for me!" After finishing speaking, she turned and went back to the bedroom, leaving only Xi Yinian with a smile on her face.

Xi Yinian chose a beautiful place, and set up a tent by the lake.At this moment, he was busy in front of the fire, and the smell of fragrance increased his appetite greatly.

Perhaps the way of letting go worked. Lin Qianqian was also attracted by the fragrance after she put aside her worries, gathered around Xi Yi Nian, eagerly waiting, "Yi Nian, when will it be good?"

"Here, here you are." Xi Yinian handed over a stick with a hint of pampering in his eyes. "It's hot, be careful."

After the words were finished, Lin Qianqian's exclamation sounded, she raised her hand to fan the wind, obviously she was burned.That appearance made Xi Yi Nian couldn't help but smile, as if in a trance, they had returned to the time when they were still lovers.

At night, the two of them lay side by side in the tent, looking at the starry sky above their heads, Lin Qianqian felt incomparably relaxed.Next, she will welcome a new life.

Xi Yinian turned his head to look at Lin Qianqian's side face, got up quietly and went outside the tent, took out a bouquet of flowers from the carriage, breathed out a little nervously, and came to the front of the tent.

"Shallow!"

"Ok?"

Lin Qianqian replied lazily, turned around and couldn't see Xi Yinian, so she got up suspiciously. When she saw Xi Yinian who was half-kneeling with flowers, her eyebrows frowned slightly.

"Qianqian, I know that I have hurt you before, but I still hope that you can give me a chance to make up for my mistakes, okay?" Xi Yinian could clearly hear his own heartbeat, and stared at him closely. Looking at Lin Qianqian, her shadow filled her heart and eyes.

Lin Qianqian's expression was solemn, she bit her lip and came out of the tent.Nodding his head and thinking for a moment, he slowly said, "Yi Nian, I'm sorry."

She has not let go of Gu Jinyan in her heart, and there is no way to start a new relationship.

"It's okay, I can wait." Xi Yinian didn't stalk, he got up and looked at Lin Qianqian tenderly, just like the person in his memory, without any change.

"I understand that you still have someone in your heart, but please don't hide from me, okay?"

"You know that's not what I meant." Lin Qianqian looked at Xi Yinian calmly, "We're done, it's impossible."

"Qianqian, you can give Gu Jinyan so many chances, why don't you give me one chance?" Xi Yinian looked at Lin Qianqian in pain, he made it so clear that he just didn't want to cause her any psychological burden.

But she spread things out and deprived all possibilities.

Lin Qianqian's eyes fell silent at Xi Yinian's words, and she pulled the corners of her lips weakly, "Yinian, I used to think I loved you, but it wasn't until I met Gu Jinyan that I realized how wrong I was. I can I can still have hope in him after losing pain again and again, not because of the tilt of the scales in my heart, but because I love him, so there will always be no lower limit."

"So...you never loved me, right?" The light in Xi Yinian's eyes was completely extinguished, he knelt on the ground blankly, and the flower in his hand collapsed to the ground with his emotional despair.

He closed his eyes in pain, forcing himself to spit out this cruel reality, even if she didn't want to admit it.

"Sorry, I never loved you."