I'm going to restart my life

Chapter 254 [It's like an abyss]

Sometimes a single important choice can lead a person down a different path.

……

I looked at the endless abyss in front of me, among the countless snakes of desire rushing, the moment that flashed was the frightening sea of ​​snakes of desire.

In my eyes, what swims in this sea is not desire but pain.

excruciating pain.

Looking at the person floating on the sea, I gritted my teeth, picked up the rope, and walked slowly towards the Sea of ​​Desire.

As soon as I stepped into the sea of ​​desire snakes, the pain spread all over my body.

I wanted to cry out, but the pain followed me everywhere, and I couldn't even make a sound.

Terrified, I quickly retreated with all my strength, climbed to the shore, and gasped for breath with all my strength.

No, it can't be saved at all.

He is dead.

I gasped heavily, thinking this way.

"It's not that if I don't save it, I can't do it at all." While comforting myself, I hurriedly threw the rope outside the wooden house.

I crawled onto the bed as if fleeing, I was afraid that if I ran too slowly, I would see that uncle begging for help when I turned around.

Lying in my uncle's wooden house, I was still panting, trying to make myself forget all this.

Just thinking about it, I fell asleep at some point.

I once expected that the story would end here.

But when I wake up.

The uncle has been rescued by Ming.

……

Why didn't I ask others to help me then?
I often ask myself.

But I didn't dare answer myself, because the thought that was fleeting at that moment was too dark.

I couldn't save it, and of course others couldn't either.

Maybe I didn't have this kind of thought at the time, but when I was not rescued, I had already started to question myself.

Even I started to doubt everything I did before.

Why should I tell everyone that Ming was actually beaten for food?

Was there a moment when I actually just wanted to watch Ming's dignity being trampled on?

I imagined myself to be incomparably dark.

Because I failed to embark on that bright path.

I am looking for a reason for my undetermined dark side, what reason should I find?
Why did Ming and I embark on two paths?
Because I didn't stand up when everyone was hungry?Or was it because of my cowardly behavior when saving people later?

neither……

While thinking, I looked at Ming's smooth chin, so I subconsciously touched my chin with small tentacles.

Yes!

That's why!

If I was born a "person" all my life, then I can be a real person too!
All sorrow must be due to this reason.

I deceive myself so much.

……

The dream ship really appeared.

I looked at the ark, and the shock in my eyes was indescribable.

"Where did Ming go? Why hasn't he come back?" Guo Tieping worriedly looked in the direction of the imperial city.

Uncle and Ming are over there.

"Uncle will be fine." I said confidently.

The dark thoughts I had three years ago because of self-blame have been buried by me because of the uncle.

He has been teaching us knowledge, morality.

I am also fortunate that I can meet Uncle on this barren Forbidden Island.

If I had to choose between the cold Wu family and the uncle.

Then I will definitely choose Uncle without hesitation.

Because I clearly know that this "little prison" wooden house is more like my home than Wu's house.Uncle is more like my father.

There is nothing to be taboo about. If Ming dare not say it, I dare to say it.

Uncle is my father.

It's just that he never asked me if I wanted to be called Li Ruyuan. Among these children, he only asked Ming.

So I also want to leave here.

Because Ming and I are different from Uncle.

I can see my desire clearly.

What they want is a home and what I want is to be them.But staying here, under their protection, I will never be them.

I want to go out!

Looking for the group of people I can protect, I want to live as a real person!
It may be my chance to board this ark of hope.

"Let's get on the boat first, they will come over later!" I stared at the ark and said happily.

Guo Tieping hesitated, but out of trust in the uncle, they still boarded the boat with me.

I found the ropes for the boat from the cabin.

I threw the rope outside the wooden house on the day of saving people, and Ming took it to save people.

For Ming, perhaps this is a commemorative item.

But for me, it's my cowardice.

I handed him to the adults without hesitation, and watched as the hook of the rope plunged into Ark's body.

"Ming! That's Ming! Ming is back!"

Guo Tieping pulled my sleeve excitedly.

I looked at Ming, but my eyes were no longer excited.

Because I also want to be a person like him, and if I want to become a person like him, it is not enough to just look forward to it. I have to look at him as an equal.

Guo Tieping happily greeted Ming on the boat,

But Ming didn't seem to hear anything, and just walked into the sea of ​​desire for snakes on his own.

Is he not afraid of pain?

I think so.

Ming kept touching the ark like this, and slowly sank into the sea of ​​snakes.

broken!

I looked at him anxiously, wanting to jump down, but suddenly my body began to phantom pain!
That was the pain that the body had remembered from the Sea of ​​Desires and Snakes, which was the warning of biological instinct.

"thump!"

"thump!"

The sound of water falling into my ears.

It was Tieping and the others, they went underground without hesitation.

I stared blankly at them. I used to think that I was just a little bit worse, but I didn't expect that everyone was a little better than me.

I failed to save people again.

And people were rescued by others again.

With their efforts, Ming was slowly salvaged ashore, and at this time the ark also started to move.

Go down, or stay where you are?

I hesitated.

After thinking for a long time, I turned my back.

Just like back then, I didn't dare to look back to see uncle in the sea.

Now I dare not look back at them on the shore.

The ark sailed slowly on the Sea of ​​Serpents, and the Forbidden Isle became smaller and smaller.

I seem to be getting farther and farther away from that wooden house from this moment on.

"Ah, free."

"I am the hope of the human race!"

There were such speeches everywhere on the ship, and amidst the positive voices, my mood gradually stabilized.

For Terran, this seems like a good goal.

I couldn't help showing a smile, if I could bless all the races, wouldn't I be able to prove myself.

Thinking of this, I gradually cheered and began to imitate those revelers, jumping and trampling on the boat non-stop.

The foot stepped heavily on the hull, making a creaking sound, like the howling of the ark, or the sound of the wooden door in the wooden house.

We're on shore.

I was the last to disembark.

At this moment, I finally dared to look back.

I looked back at the ship and smiled.

"You are the starting point of my dream, I will remember you."

Then, in my horrified eyes, Fang Zhou transformed into the soul of the uncle and gradually dissipated, with broken wounds trampled on his body.

Do not! Do not!
I backed away in fear and looked at the crowd around me, but they seemed to have known about it a long time ago, and left with normal expressions.

Their indifference scares me.

The boat disappeared.

The rope also fell down, and I saw that the hook seemed to be stained with blood.

I stared blankly at the rope, it was no longer my cowardice, but the starting point of my madness.

But I dare not look back.

In this way, I stepped on my uncle and walked towards my twisted dream.

Once you set foot on the road to leave the wooden house, you can never look back.

(End of this chapter)