Rebel Demon King

Chapter 668 Lu の World wa Lu の World ながらさりながら (5)

(Although I haven't completed the third update, I have completed [-] words, because these chapters are super difficult to write, and tomorrow is a very, very important plot, please ask for a monthly ticket)
The rain is still falling, the sky and the earth are wet, and the whole world is covered in gray, which can't be seen at a glance.At this moment, Yangmingshan on the east bank of the Xiangjiang River is like an isolated island in the vast ocean. On the peak of this isolated island, under a row of emerald green pines and cypresses, and among hundreds of millions of raindrops, there is a black umbrella floating .

Cheng Mo and Shen Dao stood side by side. When Shen Dao heard Cheng Mo pointing to the lattice tomb where the urn was placed, and said calmly that it was his tomb, he suddenly felt uncontrollable sadness. This kind of sadness came so hard Rapid and intense, almost made her cry, but Shen Daoyi is a strong woman, she will not shed tears easily, so she shook her head gently, driving those tears back.

Cheng Mo asked in a low voice: "Does the teacher know when I am the happiest every day?"

Shen Dao hesitated for a moment and said, "When reading? Or when going to school?"

Cheng Mo shook his head, "No. It's the moment when I open my eyes every day and find that I still exist in this world."

After a pause, Cheng Mo continued: "For me, every sleep is an adventure and time travel. Every time I turn on the alarm clock and close my eyes, I can't help but think, this time I will never sleep again. I can't wake up, but I can reach it smoothly. Seven hours later, I experience the moments of life and death that most people can only feel in movies. I think, probably no one can understand 'you never know tomorrow' more deeply than me. and the meaning of the phrase 'which comes first'."

Shen Daoyi didn't speak, but just listened quietly.

"Just now you said, tell me not to tell you the big truths, you understand those big truths. I think so, the books I have read, maybe the teacher has also read it, and indeed many of them are theories I read from the books, It's not my personal experience, so let me tell Sister Xi a few words about my own life insights!" Cheng Mo looked at his father's tombstone and smiled slightly, he couldn't remember how long he hadn't smiled, went up The time was probably two years ago when Yan Yitong filmed Zhao Benshan's "The King of Poems".

Cheng Mo's thoughts fluttered for a while, and the air was briefly empty for a few seconds before he said: "When it comes to life, we always think it is a very grand and abstract thing, because it feels like everyone's life is very important. It is difficult to feel the urgency of time if you don’t live to be 80 or [-] years old. But I can clearly feel this kind of life. At that time, I felt that I was a morning dew on a leaf, and I might be caught by the morning dew at any time. The sun evaporates but time seems to be too tight for me, so tight that I can't sleep, eat or even breathe at times."

"Seeing that I was walking on thin ice every day, my dad asked me when I was having dinner one day: 'Cheng Mo, do you know what time is?' Although I was only more than ten years old at that time, I also read a lot of books. Of course I know that 'time is the change that describes the continuity of the movement of an object, and it is a measure', and I immediately gave a textbook-like answer. My dad nodded at me, and then took me out without saying a word after eating. When we got out of the door, I asked my dad where we were going? My dad told me to go to Kaifu Temple. I thought it was weird at the time, saying that I don’t believe in Buddhism. Why should I go to Kaifu Temple? See, when you start out with a negative attitude toward anything, you're already half wrong."

"At that time, I was still living in the Academy of Social Sciences, and my home was not far from Fuji Temple. My dad was driving me on a bicycle. I felt that it was a waste of time in the back seat. The street was very noisy, the traffic was rushing, and the air was not good enough. Well, in short, everything is bad, I still remember that there is a rough stone road in front of Kaifu Temple, and the bicycle bumps on it, which makes my butt hurt, and I still have a deep impression of it.”

Speaking of this, Cheng Mo paused for a while, as if lost in memory, Shen Daoyi didn't bother Cheng Mo, let alone urge him, the two of them stood quietly under the umbrella, in front of a tombstone, listening to the soft sound of rain Tap the whole world.

I don't know how long it took before Cheng Mo continued: "My dad took me to Kaifu Temple. There was a marble statue of Guanyin standing in the courtyard. My dad told me about the history of Kaifu Temple. Although I listened I went in, but felt very boring. When I arrived at the Daxiong Hall, my dad pointed to the Buddha statue in the middle and asked me, what kind of Buddha is this? Although I don’t study Buddhism very much, this little question still doesn’t bother me. I answered very disapprovingly. Sakyamuni, my dad pointed to the two smaller Buddha statues next to him and asked, what are these two statues?"

At this moment, Cheng Mo suddenly stopped, and turned to ask Shen Daoyi, "Have you ever been to a temple to worship, Teacher? Do you know what are the three Buddhas enshrined in the Daxiong Hall?"

Shen Dao shook his head, "Have you worshiped before? I really didn't pay attention to this but I read it in a book. It seems to be Shakyamuni Buddha, Maitreya Buddha and Kasyapa Buddha?"

"The teacher is better than me. I only mentioned the Sakyamuni Buddha in the middle. At that time, I thought my dad was a bit boring and didn't understand what time would have anything to do with the Buddha statue, but I was quickly educated by my dad. He told me that from right to left are Kasyapa Buddha, Sakyamuni Buddha and Maitreya Buddha, commonly known as "the third vertical Buddha". The so-called vertical three Buddhas are actually Shakyamuni. What he represents is only the concept of time That is to say, Kassapa Buddha on the right is the past Shakyamuni Buddha, Maitreya Buddha on the left is the future Shakyamuni Buddha, and the largest Shakyamuni Buddha in the middle is the current Shakyamuni Buddha. Also referred to as past Buddha, present Buddha and future Buddha”

"My dad asked me, do you understand what some time is now?" After a pause, Cheng Mo looked at Shen Daoyi again, "Do you understand, teacher?"

Shen Daoyi thought for a moment, then whispered thoughtfully: "What time is now?"

Cheng Mo nodded, "The teacher is really good at reading comprehension, as expected of a Chinese teacher."

Shen Dao hit Cheng Mo's arm with a fist, "How dare you laugh at your mentor!! You really want to be beaten!"

Cheng Mo coughed and said in a low voice, "It's better to be serious here."

"Continue to talk." Shen Dao looked at the tombstone while speaking, and then gave Cheng Mo a look, as if he was going to settle accounts with you later.

"I didn't fully understand the meaning of my dad's words at the time, so my dad told me that the so-called past is the present that has happened, and the so-called future is the continuation of the present, so the one in the middle must be the present Buddha. The most resplendent and resplendent Buddha is the present Buddha. Regardless of Maitreya Buddha and Kassapa Buddha, they are just the incarnation of Shakyamuni Buddha. The implication is that the past and the future are the present. Let’s put it more clearly, that is, the past and the future are actually the same. Doesn't exist, only now."

At this moment, Shen Daoyi felt that Cheng Mo's words lit up the entire gloomy sky like a bolt of lightning.

"As soon as my dad finished speaking, I felt very shocked and enlightened. This truth is really simple, but most of us don't understand that whether it is your past or your future, it depends on you. Your present is determined. Your past is your present, your future is your present, and you only exist in the present, so we can say that the past and the future do not exist. We always think that time is a straight line, We keep walking along this line, but in fact it is not, time is countless points, these points seem to form a straight line, this is an illusion caused by our own limitations, just like we think that time has direction, but in reality time has no direction."

Cheng Mo's narration gave Shen Daoyi a feeling of electric current running through her whole body. She looked at Cheng Yongze's tombstone and thought, no wonder Cheng Mo is such a wise person. Cheng Mo's next sentence caught on, and he subconsciously asked, "Time has no direction?"

Cheng Mo nodded, "This concept is more complicated. If the teacher is interested, I will take you to buy a book later, called "Hidden Reality-What Are Parallel Universes", this involves quantum physics, that is, The origin of the condolences I gave to Luo Jiayi just now. I told you so much just now, not just to tell the teacher that we must live in the present, but to tell the teacher why Nietzsche’s words are engraved on my father’s tombstone words."

"Why?" Shen Daoyi asked involuntarily.

"Most of us like to focus on the future, always thinking about the future, always planning for the future, just like when choosing a major, we should consider future employment instead of current hobbies; Thinking about saving money to buy a house and not daring to spend, fearing that the house price will not be able to afford it in the future; just like me, I always worry and worry about the death that will definitely come in the future, so I delay the present. From that day on, I realized that the future is actually forever. I won’t come, but I’m sacrificing the real present, and I’m afraid of the illusory future, forgetting that only by living every second of the present, can I have a beautiful past to recall and a better future to look forward to .”

Cheng Mo took a deep breath, and said softly: "I think Mr. Shen, like me at that time, was also afraid of the future, afraid that I would disappear without a sound like this. You need to give yourself a reason for existence, So you can't forgive yourself and your father, and you don't want to reconcile with the past, so that you have the meaning of existence, but can you really live happily in this way? Can you have the future you want?"

Shen Daoyi's face turned pale in an instant, without any blood at all. Cheng Mo's words were like a sharp bullet, spinning and piercing through her heart, tearing a bloody wound on her heart.

Cheng Mo could clearly feel Shen Daoyi's uneasiness, he deeply understood Shen Daoyi's mood, so he held up his umbrella and turned in one direction, standing opposite Shen Daoyi, he knew that he should give the teacher warmth at this time So he gently hugged Shen Daoyi's trembling body with one hand, and held her tightly in his arms.

"Sister Nan, don't be afraid, don't pin your life and happiness on things like regret and the past, be brave enough to live the present, just like me at that time, I may be burned to ashes and buried here at any time, I am also working hard to live a good life every day. Don’t let down the hard-won present, there is no need to hand over such precious things to the negative emotions of fear and regret, even if it is short, you must live your own splendor, no Is it?"

(End of this chapter)