honor me as god

Chapter 946
(Three in one big chapter, updated together in three days)

Xi Li has reached the pinnacle of her life, free of worries, full of strength, and has an incomparably broad future, allowing her to walk in the vast world.

And another person's life has completely fallen to the bottom.

Solandelle, who used to own the entire kingdom, now has nothing, not to mention her status, subjects, and friends. Even her life is no longer her own. As long as Kino nods, the rejecters will tear her apart. broken.

Kino came to Solandelle, and after half a year, he returned as an absolute winner.

He imagined the scene at this time countless times in his mind, and arranged many dialogues by himself, some were teasing, some were caring, some were vicious, and some were convincing.

He felt that he should say something now, just say anything, just pick some words from the original arrangement.

But looking into those azure blue eyes, he couldn't say anything, thousands of words seemed to be blocked in his heart.

After an unknown period of silence, he remembered today's date.

Return to the snow on the 30th.

He pursed his lips and said to Solandelle, "Today is your birthday, please make a wish."

He and Solandelle have known each other for 14 years and spend every birthday together.

In memory, Solandelle never made any wish to him.

So, he decided to start the first time by himself.

This is not teasing or ridicule.

He is serious.

As long as it's not so ridiculous that it's unrealistic, he will be satisfied for her.

The cold winter wind whizzed by, bringing up withered leaves, and Kino and Kino waited for Solandelle's answer.

Facing the unchanging tenderness, Solandelle's azure blue eyes showed no extra emotion, as if frozen by the cold wind, only ice remained.

Quietly, a bleak smile appeared on her face, and she slowly said a sentence that pierced Kino's heart:
"I wish I never met you."

Time seemed to freeze at this moment.

A person who once loved you the most often knows better than anyone how to hurt you the most.

Chino had thought about many possibilities just now.

For example, Solandelle would beg him not to hurt those ministers and guards who were loyal to him, and give them a way to survive.

sure, no problem.

Life and death are but a thought.

Just a little effort.

For another example, Solandelle will force him to leave again in the name of making a wish, telling him to leave Dougland and never come back.

A little cumbersome, but not impossible.

It certainly wouldn't work before.

It can be used as the first wish promised to her in life, if she wants to use it here.
Then do as she wishes.

Anyway, there is a Far Eastern dynasty on the other side of the desert.

Everything is just starting all over again.

It is also possible that Thorandelle took this promise as a humiliation, and cursed him in a fit of rage, cursing him to die.

Of course not.

Maybe one day he'll die from something else.

But certainly not on a single wish.

However, Chino never expected that Solandelle would give such an answer.

She doesn't want the humblest prayer, and she doesn't plead for the life of a dead soldier who is loyal to her.

She did not propose radical temptations, and did not take a chance to change her fate against the sky.

She didn't even want to vent her emotions, she didn't even want to say "Go to hell".

So many directions, so many possibilities, she ignored them all, and only made one most impossible wish——

I wish I never met you.

Meeting you is the greatest misfortune in my life.

This kind of misfortune is even so great that I would rather give up the chance to realize my wish than to tell you.

Even if I have nothing, I don't want your charity.

For 14 years, it was a mistake in my eyes.

If I could erase one thing in my life, it would be you.

You are so sad, Chino.

So what if you win?

Whether you are alive or dead, whether you have become a god or not, no matter the past, present or future, there will always be such a person who despises you on an eternal time scale.

Kino stood in the cold wind, the voice in his ears became more and more blurred, as if separated by a layer of frosted glass, his sight gradually dimmed, as if the light was disappearing bit by bit, all the scenery disappeared, only the Look at those cold blue eyes.

A never-before-seen feeling pierced my heart, twisted and entangled in my consciousness, my body felt chills without warning, and rolled in my abdomen accompanied by an uncontrollable desire to vomit.

The corners of Kino's mouth twitched, causing the muscles on his face to twitch together. He raised his head and looked at it, trying to divert his attention to suppress the volcano that was about to erupt in his heart, but the more he suppressed, the more disgusting the feeling became. It intensified, and his reason was washed away like a tide.

Finally, for the first time in his life, Kino lost his composure in front of Thorandelle.

"Dog!" Kino kicked Solandelle fiercely, directly breaking several ribs. He grabbed her by the hair and roared at the top of his voice, "I gave you everything you have now!"

"Your throne was won by me for you! Your people are raised by me! Everything you eat and clothes are given by me! Even the heart in your body is given by me! your!"

"If it weren't for me, you would have died in Wangcheng, in the snowfield, somewhere! You wouldn't be able to live today! Tell me now, you wish you had never met me??!"

Kino punched Solandelle in the face, causing her to vomit blood: "You are a dog! Bah! At least a dog knows that it will wag its tail at anyone who treats it well! You are a dog! It's flattering you! An ungrateful thing, you are worse than a dog!!!"

The rejecters were cheerful just now, but Kino's sudden outburst frightened them.

They didn't say how much they knew about Chino, at least they had been in contact with him for a long time, and they were very familiar with his personality and character.

It's not that Kino has never been angry in front of them, but his anger is different from ordinary people.

His anger is often silent, without harsh words or expressions, making you think nothing happened, and when revenge comes, you realize that you have fallen into the abyss.

But now, Kino has no image of the past, not even elegance, and yells like a street ruffian. The sharp image gap directly stunned the rejecters.

Solandelle was kicked with broken ribs and vomited blood. She gritted her teeth and didn't even frown. She looked sideways at Kino who was furious, and laughed softly: "You look so ugly now."

Kino broke out completely, beating Solandelle crazily.

He let out a beast-like roar, and kicked Solandelle's body fiercely, with each kick either breaking bones or tearing flesh.

He stepped on Solandelle's hand vigorously, and rubbed it left and right with the sole of his shoe, a large piece of flesh and blood was scraped off, and the originally fair skin was instantly dripping with blood, and even the white bones were exposed in many places.

He grabbed a rock on the ground and threw it at Solandelle, causing a large bruise on the face that he had kissed countless times. After he smashed it, he grabbed her head and slammed it into the ground, bringing up a large amount of blood every time he hit it. flower.

The rejecters stared blankly at the crazy Kino, and were too frightened to speak.

It's not that Chino's methods are too cruel.

Speaking of cruelty, which one of Chino's slow processing methods doesn't make people's scalp tingle?

This kind of beating was laborious, inefficient, and without image. It was absolutely impossible for Kino to do this kind of thing before, but it actually happened now.

The rejecters didn't know what kind of past Chino and Solandelle had, let alone how he was so angry with a simple sentence that he lost control of his emotions. This kind of thing beyond cognition made them feel unprecedentedly confused and trembling .

Under everyone's sluggish gaze, Kino beat up Solandelle in a rough and ugly way, just like a child throwing a tantrum and smashing crazily, tearing his favorite toy to pieces.

The splashed blood stained Solandelle's face and body, and also stained the ground below her body red, but no matter how she was beaten, she didn't make a sound from the beginning to the end.

As the only female rejecter with a normal previous life experience, Lust is more delicate than anyone else. When the other rejecters were at a loss, she seemed to have realized something.

Lust plucked up the courage to step forward, and stopped the fist that Kino threw at Solandelle: "Stop hitting!"

Blade-like sharp and crazy gazes were cast over, and Lust looked at those amber pupils filled with anger, only feeling chills all over.

But she didn't flinch, she held onto Kino's wrist tightly, and said in a trembling voice, "Hit again. You will regret it."

"She's going to die!"

Kino stood there blankly, as if waking up from a dream, he twisted his stiff neck and looked over.

Solandelle was beaten to a bloody mess, and there was no good flesh on her body. She fell into a pool of blood, her eyes half-closed, and the intense blood loss had completely dilated her pupils. Apart from the occasional twitching, she had no movement at all.

Kino's eyes fell into a trance, he staggered back, clutching his hair tightly, let out a suppressed growl from his throat, and his breathing became more and more rapid.

"Hiss. Hissing" Excessive lung ventilation quickly reduced the carbon dioxide concentration in the blood, and Chino experienced short-term respiratory alkalosis, and fell straight to the ground, so frightened that Lust quickly hugged him.

Kino pushed away the lust with all his strength, put his fingers on his face and tore it wildly, trying to use the pain to regain consciousness, but he seemed to have forgotten that he couldn't feel pain.

He scratched like this frantically, and scratched bloody scratches one after another. The blood instantly stained the skirt of his clothes, and his face was extremely dirty like a sculpture with spilled paint.
Lust looked at her companions for help, but like her, these people had never seen Kino collapse like this, and they froze there not knowing what to do.

Fortunately, Kino's collapse didn't last too long. His breathing rhythm slowed down, and the self-mutilation movements of scratching his face also stopped. His hands dropped and hung beside his legs, and with every movement, only blood dripped from his fingertips.

After being silent for an unknown amount of time, Kino closed his eyes, and the space in his palm began to twist slightly. A phoenix serum appeared in his hand, and he threw it on Solandelle.

No matter how bewildered the rejecters were, they also understood the meaning of this move, greedily trotted over, and poured the phoenix serum into Solandelle's body.

Although Solandelle was beaten to a bloody mess, fortunately, it was mostly the trauma left by the brutal blow, and her life hadn't been completely exhausted. The Phoenix Serum took effect as soon as it was injected.

Seeing that the hideous wound on Solandelle's body began to heal, Lust finally breathed a sigh of relief.

The other rejecters might not have realized how critical the situation was just now, but she knew it.

If this girl was beaten to death by Kino and failed to save her in the end
It will not be others who are sad afterwards, but himself.

The hustle and bustle of the day came to an end, and Wangcheng ushered in an extraordinarily quiet night.

When the summoning time ended, the six rejectors returned to their own world, and the palace was completely controlled by the defected imperial army and fell into the hands of Kino.

everything is over.

It's really over.

Although this kingdom is still called "Dogland", there is nothing related to these four words other than the name.

It is now late at night, the sun is sleeping below the horizon, and the lights of thousands of houses are extinguished. This is the darkest time of the day, but there is a full moon hanging high in the sky, and the clear moonlight is like water.

The moonlight in late winter was clear and cold, and the moonlight quietly passed through the window and dappledly shone into the bedroom that originally belonged to the queen. The silver glow seemed to weave a soft dream.

Bursts of dark fragrance came from the lit aromatherapy, and the evening wind caressed the veil of the curtains, and gently blew on Solandelle's face, like a gentle touch.

She was sitting on the floor by the window, looking at the room shrouded in moonlight with her half-closed eyes, she seemed to be asleep, but still awake.

Suddenly, the doorknob was turned by someone, the wooden door made a babbling sound, and a person walked in.

The moonlight sprinkled little silver streaks on Kino's body, and he dragged the dinner plate with both hands, on which were freshly prepared exquisite food, a pot of flower wine and two cups.

I don't know if it was because of the gaffe during the day that he felt embarrassed, but Kino turned his gaze slightly sideways, and didn't look directly at Solandelle.

His voice was very soft, like a whisper, but it was enough to hear clearly in this silent night: "I made some food for you, eat something you like."

Solandelle didn't move, as if she couldn't see anything, and couldn't hear other people's words. Her blue eyes were still blurred and unfocused, like a doll with a broken string.

Kino stepped forward and put the dinner plate in front of Solandelle. By chance, he touched the little hand lying on the ground, and felt that it was very cold, so he took off the warm coat and gently put it on her body.

"I'll feed you." Chino picked up a sandwich and brought it to Solandelle's mouth. She still didn't move, and she didn't even focus her eyes.

Chino pursed his lips, and put the sandwich back on the dinner plate.

He looked towards the corner of the room, where a piano was erected. He sat in front of the piano, his fingers beating on the black and white keys, bringing a gentle and tender melody.

This song "To the Little Princess" was a gift from Kino to Solandelle when she was 12 years old. The most lingering memory in the past is awakened.

The moonlight is as clear as water, splashing silver light on the black and white keys, and the sound of the piano turns in the quiet moonlight, as if telling the moon about the loneliness in the world.

After a long time, the song ended and the piano finished.

Kino looked at the unresponsive Solandelle, with an unspeakable loss in his eyes, he gently closed the piano cover, and whispered: "Good night, sleep well."

Kino got up and was about to leave the dormitory when he suddenly heard a whisper from behind: "You played it wrong."

"Huh?" Chino stared blankly at Solandelle.

Solandelle was still sitting in the corner. She tightened the clothes on Kino's shoulders, lowered her eyes and said quietly: "You played it wrong. The last part of the epilogue expresses the parting between the two. .”

"Parting is indeed sad and sad, but parting is not separation. The two will meet again after parting, and finally meet again."

"That kind of emotion is mixed with sadness and anticipation and joy for the next reunion, so the melody should play a melodious rising tone instead of a tactful falling tone"

Kino stood there sluggishly, and it took him a long time to come back to his senses. He smiled and kept patting his forehead: "Oh, yes, yes, yes, it should be like this, I played it wrong just now."

He looked at Solandelle with vague anticipation: "You are more familiar with this piece than I am, I thought you had forgotten it long ago."

Solandelle finally moved. She picked up the sandwich on the dinner plate and took a bite. She shook her head slightly: "This song is the most impressive birthday present to me. How could I forget it?"

"I've always wanted to ask you, before you wrote this piece, you probably never met me. How did you write it?"

Chino smiled and said, "Imagine."

"Imagination?" Solandelle murmured.

Kino nodded: "Yes, imagination. I imagined a perfect little princess in my mind, and based on her, I created this track."

After hearing this, Solandelle couldn't help but smile: "Compared to the perfect little princess in your mind, have I disappointed you?"

Solandelle's figure was reflected in Kino's eyes, and his voice was as gentle as the evening wind: "It's exactly the same."

Solandelle looked at Kino and smiled slightly: "Sometimes it feels like time is illusory. The first time I met you seemed like yesterday. I can recall every detail."

Kino asked with interest: "For example?"

Solandelle: "For example~ You broke into my house secretly, but someone found you."

Kino thought about it for a moment, "If I remember correctly, I was bumped into by your maid. Her name seems to be Maggie?"

Solandelle nodded: "Yes, she lives downstairs."

Kino couldn't help being a little surprised: "More than ten years have passed, and she is still your maid?"

Solandelle smiled and shook her head: "I'm also surprised by this, I hope she can lead a better life, but she said that her wish in this life is to take care of me. She said so, of course I can't force her Chase her away."

Kino paced back and forth in the dormitory, his tone was quite mysterious: "Do you still remember that I was bumped into by more than one person at that time. And when I was bumped into by the second person, the other person was still very angry."

After he finished speaking, he tapped his lips with his finger.

Solandelle burst out laughing: "Of course I remember! Seriously, what did you think at the time? You suddenly kissed the back of my foot, let alone mother, I was frightened by you."

Kino smiled awkwardly, and bowed in a gentlemanly way: "I apologize for my behavior back then."

Solandelle waved her hand: "No, no, there's nothing to apologize for, it's just that it's funny to say it now. By the way, do you still remember that incident?"

As soon as the topic was brought up, the two of them seemed to open up a conversation box, talking about the past endlessly.

Memories are like a trickling stream, washing away the dirt and entanglements of the past.

The two narrated the past events that remained in the past, from the first meeting to the subsequent reunions, from the forging ahead to the flowers before the moon, from the first year until many years later.

The evening wind is blowing slowly, gently flicking the concealed window, making a creaking sound, the moonlight is like water, and memories become clear at this time, making it difficult to tell whether time is staying in the present or in the past.

Kino stood by the window looking at the picturesque moonlight, and kept talking about the past with Solandelle, his thoughts completely immersed in memory.

Solandelle was talking to Kino while looking at his back. Her voice was light and light, but her blue eyes quietly faded away all emotions, leaving only an incomprehensible depth.

Solandelle stood up silently, put her hand on her heart, put it on the place where "Destined Death" was staying, and walked towards her old friend who had been with her for 14 years.

Kino is still immersed in the past, unaware of the impending danger, let alone the abyss approaching, he has never been so close to death.

Just when Solandelle walked behind Kino, Kino ended his recounting of memories and fell silent.

Solandelle couldn't see his expression now, but could only hear his voice trembling in a whisper:
"Can't we go back to the past?"

At this moment, Solandelle froze in place, and the experience of walking with Kino appeared in her mind.

From the moment she sat on the throne, she felt a strange sense of emptiness in her heart.

Obviously, I have got rid of the curse of royal family background, become a winner and come to the highest place, and the road to chasing my dreams is in front of me, but the feeling of emptiness still enters my heart and lungs.

She didn't understand what that feeling was at first, but she just moved forward step by step, losing her relatives, her lover, and her friends. In the end, she had nothing.

Until just now, she was haunted by that unknown sense of emptiness, but when Kino said those words, she suddenly realized.
lonely.

That sense of emptiness that has always been with her is loneliness.

People who were once close to her left one by one, and those who followed her began to not understand her, despised her, hated her, and slowly left.

In the end, she was the only one who continued to walk on the road alone, alone, lingering on her last breath, and walking towards the end of nowhere.

It's so lonely.

She originally thought that the past is the past, and that the old man left is the same, and she can only be alone in this life.

But in the end, there was that one person who was willing to come back again and again after leaving, and asked her with a trembling voice: Can we go back to the past?

The entanglement in the past is unforgettable, but it has become so strange, tears poured out of her eyes unconsciously, blurring Solandelle's vision.

When she regained consciousness, Kino had already turned around, looking at her with eyes full of sadness.

It was the moment of hesitation just now that made the last queen forever lose the opportunity to deliver the "destined death" to the god of death.

Solandelle didn't say anything, just walked back to the original corner with her head down. She picked up the wine bottle and drank it in big gulps until there was not a single drop left.

After drinking, Solandelle wrapped her clothes tightly, leaned against the wall and fell into a deep sleep without looking at Kino again.

Solandelle's sleeping face was reflected in Kino's pupils, and a corner of his heart seemed to disappear.

He also has a story.

But there was no more wine.

(End of this chapter)