President Ling got slapped in the face again today

He has worked very hard, it's not his fault that he can't satisfy everyone, why is bad luck just refusing to let him go?

In addition to heartache, there is also the honor of being favored alone. What can she do to enjoy all the tenderness and kindness of that man.

She really hated herself at the moment, why did she lose her memory, why did she remember everything, except those three years?

Seeing her sobbing violently, beating her hands and feet, Long Xiaoru was more agitated than herself, just like an old mother sending a white-haired person to a black-haired person to attend a funeral for her son.

She patted He Dongwei's shoulder and said comfortingly: "It's not without drama here. After all, Brother Ah Li's painful experience before I entered was told by Brother Ahu. He loves bragging, he says 100% of the things, only [-]% of them are true."

He Dongwei doesn't think so, she always thinks that things that don't exist can't be fabricated,
What's more, because Ling Li is a life-and-death brother to that Ah Hu whom she has never met, this person will never exaggerate his brother's tragic experience to make the story more interesting.

How bad it is!

Long Xiaoru: "I know brother Ah Li has a lot of grievances in his heart. If possible, I would like to share it with him, but he has already built a high wall in his heart. I used to think that the reason why Mona couldn't pry his heart open , because she is a bad woman herself, it's normal to be unlovable, but when it was my turn, I found that I couldn't get in either. At first, I naively thought that as long as I persevere, I can keep it. Open to see the moon, but until you appear, "

Her tone paused for a while, carefully looked at He Dongwei's face, and said enviously: "Your appearance didn't make me feel in danger, but directly made me despair. It turns out that he doesn't like those Yingying There is a reason for Yanyan, because I have seen the best, but I can't hold other things in my eyes."

"It was the first time I saw him being so patient and gentle with a woman. When he spoke, his brows and eyes were full of smiles, and when he was silent, his eyes were full of light. That was a picture that I couldn't get after six years of hard work, so I'm jealous of you,"

"Although I don't like you anyway, I have to admit that I really can't hate you. I checked you secretly..." When the words came to my lips, Long Xiaoru abruptly cut them off.
She really didn't want to admit that He Dongwei was better than her, better than her, and more worthy of being loved than her. The initial relationship between the two of them was a rival in love, not a bosom friend.

You can't admit it, and you can't admit it even if you kill it.

But Lingli is so important to her, so important that even if he doesn't love her, she doesn't care, because what Lingli saved back then was not only her life, but also her entire growth path,

If it wasn't for Ling Li, she would not only die, but even if she was rescued, it was impossible for an eleven or twelve-year-old girl not to leave a psychological shadow during those days of imprisonment.

But precisely because of the existence of Ling Li, she became the only support in her desperate days. When she was depressed and depressed, she kept straightening her mind, so she could grow normally. She had to remember this feeling for the rest of her life.

"In short, if you dare to hurt brother Ah Li again, I will never let you go. I will curse you and end up worse than Mona."

As soon as Mona was mentioned, He Dongwei's good temper disappeared without a trace, and she became stingy and caressing, and even had her unknown 'maliciousness'.

"What's wrong with her? She has done so many bad things and is still getting away with it. People like her should go to hell!"

In the past, she was very strict in convicting a person. She had to respect all judicial procedures before making a judgment. But now, she has already sentenced Mona to death in her heart, and she can't wait to execute it immediately.

Long Xiaoru: "Go to hell? You don't know it because you've made her cheap. Later, I heard that this woman thought that brother Ah Li was dead at first, and then she went crazy too. Do you know how crazy she is? She actually Dare to use a knife to slash at my stomach, cut off the unborn child, and finally cut off the uterus, and they are still alive, it is really a disaster that will last for thousands of years."

Mona is crazy. She has been crazy since the moment she killed the poisonous scorpion. The stimulation given to her made her have to admit that she lost completely. This man didn't even want to have anything to do with her even if he died. ,
After he dies, everyone will know that he doesn't love her and she killed him, so they shouldn't have children...

She was unwilling to pay for herself, resented the fierce unfeeling, ashamed of herself and the poisonous scorpion, and was afraid of the child's secret being exposed... When everything was backlogged to the point that she couldn't bear it, she brazenly moved... With a knife, he did not hesitate to injure himself and destroy everything with his own hands.

When she regained consciousness for a moment, she couldn't accept the fact that she was defeated, so she would look for a vent and blame Ling Li for all her faults, thus tracing the source back to He Dongwei.

Hatred only breeds evil, and she doesn't want to let go of any of them.

She is not pitiful or pathetic at all, everything is her own fault.

He Dongwei returned to the bed where Ling Li had been lying on that day, leaned on the pillow he had slept on, hugged the quilt he had covered, and tried to feel the breath left by him.

Under the orange table lamp, she remembered the strong but suppressed kiss with him again,

It was also a beautiful moonlight that day, and the deserted moonlight covered everything with a layer of hazy beauty. She thought of his handsome silhouette under the yellow light, deep eyes, slightly protruding beard, and attractive eyes. The pink lips of human crime...

When she hugged him, his chest jumped cheerfully and vigorously, and the embrace was extremely comfortable and warm, as if it was just yesterday,
The only difference is that it is autumn now, the temperature is low, without his warmth, the air is cold.

"Where are you, I miss you so much!" He Dongwei said to himself.

She took out the diary given by Zou Xiaoxiao, and began to understand Cai Ping's past and interpret her feelings for Ling Li.

In her cognition, maternal love is great and selfless. Even a person with a cold personality like Yang Li, because of the responsibility entrusted to her by her status, is more tolerant of her than anyone else. Cai Ping has been living with her own guilt and self-blame. Therefore, she believed that she had a hard time when she left. She absolutely loved her child.

Even if there is only a [-]% possibility, she wants the whole world to know that he is loved and has always been loved.

But in reality, Dou Tou gave her a heart-warming chill.

In Cai Ping's diary, they really recorded a lot of things about Ling Li, how they expected Ling Li to come to this world, what kind of person they hoped he would become in the future, and placed a lot of expectations on him, etc.
However, no matter how strong the feelings are, they cannot withstand the wear and tear of poverty and hardship in reality.

Cai Ping had indeed abandoned him. This was a fact she herself did not admit. Even though she spent countless nights regretting and blaming herself, her abandonment was destined to cause irreversible harm.

She made a mistake, so she didn't dare to ask for forgiveness from the other party.

In her diary, she wrote down her mental journey of being pregnant in October and giving birth to Ling Li, tailoring clothes for him, doing laundry and cooking for him, being a loving mother and filial son, she was happy at that time,
But the bad news of her husband caused her to be shocked, and the gossip from her neighbors made her close to collapse. The pressure of life became the last straw that crushed her, and her face became haggard and thinner than a yellow flower.

She couldn't figure it out, she used to be a dignified, beautiful, enthusiastic and cheerful woman, she didn't have any big ideals, she just wanted to take care of her husband and raise her children in peace and order, and live a good life of her own, but at that time, when she opened her eyes, she had to To beg for a living, one has to bear unreasonable responsibilities from the people around her. In order to beg for food, one has to bow to those who hurt her.
She wants to go back to the past, back to that free and carefree age,
When did all this shit start?
A frightening but unavoidable fact arose in her heart when she gave birth to a child and was widowed.

She was fed up with all of this, she wanted to escape, maybe escape to a place where no one knew her, and she could start again, and once this terrible thought came up, she could no longer be at peace in her heart, once there was something unsatisfactory in reality When something happens, this idea will pop up.

When this happens more and more often, it only takes a malicious introduction and she makes a big mistake.

And the moment she decided to leave was the beginning of their nightmare.

One can't get rid of the inner condemnation, tormented day and night, one is immersed in the fact of being abandoned, becomes gloomy and withdrawn, sensitive and inferior, cautious, afraid to touch feelings easily.

No wonder Mona can always stimulate Ling Li with precision, because she knows that his weakness is the fear of being abandoned.

For Cai Ping's abandonment of Lingli, He Dongwei can't say that she hates it. She understands her difficulty, and understands her collapsed mood because of the pressure of life and gossip. Before she abandoned Lingli, she was considered a good mother. She just, didn't So strong.

Tears wet the pillowcase, He Dongwei closed the diary, hugged the pillow tightly, and tried to absorb some familiar breath from it.

She felt that she was extremely ridiculous. He used to always stick to her fiercely and proactively. He wanted to put his eyes on her and wanted to know her every move. I was thinking about him, how much I had pretended to love him in my heart, and how he should work hard in the next step...

But now, it was her turn to be anxious, she couldn't find him, he began to avoid her, she had a faint fear of being given up.

Some time ago, she only knew that she didn't love Xiao Zeyang, but at this moment she knew very clearly that it was because she loved fierceness too much,
Even if she doesn't remember their past, even if everyone opposes it, even if she shrinks back under the pressure of morality, ignores his enthusiasm, and keeps a distance from him,