Doomsday: I, a top killer, became a lolita.

This book is still finished ^ ^
When I write this line of text, I feel a little inexplicably melancholy.

I am a person who is very ritualistic about the 'end' and will be sad for it.

When an item comes to an end, or graduation or resignation, I will feel a feeling of 'a journey is over, it's time to say goodbye'.

But in fact, life is made up of many such big and small journeys, and I will face the same 'end' countless times.

Writing novels was actually a small dream in the past.

When I was in middle school, I used my crooked handwriting to write rhetorical novels full of secondary school feelings in a small notebook.

I don't know why it became popular, but it was passed around in class to watch.

At that time, I probably thought, 'Will I really be able to write a novel of my own one day? '.

It's just that when I grew up, I never felt that I would have the courage to pick up this thing again.

After all, compared to work, this matter does not make money.

You may see that the authors in the news and headlines are making a lot of money, or you may see the small authors on the short video platform posting a monthly income of more than [-].

You may think: Maybe writing novels to make money is really easy?
In fact, you may just not see the silent majority, most of the losers will not have the courage to show it on the platform.

They start in silence, get meager data, lose confidence, and walk away in silence.

It will not be seen by anyone, and it has become a small drop of water in the vast ocean of web articles, without even a single ripple.

So I will consider myself lucky, this is my first attempt, and I have gained so many lovely readers.

I took a look at the cumulative number of readers and it was 45 people, which I never dared to think.

So I'm very grateful to you all for being there with me.

Some of you persevere in sending love messages every day, some check in with me, some send me very expensive gifts, and some leave interesting comments to make this book more fun.

In fact, I thought about giving up when the data dropped for the first time from tens of thousands of words.

But fortunately, I am a face-saving person, and the first time I write a novel seriously, I must not be an eunuch, besides, I have you by my side.

I wanted to give up countless times in the middle, but finally came to the end.

Thanks for having you.

【About web writing】

Regarding the creation of web articles, I also have some humble opinions that I want to share.

In fact, I have always been a person who does preparatory work before doing things, so I have spent a lot of energy researching how to attract people in novels.

There are so many people sharing their experience online, I even paid to join the knowledge community to learn.

The knowledge in it is also very effective. Writing online articles can be created with formulas.

For example, there must be conflicts and contradictions at the beginning, reflecting your golden fingers and core selling points.

Another example is that there are certain poisonous spots that must not be touched.

Another example is how to arrange the density of cool points, and how the classic three-act ceremony can help you pave the way for the plot.

Every abstraction in you can be put into fiction: the call to adventure, the mentor, the death of the mentor, and so on.

Do you think I want to tell you that you can succeed in writing online articles according to the routine?

No, I'm actually only weighed down by one very simple thing: updating every day.

I feel that I really paid attention to these formulas and techniques at the beginning. Let me give you a few examples.

Like those nasty face-painted survivors at the mall before the first encounter with the bulimia.

In fact, it's a formula: make a nasty guy, and let him die badly.

People will get a sense of refreshment from such things. As for why, please study human nature slowly.

But soon, the daily updates completely dragged me down, and I no longer had the time to think about these techniques and formulas, which also reflected my novice side.

Because the big guys don't even need these experiences, they just write a story full of excitement.

As for me, it seems that I only need to update 4000 words a day, but thinking about the plot often makes me scratch my head and have a headache.

But you have to update your online articles every day. As long as you stop updating one day, even if you obviously ask for leave, your data will drop, which makes you very, very distressed.

Breaking updates/rests are not forgiven in the world of online articles. Even if your readers forgive you, data and algorithms will not forgive you.

They will teach you a good lesson with the most realistic downward slope.

So in order to maintain the 4000 words that seem to take only one or two hours to write, the 14 chapters I saved at the beginning were quickly completely consumed.

When your archives are exhausted, your days will turn into improvisation, which sounds very free, but the quality of your novels will actually decline.

When you are worrying about these 4000 words every day, just thinking about the rationality of the plot and not conflicting with the front is enough to consume your brain power.

It is also because of this incident that I can no longer use the routines and formulas I have learned before.

Routines and formulas are not derogatory terms, because in fact, your seemingly cool articles are proficient in the use of routines and formulas.

On the contrary, web articles that do not use routines and formulas are not 'cool' enough, and will make your articles seem to have no sense of expectation and desire to read.

So I am also full of doubts to myself: 'I have written it like this, do I really want to read it? '.

Before I started writing this novel, I thought I was an inspirational gourd full of creative desires.

Now this gourd of inspiration is empty, and I have poured it all out, and I have written all the plots I want to tell.

This is also the reason why you say that my composition is complicated (hehe~).

Whenever someone manages to say a meme or a plot source, it makes me so happy because I'm not alone.

In this era, there are people who have seen the same works as me and had the same emotions.

I believe we must all come from the same collective unconscious.

It's just that when the gourd representing my creative desire and emotion was emptied, creation turned from a kind of pleasure to pain.

When it comes to this, I am particularly envious of Japanese light novels. They can write tens of thousands of words a month, and they can have enough space and time to design plots and ingenious ideas.

There is a concept abroad called "creator burnout".

I am not very good at translating, but the description of language is pale, as I said in the novel, language is something that limits our human expression.

I've experienced this thing called burnout from beginning to end, the word is so vivid.

It's like a flame that starts to burn me every time I open my eyes until I'm done with today's update and then tomorrow comes again.

This kind of burnout makes me think once or twice a day, 'Ah, why don't I just stop and run away'.

But thanks to you, I didn't give up.

These are my honest thoughts xD.

[About the essence of web articles]

In fact, after understanding the creation method of web articles, I deeply understand one thing, web articles are a kind of "spiritual drug".

The quotation marks here are because I don’t want it to be a derogatory term, because reading online articles is joyful, and this joy is real.

But I also hope to reveal its essence so that everyone can understand what they are looking at.

The joy of selling online articles is a kind of 'satisfaction of desire'.

Your desire to conquer, your desire to show yourself to others, your desire for sex, your desire for money and power.

When you bring in the protagonist, you will be satisfied, thereby secreting dopamine and gaining happiness.

Internet articles are created by Internet writers, and a considerable part of Internet article writers come for money, including myself with impure motives.

In order to create works that are read by more readers, have a higher completion rate, and are more attractive, we must use the routines and formulas I just mentioned.

There is a common saying here that 'the plot is for the coolness'.

So as you can see, we create one by one 'cool point', they are divided into just right, so that you can't stop watching, so that your various desires can be satisfied.

It is well designed.

We are the manufacturers of 'drugs', the platform is the traffickers of 'drugs', and you are the audience.

Why is it like this?
Hmm. This is probably because real life is too hard. After all, everyone's Earth Online is in a difficult mode.

We naturally have this spiritual need.

I can't go into details here, let's experience it slowly.

I have said this matter so seriously, but I just hope that everyone will not get too involved, and just treat web articles as a means of entertainment.

Don't bring the core of the web text: "Get something for nothing" into real life, it may make your life more difficult.

Don't bring the obscenity in the online articles into real life, or you will be scolded by others as "Puxinnan is really a scumbag" if you are not careful.

In addition, reading online articles is still very happy!
And looking back now, when I fell into burnout and didn't use formulas, would it be a purer creation?
Because what I imagined in my mind was the story of Xiaoyu and Yueyue, it was the plot of the two of them, without anything mixed in it.

I don't know about this issue, but I am willing to believe that they really existed, and I hope they are happy.

That's why I keep saying that I don't send out knives, and you see that Ning Xuan didn't send out knives either.

Normally speaking, the role of the younger sister is the most impressive and difficult to appease only when the sword is played.

For example, the painted pear clothes of the Dragon Clan.

With this technique, I may be able to make people remember Ning Xuan, but rather than this, I still hope they are happy.

I am reluctant to kill them, probably because they have lived in my heart, not my tools for you to remember.

When you forget them, forget them!
If one day I still write novels, I'm afraid I won't write like this again, just this one.

When the time comes, what you will see is, 'no emotion, all skills', hahahahahahahaha.

【About malice】

The rating for this book is really high, at first it was 9.5, then it dropped to 8.x after one grading system change, and then went back up to the current 9.4.

Thank you everyone for being so willing to give me 5 stars all together instead of in installments.

I've done something like this before, so I understand what happens when you have very subjective content exposed to traffic.

That is malice from strangers.

This problem is very common for web creators, B station up masters and other professions.

I'm lucky that I don't get a lot of bad reviews because of the high ratings, but there are bad reviews.

The really malicious ones were all reported by me.

Hundreds of thousands of people came to see my stuff and leave comments, which made my "courage to be hated" take it to a higher level.

I'm not saying this to tell you how nasty the 'little bastard' is in this book.

Rather, I want to share the 'courage to be hated' with those of you who are willing to read my book here.

Because I like you guys.

I want to tell you that there must be someone in this world who doesn't like you.

Even if you are an extremely good person, especially kind, there will still be people who can't understand you, will speak bad words to you, and even speculate about you maliciously.

Extract his imagination from your one-sided actions, and then judge you with words and facts with logic.

This is absurd, but also real.

I want to tell you that if one day, or at this moment, you are very unfortunate to encounter such malice.

I want you to remember: you don't have to live up to their expectations.

You don't have to make everyone like you.

I can tell you that those people who hate you are completely unimportant to you, they are not even as good as the shit you pulled this morning.

At least that poop used to be food that gave you energy too.

You will never, ever, ever just have to respond to the expectations of those who love you.

Leave your patience, kindness, and enthusiasm to those who love you, and give them all your energy to respond to them.

Accept the fact that 'not everyone likes me' and love those who love you.

This is what I want to share with you, 'The courage to be hated'.

I am very grateful for this creative experience, which made me more confirmed the thoughts in my heart, and also filled me with more energy and motivation.

【goodbye】

Many people have asked me if I will write another book. I think there is a high probability that I will not. The input-output ratio of writing web articles is still too low.

I am also just one of the nameless water droplets in the vast ocean, and now I will leave silently (shock).

Web writing consumes far more mental energy than physical energy, so there is a high probability that I will take a rest.

Before leaving, let me share my favorite sentence with everyone, thank you for being willing to read this, and thank you for always being with me:
[Whether you are studying anything, or considering any point of view, ask yourself only what the facts are, and what truth these facts bear out.Never allow yourself to be influenced by what you prefer to believe, or what you think will be more beneficial to society if people believe it.Just simply to examine, what is the truth. 】

【Love is wise, hate is foolish. 】

These are the two sentences that the BBC interviewed the philosopher Russell in 1959, and he most hoped to leave to future generations.

My feelings are very deep, and now I hope to pass them on to you.

I made a fool of myself, we will meet again :D