Madam's black history was picked up

Si Tianmu buried his head deeply in Anyajie's neck.

"When you're not here, I can't calm down and do things. I can't eat, I can't sleep at night, so I can only use alcohol to numb myself. I want to let myself go down forever, at least it won't hurt."

"But even so, my heart is always flustered, as if there is a gap in my heart, a piece is missing. I know that the missing piece is with you. If I can't get it back, then I will never feel better."

Si Tianmu tightened his arms around her waist, and arched Anyajie's neck.

"I never knew that missing someone could be so uncomfortable. It seems that my whole body is itchy, but I can't scratch the itchy part. Even if I scratch the skin all over my body, I can't stop the itching."

"I haven't had this feeling even after I separated from Murong Lan. Anya, I'm really in love with you, and it's much deeper than I thought."

"Don't push me away, okay, if my life is without you, I don't know what is the meaning of such a life. Maybe I will still live well, but I have no soul like that, no different from a walking dead. "

"So please, don't let me become that kind of person, okay?"

Anyajie quietly listened to Si Tianmu's affectionate confession, felt his strong heartbeat, and felt his warm breath.

Whenever she was about to collapse into Si Tianmu's tenderness, scenes from the past would involuntarily jump into her mind.

What Si Tianmu gave her was more pain than sweetness; suspicion was more than love; loneliness was more than companionship.This endless reincarnation made her feel daunted, and the more she loved, the more afraid she became, until finally she dared not love anymore.

She can only wrap up her wounded heart carefully, and hide it securely, so that no one will find out, even she doesn't let herself know where her heart is.

The two stood quietly like this, each enjoying the feeling of hugging and being hugged; each licking his own wound; each struggling in his own world.

Until a mobile phone ringing interrupted this quiet beauty.

Si Tianmu let the phone ring for a long time, but he still hugged An Yajie tightly and did not move. When the phone rang for the second time, Anyajie spoke.

"Go on, if there is a problem, it must be solved. Avoiding it will only make the problem pile up. That's what you said."

Si Tianmu still hugged Anyajie and did not move. After a long time, he sighed deeply, let go of Anyajie and took out his mobile phone from his trouser pocket. He answered the phone while walking towards the room.

Anyajie only heard him call Dad, and the door of the room was closed.

"Si Tianmu, have you had enough fun?" Si Zhen's angry yet majestic voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Are you really going to disregard the family property of the Si family for the sake of a woman? While enjoying the supreme glory that the Si family has brought to you, you also need to understand the responsibilities on your shoulders."

"Do you know how many people's efforts will go to waste if you make a small move; do you know that if you accidentally take a wrong step, the foundation of the Si family may be shaken."

"How many of our enemies have been eyeing us, and how many people will gloat and watch us fall. You didn't fall under the enemy's attack, but you fell into the gentleness of a woman."

Si Zhen was heartbroken: "Is this what a man in our Si family should do? Ah! As a Si family member, from the moment you were born, you have an unshirkable responsibility on your shoulders."

"You are not only living for yourself, you are living for the entire Si family. The foundation of the Si family and the inheritance of the Si family all depend on you and your brother, and rely on the two of you to inherit and carry forward. "

"Now that the Si family is in trouble, instead of having the slightest sense of responsibility to provoke the leader, you are instead nesting in that small, remote place to please a woman. Tianmu, Tianmu, you have made my father feel sad and disappointed."

Si Tianmu squeezed the phone tightly, his eyes flickering.

Chief Si Zhen sighed: "If the Si family gets through this difficult time with the help of your uncles and uncles and others, when you come back from the border town with the woman you like, who will still think highly of you? Will you still obey me?"

"At that time you will become the laughing stock of the entire Si family, and you can't even lift your head up in front of the woman you like. They will laugh at you when the Si family is in trouble, you will only run and hide in the arms of women, waiting for the Si family It's majestic again, and you're pulling the woman back to enjoy it again."

"When that day comes, is that really what you want? Are you worthy of being a Si family? If you really get to that point, you will have nothing."

Si Zhen's tone was cold: "At that time, with nothing you have, what right do you have to talk about love? When everyone can step on you, what confidence do you have to say I love you to the person you love?" , I can give you everything you want."

Si Zhen's words were like a hammer, hitting Si Tianmu's heart one after another, causing pain in his chest.Every word of Si Zhen's words was heartbreaking, leaving him speechless in pain.

He is not only living for himself, but also for the Si family.

"Tianmu." Si Zhen on the phone seemed a lot haggard.

"You and your brother have never worried me since we were young. As long as what you do does not exceed my bottom line, I will not interfere in your life. But this time you have gone too far. You violated the Si family's law." Taboo."

"Disregarding the family property of the Si family for the sake of a woman is the big taboo of the Si family. You can die on the battlefield, but you must never die in the arms of a woman."

"Gentle Township, Tomb of Heroes, Sky Screen."

Si Tianmu clenched his fists and gritted his teeth: "Dad, I'm sorry, I let you down. It is my responsibility to provoke the Si family, and I will not shirk this responsibility."

"Tomorrow... I will come back." Si Tianmu said the last sentence with difficulty.

"Good! Good! Good! This is the responsibility that a man of our Si family should have." Si Zhen was relieved for a while.

"Tomorrow afternoon, I will send a plane to pick you up, you are ready."

"it is good."

Si Tianmu hung up the phone, turned his head to look out the dark window, and didn't move for a long time.

The night fell in confusion again, and the upcoming separation made tonight's night extraordinarily bleak.

A few willow trees swayed in the breeze, and the dim lights stretched the shadows of the trees; inside the house, sadness covered the temperature of a man, and there was a thick layer of sadness floating.

Si Tianmu came out of the room, and the living room was in darkness. He groped his way to the door of Anyajie's room, stood there for a long time, and wanted to reach out to knock on the door, but the moment his hand was about to close the door, he stopped again.

He just stood at the door, silently guarding the person on his heart.

Anyajie stood behind the door, she could even hear Si Tianmu's breathing, she knew that he would definitely leave tomorrow.

Anyajie suddenly felt a strong nostalgia and reluctance, and she forced herself to suppress this nostalgia and reluctance.She tried to tell herself: "That's it! This is their original life trajectory."

They have always been two parallel lines. The previous intersection was accidental. After the intersection, each of them was still running in the original direction, and they were getting farther and farther until there was no possibility of intersection.

A door separates two people, one is outside the door, but dare not to come in, for fear that after stepping in, he will never want to go out again; the other is inside the door, but dare not go out, for fear that after going out, he will not be able to enter again coming.

The two stood like this until dawn broke in the sky, and the east was pale.

Anyajie prepared a table full of breakfast for Si Tianmu, including deep-fried dough sticks, soy milk, steamed stuffed buns, pancakes, sandwiches, toast, jam, milk...until there was no room left on the table,

The breakfast on the table is steaming hot and fragrant.The billowing hot smoke seemed to be seeing Si Tianmu off happily, but the quiet dining table only added a sadness to the parting.

The two sat quietly at the dining table and ate breakfast quietly, neither of them spoke.

Anyajie couldn't stand the oppressive atmosphere, this oppression was driving her crazy, she stood up, grabbed her backpack and opened the door to go out.

"An Ya." The moment Anyajie was about to go out, Si Tianmu stopped her.

Anyajie stood where she was but didn't look back.

Si Tianmu looked at Anyajie's back: "I will wait for you at the Biancheng Stadium tonight, give me a chance, and give yourself a chance."

Anyajie paused, did not speak, and ran out with her bag on her back.

Si Tianmu leaned on the chair dejectedly: "Please, come."

Anyajie was absent-minded all the time in the training ground, and she didn't respond to the students' questions.

"Coach, coach." Zhang Shasha reached out and shook her hand in front of Anyajie.

"Huh?" Anyajie came back to her senses: "What?"

"Coach, what's wrong with you, why are you absent-minded?" Zhang Shasha looked curious, and other students also looked at her.

"Oh, nothing, I didn't sleep well last night."

"I asked you just now, why didn't Si Tianmu come?"

"He... won't come again." Anyajie's tone was filled with tangled disappointment.

"What?" Everyone exclaimed.

"why?"

Zhao Ziluo looked regretful: "I still want him to give me advice."

Anyajie twitched the corners of her mouth, glanced at where Si Tianmu was standing, and couldn't help recalling his days in the gymnasium in her mind.

He was punished for squatting and sweating profusely; he was punished for high jumping so that his legs were weak.But he was never tired, never thought of backing down, and he was always smiling.

The two competed, and he put himself on the ground. He smiled and said, "Coach An, you lost!"

"Coach, coach." Zhang Shasha reached out and waved in front of Anyajie with a smirk on her face.

What happened to the coach today?Always in a daze, now with a smirk on his face, it can't be because of some stimulation!

Anyajie, who came back to her senses, looked at the students and said suddenly: "I have something to go out, you can practice freely today." After she finished speaking, she didn't even have time to change her Taoist uniform, so she turned around and ran out of the dojo.

"Hey, coach, where are you going?"

What responded to the students was a white figure running further and further away.

There was a small helicopter parked on the border city stadium. Si Tianmu stood under the plane and kept looking towards the side of the road. Si Hao stood behind him, looking at his watch from time to time.

The pointer is sparing no effort to move forward, and there are fewer and fewer people in the stadium.Tired of the sun hanging in the sky, he yawned tiredly and fell asleep under the corner of the mountain.

Si Tianmu was still staring at the road eagerly, Si Hao glanced at the watch on his hand again, and walked to Si Tianmu's side.

"President, it's time to go."