Jiang Shao wants to turn back

An Jingluo didn't know how to answer Jiang Li's questioning, she lowered her head and didn't dare to look him in the eyes, no, she couldn't just admit defeat like this, she had worked hard for so long and couldn't give up in front of him so easily.

She was heartbroken, bit her lower lip tightly with her teeth, raised her head to meet his cold gaze, and looked directly into his eyes: "You will believe me when you said this morning, did you say it out of impulse to coax me?" ?”

Jiang Li didn't expect her to ask such a question suddenly, he was stunned for a second, and when he came back to his senses, there was a bitter arc on the corner of his mouth, and a little more sadness in his eyes: "I said I believe you are not coaxing you on impulse, it is true."

"Then why don't you choose to trust me now?" An Jingluo didn't understand, as long as she was given time, she could explain everything clearly to Jiang Li.

"I said I believed your previous sentence, do you remember?" Jiang Li looked into her eyes, "First of all, you don't lie to me. I have been deceived enough to you An Jingluo. I am afraid. "

An Jingluo heard the forbearance in his tone and the inaudible last sentence, her heart ached, and she was about to say something but was shut completely by the flash of water in his eyes.

That pair of black, bright and transparent peach blossom eyes, which always shone brightly, was not only covered with a layer of mist, making it hard to see clearly because of her, but also the starlight was dim, completely gone. The previous high-spirited.

An Jingluo took half a step back in a daze, she didn't want to see Jiang Li like this, she worked so hard to come back to see him not because she wanted to see him like he is now, the most ironic thing is that he looks like this all because of herself.

An Jingluo couldn't bear to personally hurt the person he was thinking of like this. There must be something wrong with it. It shouldn't be like this, it really shouldn't be like this.

She watched Jiang Li tightly shut his eyes, frowning, the reddish corners of his eyes and slightly trembling eyelashes seemed to be scrambling to reveal the pain and unbearableness of his master.There was a sudden constriction in her heart, and she subconsciously clenched the document tightly in pain, and when she let go, the poor piece of paper was beyond recognition.

An Jingluo didn't know why she had such an illusion. Although Jiang Li was very close to her now, she just felt that Jiang Li was getting farther and farther away from her gradually.

She was very anxious and wanted to reach out to grab him, but no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't reach out or touch him. She wanted to shout, to scream, to beg him to stay, but she couldn't make any sound.

When she was awakened from the imagination by the familiar smell wrapped around her body and the soft touch on her face, she realized that at some point, her tears had uncontrollably rolled down from her eyes.

At this moment Jiang Li was standing in front of her, with his head slightly lowered and wiping her tears with a tissue, his eyes focused and his movements gentle, as if he had gently coaxed her every time An Jingluo cried before.

"Jiang Li, you." An Jingluo just breathed a sigh of relief, and the next second his heart was lifted into his throat again, his thinking was so clear that he was in such a bad mood just now, and now he wiped her so gently. Tears, could this be the last warmth, and then he let go completely.

An Jingluo couldn't think any further, she panicked and subconsciously grabbed his sleeve, felt his slightly cool skin, and heard his slightly rapid breathing.

"Okay, don't cry anymore." Jiang Li wiped off the tears on her face, reached out and gently took An Jingluo's hand off his sleeve, and sat back on the chair again.

He finally sees himself clearly now, no matter how complicated his feelings for An Jingluo are, there is one thing that can't be changed, that is, he can't see her cry or her tears.

So since he couldn't hide, he had no choice but to compromise, watching An Jingluo's tears rolling down from his eyes, flowing down his cheeks to his chin, just like flowing into his heart. There was a burst of bitterness.

He slowly stood up and took a step in front of her, wiping away her tears like the two were still together before, but his heart was very calm, he knew that this time he really should let go, no more entanglement is necessary up.

Even if you don't want to part with it, let it go, even if you miss it, you can't look back, even if you love it, you can't force it!
But when An Jing was crying and his eyes were hazy, the corners of his eyes and nose were red and he raised his head pitifully to look at him, holding his sleeve tightly, he still couldn't help showing a little wavering, and then pulled it away cruelly. Her hands are kept at a distance from her.

"Jiang Li, I didn't lie to you, I really didn't lie to you, what I said is true, you believe me." An Jingluo sensed Jiang Li's abnormality, and panicked to the extreme, "I can tell Xiang Yu now. Call, he must know what's going on, let him explain to you, okay?"

She frantically fumbled for the phone in her pocket, and unlocked the screen lock several times because she was nervous and at a loss. Her fingers kept trembling and she couldn't even grasp the phone steadily. She was too panicked. Horror deeply swept through every pore and nerve of her body.

"No need, these things don't matter to me now." Jiang Li reached out and took her phone away, flipping the lock screen upside down on the desktop, with a calm and terrifying tone.

Here it is again, with this strange and alienated attitude again, but it seems that something is different from before. After touching the indifference in his eyes, An Jingluo suddenly has a flash of inspiration and thinks that something is different.

Although in various formal and informal occasions when the two of them met in the early days after she returned to China, Jiang Li's eyes were always indifferent and alienated, and there was even a little hatred, but even that showed that he still had feelings for her.

Hate arises from love, no matter whether it is love or hate, he always has her place in his heart, maybe he will think of her from time to time when the night is quiet or sleepless.

But it's different now, the alienation in his eyes has always been there, but the indifference has become a stranger, a complete stranger, and he said it doesn't matter anymore, he clearly cared so much before, why suddenly it doesn't matter up.

Does this mean that he has already planned to completely abandon her, abandon the complicated emotions between them, and leave her from now on, the kind of truly leaving that is irretrievable?

"No, Jiang Li, why doesn't it matter? You want to know, you definitely want to know, I'll let Xiang Yu explain to you." An Jing's anxious tears were about to fall again. She wanted to take her mobile phone but was caught. Jiang Li pressed his hand.

"An Jingluo." Jiang Li called out her name in a low voice, each word clearly, "Admit it, in your heart, you always love yourself more than me."

No, An Jingluo disagrees with his words, she loves Jiang Li many times more than herself from the beginning to the end, from the first time she saw him at the age of 15, her love for him every day after that They were all slowly increasing, and finally added together to precipitate the courage she had to break the boat to help Jiang Li three years ago.

Did she do something wrong?For the first time, An Jingluo questioned the departure three years ago. Before that, she always believed that she had not made a wrong choice.

The matter at that time was a foregone conclusion, and she was the only chess piece that could break the game, so she knew that it was difficult to turn back, and that she might never get forgiveness from Jiang Li and Jiang Huaizuo, she still resolutely chose like a moth to a flame. leave.

So, is she really doing something wrong?No one can give her an answer!
An Jing burst into tears, she kept shaking her head, trying to prove that she was not what he said, and also wanted to deny his misunderstanding of her, but she couldn't say it at all.

"You, you said in the morning that you wanted me to see the changes in the house we lived together for many years. If I said, that I want to find out later, would you still give me time?" An Jing Luo gently tugged at the hem of his clothes and hiccupped.

Jiang Li looked at An Jingluo who was crying into tears, and listened to the words she uttered sobbingly, he was calm on the surface, but his heart was already in turmoil.

He forcibly turned his eyes away from her crying pear blossom face with rain, and his gaze fell into the distance vaguely: "It's too late to say this now, we still have no destiny after all."

After speaking, he stood up abruptly as if he was afraid that he would regret it, and the chair made a noise of rubbing against the ground, which was particularly harsh in the quiet coffee shop, just like his irritable mood at this time.

"I have to leave beforehand. If you want to come and talk to me about Zuozuo, you can contact me at any time." He couldn't wait to start his long legs, and stopped after taking a step without looking back. "I wish you eternal happiness."

This sentence is sincere, no matter whether An Jingluo is with him or not in the end, he hopes that she will be happy and happy forever, because she will always be the elf he met for the first time in the bamboo forest in his mind.

It's the cute little girl with two braids, a green floral dress, and a colorful cloth bag, circling happily around the bamboo tree.

It was the time when no one supported him to sing, even knew that his dream was to be a singer, and laughed at his whimsy, comforted him and encouraged him, gave him hope with childish but warm reasons, and let him regain what had disappeared. Little angel of faith.

He is very grateful to An Jingluo, thank her for appearing in his life and bring him great hope and courage; thank her for being by his side all the time, adding a lot of joy and confidence to him; thank her for giving birth to him Leaving Zuo Zuo, let him have double weakness and armor at the same time, let him experience the happiness of loving and being loved.

For such a result, he is very sorry and heartbroken, but if this is An Jingluo's choice, he will respect it. After all, if she can get happiness from other people that she can't get from herself, then he should let it go , and wish her eternal happiness from the bottom of my heart.

With his hurried footsteps, it gradually became clear in his mind that when he saw An Jingluo for the first time, she opened her big round eyes and looked at the guitar in his hand curiously, with a little shyness. , a little doubt and a little joy.

The young man's heart will always fall in love once he is tempted, and he will keep this scene deep in his heart forever, it is his white moonlight, and it is also his cinnabar mole.

so be it now