As deep as you are as hell

The car was galloping in the night, all kinds of neon lights and red and white railings quickly disappeared in the rearview mirror.The night wind gently brushed my cheeks, but I didn't have time to take a shower, my body was smelly.

But Chu Ting seemed to be covered with a cold pine and cypress fragrance no matter what time it was.

I was thinking wildly, but suddenly I heard Chu Ting casually say: "Miss Sofia, I am actually very happy, I have lived and died with you once."

I turned my face away and pretended not to hear this sentence, but Chu Ting also took the initiative to change the subject: "If Ms. Sofia is hungry, there are some snacks in the snack box at the back. Ms. Sofia can choose by herself."

As if to match his words, my stomach grunted very "competitively".

I didn't squint, my face was still calm.

But out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of Chu Ting's snickering. After thinking about it, I couldn't embarrass myself, so I simply brought the snack box from the back seat, and looked down for my favorite snacks.

Just picked up a pack of dried bamboo shoots, but Chu Ting took it away from my hand calmly: "This is hot and sour, you have a bad stomach, change it."

A trace of ambiguity grew and spread from the cramped space. Could it be that Chu Ting didn't know how pampered these words were?

Or did the speaker have no intention and the listener has leisure?

I found butter bread and ate it, but after I finished eating, I turned my head to the side of the car window, and suddenly found that I could clearly see Chu Ting's figure through the transparent and clean glass window.

I pretended to be admiring the scenery outside the window, but my eyes refused to move away from the figure condensed on the window.

It turns out that now even seeing him one more time has become an extravagant hope... My mind wandered for a moment, and I wondered why Chu Ting was so kind to me if it wasn't for the intention of suspecting that I was Chen Jiao.
Chu Ting glanced at me lightly: "If you are sleepy, you can close your eyes and rest for a while. It will take two hours at the fastest to drive from here to Yancheng. By the way, I haven't asked you why you are so anxious all of a sudden in the middle of the night. Are you going to Yancheng?"

He didn't ask me why I appeared in the courtyard, but now I think of it and I need to ask more.

With a fake cough, I casually brushed off the topic.Feeling that my forehead was still hot, I closed my eyes and took a nap.

It's not that I feel that I can sleep peacefully by staying with Chu Ting, but that I have the ability to protect myself now, so my heart can be safely placed in my stomach.

Chu Ting played the music, and the prelude was so familiar that I could immediately tell what it was.

"Weightless".

weightlessness.

"I don't have depression, I just feel nervous and suffocated when I listen to this song." I said suddenly, and when I opened my eyes, I didn't realize that my eyes were covered with a layer of mist.

Chu Ting smiled apologetically: "I'm sorry, this song has been stored for too long. Once the music library is opened, it will always be this song's turn to play automatically."

He glanced at me quite unexpectedly: "It seems that Ms. Sofia has had contact with this song."

"What about Mr. Chu? What is the purpose of listening to this song?" Normal people will only feel depressed, terrified, flustered, and suffocated when listening to this song, but it can give people who are really anxious and depressed a peaceful sleep.

I had many guesses about Chu Ting's answer, but I never expected him to answer so frankly: "Because I want to know what her world is like."

"At the beginning, I watched her go out of control step by step... Most of it was me who was behind the scenes. After I figured out some things before, I had already lost the opportunity to make up for it." So Chu Ting thought, since he can't let the past Chen Jiao is cured and becomes a normal person again, so can he try to enter her world and truly empathize with her?
What is this... ironic self-touching?
A sneer curled up at the corner of my mouth, and my long nails dug deep into my palm.

"I saw a beautiful sunset yesterday. The sunset engulfed the sky and dyed it with warmth and color. Huoshaoyun was burning and surging, rolling out the picture of the sea of ​​clouds. Looking down from the sky, there are green mountains and tall trees forming a green ocean. , ostentatiously stretched... At that time, I was thinking, it would be great if she was here."

If she is there, fine.

But a few days ago, he lost the last thing Chen Jiao left him.

"I know what you will slander me at this moment, and I also know that you can understand who the 'she' I am pointing at. Ms. Sofia, no matter whether you think I am ridiculous or unreasonable, but please believe me, I will confide in you now All ideas are true.”

The inside of the car became quiet all of a sudden, as if something that did not belong to this space was being torn to pieces bit by bit.

Verbal confession, is it true enough?Is it enough to make up for all the mistakes of the year?

But... that was a living life of the Chen family back then!
I restrained my anger, and pretended to be playful: "You keep saying that you are sorry for her, but I want to listen carefully. What wrong did Mr. Chu do back then?"

"It can't be the old-fashioned plots of TV dramas, family grievances, and the involvement of the previous life?" I added slowly.

Chu Ting squeezed out a wry smile: "Miss Sofia's guess is almost inseparable... In fact, all these years, everyone told me that I should give up. Even you told me with certainty a few nights ago that she Already..." Chu Ting couldn't utter the word "death".

The headlights are like pillars, illuminating the road ahead.

Chu Ting held the steering wheel, but his knuckles were turning white.

Chu Ting still kept a gentle smile on his face, but that smile was like a sponge that was slowly being squeezed dry, gradually becoming dry: "I forgot, Miss Sofia wouldn't want to hear me talk about these things Yes. Tonight I presume."

He was driving intently, not letting his eyes rest on me for a moment.

And I originally wanted to ask him, if he found out that Chen Zemin was not the one who killed his adoptive father, how would he repay Chen Zemin's fresh life?
There is also the matter of the Yu family that was left unsolved a few days ago, how on earth can I get the follow-up of the day from his mouth?

Regardless of whether I am qualified to bring it up, if I start to talk about it, it will give clues.

Chu Ting is such a sensitive person...

I lost the focus of my eyes, but suddenly caught a glimpse of a jewelry box in the storage box next to Chu Ting's hand, which I was all too familiar with.

My eyes stayed on the jewelry box for a while, then moved away quietly.

Chu Ting cut the song, which is "you are beautiful".I didn't speak any more, and slowly fell asleep leaning on the seat.

But for some reason, the end of my eyes felt cool, I thought, I should just be too worried about my mother.

That's all.

When I arrived in Yancheng, as soon as the car found a parking space and parked, I slowly woke up and checked the time on my watch. It was only three o'clock in the morning.

The streets are deserted and deserted, and many shops have already closed down, leaving only the bright neon signs guarding the city day and night.

I installed positioning on my mother's mobile phone. If something happens to my mother, the emergency alarm on the software will automatically activate.

And I didn't transfer Li Liang back to City A, and let her take care of her mother in "background".

But Li Liang hasn't called me until now, so it seems that there is nothing serious about my mother.

I checked my mother's location on my mobile phone, and found that the little red dot on the map was not far from my current location, and finally felt at ease for a moment.

Chu Ting took off his seat belt and opened the car door for me in a gentlemanly manner.

But when I met his eyes, I saw that there seemed to be a thin layer of emotion hidden in his eyes, but I still couldn't see clearly.

I didn't have anything to say goodbye, so I nodded to Chu Ting as thanks and goodbye.

It's just that when I walked forward with a limp, Chu Ting obviously wanted to say something to me, but he hesitated to speak, and the entanglement stopped on his lips.

I walked slowly towards the deserted street, and for some reason I suddenly thought of Borges' "What Can I Use to Keep You".But in the next second, I was suddenly hugged into a warm embrace, and the fitting figure and posture were coated with tender and gentle colors.

At that moment, my brain seemed to shut down, the gears were rusted and stuck, and they could no longer turn.

What is the meaning of the hug Chu Ting gave me at this moment?
Because he sent me back to Yancheng in the middle of the night, he thought I would be grateful to him and trampled on the bottom line that I had stuck to for so many years?

"I know who you are going to find, and I know exactly what software she has installed on her phone... There have been too many overlapping parts. I'm sorry, I can no longer deceive myself."

My heart is like falling into a deep lake.

No wonder, no wonder, on the day when my mother's old illness broke out, when he drove past me quickly, he turned his head and glanced at my figure frequently; when he saw me in the courtyard, there was not much surprise in his eyes.

Looking back at this scene that I directed and acted myself, I found that it was full of flaws.

Chu Ting sees through everything, and has been acting with me for so long.

Or maybe, the property certificate of the courtyard house was the best proof he used to test me from the beginning.

Sensing that my body became stiff for a moment, Chu Ting was at a loss for what to do, and let me push him away without any effort.

I thought I could pretend to be calm at this moment, and there would be no flaws in my expression.But through the glass window, I clearly saw the anger and resentment in my eyes.

"Chu Ting, is it fun to play tricks on me?" Since I met him, I don't know how many times I have asked him this question, and now there is another showdown, but what about Chu Ting's reaction?
"Looking at me acting as Sofia, don't you think it's really funny?"

My self-righteous means are nothing in his eyes, but he sees me dancing with a mask and shackles, bound into a cocoon.

Chu Ting avoided my gaze, and the dots of light in his eyes dimmed: "Chen Jiao, can we have a good talk?"

How long and how many things have passed between us, we want to untie the tight knot on the rope of fate, but each other finds it impossible to start.

"How is my mother now?" Before negotiating with Chu Ting, I must first ensure the safety of my mother.

"She lives in a hotel now, and Cheng Xunsheng is with her... Don't worry, Cheng Xunsheng has known your mother for four years and will take good care of your mother. If you are worried, This is a photo..." Chu Ting anxiously took out his phone and showed me the photo.