if love is invisible

Han Feishen was so talented that he openly recalled Chen Luoluo in the letter!

[I used to think that Chen Luoluo was the best woman in the world. She was gentle and caring, and she was what I said. Now that I think about it, she is not so gentle and caring. She is just a meat sucker waiting to pounce on me at any time. The poisonous snake of my blood is my own stupidity, thinking that it is true love, thus hurting the person who really loves me. 】

[Xiaoyu, some time ago Yu Qingmei gave me your diary in exchange for giving them a chance to meet Chen Luoluo, sorry, I agreed without asking for your opinion, and I went too. 】

Very good, sneak a peek at old lovers!
Chen Mian gritted his teeth.

[It can be seen that she is completely crazy, yelling at me, shouting at me 'sister, I'm sorry, I was wrong', she also said that she had a son who was accidentally killed by her, and that child could live of.But I don't feel sorry for her. 】

[As long as I think of the scene of you and Xueer lying in front of me covered in blood, I can't wait to kill her.Xiaoyu, I hate her, I also hate myself, I hate my ego and arrogance, the current tragedy in our family is all caused by me. 】

【…】

[Xiaoyu, today I couldn’t pass a scene after filming it ten times. The whole crew was going crazy. Nie Ning kept explaining the scene to me to find the reason. Zhou Bing and Ye Tianye kept talking to me. The lines helped me adjust my state, but I just couldn't help it, because I couldn't help it, say I love you to other women. 】

[Xiaoyu, I love you. 】

……

Han Feishen wrote more than a dozen pages, and it took Chen Mian half an hour to finish reading. At the end of the letter, he didn't know when he came over to take a photo of the two of them while she was asleep. On the photo She faced him with closed eyes, the corners of her lips were slightly raised, and he made a V to the camera.

On the back of the photo, one stroke at a time wrote: The happiest moment.

Holding the photo, Chen Mian didn't feel moved, she only felt... offended.

When she finally put it down completely and was unprepared, he uncovered her scars and poked them one after another, Chen Luoluo, Yu Qingmei, Chen Rongsheng, Xueer, Mom and Dad, which one was not in her heart trauma?But he mentioned it all at once!
Did he ever wonder what would happen to her after reading this letter?

He thought she would hold the letter and cry bitterly, saying Han Feichen, thank you for taking time out of your busy schedule to write to me, thank you for liking me, thank you for loving me?
Chen Mian stuffed the letter into the envelope and smiled faintly.

Squeezing the letter into the car, Ah Shui asked: "Now Xinxing Avenue is a little traffic jam, Jiangbin Road is very smooth, why don't we take Jiangbin Road? We can get to the set in an hour at most."

Chen Mian buckled up his seat belt and said softly, "Go back to Seven Star Mountain."

It was only then that Ah Shui noticed that her expression was not right. He didn't dare to ask, so he started the car quickly.

When passing by an empty road, Chen Mian asked Ah Shui to stop, and she threw the letter into the trash can.

The car left quickly, and soon, a sanitation worker came to clean up the trash can, and the child who looked like a middle school student next to her also helped. When he saw the letter, the student opened it curiously.

And this, Chen Mian didn't know about it, she returned to Qixing Mountain soon, went into the study, and didn't come out until dinner.

Wen Zhen and Song Xigu also came back, they were discussing the handover of work, Chen Mian was listening quietly at the side, and when they were almost done discussing, Chen Mian asked: "Brother, how is your contact with the hospital?" Sample?"

Song Xigu was a little sad: "I haven't contacted yet."

What happened to his predecessors and colleagues made him feel sad. He was not sure whether he would think of their experiences when treating a patient, so he dared not do his best, or when he encountered a curable but risky disease, Will he back down.

Re-establishing trust is a long and difficult process. Self-persuasion is only the first stage. After successfully convincing himself, there is a more difficult road waiting for him to go.

Chen Mian was silent, she knew something like trust, she understood Song Xigu's uneasiness too well.

He said: "Brother, no matter what your choice is, as long as you think it is your own final choice, I will support you."

Song Xi Gu hummed, turned his head away, his eyes were a little red.

The brothers and sisters went to work separately.

Chen Mian felt that she was in a restless mood, so she listened to the music for a while, and when she fell asleep, Han Feichen called. She wanted to answer it, but she ignored the letter that made her feel strongly uncomfortable. , let it ring until he hung up, Han Feishen called five or six times in a row, but Chen Mian didn't answer.

She stared at the three words 'Han Feishen' on the screen of the phone and became dazed.

A few minutes later, the phone rang again. It was still Han Feichen, who seemed to keep calling if she didn't answer it. Chen Mian picked it up after a thought: "Hello?"

"Xiaoyu, are you... sleeping?"

"Well, sleeping."

"That's all right."

Chen Mian groaned, but didn't ask any further questions.

Just as he was about to hang up the phone, Han Feishen hurriedly called out: "Xiaoyu, have you read the letter I wrote to you?"

Chen Mian paused, and Han Feishen quickly said: "The letter was picked up by someone else and sent to the Internet. I am now contacting people to get that letter back—"

"No need."

Chen Mian didn't ask what impact the posting of the letter had on the Internet, but he also knew it would be a good thing, otherwise he wouldn't have called her several times in a hurry, just to ask her if she had read the letter , "No matter how insulting or slandering others are, it won't affect me."

"I just hope that you will pay more attention when you express your emotions next time. Maybe you want others to know that you have a good literary talent or have a lot of emotions. Although these insults can't affect me, I don't have to bear them, and I don't need to bear them." There is no need to pay for your impulse."

"Han Feishen, do you think writing to me, confessing to me, sending me flowers or declaring sovereignty can make me happy, before you do these things, shouldn't you first find out if I am real? need."

She's about to hang up the phone.

Han Feishen called her to stop: "Xiaoyu, wait, don't hang up yet!"

He said solemnly: "Do you mean that you don't really care whether I care about you?"

Chen Mian pursed her lips and didn't answer.

The other party was silent for a while, then said dejectedly: "I see."

"I promise I won't do such stupid things again, Xiaoyu, I won't burden you anymore. I'm sorry." After finishing speaking, he hung up the phone, afraid of hearing more decisive words from Chen Mian.

Chen Mian accepted him not because she wanted to get back together with him or to start over with him, but because he was Bao'er's father and she might need a man.

Other than that, there was nothing else. Only now did Han Feishen realize that she had no intention of responding to his enthusiasm.

He thought he had seen the light and hope, but because of a self-righteous act of his, he understood his true situation.

He still couldn't get into her heart.

Hanging up the phone, Han Feishen was holding his phone, and the assistant director Aman was calling him to prepare for the next scene. Just as Han Feishen was about to go, a group of reporters suddenly came at the door of the crew.