seek her

No matter what the doctor asked, he couldn't open his mouth. How could he open his mouth after everything he had experienced.

Tell the doctor that he took revenge on the wrong person, united with another man, and completely ruined a woman?
Tell the doctor, how did he go to prison, and how did he lose a layer of skin in prison?

Or tell the doctor how he was stepped on his face, forced to kneel down, and witnessed the process of his beloved woman being "forced to expose"?

Or tell the doctor that the love of his life came back from the dead and returned to him, becoming another man's most powerful protective color, and he experienced a ridiculous farce, no one paid for this farce, but he must end ?

The ending means giving Jinqiao peace and being with her wholeheartedly.

If it doesn't end, it will mean another bloodbath. It can't guarantee Jin Qiao's future stability, or even guarantee that this white paper will be painted with realistic colors. He doesn't want to drag Jin Qiao into the abyss of pain.

Although Dong Ge couldn't see anything unusual about Song Sipu, he more or less knew that he was having a bad time, so he asked him to come out for a drink and talked about what happened in the prison. Dong Ge said with a smile, "If you know, I can meet you For a friend like you, I'll go in and squat down and wait for you as soon as I commit a crime."

Song Sipu raised his eyebrows slightly and picked up his wine glass.

"Will Ji Linjiang still do it?" Dong Ge said, "Letting this kind of gentle scum live an extra minute is a blasphemy against life."

Song Sipu said nothing.

Brother Dong said again, "Shall I help you find out about Min Jingshu's whereabouts?"

Song Sipu took a sip of wine slowly, but still did not answer.

Brother Dong slapped his thigh anxiously, "You are talking! I'm dying of anxiety!"

"Slowly." Song Sipu still used these two words.

"You've been schizophrenic all day, are you schizophrenic!" Brother Dong stretched out his hand to touch his forehead, "You must be mad! In the morning, you have a face that punishes the nine clans, and in the evening, you pardon the world. What are you doing?" This is it! If you want to do it, do it quickly! Mother-in-law and mother are like a woman! I feel aggrieved for you! What Ji Linjiang did, that is what a horse-riding person did? I have been in the gang for so many years, what is wrong with me? I've never seen it! I've never seen him so perverted! Fuck him!"

Song Sipu tilted his head slightly to avoid Dong Ge's touch.

"Si Pu, I think it's time to let it out, to let it go, don't hold it in, you've got something wrong with it." Brother Dong poured him a drink, "Look at a lot of mental illnesses, they're all caused by holding them in. See who's upset, you can scold them. Fuck whoever doesn't like it! It's that simple! When you just got out of prison a while ago, didn't you do it well? Hey! Isn't it just being played by someone? That Ji Linjiang played with you, you can play him too! Our family has a big career, and we are afraid of what he will do! Last time, he almost got his father done!" Brother Dong hesitated, "You didn't want to do it for Min Jingshu, did you?"

The corners of Song Sipu's lips pressed slightly.

Brother Dong's words were like a series of cannonballs, all the spitting came out.

Song Sipu drank with deep thoughts, and didn't listen to Dong Ge's words at all. He was almost drunk, he pressed a few banknotes under the glass, got up slightly staggering, "Let's go."

Returning home drunk, Lu Jinqiao just opened the door when Song Sipu's staggered body pressed up like a mountain. Unable to bear his strength, Lu Jinqiao took a few steps back and unintentionally touched the light switch at the door with his arm, and fell to the ground. land.

Song Sipu fell on her body, "Jin Qiao..."

The living room was instantly dark, the moonlight was seductive, and a clear light poured in through the window, the furniture seemed to be plated with a layer of silver, and it was hazy black.

Lu Jinqiao asked: Have you been drinking?
Song Sipu pinched her face precisely and kissed her, the turbulent emotions covered her so unexpectedly, there was no sign of passion at all.

Lu Jinqiao was slightly frightened, panicked for a moment, and then obeyed again. She had already been mentally prepared for this moment, but she didn't expect it to come so soon. She arched her body nervously and hugged him tremblingly. In her memory, Si Pu never He doesn't smoke or drink, but when they reunite three years later, he can hardly leave his cigarettes. Does he even drink so much?This is how much wine he drank to become so drunk.

His rough palm pressed against the skin under her clothes, his breath was both familiar and unfamiliar, Lu Jinqiao stretched her body, and cooperated with him clumsily and greenly.

Song Sipu's movements were a little rough, probably because the belt on Lu Jinqiao's dress was knotted, and the moment he tore off the dress, the shaking live images in his mind suddenly appeared in front of him, and he stopped his movements suddenly, and he didn't move for a long time , the heart demon split in the chest cavity, there was no response...the body did not respond!
Lu Jinqiao sat up tremblingly: Si Pu... what's wrong...

Song Sipu's restrained face was icy, his big palm pressed on Lu Jinqiao's face, covering her face that provoked his sensitive nerves, the strong hatred almost swallowed his reason, he couldn't do it, forget it No, I can't write off what I've experienced!If he continues like this, he will go completely insane!

"I'm sorry." Song Sipu staggered to his feet, panting heavily. He tried to go back to the past with Jinqiao, tried to be himself before, constantly giving himself psychological hints, constant self-comfort, self-examination, and self-salvation , struggling with himself, blaming everything that happened on his own stupidity, trying to suppress the anger accumulated in his heart with reflective psychological hints, he tried for so many days, endured for so many days, and finally couldn't bear it anymore.

Thinking of Ji Linjiang's carefree appearance at this moment, he became mad with hatred, and couldn't wait to shoot him and tear him apart.

Contradictions and divisions, hatred and gloomyness, attacks and forbearance.

Lu Jinqiao's tears fell instantly. She didn't understand why he said sorry, but her intuition told her that this was not a good thing. He seemed to have made a certain choice, a choice that terrified her. She hugged him tightly. He burst into tears: Si Pu, what happened to you.

Her tears fell drop by drop on his chest, almost scalding him, he said he would not let her cry.

Song Sipu remained indifferent.

If she chooses revenge, she will not be able to give Jinqiao the life she wants.

Choosing Jinqiao, he couldn't overcome his inner demons.

He wandered on the edge of good and evil, between trust and lies, struggled for so long, and finally, he chose the latter.

He said, "It's okay, I scared you."

Lu Jinqiao shook her head and pressed her forehead against his chest, feeling that he was different. Before, he treated her wholeheartedly, loved her unreservedly, never concealed anything from her, treated each other honestly, and respected each other. Personal wishes have never violated the will of the other party.She can fill his heart by herself, but now, there seems to be something else in his heart, the space left for her has been compressed, she is no longer the only one in his world, he was taken away by something Mostly.

Lu Jinqiao seemed to remember something, ran into the room, and took out a bottle of medicine: Si Pu, for your medicine, I'll make you hangover soup.

It was a bottle of sedative medicine. She accidentally found it in a drawer. It seemed that Si Pu took it back two days ago. Lu Jinqiao was curious why Si Pu took this. During the three years of parting from Si Pu, some bad things happened to him.

The flustered mood always eased the next day, she asked Si Pu: Has anything happened to you in these years?

Song Sipu understated, "The shopping mall is like a battlefield, without the assistance of grandpa, the pressure is a bit heavy."

Lu Jinqiao looked at him frankly, his expression was as calm as ever, and she gestured lightly: I hope we can still treat each other honestly.

Song Sipu let out a "huh".

Lu Jinqiao took out the project proposal of the "Morning Light Project" and gently said: Si Pu, I recently had a new idea for the Morning Light Project that we formulated together before, and I have added it into it. Besides teaching there, I also want to help them To get rid of poverty, let me list a few of the poorest areas in the country, where children can't afford to eat.

She frowned slightly, and handed the plan to Song Sipu.

Song Sipu took a look at it and said it was very good. He glanced at ten lines and put forward some suggestions, "One thing at a time, first solve the problem of these children's schooling, and establish other projects separately."

Seeing this, Lu Jinqiao's smile spread: I'll go and write out the plan!
She loves writing very much. When writing, the whole person calms down and concentrates. In order to practice handwriting as beautiful as Si Pu, she can sit upright by the window and write with a brush all morning, and then change the pen Words, circular exercise wrist strength.

The headquarters called and asked Song Sipu to attend the meeting. During the whole meeting, he seemed a little distracted. After the meeting, he still sat in his original position, loosened his neckline, and was still irritable.

That splitting emotion was stirring in his chest again.

Contradictions, hesitation, hesitation, unwillingness, irresistibility, and fear of Jin Qiao's emotions.

He fumbled in his pocket, but didn't take the sedative.

Then he glanced at Brother Dong who was standing aside, and Brother Dong gave him a cigarette understandingly, threw the lighter to him, and joked: "Zhenggong is back, I don't dare to smoke anymore."

Song Sipu had a cigarette in his mouth, frowned and lit the fire. The irritating sensation of the smoking cigarette rushed into his internal organs, dispelling the condensed stagnation in his body. Nicotine has the effect of calming the nerves, and he seemed to have made up his mind. He said, "Check it out." Where is Cha Min Jingshu?"

Brother Dong was startled, "You..."

"She should know a lot about Ji Linjiang, maybe she has something in her hand." Song Sipu said without emotion, "Ji Linjiang has been happy for too long."

"Did you decide to fuck him?" Brother Dong was overjoyed, "Isn't he a mother-in-law?"

Song Sipu didn't say a word, his brows were full of unresolved knots, if Ji Linjiang, a bastard, was not killed, he would never be able to get over this hurdle in his life!Everything he has experienced will be returned to him intact!

There are always a lot of rainstorms in Haigang City in summer. When I was growing up here, this season is accompanied by ups and downs every year. Those dense rains are like dense arrows wrapped in darkness, covering the sky and covering the earth. Ji Linjiang is wearing black and white In a nightgown with vertical stripes, he is sitting on the sofa looking at the K-line chart of the stock market displayed on the IPad, with an infusion bottle hanging beside him. The family's private doctor and nurse are sitting in front of the computer to check the data.