The President's Gossip Wife

384: Take away the divorce agreement "February 2010, 2 - weather - sunny, mood - rain

Valentine's Day was just passed yesterday, and after packing up the things this morning, I went to work with a continual good mood, but when I got home, my mood turned gloomy.

In fact, I shouldn't go to the study on the third floor. Although I often have people clean it and restore it to its original state, I have always lived in Pei's house with the concept of 'a qualified person should not look through other people's belongings'.

Curiosity can sometimes help people succeed, but it can also kill people. My curiosity is not so glamorous and has bad results, but my curiosity made me start to have jealousy, injustice, darkness, and unhappiness.

Before I got married, I met Bai Shan, and I also met at the wedding. I knew that she was the Bai Shan that my grandfather and family spoke of, and I also knew that Bai Shan was Jin Cheng's ex-fiancee.

In my concept, fiancee and fiance are just a code name, which has no real meaning. This code name is not even as powerful as a person's name.

Grandpa said that the end is the end, and the end is nothing.

Unmarried originally represents a kind of marital status, so what if adding the word "wife"?

A fiancee must mean an unmarried wife?Since she is an unmarried wife, she is not considered a wife.

If it weren't for so many men and women who fall in love with the purpose of getting married, wouldn't they also have the same concept as unmarried couples?

Qiyang and I got engaged when we were very young. He was my ex-fiancé and I was his ex-fiancee. That's all. This code name is meaningless to me and Qiyang.

I thought it was the same with Baek Shan's existence.

But my curiosity finally shattered my confidence.

Jin Cheng always wakes up.

But I saw the photos in the study. Bai Shan's sweetness and gentleness are all because of the man who hugged her. There will be a date behind the photos and it was taken somewhere.

Like all lovers, they would hug, kiss, and be filled with radiant happiness.

In the end, they were all broken because of me.

That's why Bai Shan passed out in such pain at my wedding.

Everything has an answer.

Should I talk myself into accepting who I am?Should I advise Bai Shan, if dating is useful, why do you need a marriage certificate?

Am I more qualified than Bai Shan?

I think, I have.

Although I think I have, but seeing all kinds of intimate photos of Jin Cheng and Bai Shan in the past today, my mood can't get better. "

"August 2010, 8 - weather - sunny (hot)

After half a year, after giving Jincheng a full body massage today, he called Haicheng's home.

I used to know that I would cry if I didn't live up to it, so I told you not to look for me.In the final analysis, I am still too selfish, being pampered so selfish that I don't care about other people's feelings.

It didn't go smoothly as I expected. I hung up the phone when the phone had just dialed out before it rang. I obviously had a lot to say, but at that moment I suddenly didn't know what to say. After I hung up the phone, I Only then did I realize that I couldn't say anything except crying.

I thought about it three times, they all missed me, I should happily call them and tell them I'm fine.

Every time I think about it, I can't help crying out loud, and I can't put the energy of handling business affairs on this matter at all.

I sat on the stairs on the third floor, and the third floor was empty with only the echo of my weeping voice.

I want to be like when I was a child, if a classmate pushed me, I would exaggerate to go to my brother, magnify my pain ten times to complain, and watch my brothers take revenge on me unreasonably. Snickering in my heart, I thought to you guys, don't mess with me next time, because you guys look good.

After I got home, I would exaggerate and tell my grandpa that I was still uncomfortable and hurt, so grandpa loved me even more, what I wanted, what was there, grandpa would pull me and ask me for two or three days, and I fell down. Does the place still hurt?

At that time, I felt that the world was under my feet, and the world was mine.

But now, I feel so small that nothing can control me.I know my family loves me, but I dare not magnify my pain, dare not speak out my pain, I want to narrow my pain and tell them, but when I want to make a phone call, I know that I can only treat my pain No words.

Later, I held my mobile phone and pinched the corridor guardrail to make a call at home.

I just said "Hello" when Grandpa's old and trembling voice came over, and he cried sadly and excitedly, "Xiao Wu, Grandpa misses you, how are you, are you thin, how are you?" Do you miss Grandpa, Grandpa dreamed of you last night, so you called Grandpa, Xiao Wu, Grandpa... Grandpa has been dreaming of you for half a year, and you just called Grandpa today."

When I feel sad for Jin Cheng, I will close the door, hold his hand, and lean on the back of his hand, even if it is in a low voice, I can still cry freely.At least I don't have to worry about my breathing being heard.

But today, when grandpa cried on the phone and said he missed me, I didn't even dare to breathe out, suffocating, it turned out to be such a feeling, and I never dared to say to grandpa, "I am in pain, I am wronged, I want to What do you want?"

The patience of nails digging into the flesh was depressing and difficult. I used a fast speed and simply said, "I miss my grandpa and my brother. I will call back when I have time. Don't call me. I'm fine." I'm busy, I'm fine, I have nothing to do, look at the website of Jincheng Holdings, now I'm managing the company, your granddaughter is amazing now. Hang up."

After a long passage, I didn't even catch my breath, and hung up the phone before my grandpa could speak.

I know I'm sorry for him, he really loves me, but I'm afraid he will be more sad when he hears my cry.

So I can only write what I want to say in the diary, just like calling grandpa.

In fact, these days, I am not happy every day. I am only happy when I hear Jin Cheng's healthy heartbeat. "

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"November 2010, 11 - weather - cloudy

After checking the performance of Jincheng Holdings, real estate accounts for a large part, but after nearly ten months of hard work, I decided to give up the real estate industry.

It's not difficult to be a woman, but it's very difficult to be a strong woman. I really can't please and smile at that kind of man who is obsessed with sex but has low quality, and I can't lower my bottom line just to win the mark.

I will find a way to do other industries as soon as possible to make up for the losses caused by exiting from real estate, although it is difficult.

If Jincheng wakes up, he will definitely understand what I did. "

Pei Jincheng's eyelashes were still wet. At this time, he smiled bitterly, raised his wrist to look at his watch, closed the diary, put it in the box, and picked up the last one.

I turned the last page directly, and the back was blank, with paper running under my fingertips, and many new papers had no handwriting.

So he casually flipped forward to the middle, and opened---

"April 2012, 4 - weather - sunny - time: the morning meeting ends

This is the first time I write a diary during the day, because there is no place for me at home, I greet him with joy when he wakes up. For more than 1000 days and nights, I have taken care of him like a child, but he But can't accept me.

I thought that when he opened his eyes for the first time, he would gently bend his eyebrows and call me, "Ah Xuan."

After he woke up yesterday, he didn't smile at me gently, he was more fierce than three years ago, he yelled at me more coldly, asked me who I was, and told me to go away.

I think I should treat him better, I think, the wrong person is me, he doesn't smile at me, I should smile at him.

I'm a little scared to leave work today, should I buy him a present?But what does he like?

Bai Shan must know that I am really not a qualified wife. I have taken care of him for so long, and I have never asked him what he likes.

But today is April Fool's Day, if I give him a gift, will he misunderstand me? "

...

On the last diary entry, there is no date, no date at the beginning, and no date at the end.

"He finally doesn't need me anymore, he doesn't need me at all. I used to think that when he didn't need me, I should be happy, but now, he doesn't need me. I am naturally happy, but it has nothing to do with happiness. .

Bai Shan's intrusion broke all my fairy tale world built in soap bubbles.

Didn't it mean that husband and wife have no overnight feud?Didn't it mean that there was a fight at the head of the bed and a fight at the end of the bed?I thought we would be together one day.

I also know that I have no right to object, but I am just not reconciled.

When he stuck the key into my flesh and blood, I was thinking that after he had vented, the resentment in his heart would be less, and life could still go on.

He was always my painstaking effort, and I always believed that his awakening was my painstaking effort, although he fell into a deep coma because of me.

He is the sapling I maintain, and I dare not be negligent every day. Sometimes I even find that I am not watering my saplings with water and sunlight. I dug a hole in my heart, and I use my heart every day. Blood was feeding him.

Now that I think about it, it’s not without selfishness that I’ve put in so much effort. I’m thinking in my heart that he will wake up soon and grow into a big tree. When he becomes a big tree, I can be lazy and let his roots grow by themselves To absorb nutrients, I no longer have to fetch water for him or catch insects for him.I can also lie lazily under his shade and enjoy the cool.

But I was wrong. Now the saplings have become trees, but they have to shelter others from wind and rain.

I really became the extra one.

I want to go over and ask them, why, why is it that I am not the person under the shade of the tree in the end?

But I didn't, because I was a beginner.

I will never keep a diary again...

It turns out that the feeling of not being needed is like this, it seems to be even more lonely, is it a kind of hopeless loneliness..."

After taking several deep breaths, Pei Jincheng closed the diary, packed it neatly, closed the box, tied the ribbon, locked the cabinet that should be locked, and picked up the fallen drawers and documents on the floor. Installed.

When he left, he took away the divorce agreement left by Shen Xuan last year...