In Tokyo, I just want salted fish

Chapter 423 Extra Story: Memories in the Snow
Hate doesn't count.

It's the girl next door after all.

Uesugi Kai liked her eyes very much, they were radiant and bright.

"I don't hate you."

After saying this, Hanamaru Hanabi just nodded sullenly, Uesugi Kai didn't know if she accepted her statement.

Only then did she stop crying, her eyes were red, and she pinched the nib of the pen with her small hand and went around on the ugly shark on the page.

She seemed to be trying something, but she didn't dare to write.

Tried several times and gave up.

Just holding that book and looking at that shark.

Uesugi Kai felt that she was just like himself, also a stuffy person who didn't like to play around.

When she was in kindergarten, she was always bullied by someone in the class, and she was beaten and cried with a ball.

In Uesugi Kai’s eyes, this was all a child’s play, but the teacher was not there at that time, and no one of his peers was willing to go forward to comfort her. Seeing that the little girl was really pitiful, he walked over and chatted with her for a while sky.

This was all a long time ago, Uesugi Kaoru remembered that Hanabi had just moved here not long ago.

Up to now, she has fallen in love with staying with herself.

There was a little girl behind him, Uesugi Kai didn't know how to play with her, so he didn't pay much attention to her.

She is also very obedient, she doesn't bother herself, she just sits next to her, and when she is bored, she just stares at her two calves that are shaking up and down to pass the time.

Kaoru Uesugi can’t remember what happened after that snowy day, but he vaguely remembers that in order to keep her from crying, he started to teach her to draw, but his drawing skills are also very bad, and he painted the pages of that book until he was crawling. Full of their own grotesque things.

Obviously it wasn't such a bad graffiti, but she looked very happy, even raised her still red eye sockets, and tried to squeeze out a sweet smile to Uesugi Kai.

Uesugi Kai saw her pair of crystal clear purple eyes, and also knew something, she was different from her peers.

The two wives came back not long after. They patted off the snow from their bodies, took out a box of octopus from their handbags and handed it to Hanamaru Hanabi with a smile:

"Hua Huo Sauce, I brought it specially for you, take it and eat it."

Kai Uesugi didn't know what she thought of him, but the moment she got the takoyaki, she ran to her and said in a weak voice, "Brother, let's eat together."

You must know that most of the little girls at this age don't know how to share, and they don't have too many ideas, and they will keep the delicious food for themselves at the first time.

Children's nature is like this, there is no right or wrong.

But the little girl in front of her is still the same as before, every time, she will give herself all the things she likes.

Kaoru Uesugi is very curious about what kind of person she is in her mind, and it is worth her doing so.

One day after the heavy snow fell, Uesugi Kai had just finished his breakfast, Mrs. Hanamaru brought Hanamaru Hanabi to the house to look for him.

"Xiao Qi, Hua Huo Jiang came to play with you again."

Seeing the timid look of Hanamaru Hanabi at the entrance, under the entrustment of the two mothers, Uesugi Kai had no choice but to take her to play in the snow in his yard.

The adults were enjoying the heat and chatting in the house, while he was sitting on the wooden plank outside the living room, watching the white snow falling from the sky.

Said to take the little girl to play, but Kai Uesugi still didn't know how to get along with her.

I can only watch her use her gloved hands to pinch little people out of each other.

Among them, two Snow White men pinched very high.

Uesugi asked her who she pinched this, she pointed to the villain and said it was Dad and Uncle Uesugi.

There are two small people with long hair.

"Then these two are my aunt and me?"

"Um"

Hanamaru Hanabi finally pinched a small snowman, the size of a palm, Uesugi Kai couldn't tell the characteristics.

"Who is this?"

"It's brother"

"Oh, is this me?"

"Um"

Uesugi Kai held his face and watched her patiently for a while, but he didn't see her squeeze out the sixth villain.

The other five villains have been lined up by her.

"Is there still one left?"

"No, there is no difference."

"No, why is there no Hua Huo sauce in here?"

Hanamaru Hanabi first lowered her face, then slowly raised her arms and pointed to a small figure placed far away. The body of that small figure was incomplete and placed far away, only eyes were looking at this side.

Snowflakes drifted past his eyes, Uesugi looked up, and in the vast expanse of white snow, the little man stayed quietly on the edge.

The snowman's eyes were very empty, but it looked into the pupils of the five little men, and gave him a look of hope.

"Is this Hanabi you?"

"Um"

"Why put it so far away?"

Hanamaru Hanabi just lowered his face and didn't answer.

The far away snowman was lying alone on the white ground, watching people, as if he was not being watched by anyone.

Later, Uesugi Kai realized that this six-year-old girl already had an inferiority complex.

Kaoru Uesugi knew why she was like this.

At that time, she had just started kindergarten. Mrs. Hanamaru was pregnant with her when she was 18 years old, and she went to a nursery kindergarten when she was two and a half years old.

Like boarding in high school, her parents only came to pick her up every Friday when she was on holiday.

At that time, her mother was still in college, and her father was in the development period of his career, so the attention to her was naturally insufficient.

During those six months of kindergarten time, there happened to be a very strong child who didn't like her all the time.

Throwing toys at her is a common occurrence, often pushing her to the ground, and deliberately saying something that doesn't like her.

And the kindergarten teacher who manages the children has just divorced because of family and marriage problems. He feels disheartened about life and treats the things that appear under his nose with cold eyes.

Gradually, because of her voice and appearance, Hanamaru Hanabi, who was not very pleasing to begin with, was isolated by the children.

Throwing toys at her and saying hateful things to her are the daily routine of that class.

She is a child, and sensitive by nature. Over time, she has become the unconfident look that even she doesn't like.

——This is also one of the incentives for Hanabi to move.

When she was three years old, she moved to Shinjuku.

——These are things Uesugi Kai learned later.

Kai Uesugi didn't know his position in her heart, he only knew that she regarded him as his only friend.

Whenever there is something delicious, she will think of him.

A small follower is a small follower. During the period of contact with her, Uesugi is also used to going to the same kindergarten school as her.

She would often pull herself to play house games played by little girls.

Only this, Uesugi Kai really couldn't bear his temper.

Playing house is to take some small toys and imitate adults cooking and tidying clothes.

"Is this fun?"

"Yeah" Hanamaru Hanabi squatted on the sofa cushion, carefully cutting the toy carrots stuck together with magnets with a plastic knife, "It's fun."

"What's the fun in this?"

Hanamaru Hanabi's small hands that were chopping vegetables stopped for a while, she was a little tired from squatting, and said in a weak and small voice:
"In the future. After learning about Hanabi, I can always cook for my brother Hanabi. I hope that my brother will not hate Hanabi anymore."

This sentence didn’t make sense at the time, but now I’m married. Seeing her working hard for breakfast and dinner in the kitchen, and thinking about her innocence at that time, I can’t help crying.

When she was a child, she joked that she would cook for him all the time, until now, she has never forgotten it.

Kaoru Uesugi asked her what she was most afraid of.

She said that she was most afraid of her father and mother leaving her, and her brother had forgotten her.

When I was in junior high school, someone always asked her to help sweep the floor on the day of duty. They said that they had club activities to be busy in the afternoon, so they asked her to sweep the floor.

But where are the club activities, those students are nothing more than going out to have fun and don't want to be on duty.

Hanamaru Hanabi did not refuse, and agreed to all the students' requests.

More and more people knew about it, and she was asked to sweep the floor more and more in the afternoon.

There are fewer and fewer people sweeping the floor with her. At the back, she is almost the only one who takes care of the hygiene of the entire classroom.

The whole class subconsciously asked her to be on duty alone.

Kaoru Uesugi is not in the same class as her, but he is also waiting for her to drop by to go home every day.

During this time, she left the classroom a little later than before every day.

So Uesugi asked her why.

She didn't answer directly, but looked at Uesugi Kai's face for a while, lowered her head and asked in a low voice:
"Does Uesugi-kun think Hanabi is a good person?"

"Oh, that's alright."

"Very good?" Hanamaru Hanabi clenched the shoulder bag in front of her with her small hands.

"Very good, why do you ask this?" Uesugi Kai replied in a calm tone.

Hanamaru Hanabi lowered her head, her face was reflected in the twilight of the setting sun, her short hair swayed in the light of the setting sun.

She didn't continue talking.

Kaoru Uesugi couldn't understand the meaning of her words for a long time.

I found out later that my uncle and aunt had quarreled every day because of work.

The mouth reached the point of divorce.

Hanamaru Hanabi has been upstairs and heard those words.

Those words were very heavy, which made her lose her sense of security and a sense of dependence. She often huddled under the quilt alone, muttering about her favorite things.

She is a sensitive and lonely child, and many things will be magnified in her mind.

During that time, she was thinking about going home late.

She wanted to find someone who could speak her mind.

Kai Uesugi, who grew up with her, is the best choice.

But during that time, Kai Uesugi was too focused on his studies, and even began to study how to get into the best private high school in Shinjuku, and his responses to her conversations were too calm and indifferent.

Only when they walked together after school, the two would chat for a few words.

Hanamaru Hanabi didn't know this, but felt that she was the one who bored him again, and the idea of ​​wanting to muster up the courage to confess to him was kept in her heart.

Doing meaningless things like helping people sweep the floor every day is a waste of time.

Today, I took this opportunity to express my deepest thoughts to him, but because of his lukewarm, very plain evaluation, I rejected the idea of ​​confessing.

He lost the support of his parents, and was half-rejected by his childhood sweetheart who had played with him since he was a child.

Hanamaru Hanabi has always felt in her heart that she is a very useless person who is not liked by anyone.

Regarding the road to growth, Hanamaru Hanabi has always been inferior than happy.

She is an insecure girl, but she knows how to leave the best things to others.

When he was in elementary school, Uesugi Oki remembered that she called him his elder brother, and that he had an additional hobby, which was painting.

Even in elementary school, she has already drawn the demeanor and movements of the characters in a decent way.

It was a rainy day, Uesugi Kai had nothing to do, his parents were working overtime, and Mrs. Hanamaru next door called him to Hanamaru's house for dinner. The two families were very close, and his parents had known each other for a long time, so he didn't refuse.

"Good evening, Auntie."

"Come in, come in."

For some reason, Mrs. Hanamaru always looked at him with a smile on her face, and Kaoru Uesugi even felt that she was examining herself.

Kaoru Uesugi walked into the living room and found that there was no one there.

"Aren't Uncle and Hanabi here?"

"Huahuo is here. His father is busy with work and hasn't come home yet. Xiao Zhao, sit down for a while. The remote control panel is on the coffee table. Turn on the TV and watch when you're bored."

"Ah, well, thank you, Auntie."

Mrs. Hanamaru smiled and said, "Thank you, we are all family."

Kaoru Uesugi sat in the living room of Hanamaru's house for a while, when Mrs. Hanamaru, who had been busy for half an hour, called to him in the kitchen:

"Xiao Kai, go and call Hua Huo Jiang down from upstairs, she's in her room."

"Ah."

He went upstairs and found that Hanamaru Hanabi's room was not closed.

He looked into the room and found that the lamp on the desk was on. Hanamaru Hanabi was wearing simple home clothes and was struggling with a painting. She painted for a while, then stopped, and stared at the painting with her face in her hands for a while. The flesh on the face is squeezed upwards.

"It's time to eat." Kai Uesugi knocked on the door and shouted to the girl inside.

Hanamaru Hanabi suddenly realized that someone was watching behind her, and wanted to cover the painting in panic, but she didn't want the chair under her buttocks to lose her balance, and she fell backwards.

With a snap, her head hit the carpet, she closed her eyes in pain, and covered the back of her head.

"So careless?"

Kaoru Uesugi walked over, wanted to see how she was, but was attracted by the painting on the desk that was illuminated by the desk lamp, and subconsciously wanted to see what the painting was about.

"No! No!"

Hanamaru Hanabi suddenly lay down on the desk, her cheeks flushed, trying to cover her painting with all her strength.

Little girl, there are so many things you don't want to be seen.

Uesugi Kai didn't think much, and asked her instead:
"Does your head hurt anymore?"

Hanamaru Hanabi was covering the painting, looking very shy, her voice was small and soft, "There are still some."

"Then come down and eat if it doesn't hurt."

After Uesugi Kai said this, he turned and went downstairs.

Hanamaru Hanabi stood up, looked at the door where his back disappeared, her weak eyes trembled slightly, she picked up the painting on the desk, and slowly squatted in the corner beside the desk.

Looking at the appearance of Uesugi Kai on the painting, she murmured:

"Brother, will you notice Hanabi?"

Uesugi Kai, leaning against the door of her room at this time, noticed her appearance.

————There are some things Uesugi Kai doesn’t want to forget, try to use these fragments to remember her loveliness and beauty when she was a childhood sweetheart.

In the second week after the wedding, I stayed at the Kanagawa Seaside Friendship Club on October 10th.

(End of this chapter)