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Chapter 124 The Approaching End

Budao Yazi was slightly taken aback, and his eyes were also fixed, but then he smiled helplessly, and the smile seemed a little far-fetched:

"Can you really read minds? Xia Ran? I knew you couldn't hide this matter from you... But to be honest, your behavior is really rude to a girl."

"Really? Then let's do it again? I pretend I don't know anything, and you start the topic, okay?"

Xia Ran was very understanding, so he suggested this kindly, after all, the other party just made him a supper, so he had to pay back.

He didn't explain that he really can't read minds, it's just that he knows that the character design of Bujima Yako is very special, and the memory is relatively deep, plus some weirdness of her performance before, and her emotions at the moment fluctuation--

Combining these intelligence information, it is natural to be able to figure out what she is troubled by.

Besides, Xia Ran didn't think that Budao Yazi came here specially to attack her at night and was going to throw herself into her arms, so naturally she wouldn't be deceived by the appearance, which would affect her thinking ability.

It's just that this kind of performance that seems to be a prophet, in the eyes of the preconceived Bujima Yako, is the proof that his mind has been read.

Although she knew that such a thing would happen a long time ago and had made psychological preparations before coming here, this beautiful girl with long purple hair still felt uncomfortable at the moment, as if she could see through the eyes of the person in front of her. There is no privacy at all.

She finally understands Saya Takashiro's feelings, and it's hard for that tsundere girl to be able to bear it, instead of losing her temper... But it's true, if that's the case, wouldn't she be with those who don't know the situation? Are people no different?

Identity, status, origin, background...

These are just the "rights" before the disaster. In just a short period of time these days, the most powerful people in the world have almost disappeared directly, and all the rules have also been changed. The previous society directly It's over.

If you are still obsessed with the things of the past, such a person is not qualified to live at all. The current world is very simple, basically divided into the living and the dead, and the most important thing is "strength".

As for how this "power" is most intuitively expressed?

Naturally, it depends on whether you can kill more zombies, win more resources, and improve your ability to survive.

Ordinary people can rely on a large number of people, elite armed forces, etc. to form the strength of a group.And the person in front of him has immeasurable power, which is a completely different concept.

Takashiro Saya also said to other people in private that if you want to continue to survive, you must know how to rely on others who have power, instead of following your own temperament, because only you can adapt to the environment, and there is no environment to adapt to you reason.

Thinking of this, Bujima Yako shook her head lightly.

Then she sat down directly on the chair next to her, stretched out her hand to brush her long purple hair, and sighed long:

"Since Xia Ran, you know why I'm here, let me get to the point... I'm not afraid of killing people, you should know that, right? What I'm afraid of is that I think this kind of world is not bad..."

Xia Ran didn't ask why such a world is not bad, but just listened silently, picked up the fork and ate the snack at the side by the way.

"Because I almost killed someone with my own hands before, it should be... Well, one night four years ago, because this incident was very profound, I remember very clearly that a man wanted to attack me , but I had a knife in my hand."

Yako Busushima seems to be caught in memories, her eyes are blurred and in a trance, and her voice is very soft.

"So I didn't hide, but deliberately led him to the corner. When he couldn't wait to pounce, I severely broke his shoulder blades and thighs, and the sound of bone breaking was mixed with his screams. Together, I actually felt very happy, the kind that couldn't help trembling."

"And then?" Xia Ran asked vaguely, biting her fork.

"Then? Then I escaped the police's accountability in the name of self-defense. In fact, I was too defensive... But considering the situation at that time, I was still a junior high school girl, fighting against that perverted pervert by myself , so the police naturally leaned towards me, did not hold me accountable, and even drove me home."

Bujima Yako smiled self-deprecatingly.

"It was at that time that I realized that I had a strong tendency to violence, and there was an unforgivable dark side hidden in my heart... Just like in this world now, I am not more decisive than them, I am more suitable for fighting, but because When I was killing those things, I couldn't contain my excitement."

"Oh." Xia Ran nodded with a calm expression.

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"..."

Bushima Yako stared at his face for a while, and then asked in a strange tone: "Don't you want to say something? At least express your opinion?"

"Express your opinion? This... I'm still a little hungry, can Busushima-san ask you to make another one?"

Xia Ran thought for a while, then pushed the empty plate towards the beautiful purple-haired girl with a serious face, "I think the taste is okay, very good, but it's better to be lighter...my taste is lighter."

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"..."

Bujima Yako looked at him, and suddenly burst out laughing.

She stood up helplessly and took the plate, and her expression became dumbfounded: "It was hard for me, so I made up my mind to come and talk to someone..."

"I know."

"I'm really worried about this matter, student Xia Ran."

"I understand."

"Then aren't you going to say something? Shouldn't you say something to comfort me?" Bushima Yako looked at the boy in front of her with an angry and funny look.

"I don't think you need it. Do you think you did something wrong?" Xia Ran frowned slightly, feeling a little depressed. Could it be that what the other party asked her to express her opinion just now was this, not about supper aspect?

"Eh? I think... this kind of killing is not good, right? Do you think I can be saved?" Bushima Yako was slightly taken aback.

"Hey, are you alluding to me?" Xia Ran twitched her lips.

"Eh?" Budao Yazi was a little dazed, but then he realized that the person in front of him had really killed an unknown number, whether it was a human or a zombie, he was nothing compared to him.

And the other party has no psychological burden at all, and is still smiling all day long. Compared with this, she couldn't help hesitating, wondering if she was a little too hypocritical.

"Let's put it this way, we must first clarify a premise, that is, if you want to survive, you have to fight and desperately adapt to this environment. If you don't kill them, they will come to kill you, and they are no longer considered life. Consciousness is simply a living corpse."

Xia Ran thought for a while, then said with a slap in the palm of his hand.

"It's the same with those people. You can only kill them if you don't want to die, lest they come to hurt you. And the most important point is that no matter what you are thinking or holding, the nature of this behavior It won't change."

It's all the same anyway, it doesn't mean that killing is not killing if you have a mentality of grief, sympathy, self-doubt, and self-denial.

That being the case, why make yourself uncomfortable?As long as you know that you have done nothing wrong, you are the one who deserves to be killed. Why should you feel guilty?It was really hard for Xia Ran to understand this kind of thinking, and felt that it was purely hypocritical.

Yako Busushima widened her eyes in surprise, but quickly calmed down.

After being silent for a while, she smiled softly, her expression seemed to relax, she might have figured out something and muttered to herself, and she seemed to be talking to Xia Ran:

"That's right, maybe I really think too much. No matter how I think about this kind of thing, it will not change its nature. As long as it is necessary, you should do what you think is right. Since it is the right thing, why should you... ..."

squeak-

At this moment, her words were interrupted because the door of the room was suddenly pushed open.

A pair of pink-haired ponytails poked its head out from behind the door, looked here suspiciously, and then said suspiciously: "...What are you guys doing together in the room at this time?"

"Supper, do you want it?" Xia Ran smiled, not guilty at all.

"Hmph, no need, I came to you because I have something to say, I think it may be necessary..." Takashiro Saya snorted, opened the door and walked in generously, saying so.

"whats the matter?"

"Don't you know how to read minds? Don't tell me that you don't know..." The two ponytails crossed their arms in dissatisfaction.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Xia Ran asked meaningfully.

"...I just want to say, let's go across the river to find my parents tomorrow!" Takashiro Saya gritted her teeth, "Don't waste time, it's good for everyone to integrate the forces of both sides as soon as possible."

"Oh? Weren't you very opposed to it before?"

"What's the use of my objection, will you give up this matter if I object?" Saya Takashiro glared at him, "Anyway, it's something that is destined to happen, so it's better to solve it as soon as possible, so as to reduce unnecessary loss."

"Are you sure to convince your parents?" Xia Ran couldn't help being a little surprised when she heard the other party's implication.

"I'm their daughter after all, so what I say will have some effect..." Takashiro Saya curled her lips and sighed. If the forces of the two sides were to be combined, naturally there could only be one voice.

However, she didn't even expect the possibility that the person in front of her would accept her parents' solicitation and become their subordinate... That would be unrealistic at all, it could only be possible in reverse.

However, her parents are not easy to talk to. What she needs to do is to avoid conflicts as much as possible, because once there is a fight, there is absolutely only one result-she becomes an orphan.

"If you are confident...then let's get some weapons tomorrow morning, and then go straight away."

After thinking for a long time, Xia Ran finally nodded and said in a harmonious voice.

He was planning to take the protagonist group and go directly to the house of Ju Chuan Shizuka's policewoman friend to get guns and weapons, but because he went to the hospital and then rushed to kill monsters, he couldn't make it.

Takashiro Saya's proposal is also very good. If he can avoid conflicts and directly expand the team size, he will naturally not refuse.

Opened the personal information page and took another look at the stay time, and estimated the changes that would continue to occur in the future. Xia Ran felt that maybe the time for her departure was very close...

However, with this time and efficiency, it seems that there is no way to add a small bucket to all attributes. It is too unfriendly to obsessive-compulsive disorder...

(PS: There are a lot of things during the Chinese New Year, and I always have to argue about trivial matters, and I can’t speak well. After the quarrel, I’m in a bad mood, and I’m cold-eyed at us, the next generation. When it comes to us... I really can't understand this kind of behavior, or is it because the juniors can't talk back, so they feel authoritative and have a sense of accomplishment? I just want to be quiet, but it seems that they are in a bad mood. It must also make my mood bad, alas...)

(End of this chapter)