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The night was very quiet, the moon came out of the dark clouds, and put on a white gauze for the stars guarding it, demure and serene, gentle and generous.

There are thousands of lights in the community, and each household has a story of each household.

Jian Li's heartbeat hit Yan Jinbai Wei'an's back through her pajamas like the tide of the sea. For some reason, both of them felt the spring breeze in this cold night, and their bodies were warm.

"Jian Li." Yan Jinbai held her onion-like hand, "I'm here, don't be afraid."

At night, Jian Li is always very fragile and likes to act like a baby. Yan Jinbai didn't figure out the pattern until today, moved her hand away, sat on the side of the bed and looked at him, "Why am I still afraid here?"

"Maybe. I'm really sick." Jian Li touched her heartbeat, "It can't stop, it feels like it's always moving."

Yan Jinbai put his hand in front of her again because of his professionalism, "Whether it's hyperplasia or heart palpitations, it needs to be treated."

After confirming the agreement in Jian Li's eyes, she unbuttoned the three buttons of Jian Li's pajamas. Jian Li put her hand on her lap and held it gently. Care, Jian Li's mood is delicate.

"The lump hasn't gone away. I'm still sick. When did you stop taking the medicine?" Soon, Yan Jinbai helped her button up her clothes.

"The day before yesterday." Jian Li lowered her head inexplicably aggrieved.
"Where is the medicine?" Yan Jinbai patted her head, it was not easy to get into her heart, "Mammary gland hyperplasia is mainly a chronic breast disease caused by endocrine disorders in the human body. It is usually related to emotions, stress , heredity, living environment, and daily life are also related to a certain extent. So it is easy to relapse, so I go to get medicine."

When I returned home from what happened the day before yesterday to today, the scars in my heart that no one knew were uncovered and bled fiercely.

Perhaps everyone has hidden wounds that no one knows about, but why is she the only one who is afraid and only she?
Is it because she has too little heart and has seen too few things that she is tortured by this shit again and again!
That's why I chose to be a reporter because I want to see the most real life in the world. Unfortunately, from the perspective of outsiders, every family and everyone's affairs are so simple, there is no need for them to collapse like that, and there is no need for her. Preoccupied.

Watching Jian Li swallow the medicine, "I'll go to the hospital again tomorrow to see if it's palpitations. Palpitations are a kind of uncomfortable feeling when people feel the heartbeat subjectively. Everyone will describe it as tiredness, palpitation, etc. , Is it because you can't sleep because of panic?"

"Yeah." Jian Li clutched the sheet in her hand, "But it's only occasionally, maybe just a few days in a month, and it's fine when it passes."

I don't want Yan Jinbai to worry about her anymore, Jian Li's eyes light up and she puts out a smiling face, her heart is still beating in pain, she doesn't want him here anymore, she doesn't want her to see her fragile self, strong and warm Wearing the mask on his face again, he straightened his back as he spoke, "Just for a while, look, it's all right now."

Yan Jinbai put her in his arms, "Plop, plop!" His heart was still beating violently, hitting Yan Jinbai's chest one after another, "Is there anything else to argue about?"

On Jian Li's face, there was nothing to love.

"Talking indiscriminately in front of the doctor will delay the condition." Yan Jinbai feels her heartbeat, no wonder she always sees dark circles in her eyes. She always thought it was busy, but now she realizes that she is "scared" and can't sleep .

"It's not fear this time." Jian Li really didn't want him to worry, she took a deep breath and said with a relaxed expression, she almost wrote the sincerity on her face, "This time it's a heartbeat, really!"

There are double silk screens in the heart, and thousands of knots in the heart.

If ambiguity has a taste, it fills the house now.

Yan Jinbai looked at him expressionlessly, and suddenly said, "Jian Li." As if she couldn't say anything, and suddenly called her full name, Jian Li was embarrassed and dared not meet his eyes.

Yan Jinbai called again, "Jian Li."

"Here." Every time he was serious, Jian Li knew she was going to lose.

Because I like it, I am afraid. The cold sense of distance makes Jianli feel that the temperature in the room is a few degrees colder. It is inexplicably cold that the two of them are so close.

But because of love, the heart is so far apart.

Yan Jinbai, I really don't want you to look vulnerable, I want you to be happy when I'm with you, not a Jianli who is so fragile that nothing is good.

Yan Jinbai swallowed what he wanted to say, and sat next to Jian Li, the bed shook slightly, "Doctor Yan"

"Jian Li, don't you know that your eyes are not deceiving?" Yan Jinbai turned to look at her, "Your eyes say, no! Want! Let! Me! Go!"

Jian Li closed her eyes, she was so close, she couldn't be fooled, but unfortunately she couldn't arm her eyes, no matter how she pretended to be, she still wanted to be with him.

"I..." Jian Li buried her head on her knees, "I actually"

I actually hate myself like this, Jian Li cursed in her heart, this emotion always appears inexplicably, and now it is more and more frequent, the last thing I want is to be seen by you.

But I really want to be seen by you, greedy for the warmth of your concern, and want your indifferent and sweet concern.

"Cardiac neurosis is a kind of systemic neurosis. Its scientific name is the manifestation of autonomic dysfunction in the heart and blood system. Its symptoms are various. The most common subjective symptoms are palpitations, shortness of breath, and shortness of breath. Pain in the area and general fatigue, etc., as well as agitation, insomnia, sweating, trembling, dizziness, and dreaminess.” Yan Jinbai leaned against the pillow, “It’s 57:[-] p.m., do you still want to suffer from insomnia?”

"But we..." Jian Li didn't want him to think that she was a casual person, although she was indeed too casual in front of Yan Jinbai, because liking and love had no bottom line, "Doctor Yan, I'm not a casual person."

Yan Jinbai lowered his head and smiled slightly, finally there was an expression on that ice cube face, the cautiousness in Jian Li's eyes disappeared and turned into joy, Yan Jinbai saw it in his eyes, and always put other people's feelings first one?

Always put me first?

It turns out that I want you to be happy, as long as I laugh.

Jian Li, do you know how often your eyes betray your sincerity?Do you know that likes are written in the eyes, and care is hidden in the expression, how touching it is?

Because I like you too, seeing such a response, I can only... like you more.

"Well, you can make a promise with your body, I deeply remember it in my mind." Yan Jinbai moved the quilt to her body, "It's the first time I've heard such an explicit confession in 27 years."

Jian Li really hates herself for being straightforward at the beginning, "No, no, I'm not casual in front of others." Lowering her voice, "Because I like you so much, I want you to impress me, so just slipped my mouth"

Yan Jinbai gave a muffled hum, and lay on the bed holding her neck, "Although the disease is not life-threatening, it has good and bad conditions and protracted recovery. In severe cases, it is even impossible to live and work normally, which makes the patient full. Suffer, let me see if you still have insomnia tonight."

PS: Dr. Yan Weibo: I feel sorry for you.