Jiang Shao wants to turn back

While digesting the truth of what Ke Yi said, An Jingluo turned on the crazy self-blame mode. She couldn't imagine how Jiang Li survived after she was one of the potential accomplices back then!

Ke Yi seemed to like to see her being greatly shocked. She raised her eyebrows as if she saw something interesting, watched it with interest for a long time, and then continued to stimulate her.

"Actually, I also sympathize with you. When I found out that you agreed to the conditions of the eldest lady in order to raise money for Jiang Li's movie, I was a little shocked."

"But I was shocked for a moment, and then I thought of your feelings for Jiang Li. This is just going abroad to cut off all contact. It is a trivial matter for you. Even if the eldest lady wanted your life at that time, you would Will give it!"

An Jingluo was silent when she heard the words, Ke Yi's words were beyond doubt, and she didn't have any trace of rebuttal.

For Jiang Li, she has always been willing to sacrifice everything, as long as he wants, as long as she has, she will give him without hesitation, including everything she has.

Sometimes when other people see her like this, they will hate iron and scold her, saying that she is in love, and that she has no principles, but in fact she has, Jiang Li is her principles and bottom line.

At that time, there was only love in her eyes, and all of them were Jiang Li. Even with Zuo Zuo, Jiang Li still ranked first in her heart.

The self other than Jiang Li, work, career, and hobbies are all put in her mind in small groups, and she doesn't care so much about it, and doesn't care so much about managing and looking for it.

Maybe since then they have shown signs of parting. There are only Jiang Li and Zuo Zuo in her life. She has almost completely given up her major and herself, and revolves around them wholeheartedly.

At that time, she didn't know when it started, and she hadn't talked to her inner self for a long time. She didn't know what she wanted, and she didn't know what the longing in her heart was.

The pen that was originally held in his hand has changed into Jiang Li's water cup and script at some point.

The tablet that was originally used for drawing was filled with things Jiang Li needed, his schedule, announcements and some work emails.

She used to find time to read books every day, but she has forgotten when it started. It has been a long time since she opened her kindle, and even the two paper books that she carries with her everywhere have been neglected for a long time.

She didn't know where it started to change?I don't know when it changed?I don't even know that there are so many changes, right?
After three years of precipitation, she has completely seen the situation at that time.

It is right to treat Jiang Li and Zuo Zuo wholeheartedly, and it is right to support Jiang Li's career as the other half, but it is wrong for her to give up herself.

At any time, before being a wife or a mother, she must first be herself!
Everyone is an independent individual. Before she becomes any role in society and family, she must first be herself.

Only by being yourself and learning to get along well with yourself, when you assume any other role, you will not worry about gains and losses, and be afraid of all kinds of fears like walking on thin ice.

At that time, she was still too young, thinking that love was like wanting to cut out her heart and hold it in front of the other party. As long as she had a heart and love, it was enough, but she didn't realize the more realistic obstacles at all.

For example, Jiang Li who is getting better and better, for example, Jiang Li who is getting better and better will meet girls who are as good as him.

It is impossible for her to stay by his side all the time, and some occasions are not suitable for her to follow him. She cannot see, hear or feel everything whether it is a play or a business greeting.

Sometimes about Jiang Li's scandals, she would feel distressed, but when facing Jiang Li's indifferent explanation, even if she believed it, there was still a pimple in her heart.

The accumulation of small bumps one by one gradually turned into a kind of heart disease, and more and more evolved into a kind of paranoid disease.

Suspicious, uneasy, often suspecting that Jiang Li will do other bad things behind her back, worrying about gains and losses, and fearful.

The above states continued until the pregnancy gave birth to Zuo Zuo. She originally thought that this uneasy state would be alleviated after having Zuo Zuo's reassurance, but in the end, not only did it not relieve, but it even worsened.

Originally, he was only worried that Jiang Li would change his mind, but now he is still worried about this problem, and he even feels inferior to himself, feeling that he has become old and ugly, and takes care of children at home all day, his body is out of shape, unkempt, and does not contact the outside world, as if he is out of touch with the society. out of touch...

Sometimes watching Jiang Li in suits and leather shoes, well-dressed and radiant on TV, she would have a strange illusion in a trance. Is this person really the one who was stroking her cheek tenderly not long ago?

right? !It seems not? !

She hugged Zuo Zuo in her arms, mechanically looked down at herself, a sense of inferiority violently attacked her whole body, from the soles of her feet to the top of her head, there was no place that was not cold.

The tension and panic that seemed to be suddenly on the edge of the cliff were all placed on the thin rope under her feet. She did not dare to move, her legs trembled in the icy cold wind, her eyes glanced down, the whole body People are bad.

Jiang Li was young and promising, she was unemployed at home; Jiang Li was young and talented, but she was old and ugly; Jiang Li was surrounded by flowers and applause, and she lived daily...

The gap is accumulated in the passage of time day by day, Jiang Li has been making progress, but she has been standing still, or even regressing.

This made the gap and differences between the two people who already had a gap even bigger, and she had to face up to the relationship between the two of them.

In fact, she has always been vaguely aware of these problems, but they are like soft nails, and they will not hurt for a while when they are touched, so she turns around and continues to move forward in a different direction.

Originally thought that the two of them could overcome all difficulties and blows together, but it turned out that she was too naive, and the factors of others were only a small part.

The most important thing is herself, she was defeated by her inner inferiority and anxiety before she did anything.

She admits that even with Jiang Huaizuo, the crystallization of love, the bond of love, she still feels that she is getting farther and farther away from Jiang Li, and she is getting more and more unable to grasp him, and she can't see through their relationship more and more.

At that time, she wanted to change but was unable to change. Jiang Li was getting busier and busier, and the time to go home was getting shorter and shorter, and the time they spent together was even more limited.

She wanted to communicate with him, to break up with him and analyze their problems, but sadly, she couldn't find the time, nor could she find a suitable beginning.

Just dragged and dragged until they were forced to separate...