After the divorce, I abused my ex-husband thousands of times

There was a motorcade standing still on the road, and some irritable drivers outside were constantly honking their car horns.

In the carriage, Jiang Shiyi let go of the steering wheel, turned sideways, and faced Gu Yan.

This is the first time she has clearly admitted that she is jealous.

He was somewhat surprised, but he was also delighted. He would be jealous, which proves that she still cares about him, right?
but……

"Misunderstanding me again..." He didn't understand, "What do you mean?"

Gu Yan lowered her eyes and twisted her fingers together, "You always thought that I married you back then because of the 100 million."

He frowned, never expecting her to mention such a long time ago.

"But it's not true," she closed her eyes hard, "I...I..."

She was heartbroken, and then she continued: "I wanted to marry you, and I just found this excuse at that time, so I..."

After finishing speaking, she didn't have the courage to raise her eyes to look at him, and she couldn't hear the man's words, and the carriage was eerily quiet.

After a long time, Jiang Shiyi asked again: "Why?"

He actually had a guess in his heart, but he couldn't believe it.

Gu Yan felt that she had said it clearly enough, she didn't know what else to say.

Her heart was beating violently, she couldn't think of how to answer his words, she turned her face away gently.

"If, I mean if... If you are serious about me, think about it differently. At that time, as soon as Xu Yuan comes back, you will divorce me..." Recalling the beginning, the circles of her eyes slowly turned red, "That year, I worked very hard. The professor asked me to stay in New York, so I could have more opportunities to enter the industry earlier, but I gave up. I went back to Jiangcheng and learned to cook your favorite meals. I waited for you to come home every day. I You have done everything you can, but you still want to divorce me."

Jiang Shiyi was still in shock, he couldn't recover.

It turned out that in those pasts that he had never paid attention to, she had already invested in this relationship.

He felt unbelievable again.

However, his thoughts were soon pulled back by her words.

"Our first time... at the hotel, you left me at dawn to pick up Xu Yuan," she recalled now, the pain was not so painful, but she still felt uncomfortable, "Why do you think I want a divorce? Have you ever thought about it carefully, if I didn't expect you, maybe I wouldn't hate you so much, but I used to have expectations. When I got married, I knew that your friends, including your parents, looked down on me, but I I still want to be with you, at that time I hoped...we could go on together forever, but what did I get?"

When she said this, she smiled wistfully.

"Xu Yuan hurt me, I almost died, when I called you, I was so scared, you accompanied Xu Yuan to buy a dress, then Xu Yuan had an accident, you rushed all night and didn't answer my phone, I was like a fool Same, I won't know until you go to the police station... But, you are my husband. "

Jiang Shiyi's heart seemed to be gripped tightly by an invisible big hand, throbbing and throbbing.

"Actually, these things are already in the past. I don't really want to be a person who keeps turning over old scores, but when it comes to Jiang Ren, I have to say," she raised her hand and gently wiped the corners of her eyes, "I used to be able to help you Giving up a lot of things, in fact, I have already given up, and in the end I have nothing, nothing, so I decided, no matter what, I will not give up my career.”

"You always feel that Pei Sinian and I are confused. Part of it is that I regard him as a benefactor, and the other part is that when we were in business school, we had already discussed the idea of ​​sitting in a financial company together. I think, I You shouldn't affect my career planning because of you," she closed her eyes, "I didn't know that Jiang Ren was an investor in Fuheng until I arrived at Fuheng, but at that time I thought, I can't go the old way again, because Seeing the hope of being with you, I foolishly changed my path again, so I..."

"When I signed Fuheng's contract, I really thought about you, but I am different from three years ago, Jiang Shiyi, now, I want to think more about myself, maybe you think this is a kind of betrayal, But I want you to think about it differently..."

"If you like someone for more than ten years, you watch her make a boyfriend, and you finally have the chance to marry her, but she ends up divorcing you because of the return of her ex-boyfriend..."

Her throat was a little choked up, and she couldn't go on.

But tears, still uncontrollable, slipped from the eyes.

Years of depression and pain seem to be getting lighter and lighter because of talking.

Looking back on the past now, she still feels stupid.

"I think that a person must love himself first before he can love others. Before, I never understood that I valued you more, but was always ignored by you. I don't want to experience it again."

Jiang Shiyi still didn't speak.

"I've told you now, if you still feel that you can't forgive me about Jiang Ren's matter, and remember to hate me, I want you to seriously think about our future, because, I think I was wrong, but not so far, I I don't want to see your repeated attitude, cold violence, and entanglement with other women... I can't accept this way."

Jiang Shiyi looked at her quietly, watching her look away from the car window.

There is still a traffic jam ahead, and the traffic police are busy outside, but there is nothing to see.

He saw that she raised her hand and wiped the corner of her eyes again.

He wanted to help her dry her tears, but for a moment, he lost his courage.

If what she says is true...

It's the same experience of those things, but she has feelings for him and she doesn't have feelings for him are completely different things.

Not to mention, she once gave up her chance to work in New York in order to marry him.

Before he knew it, she had already paid silently.

He used to doubt it too, but now, he is actually a little afraid to face this possibility, because what he did to her in the past will become even more unforgivable.

He thought she married him for money.

After their first time, he even thought about giving her money to settle the matter.

He still remembered that she looked at him with very hurt eyes at that time, and she asked him if he regarded her as a prostitute.

"Why did you..." After a long time, he said with difficulty, "You didn't say that, you didn't tell me."

Gu Yan turned her back to him, still looking out of the car window, her tone became much calmer: "Tell you, will anything change? You like Xu Yuan. Ever since I almost died at the hands of those traffickers, I can hardly believe it." You will love me in this life, even if..."

Her voice was tired of seeing everything: "I think, even if you care about me a little, you can't help but save me, but you didn't even answer the phone, I only heard Xu Yuan talking, I... "

She wanted to have a good talk with him about these things, but today's talk is here, ahead of time.

She thought, at least she had said what she needed to say.

Otherwise, the matter of Jiang Ren would become a knot in his heart, and she would not be able to forget his cold violence and the humiliation that night in the bar.

They all need to forgive and be tolerant, but it must not be unprincipled forgiveness and tolerance.

Jiang Shiyi was silent for a long time.

His mind was in chaos. Everything she said today was beyond his imagination.

But he had to admit that it was something he himself had experienced, but in her narration, when he recalled it, all that remained was his love for her.

The car in front started to drive slowly, but he just stared at her blankly.

The car behind honked its horn, Gu Yan came back to his senses, turned to look at him, and pulled the corners of his lips with difficulty, "You drive first."

Her eyes were slightly red, he came back to his senses and started the car.

Sending her downstairs in the community, watching her get out of the car, his heart still hurt as if being torn apart, he called her in a hoarse voice: "Xiaoyan."

She stopped her hand to close the car door.

"I never thought about it..." He stared at her face, "I..."

She actually smiled at him very hard, "Well, you haven't thought about it, but now, let me tell you, you know, so, I hope you will think about it again, I can wait for you, but like before That kind of cold violence, and the bar thing... one more time, it's over between us, really."