Connor's Hogwarts

Chapter 270 Past and Present
Excerpts from Connor's Diary

91.12.15.
I am in a bad mood today, and I plan to start writing a diary from today. Although serious people never keep a diary, there are exceptions to everything. I want to be a serious person who keeps a diary.

I live in England, so few people know Chinese. It’s been a long time since I wrote Chinese characters, but I feel a lot of emotion in my life.
Probably I still can't forget, also, how could I forget.

I actually saw my previous self and my family and friends in the Mirror of Erised
It turns out that the deepest desire in my heart. No, no, it shouldn’t be like this, I can’t go back, can’t I, I’ve always known it, why I’m still unwilling to accept this fact.
I obviously live happily every day, how could I be that kind of hypocritical person, right?Hahahahaha
Damn stop writing, write a few
(This diary has been burned)
91.12.17.
Maybe I should still keep a diary. Recording real life may get me out of this depressing state. I know it's useless to think about it, so why ask for it?Wouldn't it be nice for me to spend more time on magic experiments?There are a lot of things waiting for me to do, what's the point of hurting the spring and the autumn uselessly here?
Haha, just now Saber complained about not being able to understand what I wrote.Don't tell her.

Hey, if it was in the past, how could I raise a living King Arthur by myself?So my life is very happy, what do I think about so much, how can a mere broken mirror disturb my Dao heart!
Starting tomorrow, love life, face the sea, spring is warm and flowers are blooming!

Although it is winter now.

91.12.18.
Take class seriously today and try to get back to the state.

91.12.19
Take class seriously today and try to get back to the state.

91.12.20
Ahhhhh!so annoying!Broken mirror Broken mirror Broken mirror!No more Facebook!I feel like throwing up when I look in the mirror now!

Tomorrow weekend, do experiments seriously, and try to get back to the state!

91.12.21
Play cards today.

91.12.22.
Playing cards, playing machines.

91.12.23.
Vacation, play cards, play computer.

91.12.24.
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Connor opened his eyes and stared blankly at the familiar ceiling, oh, he is at home
Family.

After Connor brushed his face and washed his teeth in a daze, he ate his breakfast absent-mindedly and planned to go out listlessly to do experiments in his "Mage Tower".

When I opened the door, I heard screams behind me.

Connor turned his head, and Blanche and his second aunt Elena, whom he hadn't seen for a long time, came out of the fireplace.

"Happy birthday, Connor." Blanche trotted over, with a lovely blush on her expressionless little face.

Ah, yes, today is my birthday.
This life. Connor shook his head and smiled: "Thank you, Blanche, good morning Aunt Elena, you are also very beautiful today."

Second Aunt Elena came over and gave Connor a hug: "Happy birthday, cutie."

"I still have an experiment to do, sorry to excuse you..." After Connor greeted politely, he nodded and left the hut.

After Connor left, the women and children in the room looked at each other.

Blanche patted Ivan and frowned: "Connor, what's wrong with him?"

"I don't know, he was like this a few days ago." Ivan shrugged, then glanced at the two mothers, pulled Blanche aside, and said in a low voice: "I heard from Connor's roommate that , It became like this after he came back from the principal's office a few days ago."

Blanche's eyes widened suddenly.

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Connor walked into his Armstrong Whirling Mage Tower, passing by row after row of familiar and friendly figurines—sexy Gundam Angels serving as guards at the door, Iron Man in an apron sweeping the floor with a broom, Tiga Fei Holding a towel in the air and wiping the glass window
Connor walked to the painting room on the top floor. The wall on the side of the hemispherical top floor slowly descended, opening a huge window. Connor saw the snowy forest outside... He was a southerner in his previous life, and he couldn't even see the snow. I have never seen such an idea come to Connor's mind suddenly.

Connor shook his head violently, why do he always recall things from his previous life, annoying.

Connor sat slumped on the sofa facing the "window", staring at the snow scene in a daze.

"Master, warm the milk." Miss 2B in a maid outfit walked up to Connor with a cup in both hands.

"Ah, oh, thank you, put it over there." Connor rubbed the bridge of his nose and waved his hands.

Miss 2B, who was wearing a black blindfold, nodded, put the teacup on the table beside her, and stood motionless behind Connor.

Don't think too much, the texture of this magic puppet is metal, which can't stand sunlight.

Connor took a sip of the milk prepared by the young lady, and his mood became... He couldn't get better, he smiled bitterly, his heart was completely messed up.

Suddenly, a figure appeared out of nowhere and sat beside Connor. It was Artoria, today's Dumb Hair King wearing a cute sailor suit.

"Master, your condition is not good recently."

"I know, I know." Connor put down his glass, and said in a depressed tone, "It will be fine after a while, after all, that's how I came here at the beginning."

Arturia frowned her pretty brows. She didn't like Connor like this, and she wasn't used to it: "Master, you have something on your mind."

"Life is alive, who hasn't something to worry about? This is inevitable."

"Can you tell me? I'll feel a lot better when I listen to others and share my troubles."

Connor turned his head and looked at Artoria seriously. King Dumao's expression was very serious. She has always been so serious. Connor was surprised that she would care about him...

He nodded: "OK."

Then Connor lay on his side, resting his head on Artoria's lap.

"." Artoria opened her mouth, but finally held back and didn't push Connor down. If it wasn't because you were in a bad mood, I... Forget it, anyway, it's not the first time, I'll bear it.

Connor found the most comfortable position to lie down, and then slowly said: "Saber, I told you before that I am a person from the future, right?"

"." Arturia didn't speak. She was a little dissatisfied, and she didn't think she needed to interrupt here.

As expected, Connor didn't care, and continued: "In the future that belongs to me, I have another happy family, with parents who love me, but I don't have any younger brothers. I'm just a very ordinary person, except for one Apart from inheriting the good-looking faces of his parents, Zhang has no other advantages."

"." If shamelessness counts as an advantage, I think you still have quite a few advantages.

"My life is also very ordinary. Every day is an ordinary day. I like ordinary interests. I went to an ordinary school in the ordinary college entrance examination. I have many ordinary friends."

"But one day when I woke up suddenly, everything changed. I became a one-year-old baby. This kind of thing is very common in the future. We call this [time travel]. Well, I traveled to a world in a book. That's it, at the beginning I couldn't even remember who I was, and then I slowly recalled everything in my previous life."

"Originally, I have gradually gotten used to my new identity. In this world, I have a lot of knowledge that people of this era do not have. I know the general development of this world in the future. I believe that I can live well in this life." It was wonderful, to live a life that was no longer ordinary."

Arturia listened carefully.

Connor stared blankly at his hands: "How wonderful this world is, with extraordinary magic, all kinds of magical creatures, and many interesting people living in storybooks. This kind of life is not as boring as before. Is ordinary life more interesting?"

"However, until I stood in front of that magic mirror and saw my deep longing - seeing my best friends and parents from my previous life smiling at me, I couldn't hold back my tears. You know, all my life I haven't cried yet, but I still cried in front of Old Deng, it's really embarrassing."

".I still don't know why I came to this world. I just remember that I went out to eat food stalls with my classmates, and when I woke up, I turned into a baby for no reason..."

Connor's eyes became deep: "Then what happened to the original me? Did I die? If I died, would my friends feel sorry for me? Would the girl who liked me fall in love with me?" Others? What about my parents, they only have me as their son."

"." Artoria felt Connor's sadness, hesitated for a moment, and reached out to touch Connor's head.

Connor froze, and then relaxed: "Thank you."

"Actually, I thought about these things many times back then, but in the end I realized that I can't change anything. After all, I'm just an ordinary person, and I'm still an ordinary person who suddenly lost everything."

Arturia finally believed at this time that Connor understood her artist back then, presumably he was the same as me back then, and he also had no [goal].

"It may be my luck. In this world, I also have a family who loves me. I have Flora who has been doting on me for so many years, a grandfather who entrusts the future of the family to me, and I have admired me since I was a child. looking at my stupid brother. I have found my new purpose in life, and I hope they all have a happy life."

Connor's voice became deeper and deeper:

"But how can a person who is unhappy himself make others happy?"

"So I kept those thoughts that would only add to my troubles in my heart, and I just had to play my [Connor] role well."

"But hiding it in my heart doesn't mean I've forgotten it, I remember it all, I remember everything..."

"...But they must all want me to be happy, don't they? It's not that I forgot about them, I'm just... powerless"

"...I don't want to disappoint my family's expectations again, Saber."

"..."

The room became quiet. After a while, Artoria looked down and realized that Connor had fallen asleep.

Connor looked like a real 13-year-old when he was asleep.

…Master, we are actually different, your emotions are real, but mine are just illusory memories.

Connor, you are a poor person too, Artoria thought so.

(End of this chapter)