Maybe I can't have a normal youth

Chapter 410 Stop in Time
When he opened his eyes again, Zhao Bai'an had already woken up from his dream.

She was sitting on a chair, and in front of her was a package of instant noodles that had been unpacked but not soaked.

It is the same way as always to enter the halls of the subconscious mind, nothing has changed, but nothing seems to be the same.

That was the state of mind when I woke up, which was very different from usual.

The scene in the dream is now like a spell or like a constantly flashing red light, constantly reminding Zhao Bai'an that her own feelings for Chen Yudi are impure.

Zhao Bai'an was originally feeling depressed because of the recent estrangement from Chen Yudi, but now he added the hint in his dream.

No, it is a dream and a hint of reality.

Now that I think about it, there seems to be a reasonable explanation for what has been wrong for a long time recently.

Zhao Bai'an suddenly felt that the relationship between her and Chen Yudi might be wrong, maybe... it was wrong from the beginning.

It's not that there is any right or wrong in terms of feelings, Zhao Bai'an clearly knows that she likes Chen Yudi, but the reason for this liking is worth pondering again.

She thought about the communication between Huo Sanmu and her in the dream, and her true inner feelings.

Zhao Bai'an has always had a good impression of smart and gentle people.

Yes, the inferences made by the Reasoning Society, Libiqi, and Siqingsili all increased Zhao Bai'an's affection for Chen Yudi.

But the moment when his indifferent heart was moved, it was Chen Yudi who led her to run forward during the physical test.

Zhao Bai'an was very clear about the feeling at that moment, that was liking.

There is also a trace of nostalgia.

But do I love Chen Yudi?It doesn't seem to be.

Zhao Bai'an finally understands that the thing he really likes and loves that he is looking for has actually been found long ago.

The one that haunts me, that makes me suffer so much, but also makes me really laugh out loud, is love.

Moriyama.

is love.

And Moriyama is also the only one, the only one who can make Zhao Bai'an have the kind of love that no other person, thing or thing can stir up.

She couldn't find anything else, she did like Chen Yudi, but she couldn't tell if there was something else mixed in this liking, but no matter how she looked at it, it was not a pure and incomparable liking.

So she can't stand it.

Yes, Zhao Bai'an couldn't stand it.

She has her own view of love, which is not good for Chen Yudi, if it continues, it will be a kind of betrayal by herself.

So she immediately decided to stop in time, sober.

She felt that she should talk to Chen Yudi, but when she saw the alarm clock she put aside, she realized that the time was still early, it was only 06:30, it was 06:30 at night.

It seems that this time she was not in the subconscious hall for a long time, and she didn't even finish the day.

This seemed to be a sign of something. Thinking of this, Zhao Bai'an picked up the phone without hesitation. She dialed Chen Yudi's number, and the phone rang as before.

Zhao Bai listened quietly, she had been waiting, but in the end, the indifferent female voice that she could recite completely came from the other end of the phone: "I'm sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered, please wait a moment." Dial again. Sorry..."

Chen Yudi's phone call still couldn't be connected, Zhao Bai'an frowned slightly, although Chen Yudi's not answering the phone has long been a routine, but today she is very urgent.

Zhao Bai'an couldn't wait any longer, she made a decision right away, she wanted to go directly to Chen Yudi.

With this in mind, Zhao Bai'an came downstairs to Chen Yudi's innovation laboratory.

She didn't go in, but waited while organizing her thoughts.

Time passed by, and after waiting for a long time, Chen Yudi finally came out.

He was a little surprised when he saw Zhao Bai'an, but even so, he still smiled and walked towards her: "Ah, Bai'an, why are you here? Have you been waiting for a long time, why didn't you call me?"

It wasn't until she actually faced Chen Yudi that Zhao Bai'an realized how complicated her feelings were, and her purpose for coming was very clear.But for some reason, when she saw Chen Yudi, the words that had been prepared were suddenly at a loss.

Why do you have to smile for a long time today?

Zhao Bai'an hesitated to speak, and finally had no choice but to simply respond: "I called you several times, but you never answered."

Chen Yudi only remembered it at this time, so he took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and found a lot of missed calls at a glance, he said embarrassedly: "Ah Bai'an, I'm really sorry, actually I..."

He originally wanted to explain, but Zhao Bai'an didn't know why he didn't want to hear it.

"Chen Yudi, let's go." Zhao Bai'an interrupted him with a frown.

Chen Yudi was slightly taken aback. From Zhao Bai'an's every move, he had already noticed that something seemed wrong, but he didn't ask any questions, but nodded in cooperation, and agreed to her request for a walk.

So the two walked together on the small path in the campus that they had long been familiar with.

When the two of them sat on the bench and chatted happily together for the first time, Zhao Bai'an finally couldn't bear it anymore: "Chen Yudi, what do you like about me?"

Chen Yudi listened to Zhao Bai'an's question from the side, and immediately thought about it in her heart, and then answered seriously: "You have your own opinion, you have all the advantages of a modern girl in you, and you are still very independent, and you feel that we have two personalities It's actually pretty similar."

Zhao Bai'an smiled lightly, and then followed Chen Yudi's words: "Don't you think that what you are talking about is not a couple, but like-minded buddies?"

Chen Yudi stopped walking, and he stared blankly at Zhao Bai'an.

Zhao Bai'an also stopped, and she continued to say a lot about what she just said.

She still remembers Chen Yudi's help to her, remembers the puzzles they discussed at that time, and remembers the club activities they participated in together; however, she also remembers Chen Yudi's indifferent eyes towards her, and remembers what he values ​​more than herself , Remembering his unconscious changes over time.

The two talked with each other along the way, and they also confessed their feelings to each other. Of course, Zhao Bai'an would not say anything about Mori Shan.

She just took this opportunity to analyze the current situation of the two of them.

She admitted that there were two problems between the two, one was that Chen Yudi was very busy, and the other was that she seemed to feel that she didn't like Chen Yudi that much, and at the same time proposed a peaceful breakup.

Chen Yudi was shocked. He actually liked Zhao Bai'an, but he never realized his neglect. He said that he would change, and asked Zhao Bai'an to give him another chance.

Zhao Bai'an refused. The overseas exchange program and the innovation laboratory paper will be published soon. Her existence is not good for both parties.

And Chen Yudi also thought about it carefully, he felt that Zhao Bai'an was right, and he agreed.

"Then can we still be friends?" Chen Yudi asked under the moonlight.

"Of course, if you want." Zhao Bai'an replied under the shadow of the moonlight.

"Thank you for your company."

　Volume No.13 ends here, and Zhao Bai'an and Chen Yudi broke up peacefully, so it can be regarded as an end. Volume No.14 will be the story of the summer and junior year.

　　Thank you for your company.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)