System: If you are confessed, you cannot write a novel

Looking at the ceiling, Ren Yi thought to himself:
'I thought you felt at ease when you left, didn't you expect it to be so painful?So painful that I don’t know how to live, and so painful that I can only escape by seeking death?But I've waited for you and I still haven't seen you appear. '

'One day, three days, one month, three months, one year, three years, five years, I have waited, you have never come to see me and my brother, my heart is dead. '

'It would be nice if you showed up for me and my brother once, but you... After losing my father, I was a single parent, and then you remarried, and I became an orphan. '

'The issue of orphans has been bothering me for many years. What people call them verbally, and the vacancy of my parents in my heart. '

'Mom, you must not know, since I was ten years old, until now, I am very unfamiliar with words like father, mother, father, and mother. '

'I should not be expected to be someone else's son with my life. I am a stranger to my parents, but how many times have I been laughed at by others. '

"A lot of people who claim that I am their grandson bully me into a grandson in a sense. I don't even have parents. How can there be so many grandparents?"

'Later I realized that because I was a bastard that no one wanted, the flies would gather around me when they saw me, and the old me was really, really bullied terribly. '

'They say I'm stupid, I admit I'm stupid, but they say I'm a son of a bitch, how can I prove that I have parents? '

'My childhood and teenage years are like black and white photo albums in frames, which I don't want and dare not touch. '

'Because those are scars, scars that will never scab over a lifetime, and time will not fade away. '

'When others are wronged, there are grandparents, parents, and mothers to comfort me, but I don't have it. Uncles and aunts have raised me, which is already overwhelmingly grateful. What more can I ask for? '

'I have a lot of things on my mind that I can't let go of, and I'm also paranoid, but no one can see it, because my true self is forcibly hidden by me, and that kind of clown can't see people. '

' Then gradually, no one could see through me, and not many people could walk into my heart, just like that, day after day, year after year, I became synonymous with mystery, and I got used to this kind of mystery hidden in my heart. Inferiority in mystery. '

"Maybe I should thank you, I don't hate you, I really don't hate you, I just feel that I am really not suitable to be someone else's son, but for you, I still have to respect and support you, not because of love, But because of humanitarianism. '

'After hearing the story of your death, my heart was heavy and shocked, and there seemed to be no extra emotion. '

'Why should you be so disappointed when you have the chance to re-choose marriage?Mother. '

'Uncle is a sinner, but he said that your life is hard, it is true, you and my father are my family in law, but not in my heart. '

'My family was just a brother, a sister, and then it was gone. '

"I used to be dependent on others, and it was no home anywhere. Now I bought a house by myself. It's quite warm. It's my family..."

'It seems that there is no concept, at least you don't count, I want to admit it, but my heart seems to be broken, and I can't recognize you. '

'I will suffer too, but you can't see it and don't understand it. It's better now. I used to think it was bleeding every day. '

'Others say that the place where my parents are is my home, but I never feel that this is my home. I am just a witness of a few people's happy family. '

'Because I was too afraid of losing and being abandoned, I was slow to make friends. Of course, there were exceptions. However, because of this exception, she left later, and I was completely incapable of looking for it, so I was even more afraid. '

'I thought that I had a system, had a lot of money, wrote a lot of novels, and read a lot of books. If my knowledge keeps improving, I won't be troubled by the mundane world. It seems that I used to be self-righteous. '

'The real me is still me, it's just hidden deep, no one finds out, I'm used to seeing people on the surface. '

'Maybe this life is still very long, but since you left our house, I have been ridiculed and disgusted by everyone, and I hate being abandoned and lost. '

...

For a long time, Ren Yi has not been so sentimental, it may be because of this family, this home that he lived in temporarily for five years but does not belong to him has some memories that belong to him.

The tears in his eyes were swirling, but they couldn't fall, because he was lying flat now, and the tears would only slowly slide down the corners of his eyes.

Just like that, with tears in his eyes, he fell into a light sleep, forgetting the time and forgetting the sadness.

dong dong dong, dong dong dong.

After some time, the door was knocked, Ren Yi opened his eyes, the tears seemed to be dry, he opened the door, Nong Lanjiang walked in:
"Brother, didn't you say you came to work? I dare say you came to sleep."

"I fell asleep after being a little sleepy."

"Brother, get up and eat. Don't think that your mother didn't know when you lied just now. She saw it all. What mother would not understand her children?"

"We came back after you came back. The food is ready. Let's get up and eat. I'm almost starving to death."

Ren Yi was touched by these words, but he didn't show it:
"You go out first, I will come later."

"What are you doing later, hurry up, don't keep mom waiting."

Nong Lanjiang pulled Ren Yi's arm out, and he had to be dragged away. Only such a sister made him feel the meaning of family.

Mother brought hot dishes from the kitchen, and the dishes on the table were quite rich. Xiao Jiang said:
"Brother, look, mom treats you well. I will cook you such a table of delicious food as soon as I come back. I rarely eat it when I am at home with my father."

"I just said that my mother is partial. You had a pair of shoes that you forgot to wash before, and she washed them for you. I begged for a long time, but my mother asked me to go. Am I my own?"

The mother looked at the younger sister who was sometimes sensible and sometimes mischievous, and said:
"It's your own, it doesn't matter."

"Mom, you will be joking when brother comes back."

After Ren Yi heard that his mother was helping him wash his shoes, his heart tightened even more, but he tried his best to pretend nothing had happened, stroked Xiaojiang's head, and said:

"If you ask yourself if you are your own, what will you do if your mother tells you that you are not your own?"

Nong Lanjiang was surprised, looked at his mother, and asked:
"No way, Mom, am I really not my own?"

Mother laughed and said:

"You silly girl, why am I in my house if I'm not my own?"

This sentence hurt the deepest, most real and most sensitive Ren Yi, but he still pretended to be a normal person.

He ate very fast, and his mother was very relieved to watch him.

That's it, the children don't have to say or do anything, just in front of their parents, this is already a great relief, and only parents don't ask for anything in return.

Nong Lanjiang complained about his brother's eating habits while eating with relish, praising the familiar taste that belonged to his mother.

This is the unique culinary skill of every mother, the taste that children rely on, and the irreplaceable skill of other mothers.

I don’t know if you think of your mother and her cooking skills now, I think she must love you the most, there is no one, after all, you are the flesh and blood that fell from her.

If Ren Yi can figure it out and get out of his morbid state, maybe he will admit that he loves his mother very much, and also longs for her care.

After dinner.

It was the most difficult thing for Nong Lanjiang again - doing homework. Ren Yi sat like a lion, calm on the surface and calm in his heart, but in Nong Lanjiang's view, this was the calm before the storm.

Ren Yi taught Nong Lanjiang to do his homework, so his mother naturally had to go about her own affairs.

What Nong Lanjiang didn't expect was that his elder brother seemed to know how to teach and was more patient than before, and he would not attack her casually.

However, when Ren Yi reached out to stroke her head several times, Nong Lanjiang always thought he was going to be beaten.

However, this is just what she thought. The elder brother in front of him has become the elder brother Nong Lanjiang desires most. He can teach, will not lose his temper, and will encourage him at the right time.

Under the guidance of Ren Yi, she happily spent an afternoon of studying, which ended at 05:30.

A piece of red dyes half the sky red, and it seems that someone's faint sadness is hidden in the sunset.

Ren Yi took Nong Lanjiang to a bookstore in the city to buy books, most of which were books and periodicals that he should have read in his youth.

On a bookshelf, Ren Yi saw his own published works, and that feeling was like seeing the joy of his own child's success.

'I didn't expect my novels to be exported to these places. '

A teenager of fifteen or sixteen was flipping through Ren Yi's works. He walked over and asked:

"Are you a fan of the author's book?"

The boy glanced at Ren Yi and said:

"Well, forget it, I like it very much. The author's surname is awesome. Damn, I think he can write about any genre, and the update speed is really fast. It's really 999, six times over."

Ren Yi wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say, so he thought:

"Can't you learn some more literary and subtle words by reading my novels?" '

He didn't talk to the boy any more, but just walked away. Nong Lanjiang asked:
"Brother, you probably wrote that novel..."

Ren Yi nodded, Nong Lanjiang looked in disbelief:
"No way... You are really popular in writing novels, no, I have to buy a copy and read it to support my brother."

"No, I'll give you the manuscript directly when I get home, without spending a penny."

"I don't, I want to buy a copy myself, so it's more formal and supports my brother, okay? Brother, just buy it for me."

Nong Lanjiang begged pitifully, but Ren Yi had no choice but to say:
"The support you said is taking my money to support me? Then it's better not to support me."

"You will earn money at home, and my support is more spiritual support."

"I really can't do anything about you, you little devil."

"It doesn't matter whose sister I am, great writer."

"Is that an honor?"

"That's not."

"In this case, why did you choose to run away from home and leave a note saying that your uncle and mother are eccentric?"

"It's all in the past, can we look forward? Not all memories are good, some of them carry such a little bit of sadness."

"It seems that you are more suitable for writing novels, or... say, have you secretly read romance novels?"

Nong Lanjiang pouted and said:

"think it yourself."

After she finished speaking, she ran away. In front of his younger sister, Ren Yi often felt that this was his family, who would never leave him, while his mother...

After seven o'clock, the sky was not completely dark, and it was also after seven o'clock that the two came back.

The stepfather still didn't come back, and the mother was talking with the mother's mother. When Ren Yi and Nong Lanjiang came back, it was time for dinner again.

The mother-in-law and mother agreed that Ren Yi had lost weight, and kept feeding him vegetables, and Nong Lanjiang felt that he was being treated differently:

'It's obviously the same mother and the same grandmother, why are they so nice to me... I'm really biased, next time I will run away from home a few more times, I don't know what brother Ye Shu is doing now. '

Ren Yi never felt the warmth of his family just because his mother and mother-in-law brought him vegetables.

Perhaps his heart has been paralyzed, and he no longer knows what a family member is and how to count it as a family member.

After all, who caused this?

The next day, when Ren Yi sent Nong Lanjiang back to school, Shen Cheng treated him even better, and even took the initiative to pull his sleeves to go to his place of residence.

Shen Cheng smiled and said:

"Walk, walk, you saved me last time before I had time to thank you, I have already prepared food, Xiao Jiang, you also want to come together."

Ren Yi didn't feel very good, it just so happened that Shen Sheng's fiancé saw this scene.

Lu Tao still wanted to come over quietly to give Shen Cheng a surprise, but who would have thought that he would be frightened, Lu Tao said:

"Mr. Shen, what are you going to do? Be so kind to the students? And you are so kind to the parents by the way. What a good example."

With a guilty conscience, Shen Cheng let go of Ren Yi.

Nong Lanjiang glanced around a few times, she was sure that there should be a show to watch, but the right and wrong person was her brother.

As a caring younger sister, Nong Lanjiang had to find a way to escape for her brother.