seek her

Seeing her coming back, the two rushed forward.

Jing Shu slipped at the door and almost fell, she looked relaxed and said with a smile, "Where's Xiao Xian?"

"I have to go to school tomorrow morning, Miss Xian is already asleep." Guo Li said.

Laocheng saw the wound on her neck, and hurried to get her a medicine box. The wound was not deep, but the skin was broken. Laocheng helped her deal with it, worried, "Are there any other wounds?"

Jing Shu said, "No, you guys should go to bed early, I will go out to do errands in the future, don't wait for me so late, how old am I, am I afraid of losing it?" She didn't want to say more, walked into the bedroom, and saw Xiaoxian was sleeping on her bed.

Xu was worried about disturbing Xiao Xian's sleep, so Jing Shu didn't turn on the light, walked into the room softly, cleaned up briefly and went to bed.

Xiaoxian leaned over from the bed and hugged her behind, whispering, "Sister..."

"Aren't you asleep yet?" Jing Shu gently held her hand in his palm, and suddenly found that Xiaoxian's whole body was hot, Jing Shu was slightly startled, and hurriedly touched Tan Xiaoxian's forehead, "Do you have a fever?"

Jing Shu hurriedly got out of bed, took a thermometer and tested it for Xiao Xian, "Low fever, have you taken your medicine yet?"

Xiaoxian shook her head.

Jing Shu wanted to take her to the hospital, but Xiaoxian shook her head, "Sister, I'm fine, I'm making a snowman in the yard at dinner time, it's a bit cold, I'll be fine after a night of sleep, I don't want to move, don't take me to the hospital, I hate that place." She insisted on refusing to go to the hospital.

Jing Shu ran downstairs, took out anti-inflammatory drugs and antipyretics from the medicine box, and hurried upstairs with a water glass, "Take some medicine first, if it doesn't work, go to the hospital for an examination."

Xiaoxian covered herself in bed until her face turned red, and she drank the medicine. She hugged Jingshu's waist affectionately, put her head in her arms, and whispered, "You didn't come back, I'm afraid... sleep No... I'm so scared, so scared..."

"What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid you won't come back... I'm afraid I'm alone... Sister, I'm only left with you..."

Xiaoxian's tears quietly wet Jingshu's clothes, and she tightly hugged Jingshu's waist, deeply attached and dependent, so helpless and pitiful.

Jing Shu's tense and cold heart suddenly softened and relaxed, her heart was inexplicably sore, she tightly held Xiaoxian's hand and rubbed it gently, the sadness spread, thinking about it carefully, since the accident at home, her heart has been disturbed and entangled , taking care of family affairs flawlessly, and spending less time with Xiaoxian, caring too little for Xiaoxian, and failing to fulfill her elder sister's responsibility.

Perhaps too many things have happened, Jingshu's heart seems to be locked, except for the child who accompanied her through the painful and difficult time, her heart rejects everything outside, resists everything outside, and cannot To accept normally, always keep a safe distance from others, even in the face of Xiao Xian, Jing Shu still has obstacles and distances that cannot be overcome.

She can't do anything about her own changes, she can't do anything about the lock in her heart, she has no way to unlock it, but she has to work hard to give the best state to her family, the elder father is a brother, and the elder sister is a mother, she can't lock it For her own, she still has a lot of children to take care of. The reality does not allow her to back down, and she will not be given a chance to back down. Even though she is a patient herself, she is also the head of the family. So many people support her. With her in mind, she needs to heal herself before she can heal others.

She couldn't let her brother's tragedy repeat itself, and suddenly thinking of her brother, Jing Shu couldn't help but burst into tears, and hugged Xiao Xian into her arms. If she had realized this earlier, her brother might not have died.

"I'm so scared..." Xiaoxian sobbed, "I lost my father and brother, sister, I can't lose you again."

Jing Shu patted her on the back lightly, "Xiaoxian is not afraid, from now on my sister will not stay out all night, and will spend a lot of time with you, and tomorrow my sister will accompany you to school." She sincerely said, "Xiaoxian, study hard, you You will have a better life than your sister, as long as you strive hard, my sister will try her best to create a better life for you."

She gently caressed Xiaoxian's face that resembled her girlhood, a little envious and sore, "You don't know how much my sister envies you, you can still study, and you can choose your own life, what a wonderful thing, you It's the best time of your life, you know."

Xiaoxian shook her head, "Sister, I'm the one who envies you."

"Why do you envy me?" Jing Shu was puzzled.

Xiaoxian said, "Many people love you, Mr. Ji loves you, brother Xiaojin also likes you, even a villain like Song Sipu lived with my sister for a while, they are all good-looking, and they all hang around my sister , I am so envious, even Uncle Cheng and Uncle Guo listen to you."

Jing Shu was dazed and silent in the dark, did Xiao Xian think so?How could those men love her?Adolescent children only see the bewitching and ambiguous traces on the surface, and are dazzled by those superficial auras, but they cannot see the cruelty behind the glitz, such cruel fighting, in Xiaoxian's eyes, It is indeed an enviable love.

The preaching that Jing Shu blurted out stuck in her throat, reprimanding had no effect on Xiao Xian, she and Xiao Xian did not communicate on the same channel, the two seemed to have a generation gap and could not understand each other.

Xiaoxian said in a low voice, "When my stepmother absconded with the money, she took me abroad. They eat hot and spicy food, and let me be their servant. I have to do housework and help her take care of that naughty illegitimate child. My stepmother's younger brother beat me and scolded me at every turn. Later, they squandered all their money, lost all their money in gambling, and were chased by their enemies. The whole family took me to hide everywhere. In the end, we were found to have no identity, and we were arrested and locked up for a long time, saying that we would be deported, but there was no movement, maybe I was easier to bully, they always bullied me and beat me."

"Later, Mr. Ji found me, healed my wound, and gave me a good life. The wound on my body recovered, and he brought me back to see you." Xiaoxian said, "Without him, we would meet again."

Jing Shu listened quietly, hugged her tightly, reached out and touched her forehead, as if her fever had subsided a little, "You have suffered, my sister didn't protect you well."

Xiao Xian looked up at Jing Shu, "Sister, does it look like when I was a child now, when you were a child you hugged me to sleep and told me stories."

Jing Shu smiled palely.

Xiaoxian looked at Jing Shu's face, and said softly, "I really envy you, so many handsome guys surround you." She twisted her long hair and said to herself, "Mr. Ji is very handsome. Shui Ling is beautiful, Song Sipu is handsome and handsome, Jin Yi is beautiful, the three of them are different, if it were me, I would prefer to choose Mr. Ji, what a good personality, Song Sipu always has a cold and smelly face His face is as bad as his, brother Jin Yi's personality is too common, like a brother next door, sister, if it didn't happen to our family..."

Before she finished speaking, Jing Shu really didn't want to hear her words that made her extremely resistant and heart-wrenching. Even if the names of Ji Linjiang and Song Sipu were heard, they still felt ironic. Jing Shu politely interrupted her Huaichun speech. Words, "Xiaoxian, things have already happened, there is no if, just like the topic I have told you countless times, if we forgive them, we will be sorry to Dad and brother."

Xiaoxian said, "Why am I not as resentful as you are? The more time passes, the more I let go. My brother and I have the same attitude. Let the past be over. Maybe Mr. Ji was at fault, but Mr. Ji also released his brother from prison on bail." You came out, and you saved me, blocked the bullet for you, and saved your life." Her voice was very soft and timid, "Besides, Dad jumped off the building by himself, not Mr. Ji. The reason is that Song Sipu suddenly withdrew the capital, our family’s capital chain was broken, and the stepmother ran away with the family property, so Dad jumped, right? Sister, Song Sipu shouldn’t have withdrawn the capital.”

Her words were full of needles, so inappropriate, Jing Shu's hands and feet were cold, and he seemed to have no strength to refute, but the strong sisterhood suddenly became tense because of Xiao Xian's pressing step by step.

"Sister, I know why you are different from us." Xiaoxian hugged her waist and sniffed her body, "Because Song Sipu let several men bully you, you can't forget it, so you can't let go , but Mr. Ji doesn't mind that you have been bullied, he doesn't mind, why should you mind?"

Xiaoxian proceeded step by step, "You resent them, why do you want our whole family to resent with you? I don't understand, you are you, I am me, you resent, I don't resent, I want to let go of the past, live a good life, I don't Imagine living in the dark like you. You have been so competitive since you were a child, but my brother and I love peace. My father and brother definitely don’t want us to avenge them. What kind of revenge can we two girls have? In the end, we suffer We, brother, want us to let go of the past and live happily, sister, don’t force me anymore, I want to live freely, and don’t want to live in your shadow.”

Jing Shu suddenly looked down at Xiao Xian.

Xiaoxian didn't dare to look at her, and hid her face in her arms.

Jing Shu lay down to sleep without saying a word, with her back turned to her, the words Xiaoxian said seemed to be pierced by invisible needles in her heart, her heart ached so much, she couldn't stop crying, she tossed and turned all night, in the early morning , she suddenly sat up, cried and said, "Min Jingxian, do you still have a conscience! I am your sister! When did I let you resent with me? You study hard, read your books, I will let you What did you do? What kind of thoughts did you put in to say those words?"

When she was bullied by Ji Linjiang just now, she had never cried so brokenly, her heart was trembling and dripping blood, she was angry and hurt, "Do you still think of me as your sister? Doesn't your conscience ache when you say this? I am willing Is this so? Do I want to live such a life? Who is your heart on!"

Xiaoxian hid under the blanket and dared not make a sound.

At three o'clock in the morning, Jing Shu put on her clothes, took her mobile phone, and ran out. She thought she was invulnerable to all poisons, but her heart was broken by Xiao Xian's words. It was snowing heavily outside. I just feel that she can't breathe in the heated house, and there is a kind of pain that can't face the reality, and I just want her to escape.

The street lights stretched down from the middle of the mountain, and the group of cute villas stood in the mountain snow. In the heavy snow, she walked down the mountain with one foot deep and one foot shallow, striding her legs across the knee-high snow, turning around a At the bend of the mountain, I saw a white car parked halfway up the mountain. The window was open, and Ji Linjiang's fair and calm face could be vaguely seen. He seemed to have parked the car here after returning from a nightclub without showing his face, She is closer to the child.

It seemed that he didn't expect to see Jing Shu's figure walking out of the heavy snow while he was meditating. Ji Linjiang's eyes flashed, and his pale face instantly had a warm luster.